「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyr2Ee5CRN
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhWrBixwlS
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0PTiuOrZo
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幼小我的父母就離異，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoaKdxFEoO
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolB1aAzBeR
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對母親的記憶還是有，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhNU1d4T27
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記得她很常酗酒，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYgeOyujE8
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後來的日子，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAR9g9uQMzY
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDhJi8d0CJ
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忙於工作的他，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcz6oRKFgY
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh3iP9Tdqx
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到了上課時間再直接上課，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuojNrcn7rb
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMIDkcEoTo
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mwiKAaPc5
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0fNyRqyaY
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXUMCByIMe
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7d9JZl0ws
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父親工作的地方不一定，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbkyAzhZoU
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輾轉的換了三所小學，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16fgWqYNyZ
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI3RrtAYmy
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他開始會喜怒無常，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vdDC7XsEu
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKEHZ338KZ
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKYNjzgpN6
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很小我就與異性交往，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rlZbgd1Yk
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3LxYOdpRi
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBOneq9HGk
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSQrW1zUgQ
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我會睡在工地，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1GajHpVkK
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH20Rg2CEgw
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5RnwyIj5Y
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOshRJJEe6
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他開始會講貶低的話語，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWyfTIHq2N
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那些原本用來工作的用具，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxlm26V6pA
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMV7vgP2Me
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK1RZiORWg
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKNike3J3R
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciEq1P5u2K
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要我轉告給老師，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtykxZ5w5CB
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSm816rMd8
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkH8TxjCVP
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA81pOLaiAI
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohb98AVSzh
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細細去回想每個片段，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgJ8eop8Gl
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeutTkHYy3
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPvoHBqrG4
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyUQWukA9R
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9m2RALjRk
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb9ZjD61xz
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95IScMVr0H
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP28TT31bC
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lmZfqTe4y
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQ1dNSmREt
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eX3yJEQII
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CC9QokVKf
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正準備吃下第一口時，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq19bvLF6Y
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7mi4uaLMG
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。658Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVkcjwxZXY
