I'm a horrible person.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4op370udw
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F7sMpKwJP
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGUYKPYr2M
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdw6Um3CoKa
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBIwWzuJT1
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2JcGWikDO
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSvb5GvTkd
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix3PNCFIGR
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHXp60wz1U
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDZjf2dsBm
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aUrioSuf7
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeh7pfP0m3y
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOROpTcLwL
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeQbWWML4b
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uns4ssRh2
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcSx8jPvc1
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ81kkwO7Vc
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HERlucwoX
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwt6ScFDUmZ
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj69gnfrIBo
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEQn8p961W
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlu1rvK1rQG
Of being lonely.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zXHrV7P7L
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQSxrqxTKg
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So I take comfort in my own world.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYjYrtS0yC
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOphm1ExBR
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93MQJodpFS
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8R79NcMCD
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwHMLcVFm3
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwD1QsnKIg0
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTinyGECHVa
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhoqH9lOKJ
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJQOpVIT3p
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eLWZWdgg6
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmCyAu2oeR
I shouldn't even have been born.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8guTdqaP2t
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.380Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12jaq05Cyj
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