司徒辰看著平板裡真真確確的數字怔住,無法否認,無法辯解,更無法理解。291Please respect copyright.PENANAY5UEM5IBAu
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「我知道你最近花了很多時間在隊員身上,這是好事。但你忙著顧別人,有時候就會忘了留意自己的狀況。」路銘提醒他,「這些數據就是一個小小的警號。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAkFh97KOHQ1
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司徒辰苦思冥想,也不太知道到底是哪裡出了問題。291Please respect copyright.PENANAM8mijEpDXy
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每天吃好睡好,訓練如常,比賽依舊,他沒有感覺自己哪裡不妥。291Please respect copyright.PENANA2lNeGbbFRx
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「阿辰,」路銘把他從苦思的深海裡拉回來,但司徒辰看向路銘的目光還是有些游移。291Please respect copyright.PENANAj3VHdXUtE8
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路銘臉色很淡,慈藹地說,「不用想得太嚴重,你的狀態還是很好,只是我看你最近忙東忙西的,想讓你多注意一點而已。」291Please respect copyright.PENANANEPcCwYmQO
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「我知道⋯⋯只是⋯⋯我真的沒覺得自己哪裡不對勁。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAXhQpbEswEb
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他一直以來的生活都很簡單,除了足球就還是足球。291Please respect copyright.PENANAomLHdMmhuo
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唯一的苦惱,除了怎樣可以把足球踢得更好,頂多就是徐丹不同意他踢球這件事。291Please respect copyright.PENANASOjySSEOtw
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但他一直想著要向徐丹證明自己是對的,反倒成了另類的動力,也不會成了堆積在心裡的重量。291Please respect copyright.PENANAUVp3SGBL0T
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最近連徐丹也不再反對他踢足球了,他哪裡還有甚麼值得煩惱的⋯⋯291Please respect copyright.PENANAa3eunMadMn
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啊,不對。291Please respect copyright.PENANAv1myd8TeYM
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最近他的生活裡,確實多了一個會讓他苦惱的存在。291Please respect copyright.PENANApHyahtLsjv
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那張倔強的臉龐,還有他們不歡而散的場面,還鮮明地刻在他的腦袋裡,隱隱壓著心底某處。291Please respect copyright.PENANA3wWYHfT9lV
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雖然也不過是昨天的事,卻感覺像過了一個世紀般長。291Please respect copyright.PENANAdpW8jz0dNG
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周諾寧不消氣,也就沒法解決這個煩惱,只能任由它繼續存在,把那些情緒先擱在一邊。291Please respect copyright.PENANAek3y0MgrLn
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但他真的沒有因為這件事而消沉了。291Please respect copyright.PENANAUQqIJMXZcK
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他很努力,不讓這件小插曲佔據太多心思,依舊認真地練習,依舊仔細地分析對手的數據,依舊時刻留意隊員的士氣和情緒,就像往常一樣。291Please respect copyright.PENANA8meiHdXClH
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他沒有忘記自己的責任,也沒有因為個人感情而分心。291Please respect copyright.PENANADSvpoX4TAk
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他自問處理妥當,也調適得很好。291Please respect copyright.PENANArrAjAQNvP8
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偏偏數據卻告訴他完全相反的事實。291Please respect copyright.PENANAQMzzfpJv8O
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自己的心可以欺騙自己,數據卻不會騙人。291Please respect copyright.PENANAJt1pZ8xo36
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所以說,周諾寧對他的影響,已經到了無論他怎麼調節心態,還是無可避免影響表現的程度嗎?291Please respect copyright.PENANAzxhnIYzsGD
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他的意志,不應該這麼脆弱的⋯⋯291Please respect copyright.PENANAUsmQMVpdyb
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「這不是甚麼稀奇的事。」路銘也明白司徒辰為甚麼會有這樣的反應,「你在他們中間,心態是最成熟的一個,再大的事情,你也能穩得住,所以縱有滑落,在球場也上不明顯。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAshOGsOUfL6
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不看數據,單靠練習時的觀察,司徒辰不禁絲毫沒有鬆懈,依舊卯足全力,甚至還是球員裡面最有衝勁的一個。291Please respect copyright.PENANAqGCxBUoAEF
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「但這也代表,你會自己堆積很多問題,而可能會完全沒有人發現。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAh61sy8nRvD
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剛才跟教練團隊開會,他們也是很快就飛過了司徒辰那一頁的數據,不覺得有甚麼問題。291Please respect copyright.PENANAONeYeFfWOj
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只是路銘經驗老到,也夠銳利,才察覺到司徒辰的狀態有些微的變化。291Please respect copyright.PENANAv0XmaIBkvh
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「當然,這也包括你自己。」路銘認為,「雖然暫時不算甚麼大問題,但這麼累積下去,遲早會把你壓垮。」291Please respect copyright.PENANA8zfjN1leTB
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「路叔抱歉,」司徒辰抿著唇,「是我沒有調適好。」291Please respect copyright.PENANA6iMShLYfqN
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他的狀態出現了問題,卻還是自我感覺良好,就代表他根本沒有擺正心態,只是自以為調適好了。291Please respect copyright.PENANAkEVXx9wO40
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他在這方面還是太不成熟了。291Please respect copyright.PENANAji1svdGS0s
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「不是這樣。」路銘搖頭,語重心長地說,「這問題不是你會不會調適,而是你懂不懂自己的界線在哪。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAkatoKeBqDH
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司徒辰擰了下眉表示不解。291Please respect copyright.PENANAXY1LJY57IS
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「你也是個人,你也有自己的情緒,有自己的壓力,需要時間去排解。」路銘指著他的肩膀,「你這段日子忙著給別人分擔,把自己的肩膀弄得越來越重,卻忘了問問它能承受多少。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAy9u9XMERia
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司徒辰怔然,確實沒想過這個問題。291Please respect copyright.PENANA1fMrydtAt5
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「你從小就是個意志力很強大的孩子,就算跌倒了,也很快就能重新站起來。現在的你雖然還沒跌倒,但卻像是扛著一塊大石,強迫自己撐住腳步繼續往前。」路銘給他繼續解釋,「用這樣的狀態踢的足球,你覺得能痛快嗎?」291Please respect copyright.PENANAcskjYiflt6
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司徒辰半低著頭深思。291Please respect copyright.PENANABr6HhoFGMy
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路銘的意思是,狀態的改變未必單單是因為一件大事,而是很多小事堆積而成的結果。291Please respect copyright.PENANAqD4gcTgaGh
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周諾寧可能是其中一件比較沉的石頭也不一定,但他身上還背著隊員大大小小的煩惱,加上訓練的負荷,不可能毫無負擔。291Please respect copyright.PENANATKHFUvGX00
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訓練,照顧隊員,苦惱自己的事,這些都費心且費神,再多的能量總會有用完的一天。291Please respect copyright.PENANAumNsMtGv7w
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而這段日子裡,他就是在不斷消耗而沒有補充。291Please respect copyright.PENANACddFKBg6Od
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「球員也是人,一年三百六十五日都維持最佳狀態那不可能。心可以靠意志熬過去也好,但身體始終有界限,承受不住就會發出警號。」291Please respect copyright.PENANA5KVbrZtWqK
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其實司徒辰也不是不知道。291Please respect copyright.PENANAY7ivAfdtAn
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像是吃飯的份量變得比較少,入睡的速度變得比較慢,起床時感覺身體變得比較沉重,這些微小的轉變,都是身體負荷過重的訊號。291Please respect copyright.PENANAM4QS0nO0Gv
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他不是毫無察覺,只是沒有在意。291Please respect copyright.PENANAS3XlufgFgz
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「我明白你的意思了。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAaL2xJOaxjV
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路銘知道司徒辰是個思緒清晰的人,很快就能理解問題所在,「那就好,我是怕你出了甚麼事不說而已,你也別太放在心上。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAtLPorm4zkQ
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司徒辰抿著唇不語。291Please respect copyright.PENANAGsEm1GrdBk
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問題的根源就是身邊問題太多,他不把它們解決,身上的負擔就不會減少。291Please respect copyright.PENANAI8FC3sWzXv
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但偏偏大部分問題,都不是一時三刻就能解決掉的。291Please respect copyright.PENANA5YfCGY58DU
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特別是周諾寧,也不知道依她那脾氣,到底會生氣到甚麼時候呢⋯⋯291Please respect copyright.PENANAOOktLDAEWc
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所以他下意識覺得就算狀態可能有些不穩,但既然他能撐,折衷的辦法就是暫時繼續撐著。291Please respect copyright.PENANA96PYI7p9g3
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司徒辰沉思了一會兒,緩緩抿起唇角,低嘆了一口氣。291Please respect copyright.PENANAgW2Ye5QA7W
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看來,他還是得反省一下。291Please respect copyright.PENANA7UVdrbXfWw
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他經常告訴隊員團結就是力量,多大的事只要拿出來一起分擔,就沒有解決不了的道理。291Please respect copyright.PENANAN8KQY03O3C
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像是小海主動幫梁凡的妹妹找學校,趙承志他們二話不說就陪大田在醫院守夜,現在這群小子已經懂得怎麼互相扶持,不用他再多提醒了。291Please respect copyright.PENANAhXZMrUm9Z8
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他這教人怎麼做的隊長,卻是連自己累了也不知道,反而原地踏步了。291Please respect copyright.PENANA3DDb7629gW
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路銘看他還是一臉懊惱,搭著他的肩膀,「有時候隊長除了懂得扛,也要懂得放,不能所有事情都想著自己來。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAYKHqYifEEE
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「⋯⋯我知道。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAKGcDRlY37d
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他不是不想放,而是不知道該怎麼放。291Please respect copyright.PENANALo8CU7RGVH
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他答應了隊友的事,沒法因為累就隨便把交給別人,而他自己煩惱的問題,需要顧及後果,沒法輕易就對誰開口。291Please respect copyright.PENANAc2314uyeEh
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他更不想讓隊員覺得,他是個連自己的事也處理不好,不值得他們信任的隊長。291Please respect copyright.PENANAxk5aGE11n2
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「不用把問題放得太大,你一直都維持得很好,只是最近隱約有點疲態。」路銘笑著說,「放輕鬆點,多休息一下,沒事的。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAFUzNzPOZWH
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「嗯⋯⋯我⋯⋯會多注意的。」司徒辰很隨意地回應了。291Please respect copyright.PENANAAlbS6eFPga
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路銘看了司徒辰一眼,看得出他這就是不打算停下的意思。291Please respect copyright.PENANA9CXZfiFHJV
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「哎——以前你爸當隊長的時候,也是這樣,有甚麼事情先是責怪自己,又老是死撐想著自己能行,不想麻煩別人,看得我都快鬱悶死了!」路銘看似嫌棄的語氣,其實帶著深深的緬懷,「有時候我看不過眼,就把你爸大罵一頓,逼他把事情都給說出來,結果他不就一身輕鬆了嗎?」291Please respect copyright.PENANAcIKW4B53Zo
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「所以你看,有時候身邊就是該有些能為你分擔,值得你信任的老朋友,這樣才能走得更遠。」291Please respect copyright.PENANAPwFIuOzKe0
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聽見路銘侃侃而談,說起和他爸的過往,司徒辰微微一怔,而後眼眶微熱。291Please respect copyright.PENANAIeZkXYFbAq
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他知道過去對路銘而言是很悲痛的存在,是這輩子最大的傷痕,所以路銘一直把那些回憶都擱在深處,不願輕易觸動,更不會隨便提起。291Please respect copyright.PENANAjgNCrPtcKb
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現在主動提起,就是為了讓他學會放手。291Please respect copyright.PENANAfmLJ6tASJ2
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司徒辰勾起感激的笑容,「謝謝你,路叔。」
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