Maybe it was jealousy.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZqSW82F1I
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8dCLQF5PI
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzrG4Xvj5e
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqArk7pGUT
It wasn’t that.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UyP6hnkoX
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6Ajrkfz9a
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4xQEsA2gM
Terrified, actually.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtDc8Y6Mty
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVO4mGNfDH
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3Q3AsagHg
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWuhyoDHgq
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48uvXbAkfC
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHmzYPEsHk
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ArVJ2YDwD
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNAJ3IRnuD
Because love is blind,80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVtrF3XeZj
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTC5UPpH6n
Not love.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NpySqcPqW
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡareUlta2Sd
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0U71aG0zQh
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GOrEJF5uW
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Cg3l6HHUU
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lOoRHvmGe
not gripped tight.
You see,80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eWJszjkwM
I wasn’t jealous.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrFZ2BlHrw
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWVkTBTXx6
The us we created in tiny moments —80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQa12CE9jVK
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzo4kahbK8
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXezI44Hz4
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63YO7jJVI5
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyMWmJBLff
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNVJKiStZe
Me. And you.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRkUAleLnh
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmifM9e7iu9
Letting go, not because someone better came along…80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35zLF4IVDi
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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