「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtU1R44wkTk
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KPGH6sdMA
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpA0nz7fYm
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幼小我的父母就離異，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4AMgs3Hcc
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36BrpMH3Lv
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對母親的記憶還是有，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCPWqmGz79
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記得她很常酗酒，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0N2C7Ts7Sg
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後來的日子，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYRDjvicTb
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7DNteaUFl
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忙於工作的他，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGBclOQctI
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡit0vIl6Njj
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37etFXflVV
到了上課時間再直接上課，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkRR6Q3oty
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp14Pvd4Iq9
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8ZPrPO4RD
因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQ7CSDtgJO
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeEwTb3D9n
所以我總能寄宿在那裡，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAsAPl6ZIr
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPN5YnI0aN
剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SBBs63K4c
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFF5uYE7QK
漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlBBy9XneN
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsovjhJmPg8
父親工作的地方不一定，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLPUSVgGeq
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輾轉的換了三所小學，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtaiDbaxPM
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WVxeL2O6K
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjkjzO2azH
他開始會喜怒無常，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AdctmvE1Z
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvHZMFuVc4
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLgMsgL85S
下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnlHDdDda3
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很小我就與異性交往，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5bgB2G9KM
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQyjIrxnzY
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EYrx5vtnj
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbco6zWPyK
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我會睡在工地，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9UZ67wz5M
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBRoe21wLw
用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcN8dAAIu2
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuLArRo1T1
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSuAzWcRMM
委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAKBvndgsr
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他開始會講貶低的話語，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlXehZb3TU
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那些原本用來工作的用具，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXj4SOQdT0V
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFzQyy5a1c
偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6y6P5ebP9v
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsrzZpr6oZ
他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPaX2UUMCh
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylaK1aadYi
有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hu3MUCPcz
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuGmB5bj5Q
他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcBp2vJ31J
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKHUnpNGsA
要我轉告給老師，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JuPpHsPzh
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3K5z5RKoa
電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngdMzJz9IZ
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4tpvuO86q
老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEtvElFAam
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7JeAsKGKa
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt94jUMEv1
那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlZDKRnfoA
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJXbgm2HmB
細細去回想每個片段，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoCfRDfGsr
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrIwonKmI9
父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qZjqX9MMR
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnGRVUqxQI
仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqKEPM6SaM
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgIGmRmsPR
對他一個大男孩很不容易，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MwBgCh0Rh
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdG2J3UxOCS
所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxauucbmEBM
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IWAYGhIUZ
卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSVpWAHqEj
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3G6geAEuL
走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xL3K2UJFq
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5ghzGraby
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuv7tYqHVl3
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdHRopbDQ7
是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3sO6m7EYL
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUUgBMceMb
還是有很多屬於他的回憶，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKOVmiQXvs
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2x4UKdXOt
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正準備吃下第一口時，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuZoyGMX4c
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1McvopjJj
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnLptLAvnA
