警告：以下內容涉及敏感議題及部分特殊場面，若感不適，請立即關閉本文。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UKaRkmaLC
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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0UuqeKpT8
「⋯⋯我超好的。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuW2WgUuINx
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6g3Caw43jd
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yI1tjWIGS
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanHXvXaaNt
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyq79FmUEvV
—還有很多69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqK0N2rv10R
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbyeDc5ZTR
—通勤的時候不太塞車69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZea51S4qxm
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡff4pVO5K74
—還有很多其他69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1TMNS7vIG
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciHd1nwXXZ
—還有很多意外的小確幸69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJAuxBMPKw
—房東太太也很好相處69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp8BC90G4n
—你知道69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmJzwL2QmR
—這種便利的小幸運真的是69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBSQHrqbFo
—可遇不可求69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18s26QHfpg
—所以我最近心情真的69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLlEiK7Yc6
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLEL7jnJid
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdArMgMSGY
—大家人都69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBR0xUBrrlj
—該怎麼說69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRFgiyHJTM
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbjExEIXv8
—開始變熟了之後69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LEh2UZG7X
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYCDjY8w2B
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb07KohoTK
—架子不高，很有責任感69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpQSPMwWGv
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHg28M1IEcH
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtk89M1lRHa
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3O9VkWUax
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY7FWzQ4FJ
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褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gotyN0U9u
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4IdniJM0s
「哼哼哼～」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRpFYyNy2c
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMF2fa0tQ22
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5zfHVFBh6
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoM2YFo7AD
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaMyoLARtm
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncGclPLZ74
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVAQhVHiRv
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4FOi0PeJ0
眼影太深了嗎？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMcpSKzBQ6
唇色太濃了嗎？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutTanx52DL
底妝太飽和了嗎？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1tFFqLcEr
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdDImHuxh9
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZw2P6QsaRA
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq4HoxDbUU
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqybqqIYy3
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUC4YKualWF
砰69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDgwui22D5
哐69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIasleE1U8n
⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBcC5cRACv
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「這件怎麼樣？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX1hxwb7BJ
我搖搖頭。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡer5158j5gF
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczqckvyvVa
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7H8mqHOmLU
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIj1T0BJhi
我搖搖頭。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4iGWFzxuS
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9tLrR4NbX
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LQMk7rZxN
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDLCAnj57v
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Gt2GZZQLt
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGDWndWol7
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1s3ERRBXm
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lBYWclaqL
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJ2HtkTqhr
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylRLyW7CGl
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8X8QHcwuu
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ty9bvMUAE
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z6ECY3DlC
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwvHR6elR7
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweJWaHdF1Q
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哐啷！69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYl2GqiCCUy
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYLIHTbrce
不，不是你。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqWiKKHCuc
不是你⋯69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyVm0goFwU
不是你⋯⋯69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcafKGxhKKt
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpF7x5ESqJc
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLQ0fBbVB8
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsR8Jhq0msj
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOoDbfXt5oX
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLo4RxA5q3D
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呼吸69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVpGnqBupI
越來越急促69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06C0t7Q72y
就是69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JfWRILM7Q
現在！69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8T21uI3AL
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⋯⋯69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMM6aAwU39
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnS7AZ388G
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⋯鬧鐘響了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTNcCeJjrT
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvzk9diEWJ
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我們四目相交。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rvH4oVaGC
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「該吃藥了。」我說。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYuJ2xbYnc
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ44DcypEd
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuGY6YCO9h
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBa268e2wDA
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLBIpvSMQK
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1kjJD9m3E
她應該也這麼覺得。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99Bw6Krqux
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQu2XEBAMac
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡticJcMkI8g
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBABMnyPbnr
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg5XUuDRLb
「不用難過。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZm9nZaaLmW
不用生氣。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlbixQWUQC
不用委屈。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1xJ7AeIFb
不用憤慨。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMiBBG2uUx
今天又是美好的一天。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQrzWVjQfw
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⋯⋯對吧？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HxoC6Oqhz
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