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他在床上徐徐張眼。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRBTLje7h9
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床褥太軟，腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QD2QZOWE3
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暈眩冉退，目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者，他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqKJjyFXjy
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嗯。醫院。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRipeIScxwq
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接受醫生的檢查，證實無恙後，獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄，已通知兒子和媳婦，只待他們前來接送。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0Y2CHKCSD
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醫生離開後，護士也去忙別的。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wa0mpx6pQ
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他呆坐床上，默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回，感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀，總得要到醫院走幾趟，實屬平常不過的事情，對吧？551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTboY93ad4
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如他所料，兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgnWP3DcCN
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱，熱昏了。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uDBdVtI5T
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「那就多待在家裡避暑，不要外出四處走動。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wRwmKvSo0
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「知道。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAaOvq7jJl
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院，在街邊截下的士，直驅住所。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuL5j9LDWr
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車廂裡，二人不發一言，各自對著窗外景物發愣。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkduo0gMwcg
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沒有怨氣或鬱結，只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzZCAngSK5
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡，無窮。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEYbdwPuEE
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兒子倏忽開口，神色惘然。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSWzv9zX9Z
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「我有末期肝癌，剩半年壽命。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9THZLeZ3A
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「她知道了沒？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVTIVhe90v
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「不打算告訴她。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJzXg5JljE
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHwV9ONUdg
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兒子笑而不語。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpBdx8MoZq
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他愣住片刻，良久才道：「明白。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXQ3F7Kko4
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊，以示感謝。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9I7SFaKFYK
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲，逕自到浴室洗澡去。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1IDbpln2P
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蒸氣瀰漫，看得見，抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始，也抓不著終結。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwK2xpG264
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來，沒能選擇長大與否，沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛，沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死，全是沒能選擇的。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttFcYMXt8j
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翌日，兒子和媳婦如常上班，孫兒如常上學，家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9s31frIS9
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他決定到公園走走。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNm5AXlsj0
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樹影婆娑，鳥叫蟲鳴。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUFUzOOojL
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此樹是否去年那樹？此鳥是否去年那鳥？此蟲是否去年那蟲？要緊，不要緊。在意，沒能在意。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5jfzNav04
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幽幽踏步，皆因內心焦躁。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vKrv9R9Aj
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來到涼亭，棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他，感到難過。他認為無論難過與否，該死的時候總得要死。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV59csw7Bi4
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全場一片默然。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu5TpbXKMd
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8etXkodi2
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不要問為何。不要問感受。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn11Idpkehc
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiK2cE5D3Cn
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正午，他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午，孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦，他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間，一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上，被匆匆推送入急症室深處。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSlNWpRm1u
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsQJ9KuWtl
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站，然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久，醫生步出急症室，宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1ttdbIbbM
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLOUa5ICVj
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然，皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaEKSDBdpz
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「爺爺，很熱啊！」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66tvxQQKdN
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切，他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQF1Lcj8zV
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晚餐後，兒子在露台抽菸，媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子，五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟，此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQwQLwmZ1V
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跳跳跳，有節奏地跳個不停，像心臟。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvhno61X18
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心臟停止跳動當刻，棋友有何感受？掛念未完的棋局？掛念急症室外的男女親友？551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NQePc8ABS
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台，看著兒子呼出個個煙圈，圈圈復圈圈，冉升消散不復見。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeuf5IAmvY
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不復見。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XyxN4qxBE
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他莫名的被深深憾動。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMerMIGKDZ
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走到兒子身邊，告知棋友的死訊。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLv2WapNRHm
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毋須明言，兒子已猜測到他的用意。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNZx3ELrer
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「我不怕死。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7QERSoSeA
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「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕，只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zYeozEEaF
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「你有沒有想要完成的事？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJT14G9MNRM
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「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd69dOW348O
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「她的叮囑？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ghW9sG409
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「不。她離開得太突然，我沒機會問她，只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0I2DxRI51l
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「別傻！她不願看見你耿耿於懷！」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0r6Ii9FPV
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「她沒這麼說。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIKIt5L7tm
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兒子苦笑，笑他彆扭。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuKx6VWoaa
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再次不了了之？他以為是，直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vnjSWGBsn
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無論大家怎樣勸說，兒子依然不願接受治療，堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfYIpXH2Iz
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半年後，兒子沒死去。一年後，兒子仍活著。三年半後，兒子依然沒斷氣。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QZoFtaWWa
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問何解。醫生說原因不明，但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzDODIHS1V
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離開醫院、歸家路上，兒子和他拐到公園散步去。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKAAwY5VRu
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樹影婆娑，鳥叫蟲鳴。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPRSDAx5aS
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「你多活了三年半。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uXeXjNsHC
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「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ382whjkz7N
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「想繼續吃？」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8ATqHp1nU
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「是。期待下一個夏天。」551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMP2op7qED
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兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒，希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子，在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後，才重回職場繼續拼搏。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozyB5awNcU
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他為兒子衷心高興著，亦感謝上蒼的好生之德，沒有帶走……551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdC7bdM6Zg
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兒子呢？551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVf6ilJlr2H
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悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhauCRunw4w
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啊！記起來了。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZhsPqnFl4
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兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外，下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊，沒能重回職場，沒能享受期待已久的夏日。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPSLQ0PFtR
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果然。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhruDczUWZj
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不努力走下去，就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnc43TuLqiU
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婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中，他繼續走。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QOaGuv494
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。551Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHx8O0U24dx
