they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,341Please respect copyright.PENANA4rmQEdygmg
all in the same breath with no hesitation.341Please respect copyright.PENANA2PHyBKnIpg
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later341Please respect copyright.PENANARAqJG8nux1
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.341Please respect copyright.PENANAfdn8vWIHUU
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,341Please respect copyright.PENANAdrYZOgz4ZS
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s341Please respect copyright.PENANAXVeKfxo8OM
but in the end they still withhold dinner,341Please respect copyright.PENANACAq0nWrw6g
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.341Please respect copyright.PENANAObV6Kk3TTy
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals341Please respect copyright.PENANAoNENm76jIA
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.341Please respect copyright.PENANAdFPbViEmLZ
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch341Please respect copyright.PENANAGlPSJn2jLU
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.341Please respect copyright.PENANAAHUTtxXkBv
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,341Please respect copyright.PENANAQeXH7sWaRR
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.341Please respect copyright.PENANA91JEKtNEt0
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief341Please respect copyright.PENANAjBIgydW05A
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.341Please respect copyright.PENANAHxGO7lZThn
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",341Please respect copyright.PENANALeaNjR5JLT
said it was all mental and to just stop341Please respect copyright.PENANAfkH9TZrV3k
but it was habits formed out of pent up341Please respect copyright.PENANAywxTe1naRh
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.341Please respect copyright.PENANAvcjZQqkXVH
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they said it was all in my mind,341Please respect copyright.PENANAZiKcnxnS38
the anxiety, the stress.341Please respect copyright.PENANAy1WDsDDkEY
that i had a happy, loving family341Please respect copyright.PENANA06AxH4snac
and i was perfectly fine.341Please respect copyright.PENANAMXGW8PaI6w
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i'm not.341Please respect copyright.PENANAQEXqV45ozK
i'm drowning in my own blood341Please respect copyright.PENANAjbhrxtZW8L
and choking on my tongue341Please respect copyright.PENANA5uVSj38Cpw
when i try to say so.341Please respect copyright.PENANAaYAmSldcBv
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...341Please respect copyright.PENANA2MrTxpOiMT
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(it's all in my mind.341Please respect copyright.PENANAQUiV59fms7
every last drop of anxiety,341Please respect copyright.PENANASTqihSpE2f
i have a happy, loving family.341Please respect copyright.PENANAHXfQ0gBQQi
i'm perfectly fine.)341Please respect copyright.PENANAwc3RTeX10x