同一時間，一艘從帝國出發前往澄冥汗國的船尚未到達目的地。這艘船的乘客之一──單心雪在房間內回想起過去。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmtT4Qgts4
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她很怕孤獨，雖然很想克服，但總是忍不住尋找能依靠的人。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ9rSXFlqn
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說白了，她不清楚自己想要甚麼。明明躺在床上，她依然很累。很累，就像在無限期追求一樣連存不存在也不清楚的事物。她在獨自旅行的這段期間遇過很多人，縱使也許不會再見，他們都在她心裏留下了印記。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpjCe1ZADW
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然而，這些印記填不滿心的缺口。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlEWauJqPU
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她想要甚麼？逝去了又追不回來的事──人。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0zz4aWDTw
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「啊......」躺在床上也感覺疲勞沒有散去的她，決定到甲板上看風景。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDVQlzcsxE
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甲板上的船員見到她都向她打招呼。不是因為她本身受他們尊敬，而是她跟著的那個人受他們尊敬。說得殘酷一點，她只是他戴在手上的一條金鏈。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXQBnS7KXj
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她倚在船邊，海風拂過，帶她的思緒一同飄往遠方。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CJXo8ixC8
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梅陀姨姨。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5AsIcuwWd
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如果沒有姨姨，她也許還在孤兒院裏生活。大概十年前左右，一個叫梅陀的人來到孤兒院說要收養小孩。聽到有人來收養，幾乎所有小孩都爭先恐後地圍住梅陀。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3yK8va57i
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梅陀表面很親切，心雪卻有種她在故意隱瞞甚麼的感覺。經常被欺負的她就算說不上很會看他人臉色，也猜得到別人的心情。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqmPy8ircf
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心雪認定梅陀不是自己理想中的母親，便獨自躲在一角。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkdTcLRDd5
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梅陀留意到不合群的心雪，故意上前和她說話。心雪想激怒梅陀，不想她打擾自己，一來便說了句「我討厭妳」。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6kxUVYIvp
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梅陀露出心雪不理解的表情，深呼吸一口，問：「妳真的討厭我嗎？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRVk9x77BP
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討厭......心雪不明白梅陀問問題的理由，討厭一個人需要理由嗎？說討厭就是討厭，為甚麼要明知故問。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bVQWobCtM
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「妳是壞人。」心雪臉上掛著厭惡的表情，別過頭說。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrnMNiXvjU
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「為甚麼覺得我是壞人？我有做壞事嗎？」梅陀追問。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBalYQkhrkZ
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心雪自以為看穿了梅陀，梅陀也自以為看穿了心雪。事實上，兩人都沒有看穿對方內心最深處。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2pEP7usB4
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梅陀此行確實是要收養小孩，但還有另一目的。她很怕心雪會當著眾人面前說出另一個目的。不過多麼敏感的孩子，也看不到別人的罪疚感。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEPZlHQxnf
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要是心雪說得出來，她的偽善就曝光了。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFOzYP3Zdz
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「我不喜歡妳。」心雪重申，期望梅陀能趕快放過她。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2AIpSsn2Q
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「為甚麼不喜歡我？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhP7Xc9MWO
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「不要煩我！」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEFtaSO78M
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心雪氣沖沖地跑回房間，鎖上門不讓任何人進來。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhSVwgQ3BR
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「對不起，這個小孩性格比較乖僻。」在梅陀旁邊的院長解釋，想平息梅陀的怒火。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFSBkCEZy5
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沒有生氣的梅陀問：「可以給她的資料我看嗎？麻煩了。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw29PXSSDgJ
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院長不明白這位說話有口音的女士為何要自討苦吃，但還是按她的要求辦事：「好，請跟我來。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQscM1Ds7B
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「姐姐！不要管心雪那個怪胎啦！帶我走！」孩子羣裏，一個比較大的男孩拉著梅陀衣袖。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXeEWWh7UB
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梅陀笑著跟他說：「姐姐還有些事要做，所以......」她不敢拉開男孩的手，所以只能不斷向院長打眼色求救。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySK1idFuww
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院長瞄到梅陀的眼色，粗魯地罵男孩：「文鋒，還不快點放手？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2pSIb36YA
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「是......」男孩垂頭喪氣。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0OSm8IaO9
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「好了，你們也回去玩吧，我和這位姐姐有事要做。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RW7pISdRI
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院長說完，小孩們都邊說著話邊回去遊樂室。梅陀不太聽到他們在說甚麼，但大概是在抱怨還沒有人來收養他們。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAJNJhGU2G
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這些事都是梅陀後來跟心雪說的，心雪起初不知情。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvqMzflyiP
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院長和梅陀來到院長室，院長從書櫃拿了一本書出來。書原本是空白的，每當有一位孩子入住，院長便在新一頁寫下他的資料作紀錄之用。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGvjWBN6QP
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院長翻到心雪的那一頁給梅陀看，說：「這是剛才那位孩子的資料。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLARD6O92zI
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名字、出生日期、年齡、性別、何時住進孤兒院、大致性格、喜歡的食物和住院前的經歷等等，兩頁內寫了心雪的基本資料。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bvErLG31a
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梅陀看完，考慮一番後問：「她在這裏經常被欺負嗎？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbYbzrxxEw
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「是。」院長點頭，「我們有嘗試過叫孩子們和平相處，但心雪本來就不太合羣，又有些孩子比較調皮。我們說教完之後最近已經沒有欺凌事件發生，只是心雪依然不願和其他孩子一起玩。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHM2MqPClHE
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「性格已經定型了呢。」梅陀像是很有經驗地說，微微嚇了院長一跳。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJT1ph110Lg
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梅陀留意到院長的表情，「抱歉，以前工作的時候要分析人的個性，所以不經意說了出口。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37COLit4Kr
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「不要緊。」院長也認為不是大問題，「梅陀女士還有事想問嗎？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W57Z88iQV
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「我可以收養她嗎？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi76FpIzc0i
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「她不太喜歡您，我恐怕強行讓您收養她，對您和她都不好。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpv5iKDRxU
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梅陀想起自己早前才做過的事，她是為了做對事而做錯事，背負丁點罪惡感對她不是問題。本來早已捨棄罪惡感的她要拾回它，那怕只有一點點也覺得很重。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bCkbmrL77
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自認不是問題又覺得負擔很重，她知道這種心態很矛盾。但要說矛盾，過去的她更加矛盾。在人面前是一個樣子，工作時是另一個樣子，在某個人面前是第三個樣子，對著自己是第四個樣子，她以前也能隨意在四款樣子之間自由切換，說服一個小女孩跟她走對現在的她不會是難題。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZKsoq3P4K
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她低頭再看心雪的資料一次，有了計策。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wGBX0eex6
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「咯咯咯......」梅陀在心雪的房間外敲門，手上拿著一盤食物和勺子，「心雪？我是剛才的姐姐喔！我煮了妳最喜歡吃的辣豆腐，想吃嗎？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUGpiwFNYp
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梅陀在質疑自己。她知道心雪的秘密，卻不能告訴自己的秘密給她聽，這對心雪不公平。行家會說「沒有說不是騙」，但梅陀明白這跟欺騙沒分別。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIlabmCK7T
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「辣豆腐？」房間內的心雪好像有點興趣。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHJzSOTuKA
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「是啊。姐姐親手煮的，想吃嗎？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjRvck7Vuu
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心雪沒有回答，數秒後，她解開門鎖開門。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3mqtInsne
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「進來。」心雪抬頭跟梅陀說。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbPwWKAb0q
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心雪的房間很整潔，一點灰塵也看不見。房間內只有一張床、書桌椅和幾件玩具，梅陀心想這也許是孤兒院的標準配置。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRNQvj7gvl
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心雪關門後告訴進門的梅陀：「放在書桌上。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JX23BBOtU
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梅陀放下盤子問：「我可以坐在椅子上嗎？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqicX4gjEC
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雖說如此，這張椅子對梅陀來說有點小。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK7fi1pMhm
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「可以。」心雪坐在床上。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkpJf7Oz5x
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梅陀看穿心雪對她仍有戒心，拿起盤子和勺子遞給她，「吃吧，小心熱。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8CpDqc81V
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「嗯。」心雪接過盤子，用膝蓋當毯子吃豆腐。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8eg8qYdXK
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心雪吃得很慢，梅陀利用這段時間思考要如何「馴服」她。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSgDb5w1x0
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梅陀自覺很壞，但為了滿足贖罪的感覺，不得不這樣做。難得能離開那個世界，她想捨棄過去。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxiuTTuCYa
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不管以前的她是甚麼人都與她無關。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHx9XIjhiM
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「謝謝。」心雪吃完，遞盤子和勺子給梅陀。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpbs9b9VCK
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梅陀放好兩樣東西後拿出手帕說：「嘴邊有點髒。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOz4Y2jd5Iy
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她幫心雪抹乾淨嘴，放下少許戒心的心雪問她：「為甚麼要對我這麼好呢？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WAf1IaRze
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「哈哈！」梅陀發自內心地笑：「這很平常啊，怎會是對妳很好呢？」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP27Bs8bkCe
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「從來沒人對我那麼好。」心雪低頭看著木造地板。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1sBW4bcK9
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孤獨的小孩。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6rH0ZnqOb
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梅陀對付過這種對象很多次，要討好他們，給他們想要的就好了。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0F1Vw8edsr
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咳咳，又犯毛病了。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaia5WLOtk
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梅陀用手托起心雪的下巴，看著她的雙眼說：「妳不孤單，我會陪妳。」250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiceLLBFTc
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對小孩說這句話或許太過肉麻，但梅陀正是知道「太過」肉麻的話對小孩更有用。成熟一點的青少年甚至大人會感到抗拒，不過小孩子會被打動。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqELntDf99n
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心雪不知該作何反應，目瞪口呆。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf3Mg3E7w6
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想起來，她當時便是被梅陀這句話感動到而選擇跟梅陀走。跟梅陀走或者等下一個願意收養她的人，當時的她只有這兩個選擇。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRhodgUc8l
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她很感謝梅陀，梅陀教曉她許多戰鬥技巧，讓她即使被人搔擾也不害怕，又教她煮飯以及許多生活技能，當初跟梅陀走真的太好了。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡym4xA4BO4u
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如今，她在這艘船上遇到值得追隨的人，她能為他做些甚麼嗎？她不懂他的一切，即使如此，有她能為他做的事嗎？她的力量很少，不過起碼能成為他的心靈支柱。梅陀跟她說過，每個人都不孤單。縱使是那個戴上面具的「他」也不孤單。她要證明給他看，「他」不孤單。250Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1IHbLTuZL
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