they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,303Please respect copyright.PENANAOgog34cCrj
all in the same breath with no hesitation.303Please respect copyright.PENANA6hYgKEbtyW
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later303Please respect copyright.PENANAUlTW3c70Yu
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.303Please respect copyright.PENANAocBFydwpgf
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,303Please respect copyright.PENANAqGJlLjq0pB
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s303Please respect copyright.PENANATyuQG5FxOI
but in the end they still withhold dinner,303Please respect copyright.PENANA1VlWO3u7dS
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.303Please respect copyright.PENANASioVqPtuoN
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals303Please respect copyright.PENANA7jgiqBos8O
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.303Please respect copyright.PENANAd7XoX3B94v
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch303Please respect copyright.PENANABHKHZxXbWV
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.303Please respect copyright.PENANAgUiQ1yq2ZT
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,303Please respect copyright.PENANA4C6jP2T6ca
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.303Please respect copyright.PENANAYijqLpCINs
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief303Please respect copyright.PENANAYVeCz5AghP
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.303Please respect copyright.PENANAv5ybTbwm3a
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",303Please respect copyright.PENANA8Tqs4L4nFg
said it was all mental and to just stop303Please respect copyright.PENANAkSFzWe2IBh
but it was habits formed out of pent up303Please respect copyright.PENANA3Esz3IFxZr
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.303Please respect copyright.PENANA9V8sKKJrcI
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they said it was all in my mind,303Please respect copyright.PENANAHZ9WT3ycOi
the anxiety, the stress.303Please respect copyright.PENANAQw9SGnOUkf
that i had a happy, loving family303Please respect copyright.PENANAG4oo5QI4UW
and i was perfectly fine.303Please respect copyright.PENANAzXNxFtnlqe
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i'm not.303Please respect copyright.PENANAd2x25N2Ulm
i'm drowning in my own blood303Please respect copyright.PENANAmSQFUWq1XW
and choking on my tongue303Please respect copyright.PENANADrKEZz5GkL
when i try to say so.303Please respect copyright.PENANAVQI3wBIbCi
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...303Please respect copyright.PENANAfERArpPrVt
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(it's all in my mind.303Please respect copyright.PENANAAaeTLrLRfT
every last drop of anxiety,303Please respect copyright.PENANAIuA9T2RxJ1
i have a happy, loving family.303Please respect copyright.PENANAweNQJcpMsS
i'm perfectly fine.)303Please respect copyright.PENANAOPtYNc43KC