每次想及那傢伙,他心裡難免生恨。可是恨不了多久,恨意自然而然會被無奈與無力取代,彷彿不曾生起。442Please respect copyright.PENANAraXoQNkkdU
輕嘆一聲。442Please respect copyright.PENANA29OPilwBfh
442Please respect copyright.PENANAWWpsXeD50z
媽媽的身影忽地浮現腦海。442Please respect copyright.PENANAR5y4KitBuK
442Please respect copyright.PENANAc7azDnHhI3
她是個不起眼的女人,普通得他早已忘記那張臉。只記得她怕熱,喜在夏日穿寬鬆短褲散熱,露出一雙細長白腿。他常趁著媽媽在露台忙於晾衫時,從後環抱她的大腿,把滾燙前額緊貼被清風吹得微微發涼的幼滑皮膚上。嘻,消暑妙法。442Please respect copyright.PENANAWJtFv9x7qz
442Please respect copyright.PENANAZNcfMoyY1X
以為這做法可以持續至小學畢業,或是直到他世故成熟得無法繼續假裝天真。誰料媽媽突然拋下一句「感情變淡」,離家出走。442Please respect copyright.PENANAP98VylheVU
442Please respect copyright.PENANAmC3CqogV6H
他反覆思考何謂「感情變淡」。442Please respect copyright.PENANA7epLsGoTRQ
442Please respect copyright.PENANAPOy5W7twqG
茫無頭緒,直至那傢伙有意無意向他指出重點:變。「感情」,對媽媽毫不重要,否則她不會狠心如此;「淡」是相對而非絕對,若無經歷過對立的「濃」,「淡」其實不是問題;由濃轉淡的過程稱為「變」,也就是問題癥結所在。442Please respect copyright.PENANAOyPUBAZTUe
442Please respect copyright.PENANAnY4TMXnUn3
為何會變?如何變?可否不變?442Please respect copyright.PENANAo5qZaWg5ma
442Please respect copyright.PENANAOBi4Eg8SdQ
他百思不得其解。442Please respect copyright.PENANAhRnadFWAbf
再聲輕嘆。442Please respect copyright.PENANABiUh1OKDyM
442Please respect copyright.PENANAHbuguJLfKs
阿杰的身影忽地浮現腦海。442Please respect copyright.PENANAR6zA97ewKT
442Please respect copyright.PENANAcZD6KHe609
舊同學聚會裡,他和阿杰並肩而坐。昔日無所不談的摯友相顧假笑,努力尋找共同話題。阿杰唇邊盡是紅酒遊艇名錶,他只記顧商場即將在週末舉行的購物優惠日——妻子叮囑他務必買下保濕精華和優惠裝尿片。442Please respect copyright.PENANAijn0yWXKAp
442Please respect copyright.PENANAnVykrR4bcI
真懷念往時。他與阿杰一起為那些不值一哂的天大課題感到煩惱:學業、夢想、籃球、愛情、人生規劃……後來那傢伙教曉他——一切變幻莫測,根本不由自主。無力與無奈令他深深體會自身的無能。他妒忌,妒忌阿杰仍在那個未醒的夢裡。阿杰察覺到他的妒意,露出一個輕蔑笑容。442Please respect copyright.PENANAMtXhqiw6ia
442Please respect copyright.PENANAxDGUQc8Ie9
昔日無所不談的摯友相顧假笑,不再努力尋找共同話題。442Please respect copyright.PENANA0PyUj3gMIB
442Please respect copyright.PENANAFz1NNf6mjy
緣起緣滅,不由自主。442Please respect copyright.PENANAP0w2BqBlr3
442Please respect copyright.PENANAEsIRp9tY7e
既要緣滅,何必緣起?442Please respect copyright.PENANANfjsqjG11p
442Please respect copyright.PENANAwEZqQUJdvX
他百思不得其解。442Please respect copyright.PENANAVw2tZsBc88
輕嘆有三。442Please respect copyright.PENANAmJc7n18CJu
442Please respect copyright.PENANAU8IdN9HuTB
自己的身影忽地浮現腦海。442Please respect copyright.PENANA8xwZzd6Ein
442Please respect copyright.PENANASS8hX0lZ9R
身影有前無後。難怪,少有留意自己的背。妻子笑說他背部有七痣,像北斗,可導航。他苦笑,笑自己人生無方向。因為自己看不見北斗?只好抬頭望天。天無星,難打卦。無卦,有掛,掛心的掛。掛甚麼?不知道,總覺得人生缺失了甚麼。甚麼甚麼?不知道,難以言明。442Please respect copyright.PENANAJctCtvDIv2
442Please respect copyright.PENANAgcrMRuQIkC
鬱悶。442Please respect copyright.PENANAh06Rsid4wQ
442Please respect copyright.PENANAROwuQuVA6o
懷念媽媽的腿,想要抱抱。懷念阿杰手中的籃球,想要奪走。442Please respect copyright.PENANAcKG0LN2fYy
442Please respect copyright.PENANAu11THPBoKh
去抱!去奪!442Please respect copyright.PENANAhf0X3ZVgXW
442Please respect copyright.PENANAj6KOLV4ynT
抱甚麼?腿已不在。442Please respect copyright.PENANAh3EgGWqGK1
442Please respect copyright.PENANAaCZtYsVoaa
奪甚麼?球已不在。442Please respect copyright.PENANAUWOddKlpRJ
442Please respect copyright.PENANALLmXhR91qS
為何不在?為何統統不在?442Please respect copyright.PENANAnWoZ4a2UOR
442Please respect copyright.PENANA81llFfihMw
那傢伙沒有回答,繼續前行。442Please respect copyright.PENANAffUdtt01ZB
442Please respect copyright.PENANAO7XTvhYaA9
停下來!442Please respect copyright.PENANAOxd3cL0vQ3
442Please respect copyright.PENANAJRtythUPHc
那傢伙沒有回答,繼續前行。442Please respect copyright.PENANAsaZ0AeABrS
442Please respect copyright.PENANAKqITFFqgmS
慢下來!442Please respect copyright.PENANAPUob4xymKF
442Please respect copyright.PENANAIf6jVyA0jZ
那傢伙沒有回答,繼續前行。442Please respect copyright.PENANAvc0Lsv4EkF
442Please respect copyright.PENANAFwluyOIcU7
他只得拼命追趕。走馬看不見花,花開花落馬不知。馬累馬停,他累他停。回頭一望,是天不是地。何時開始背朝天?不肯定,許是拼命追趕期間、忘記自身當刻。竭力抬頭,盡力挺身。不果,只得餘生躬背望地,無法望背望星。442Please respect copyright.PENANA7pW0KhpS4a
442Please respect copyright.PENANAZhGSHpoarV
孫兒笑問他為何腰背變躬,他答背上擔子過重。孫兒受驚拒絕背負擔子,他說無法選擇,人人不由自主。孫兒再問何解不由自主,他道是變幻莫測之故。孫兒三問為何會變、如何變、可否不變?他答不出話來,淚目凝視孫兒。442Please respect copyright.PENANAKA3fYjlX2E
442Please respect copyright.PENANAa1k4rNZfzM
昔日的他,今日的孫。442Please respect copyright.PENANABqeM4Ukp3B
442Please respect copyright.PENANA2HTN4yJsCT
永劫,輪迴。442Please respect copyright.PENANAQEecleWhMn
442Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2d1STsMU2
不敢思,不求解。442Please respect copyright.PENANAJKKkFvIMQx
442Please respect copyright.PENANAXv4cpPROUg
嘆,嘆,嘆。442Please respect copyright.PENANAtUEWCoH7O3
442Please respect copyright.PENANAv7FGH6GsoA
孫兒問他是否有煩惱,願為他出謀解決。442Please respect copyright.PENANAshWVcYC4PL
442Please respect copyright.PENANAVriTpUId3A
他搖頭。442Please respect copyright.PENANAqGbU2irs7z
442Please respect copyright.PENANAnU1K3FBTLq
深知世人永遠無法解決那傢伙。
註:此篇會收錄於短篇小說合集《雜念集》第八十一章442Please respect copyright.PENANAAwYZWqlXCB
442Please respect copyright.PENANAsF6XRmTa1N