「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFnkvz8Yz7
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbEuzYmlqy
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2kVIHLFxc
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幼小我的父母就離異，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfMfdzP5rp
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnzTg4XH2M
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對母親的記憶還是有，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoZ8YyEiU2
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記得她很常酗酒，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdQC16vIJq
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後來的日子，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUoHFeZ7dU
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgLao5XrPm
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忙於工作的他，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDP4TnIlh1j
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvJHa3wQJW
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到了上課時間再直接上課，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fDMjRm7D7
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXSwnUiqfl
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1huZjwPl14
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwVacfvDzR
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9L6L01ebt
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwYeZFhoBZ
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父親工作的地方不一定，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfgZkIxyg9
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輾轉的換了三所小學，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAViObP2wPg
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBG4LtfkBD
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他開始會喜怒無常，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HwYh9tQvf
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeX9C2L7OaX
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yzLTXtQ7c
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很小我就與異性交往，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFA62HkCGI
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL3wJC5c5W
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOjb7o4CZE
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYSO9Spw7k
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我會睡在工地，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0hmvfbJ5b
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZ5LwSGdQ9
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHzJcRx8pY
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdrb0lKoZ0
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他開始會講貶低的話語，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdKqfvYSmb
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那些原本用來工作的用具，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQoRjEXbrl
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFV5Mfivz51
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpm1ygg2Pvy
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUAqnO4ey7
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRkWslxKIK
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要我轉告給老師，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIn2A1d6Zc
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJuAJnNK6R
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLLAkLv5NR
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbXj2mVH1q
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVWJaqozZy
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細細去回想每個片段，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSoIrOEoxc
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDdmgyRjO7
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEoD1NfRU8
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbVKDdFK1v
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkf75XUT4I
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLcx5wrdGY
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xFAS3BFYz
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF3gC768qp
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed8va4xDoY
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaQdiH8Ct7
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gdmJfanx2
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7CQ6dFbw5
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正準備吃下第一口時，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1xhslrh63
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzesYfCJYm
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIgJelzqxK
