they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,304Please respect copyright.PENANAbga77WKN8X
all in the same breath with no hesitation.304Please respect copyright.PENANAyId4WEDy8m
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later304Please respect copyright.PENANAAvauce6hH1
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.304Please respect copyright.PENANA5jPoK6dkhj
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,304Please respect copyright.PENANA6jENm9SsfK
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s304Please respect copyright.PENANAPsl904BtXH
but in the end they still withhold dinner,304Please respect copyright.PENANABtl2jMaNG7
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.304Please respect copyright.PENANA6TezFrDZEu
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals304Please respect copyright.PENANAQCp4QMLhvg
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.304Please respect copyright.PENANAUwT12gSBSP
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch304Please respect copyright.PENANAKQLrkhR9tG
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.304Please respect copyright.PENANAdPXxyHpx8z
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,304Please respect copyright.PENANAFM6oGAjoOf
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.304Please respect copyright.PENANA2h4WU2N4Zh
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief304Please respect copyright.PENANAFRGxCesc17
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.304Please respect copyright.PENANA4VDssKaN6v
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",304Please respect copyright.PENANAeAwgZdbBKa
said it was all mental and to just stop304Please respect copyright.PENANA4PXa1vdYFN
but it was habits formed out of pent up304Please respect copyright.PENANAJuTdQw9EiZ
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.304Please respect copyright.PENANAKBkG4LOGFI
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they said it was all in my mind,304Please respect copyright.PENANATk7Tv3asjM
the anxiety, the stress.304Please respect copyright.PENANAiIgQ3JnDeu
that i had a happy, loving family304Please respect copyright.PENANAv6ucpOfxIJ
and i was perfectly fine.304Please respect copyright.PENANAm7bCBMYS8y
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i'm not.304Please respect copyright.PENANAKWS7aGdUwz
i'm drowning in my own blood304Please respect copyright.PENANAPg4r0xS20i
and choking on my tongue304Please respect copyright.PENANAAFrsVlCwDN
when i try to say so.304Please respect copyright.PENANA6E9fgBy6hA
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...304Please respect copyright.PENANAwl1gQPgtul
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(it's all in my mind.304Please respect copyright.PENANA3WU4DtEqdl
every last drop of anxiety,304Please respect copyright.PENANAXCwJANeXyD
i have a happy, loving family.304Please respect copyright.PENANAdLO0zpB8VW
i'm perfectly fine.)304Please respect copyright.PENANAZ98v4Xh0xN