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Some of my colleagues 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpZuGchgg9
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3WOqdGNnm
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9xYUfU08Q
suggestion or hypnosis.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2Mg0saQow
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJinEeojVm
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7l8YLhON7Q
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFecsN23kGo
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOscKDJl18
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRlEyia0VD
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeglk11X0vP
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBQP7HCfOs
capabilities.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoFEaDycyE
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9138NKzFN
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David awakened. Not 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLq8ngByp3W
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwVJ1g64T1
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡma7iH7Mag1
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEJHZOtYgm
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoONGrJyFe7
undamaged.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmDyyMkbrV
"Only your physical body598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuw1Bh7jYrQ
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmMsrbReCg
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5CSMDigs1
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtdsIBfUtA
A shadowy form appeared.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHkF2P9VoU
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRz2rY3jfm
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qfE2lJjfA
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtkfiLeCgd
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfseVVsWVAe
"Am I in the...ether 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRN81KmixGX
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHesvh5tbB
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8mUIsKIEL
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMIk9FkBVN
David was tired, too 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qKIlgQQKQ
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqywXukJtw
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4H0fVhySZ
The shadowy hood cocked 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFAoMcMcxg
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEpO0Des3J
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHse6QV3CH
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpUqs0bbma
more grateful."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22884BzTL5
"I..."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fnhuonjHr
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBb2dCBsgQ
David groaned in 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiy1SYDFwT
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FJRpq15AP
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rES7iwT3n
falling point, that'd be fly."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOseDTGYyJ
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu9zZIHYgt
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXV4DjUF76
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsh3v2LOr9
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVeCirDutn
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4pUE7wRQo
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwmp82xVW0
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzozsLp7NLU
David shouted and 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ526Wbvf7gT
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WYITFQD1l
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0t3J6tylML
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N6TTRPMHY
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26k2qj0DOm
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j2zuAen3r
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RTX5u5YXG
mist.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyOiZaWL6x
Jester's voice came from598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wDN1LKL5v
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtw5FOrIq0g
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2dFvzoHXv
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEU77aqQqi
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQKqzb0qb4
creating a circle around Jester and David.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKMCfM6Vxn
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExX2ZOuNhq
"Shut up!" David 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBdEbFiOWd
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOc4uUruki
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoQOP5f0h5
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoU6y1MKNzS
Jester gave another 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNO3rernyb
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfhJPf2Y5l
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQX04Stp8c
afraid of the truth?" 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaVHUGBOwi
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05tRmYZlkU
"You're what? A 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡer1qfirGMh
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3l5hRs9Vcc
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZIAhzkanf
you've done not matter." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TNwbDhOht
The shadows completely 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKn3H7zAMY
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi2hhsGwuM
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBy88bevzF
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBGU0m9YV2
eye and shadows swallowed him.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayq2k8fw2v
Shadows parting, David 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bjapqzJaA
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZycr6htTGu
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fIThOgf1V
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB60hzQfRd
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmI83OpMICm
mother598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16SvTihU39
"This is my memory." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMchEAqeWlA
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboUA7k0BIM
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9AXyt6kHv
David didn't reply to 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOzG5JzlsI
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBsf2TZhgN
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4fNX2pemq
Unaware of what was 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNv2mYejejy
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyIfhRJ3q0
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lnK4VAYoz
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRzDTABqcf
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchpGVoxF6c
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZCjnGxT9f
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtN2c5SKuK
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cmrREl06w
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDG8jjYK3b
Finally the screams of 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5XGbZpVga
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6OLTlnsV4
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GXpABJm0E
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNik2u6and
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuSdACKJNW
the baby's throat and squeezed.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwVBQ6f61x
David could feel his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9j81ycd8JC
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcaUk0FpS7
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQy0itybqk
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aG2qP6i0t
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYwhoJvLR1
stopped.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKWC3FEN4H
"Oh, nonononono." The 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwXWsA7SE6
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMO5ejB1olQ
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhX9ZP6mqV2
"You who were supposed 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iF6GNQPQ1
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizDUeVTJMn
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8jUYqPrqz
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0M1uvWX0x
Coughing David stood up 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6JwBtimwk
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zWDZKMs6M
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLR3dWaVO8
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQW0ZfXKHN
"No, it was a small 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8faT5PN5lp
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmUb4KOiQu
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmKpgLFeDa
He was staring at the 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmGXxeBABd
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPx3wL6QOj4
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZ5NcVUIuJ
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0LOMsqJzb
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVns1lVavTT
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarzLuA78Ww
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETE97BOJnm
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm9Yea3nl2
"I will!" Came a squeaky598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fEB9rxLBG
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYJvTxdtVK
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1saXbCCtLm
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFnPnsibPl
was an adult.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66pOGtYOxI
A knock came from a door598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvZ5pRk1oL
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofjJ44oVMj
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qOx7oWNpT
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7wAzDnWJC
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8pZeO1s5Z
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpPtaJQj9F
being a bad boy.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrwjEBjwSz
That's why he didn't 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ygwxt7Bpm
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnB3YBvVAx
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwN82Zgfsw
"D..david" the answer 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyNv3RzUgb
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgAzLt11R9
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Yiao2SqUV
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqFy4NORMl
The man put his hands on598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYO2ZT1ebDD
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREc6gjF5AB
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTCybgTEdv
David meekly shook his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKfjiVi6jB
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeekeFyqyn
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcB1RdsbB2m
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jAT283mCY
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4m42rC6t6
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVi9MZ9XUz
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGwTa5tC1m
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2B80wEzYTC
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeeJw2pPm9
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW7zJlTjQh
Davids body.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a2QSMZgfC
Please don't. Came adult David's voice598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLBPjPdLPX
Young David was scared; 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUihS9OS7w3
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAN65G11fx
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ3kKTAwLc
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnk26ZonlU
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwOiXmTg7r
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnZnOO2XiB
"Mummy, mummy!" David 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgR48g6JTw
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjJhykxw0b
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscllt1JEUK
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBCumz1Ssj
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtySgSAszWM
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFouJBkiNS
David didn't even know 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISQKxfuoHN
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75Ra2pNM7i
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO86BBqCZCu
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2djYOQMBfO
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsvLCZuIWz
David could barely hear 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoWte8BNJi
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYXWrKp6zr
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Y1aH1MJL
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1IDufyHhZ
anger. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWz98yZhAW
"There are more 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHmWdtn6ke
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRqrcdSB6z
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPyW8EBndO
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroBLcXwK5w
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjwYBMGMed
"What else is there to 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOtq3Pj7sc
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4J9JQfKjC
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKokwUlMLw
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEFmB9yFOg
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7gla64Cai
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek5NqVwAbO
floor. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWxb4RbJj7
Even the pain didn't 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXWXeYAfxq
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVR9zLW7Q5L
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsRP3MFsvg
everything would be gone.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSNrLPe0ff
~Just like that, give up598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT002yc45ty
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQkh0ZPwqx
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYCv9ZORcc
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6S4AUJorgV
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyaH9Rd5Dc
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXv2yUyaxeb
than this."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6zCzQ5tTX
~STOP! ~ David dropped 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTMWivMehB
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAM4LyuM9Q
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiY9J2IlvMp
survive. Survive and live.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8XakVyNLz
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zjV2oVfxV
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmHOCOtsH8
"Indeed." Jester 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjBptlBuG1
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNtAKZ0rDv
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuzRPvrHwl
like his own did.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNGTpZeZl7
"Why did you try 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZLvKmyOgS
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNoD5cZ9NB
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqMoIux1p1
process the influx of memories.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3pW0AjMi2
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaetwwxMum
"You expect me to believe that?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmGFTOKxRp
"Believe what you want."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfBfPjI96m
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQ5G5uaUU2
Jester chuckled. "All of598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7zNnMH7He
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcsRt12pNm
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3DTLn4jzc
"That just 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVz3HG9BNbj
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESvovRaKZ0
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8rGPrNeci
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCRR2uFjGt
David nodded. "Do it."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDJLe82ZzG
Everything shifted. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKc8hD0luhK
David was cleaning his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmKLlMVhf9
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsD9B0ni5pN
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxQy0HBGGu
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCMDcSgGmn
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE193YUotA
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX3Zp3ZmEo
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbnJlB6YZA
His last one was just 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRJW7WCQTT
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0OH7zjttO
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77Zy2S847X
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IjN06hoeO
Undamaged goods she loved to say.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSCkZnj0ID
Right on cue, David 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBG3RAEVo7D
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtETEX8BtT6
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhtXo5en9L
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKNtdI9sKy
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoET8lnjY0X
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsIFWpbCPD
Why was this his life? 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UcrRWgRtn
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sZ1iJxjrl
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5h0xKsDULQ
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZk3iB0veda
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tTrCCE1MV
vein trying to get his eyes. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDIiU8Yqly
~Enough David.~ A voice 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeK1IIdTogO
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYORQgxTE1
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOZbDEQouG
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNqaxjRKvk
and met resistance.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxS64AzkNsb
The scratching and 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeXWIrl5H8
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cyZVkIj2V
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaG7S29YifV
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcE2ysTMAUz
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2ncmDhgdW
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9vXq7Oqph
Oh god what did he do? 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2cyEV4T58
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeW0TnmGss1
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DGKHURgcS
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0KcwPzKAd
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrb55YZbtDq
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaA092pYqz
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguxQSuxXVW
blood.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyT94jihOP5
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbzXASJzRV
There was a pause and everything quieted down.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsFL5ObPkq
A boy named David just 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPbvUWNV18
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XmoIKiyxx
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9cEDrkuMm
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpfR0jHjSq
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywRdZvSCvf
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIo9FeRljmX
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVmsxPCWwe
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWVML5F8gf
silly of him.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDF3hPMcNt
Remembering his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h50r4aroa
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhS71RQn043
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSe31tKpIts
table preparing a meal. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSU6TNrz8zg
"There you are David!" 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhcZyqN9P4
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tkbqprUgC
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGKV0cblRQ
This isn't the truth.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5Nvo6RlDV
David obligingly sat 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp0VLbDv2z
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxedjTc8Xsg
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYzFTPsYoJ
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9de9R0VTX
A dream, nothing else.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8BKCxdTaI
They all thanked the 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrCF8RHNHZ
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJSzBYowpB
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFCqWl22sf
this lie.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvfcRmX1Bo
A lie that has to end.598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngJ7Ua3AQJ
David was standing at 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoBxdXezYm
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUkUm5o82d
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37Nx8r008F
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzhWcesxaT
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJTH78vqf1
Either way David hated 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpaGpUV063
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmaEpb1vcL
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDJop39jgk
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY2qGnUMNs
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXMafJj4qi
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAKWI1l7bo
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAFftUM1lc
life this happy blissful life?598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWzPzMEgFj
The answer was so simple598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYB2TVf0Y0
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwULT2Prf8
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJU1kaQ2jJ
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmLvIshVsN
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjccbK1ek4R
David decided to start 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtgdSgmsi4
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBxJcgg1Gi
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8axL2wmxAp
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViSmlKr1yH
mother. "No more mercy."598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TLDV5UnAP
With the last stab 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡol4nxgGdCu
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaq1bQLSjw
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiWHRq6DUi
emptiness.
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