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Lena sat beside me in class today.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAzAG7iNCI
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She leaned over and asked, “You okay?”
I said, “Yeah, just tired.”33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1ZME8up62
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She smiled like that was enough.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEIoQj3kLU
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I smiled back — the kind you practice in mirrors so nobody asks twice.
It worked. It always does.
Later, Eli dropped something in the group chat. A plan. Movies, drinks, the usual Saturday noise.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsAuaeCfiU
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Everyone reacted. I gave it a thumbs up, muted the chat, and closed the app like it burned to hold it.
I don’t hate people. I just hate feeling like I don’t exist around them.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhd2MMJLvF
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Even when I’m there, fully present, it still feels like I’m watching my life from behind glass.
I listen to people laugh and wonder what it feels like to actually mean it.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDJ85blgu8
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I speak when I have to. I show up when it matters.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU70rjJPOHX
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But everything I say feels like I’m lip-syncing someone else’s life.
It’s not that I want anyone to chase me.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfWEdC1oe0
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I just want someone to notice that I’m drifting.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4RU0w2Rqm
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Someone to stop smiling and actually look me in the eyes and say,
33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0foWgF2VTb“Something’s wrong. Don’t lie to me.”33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GSZdCSBMF
But no one ever does.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmZUqpIe2M
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They believe the smile. They always believe the smile.
And I don’t blame them.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MShc7Kf0K
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I’ve made it easy.
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I left my journal open on purpose this time.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSBPIt0Txg
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Page bookmarked.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOawIlh6QJv
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Highlighting one line I hoped someone would read:
33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXY2t31lDjw“If you’re reading this, I don’t want to disappear quietly.”33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ha1x9OnI2
I didn’t lock my room when I left.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGTi4FCBPR
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I just want to see who actually comes looking.
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Thank you for reading. If this felt real to you, follow for the issue 3— I’m just getting start
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Issue 3 drops in [like “2 days”]
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