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Some of my colleagues 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn30yNBY0Zi
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTH5kfPNSDq
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3v3KVkPBj9
suggestion or hypnosis.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDYdjEn4Kd
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYHz2mw8Ez
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzoQf3mePN
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjC1HbCvZU
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvKbeGuJ6u
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlCoF0izSm
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbd0ttiwjRM
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgG4uZVDKf
capabilities.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHslW7z0Kt2
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzd1dAoOZFw
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David awakened. Not 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLed2kVM6h
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJF6hUzZuzI
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pzYS3i3ld
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVMza4h1I7
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ292cCZVCac
undamaged.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9EHr4z4te
"Only your physical body661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ngF6IgGrk
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIoKbmsFZ5
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcQeqkMNce
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhVI9ajvBm
A shadowy form appeared.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0bOfU6zCi
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95CbOzyhlt
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EnqgGjWkv
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZf86Vsew4
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTl1L0mbZS4
"Am I in the...ether 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrJBX1YfVy
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy194JnZMsT
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHcHpZh7yK
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOBS7Aqhla
David was tired, too 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYaUw8jFOz
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYcVo0c7iK
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwYOZZRuRE
The shadowy hood cocked 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FLRnmMrkH
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9og7NDYRKO
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpvHVfQNfO
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM87NKfyESA
more grateful."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBY0oN2Mwrr
"I..."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuiOeQg1Ux
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3uGyNaA8B
David groaned in 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j4oQTlFfA
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgy6R9X38Oc
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbNVKK5PJQ
falling point, that'd be fly."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalErNwvu14
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKu6o0MLfX3
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLjZU2u6ym
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmNCvkiTzC
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIxZjyZy8y
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzd5IF8SFJ
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z2F5nhaRP
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGLMWRt4So
David shouted and 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZREROu6Xc
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5Jsu65MGY
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bAEvfksQV
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJttBj1QXbA
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO4KmM0xEG
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSKpulFhpB
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ugurZpxZk
mist.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeIFkO0kB1
Jester's voice came from661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx19LrW41Ml
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7D131KoEU5
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5yf3EFdRr
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQzjnEj8s8
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJw83m6ekdy
creating a circle around Jester and David.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzpy9fSiL8
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXW4cP8yiIW
"Shut up!" David 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIwFIBQIJq
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtY0rB09rpx
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWu5qHUKl6q
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRwu9fKWT6
Jester gave another 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN5QhEL8UO
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkRichfuwk
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM57gtHayDs
afraid of the truth?" 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAVsDtndIn
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAUQPuEU06
"You're what? A 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIYe2sSBWv
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqvhjB9vhG
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYmX24HQLJ
you've done not matter." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDrvfiBtbt
The shadows completely 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWlv6pwYhD
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfcoamgtgj
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWS88JB3HO
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJgAUhBVbU
eye and shadows swallowed him.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMxs5Aybb1
Shadows parting, David 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qDgh1ZtgN
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wXvexBRiv
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeqKNwSaj4
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJcyJtFUfX
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z1q8BoFZC
mother661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQ7EIiYvnH
"This is my memory." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0lds27fnk
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E0f3YyRR6
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCIZYLeLWx
David didn't reply to 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8XuNMggHI
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrJa2iHzX3
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsujxU7MjkC
Unaware of what was 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKeoLPJk36
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tOFq4AROn
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDImNIUDEco
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKwaArRs8N
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9JJqPQwB7
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhAiv0iDk1
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHuQxhVhC0
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHiPaupbnk
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDonLEUInh
Finally the screams of 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocEfHfcYFN
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuinr55tG1r
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoGhh0Hp6d
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTOJSTZELH
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaHx78iQQE
the baby's throat and squeezed.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiqHv7Ue1U
David could feel his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpWw5IJml0
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Wc8iKYInw
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGdpdlgoRo
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAAmrHv4q2
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wjxNeFeS5
stopped.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3ZbSqcPPm
"Oh, nonononono." The 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEb7rKcjUL
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PmoNXRhmz
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXDv5SAhRE
"You who were supposed 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGNOOYIiM3
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlW1SQLbest
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAJC6o73WT
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4rmKuXRJc
Coughing David stood up 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4D3OmA3eC
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOXH0nSOjU
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvlRUVayHy
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPdRXwotiC
"No, it was a small 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ7YVIro4Q
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDyJ55zkhF
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2t3hawFH1
He was staring at the 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm2c5OVJRu
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnw5TMjWHU
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KSXPHUeEa
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2329m7SMXY
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiY0N4LFKXr
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEeZLPwnJL
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WhyLWyaij
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxL2dPeMcH
"I will!" Came a squeaky661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yOQcM5Hvg
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sae9t5vvb
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qhS2UCCG2
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVPcMfKjOq
was an adult.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iTuawUNDt
A knock came from a door661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZv62sWWJVl
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gqRWXCMDV
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMbbyB9y50
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUVczwZihW
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHFh4pLbF6
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGwyVbmRzR
being a bad boy.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwNLAYcipG
That's why he didn't 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvTSAK0bhx
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpAQpvyYIP
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBef665qtVv
"D..david" the answer 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiBIgV3z4S
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeDEo8f5c7
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xIBviWZUH
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTE6cyAZSbP
The man put his hands on661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK976Te6lr
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbYo7Xq6LA
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wCI11dNUO
David meekly shook his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CCfCCe7Bb
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eIoigYYMQ
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJINWezQHma
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILwDJ3WH72
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jPJmbNaC6
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBV0o4Om1d8
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJVHXWdOBT
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXbyI3vo4d
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxE5fIgpmE
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcCIuEugSa
Davids body.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvAhZy8gxN
Please don't. Came adult David's voice661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lIS9j2T8D
Young David was scared; 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvIGQt3gP2
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAe5ylnvTr5
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpv3mS3zQg
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡye6hEgfN7B
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAiZz7mJ1d
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CA581mcnZ
"Mummy, mummy!" David 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TMie0DSPr
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv50QJN1iqw
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHEa8Vp7m6
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡue6QSacgb6
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIcxNrbnQO
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuur1Jn0fas
David didn't even know 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHv1ISAk2wV
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhm9kIHOxv
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2T7H27FES
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadCiE6Qemv
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ63YRhuP64
David could barely hear 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTb1Aq3nKI
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvkioQnbPI
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIF8Gwqxmr2
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNx0gWY4Il
anger. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0ckSMpCBX
"There are more 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XJKMMY4tV
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRixQUv81Sw
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcYNdoMlB5
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQCDPdvF8e
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NkPnK9drJ
"What else is there to 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fMypKkAFV
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvJj1Jethe
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuaxAV6fY3
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdKgyH7TmK
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc9jx0Cx6g
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDakmeWgKS
floor. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEJvCR1hnB
Even the pain didn't 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aOeRqhMPi
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5nCeSnPB6
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZUgFdNQBU
everything would be gone.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEysfFXfSmM
~Just like that, give up661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajBjDx9NeU
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTYFB5clvk
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueaLOMoutO
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmByZ4nWja
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTn2UrXlFi
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBmnB3B63q
than this."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nbNuw5L88
~STOP! ~ David dropped 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wroD81HQD
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN2wMCjZJP
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6G686YdVe6
survive. Survive and live.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74AMr8h92w
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQ47k7Wls1
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNMVplkyyH
"Indeed." Jester 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtVZjUwfM8
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5aR2ql8Uv
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSzKXKus9K
like his own did.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NFE7HavIg
"Why did you try 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07kzyu7SBR
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TdpkU4N4T
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3r9tubEE0s
process the influx of memories.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0SqQFUoP3
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkljrfdOgT
"You expect me to believe that?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fUxIzvJDh
"Believe what you want."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5vx2GsmfA
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZKSyYIAu6
Jester chuckled. "All of661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCdcfxPdvv
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeA4HED07u
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIH3Kj2HXby
"That just 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIj6U47khLX
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDujrzI5C9B
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN0eedcuCZ
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygSzyVMmm5
David nodded. "Do it."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteCmjzDFwJ
Everything shifted. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZb5t6DI76O
David was cleaning his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqqkGL4doc
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pWxR7K5Rk
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7zq5yZNla
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso47sQkVZI
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFghMNuQGmM
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6lPUs0OzY
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA0t9S124q
His last one was just 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9ylFD0bqI
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrjt3RkQbN
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqrNTLB8of
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MSsQETyzZ
Undamaged goods she loved to say.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBD5m42q7kh
Right on cue, David 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIXyS5eOwh
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ek5EoPqgW
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0H2fvsd58
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbV1A1XoYAK
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRm9TmPk5tN
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WIpg3gvL2
Why was this his life? 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk71b8qiSA2
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOlliDXCyC
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu16OqxmHE6
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRWHM7aFHn
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAZZthWzwQ
vein trying to get his eyes. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuq3rAOGpjb
~Enough David.~ A voice 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxO9nr6PrVb
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DXOcDopcr
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQt9Ve9bd28
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFLSCJGGyv
and met resistance.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9LKQEbDA4
The scratching and 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ4rYCpdIZ
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0wHFd0PbO
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7rGjMPkRw
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyFFcNMLz1
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFDXCHXMXe
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf8caij6W0
Oh god what did he do? 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhR0jyKXdt
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspfMrwT61m
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdoNIFqYRC
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvgY1ovZYd
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M99Dt2h19
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzXrZ4MMNz
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK0ShMSIpQ
blood.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD0OGHf8Io
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxKYS4rHlw
There was a pause and everything quieted down.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TUN5Zn8tL
A boy named David just 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wOJjnRUvn
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRhzvyTBvh
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZ8MI1soLN
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8tqWae3hB
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBitD7DYgT
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxa8Nibwn0W
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSPRTt8528
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZ9dCQsPS7
silly of him.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAocYVznxS
Remembering his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx98PjvTbcq
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYHv7jtPW0
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMicBfoGGhr
table preparing a meal. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9G39RE1CO
"There you are David!" 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvd4GEN5ssr
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYZMx2jI88
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXOOMRiOxi
This isn't the truth.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwN0uKlmpp
David obligingly sat 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRt4IG7kNb
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPWI5U3Kiq
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHrtRZsDXn
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96F3lnYecE
A dream, nothing else.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6HmhAs8vV
They all thanked the 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQd59b0vzA
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNy8aVXLxn
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETeNghNK1Y
this lie.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDtc8SxudM
A lie that has to end.661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmMP4814Gv
David was standing at 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ793jOwfnu0
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqJgdvJE9l
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVD5E7z5bE
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lg6wP9wMJ
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzrLSdM4sS
Either way David hated 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2MWLaXgGG
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLkliR2qRS
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgwwnKFuYR
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlroXJpFXP
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Wlubft7pM
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0re5QHcdd
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAit5hZAuOX
life this happy blissful life?661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8rBfmiJIA
The answer was so simple661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS51PuvChXz
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jmtYmmV5m
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxM19IHvRc
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO35wutv2Bv
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfwrEVAyqZ
David decided to start 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgzFRzcoMa
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCj0urkPDsW
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFndtudZ37
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvVnKPqjdH
mother. "No more mercy."661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3p8lL82bpF
With the last stab 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUe9Yk3zWpN
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgWGzEeaVF
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast661Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYVcyRFOcY
emptiness.
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