警告：以下內容涉及敏感議題及部分特殊場面，若感不適，請立即關閉本文。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNUO0RASUH
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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFvx9a1Rkn
「⋯⋯我超好的。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYoFLvlLb8
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0vq1uNJyI
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIa7yboUuq6
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR03Fd2hbcF
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKcRFaHx5T
—還有很多87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6P9dZvvBK
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQJzszMyXa
—通勤的時候不太塞車87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5B1fTXOM1
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfyBsU3Z06
—還有很多其他87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZ2sVIZaKm
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnyZbBeILP
—還有很多意外的小確幸87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRSkOf7dTq
—房東太太也很好相處87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCR9jHHMtM
—你知道87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpHb3nnBSi
—這種便利的小幸運真的是87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXSVCw8Buj
—可遇不可求87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TT4fk3siW
—所以我最近心情真的87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeZTjvCNem
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxYqDiQFNA
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9J2fvJwXZ
—大家人都87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntLBzBLZRh
—該怎麼說87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcvjNm4gSi
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64A9wvdSuG
—開始變熟了之後87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dArnG1bN5
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIlFNpkHO1
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgh6ni7f9F
—架子不高，很有責任感87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3COiZ2517
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwVK3v6qg6
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUragHe0CE
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I9alAXTOx
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wOmFNJYfy
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「⋯⋯」
褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iXVZMZjZY
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA8HghRLCM
「哼哼哼～」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6ql90UqOp
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfViSNTm2rM
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJqctc93BC
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUEY2eZ7e7
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREADeEsZsX
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgnDg4DLAK
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8mbEJuYtm
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVVfXWValu
眼影太深了嗎？87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsH9uARuocO
唇色太濃了嗎？87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCJIL0FpFM
底妝太飽和了嗎？87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4izuuU3dz
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjO82w8tBj
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjcHEv709g
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwu03f7puq
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9ElmLgrIA
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSstOnSex4j
砰87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSj1G0kwoP
哐87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtR4Dtafv3
⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcVszhbUiu
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「這件怎麼樣？」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr68fiiFZy5
我搖搖頭。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvPPl0rVYL
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFLDFWuZDs
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhDdAhZVK0
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NmJ4UKgdy
我搖搖頭。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nJv6lqHeH
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VxBXf5r07
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTp441di7K
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqSbq5gFTh
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pdqLBxB74
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejWDyS4nuG
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPWtQHnXM2
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0R0zpcjIy
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSDQtqd5vV
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbeLQLKHSU
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt49SP2PIB3
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDKw5EK1kP
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvAZj6H48p
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrlYYBRAFH
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdqDDevE9R
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哐啷！87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Alt8Ec4A0
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YmfTdY4iS
不，不是你。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFnVUW130K
不是你⋯87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCyER06D4m
不是你⋯⋯87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZK5RqwZys
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSsBf3jdpf
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmz57ER1tsj
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5FXMz48lK
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVD4UvRTEQz
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRx95pjlM7
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呼吸87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WRHR5g2n5
越來越急促87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSub8JXPbNV
就是87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSyvHEWukv
現在！87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4CjuGX7yE
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⋯⋯87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0j7SVPkIh
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNx17vlRN2Q
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⋯鬧鐘響了。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREFDf70L9J
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BSjBBTRs2
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我們四目相交。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ze3AUpDDJ
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「該吃藥了。」我說。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaooYRK0uqv
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyQJ2kNEkz
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3720elfxIG
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QHRRY9iXT
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HowbBlagN
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciTn8pIfUz
她應該也這麼覺得。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3kB4p5gix
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaFIHlE7eW
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvZgva4Lef
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0tN8Qd82p
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVI0tPgzK9
「不用難過。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmnoFcA46v
不用生氣。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhI4LH43wVA
不用委屈。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAseNjMUt55
不用憤慨。87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9PFiMuIHc
今天又是美好的一天。」87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48HPCC5TkR
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⋯⋯對吧？87Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd57cwCIAa6
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