I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDsyEACCez
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8aMudUq4s
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjX0z4PBRP
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAbves07uF
to pick them up and set them back down.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7M23EzRN0t
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2LHMe8FUk
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUc84al63FR
like a normal person, thank you.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfZfeTptXq
I try.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgAUlENwhn
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAdvxLNdrn
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfg6Nvtw7W
just barely making it from one place to another717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1b9gRKgLd8
without damage.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWisvZp6Dq4
Just this Wednesday I was driving home717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtODRJaGIi5
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMt6p8MJyrG
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1sjDHlrTa
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTjnsO1HcL
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFBX7W80FE
for those I’m not sure how to help717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQRmELyLLd
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVye34V2NT
And while I was driving down the highway717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxs3C3jIS3G
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvDavhsCCh
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpixZtyROM
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7Ceo9KUhX
collide with the wall, break through and destroy717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3G6DXpjMo
the other side.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWNmPIiTHq
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFHYTjuQv7
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPtKTQQDul
harm anyone else in the process. But I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5Tp2ZbNto
didn’t do either, even though I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRwVIkZ8EQ
got so scared for a minute717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmHxcj8Lx0
that I would.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWr9RGQSMH
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8tcIYRmh8
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJFza1g17A
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN3blbXPhs
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA0kY1JBjf
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNk0rStNDE
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyydOq6rULv
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2BAisK8FH
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoNEYpBsSl
draw blood, but it was the first time717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PTmBT1n0o
I had allowed myself to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2Ir0ygM3y
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGuAi3Vpm7
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmYv163iFM
actually reach out and go through with it717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxRkH6i4HG
I think because I’m afraid of not existing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ93VbzuFzG
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEl3xWvQ2G
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvAGPTkvb1
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdNKG19bbD
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeriHomBUj4
and give up. I have thought about dying every day717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wovlNYjpo
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPpCWvK2jq
go through with it.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs23Drx1bcC
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg61cCS0Fvs
for people to care about me when they should717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxLzhXu4jO
care about me on their own. I often think that717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70lX0YvHgs
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQjokOEDtE
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcC7CMObhj
She often hurts me more than she improves my life717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJngPo6tZ9
but I’m too afraid to say anything because717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHxweEEeRA
I need her. I need her to exist717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGUg310NcA
in my existence, and I need her to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2syjECxUX
be by my side.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmIoglNMCO
But I’m tired.
I’m tired717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJm2J0D5SHi
of being tired717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfX99T0r1s
in this tiring life.
