Maybe it was jealousy.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAkTdIVQQk
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZjBWWqdnV
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oAKoe74ZT
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojOwvp3vGC
It wasn’t that.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZEDQRXwXe
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8hKYWvYhA
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhe85aU18i
Terrified, actually.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8VdTuOBoK
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6Z1FTjQ03
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI4co8ZZ7H
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwCwuTq1a9
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKocIB4ejj
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQcoJcGdgZ
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiU34Ex9mn
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLAX2Zond3
Because love is blind,50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGgrNHTXlt
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePSWtsStnR
Not love.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisp6LNY8OT
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkmDr6do4A
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5qb6ax75v
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0G43fUDPdJ
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROFwpUXjGf
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9yl7xvant
not gripped tight.
You see,50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWq2pJBd9X
I wasn’t jealous.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksP7mI4vhc
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aU2ci1NPT
The us we created in tiny moments —50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvM0oudE41c
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb35krZ2Og
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGG9jtbcgb
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDFSGaUeY8
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA9CKuh7Tk
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVke9Nk6kPE
Me. And you.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnMbvvw3ES
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FgO0UKU3t
Letting go, not because someone better came along…50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwgNq0yYFW
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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