「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,658Please respect copyright.PENANAUyr2Ee5CRN
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,658Please respect copyright.PENANAGhWrBixwlS
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,658Please respect copyright.PENANAa0PTiuOrZo
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幼小我的父母就離異,658Please respect copyright.PENANAvoaKdxFEoO
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,658Please respect copyright.PENANAolB1aAzBeR
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對母親的記憶還是有,658Please respect copyright.PENANAEhNU1d4T27
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記得她很常酗酒,658Please respect copyright.PENANAYYgeOyujE8
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後來的日子,658Please respect copyright.PENANAAR9g9uQMzY
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,658Please respect copyright.PENANAvDhJi8d0CJ
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忙於工作的他,658Please respect copyright.PENANAxcz6oRKFgY
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,658Please respect copyright.PENANAHh3iP9Tdqx
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到了上課時間再直接上課,658Please respect copyright.PENANAuojNrcn7rb
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,658Please respect copyright.PENANAhMIDkcEoTo
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,658Please respect copyright.PENANA7mwiKAaPc5
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,658Please respect copyright.PENANAn0fNyRqyaY
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,658Please respect copyright.PENANAtXUMCByIMe
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,658Please respect copyright.PENANAm7d9JZl0ws
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父親工作的地方不一定,658Please respect copyright.PENANAlbkyAzhZoU
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輾轉的換了三所小學,658Please respect copyright.PENANA16fgWqYNyZ
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,658Please respect copyright.PENANAKI3RrtAYmy
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他開始會喜怒無常,658Please respect copyright.PENANA9vdDC7XsEu
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,658Please respect copyright.PENANAWKEHZ338KZ
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,658Please respect copyright.PENANAzKYNjzgpN6
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很小我就與異性交往,658Please respect copyright.PENANA9rlZbgd1Yk
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,658Please respect copyright.PENANAP3LxYOdpRi
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,658Please respect copyright.PENANALBOneq9HGk
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,658Please respect copyright.PENANAfSQrW1zUgQ
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我會睡在工地,658Please respect copyright.PENANAR1GajHpVkK
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,658Please respect copyright.PENANAH20Rg2CEgw
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,658Please respect copyright.PENANAS5RnwyIj5Y
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,658Please respect copyright.PENANAmOshRJJEe6
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他開始會講貶低的話語,658Please respect copyright.PENANAUWyfTIHq2N
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那些原本用來工作的用具,658Please respect copyright.PENANAlxlm26V6pA
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,658Please respect copyright.PENANAyMV7vgP2Me
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」658Please respect copyright.PENANAaK1RZiORWg
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,658Please respect copyright.PENANAUKNike3J3R
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,658Please respect copyright.PENANAciEq1P5u2K
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要我轉告給老師,658Please respect copyright.PENANAtykxZ5w5CB
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」658Please respect copyright.PENANAfSm816rMd8
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,658Please respect copyright.PENANAQkH8TxjCVP
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,658Please respect copyright.PENANAA81pOLaiAI
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,658Please respect copyright.PENANAohb98AVSzh
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細細去回想每個片段,658Please respect copyright.PENANAIgJ8eop8Gl
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,658Please respect copyright.PENANAQeutTkHYy3
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,658Please respect copyright.PENANAcPvoHBqrG4
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,658Please respect copyright.PENANAgyUQWukA9R
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」658Please respect copyright.PENANAc9m2RALjRk
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,658Please respect copyright.PENANARb9ZjD61xz
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,658Please respect copyright.PENANA95IScMVr0H
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,658Please respect copyright.PENANAPP28TT31bC
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,658Please respect copyright.PENANA1lmZfqTe4y
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,658Please respect copyright.PENANArQ1dNSmREt
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,658Please respect copyright.PENANA8eX3yJEQII
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」658Please respect copyright.PENANA3CC9QokVKf
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正準備吃下第一口時,658Please respect copyright.PENANAlq19bvLF6Y
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,658Please respect copyright.PENANAt7mi4uaLMG
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。658Please respect copyright.PENANAGVkcjwxZXY