「果然係對我有好感。」恆樂自豪地點頭。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUwbObJsmU
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「你講咩話？」子瑜抆住恆樂耳仔講。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4CWsJen17
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「無講嘢呀，我等緊你分享。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffEdOcA5f1
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「衰人！」子瑜行過梳化坐低後講：「坐低再慢慢講啦。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImZLAMP2nL
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恆樂馬上狗沖去梳化坐低聽故仔。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwxWZpxJ0F
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子瑜本來係大學話劇社嘅成員，一直都對表演都有份渴望同追求。話劇社每年都會有兩到三套話劇，每次都係由個人自薦casting選角。子瑜同今朝班八婆就係話劇社到認識，因為大家都鐘意動漫，加上係同一個year，所以好快就混熟。開頭大家都好好朋友，可以講下八婆嘢又會一齊出街，當時嘅子瑜真係當佢哋係朋友。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44e8g4Yg8f
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只不過，呢啲只係子瑜嘅一廂情願。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlae7MvL2lr
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbnCCgYfjm
當年嘅5月，有個大學聯校話劇show，當時嘅子瑜就cast中咗女主角，要知道有參加casting嘅有嚟知唔同大學嘅人，亦有同子瑜同一間大學嘅前輩，所以呢個角色係子瑜打敗咗好多人先拎到手。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuzSCMZsFo
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如果只係校內嘅校劇，通常都係由老鬼去揀人做演出，老鬼可以揀角、揀劇本，每一個演出都係由老鬼做主導，正路嚟講，子瑜呢啲新人唔會有太多機會演出。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3t3jQOmFU
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但係聯校show唔同，揀人嘅外校嘅人，無咁黑箱作業，所以子瑜先有機會係老鬼中突圍。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcjfKRuY6o
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXLjIn2o9T
呢件就係關係破裂嘅開端。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5jskaAp0P
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnAJSTPeYN
當時嘅子瑜喺某一次返到自己大學嘅話劇社嘅會室到拎化妝品，因為大學生們都要準備final exam，照理嚟講唔應該當時嘅會室唔應該有人，但係事與願違。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TdmqYQPku
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當時會室嘅有嘅就係恆樂見到嘅幾個八婆同埋一位落選casting嘅前輩，嗰位前輩cast嘅位就係正正俾子瑜拎咗。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7sGmAnvA8
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全部都係女人。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrqStKdVZs
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女人嘅圈子，可以話係麻煩。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIe8ixYoFW
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本來想走入會室嘅子瑜因為聽到有人提及自己個名而停落嚟。
「係囉，我哋都話過子瑜，但係佢又唔聽。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePH6tyZKOM
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「我哋都話過佢，前輩就嚟畢業，唔好去亂試鏡留返啲機會俾就嚟畢業嘅人。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkkVczZSCA
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxh2CoJHxTe
「係子瑜太固執搞到我哋點阻止佢哋都無用。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGBKvDFSof
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三位八婆向前輩表明自己係無辜，大概係為咗保全自己係劇團嘅地位，因為老鬼點都係劇社有啲話語權，唔想係話劇社被老鬼玩嘅話就一定要附和老鬼。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uHImzPCKy
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmreW68km5E
門外嘅子瑜聽到就呆咗，明明呢啲朋友就無同自己講過呢啲嘢，但係就係前輩面前獻眉，亦因此加入指責子瑜嘅一方。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFHGzeBRjx
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMnVBPrxgm
子瑜困惑。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK65GDegY5e
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子瑜唔明點解朋友會咁樣係背後話自己，點解要攻擊自己？點解要為咗奉承他人而出賣自己？341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA6A48jhAt
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「總之你哋同佢講快啲退出呢套劇，等我可以擔正。」前輩講。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgIduHvTkf
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBAUEdoW8v
「我哋會同子瑜講㗎啦，叫佢退位，等你呢個後補主角可以擔正。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6omzutoqG
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0XbX0p4RN
「我哋會好好幫你㗎啦前輩，之後幫有演出俾我哋就可以。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfguh7jQ9E
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUD7ILGwrA
「放心等我哋幫手，我哋會將子瑜從你畢業劇中趕出去。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMOisah2bF
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuYYBgDuQX
八婆們一致地背叛咗子瑜，完全唔似係朋友嘅作為。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3I4Cli8paK
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原來友情可以咁脆弱。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jweL855l2
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比起朋友，八婆們選擇自己係話劇社嘅地位，放棄同子瑜嘅關係。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymdCnWurUy
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFzA1su08l
子瑜無好唔開心，無想大叫，無崩潰。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhp7gr8N5I
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子瑜好平靜，內心安靜都自己都唔相信。無內心戲，內心戲係零。
子瑜無問點解啲朋友要咁對佢，無問點解受苦嘅係自己，佢乜都無問。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa9zmiApJt
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被相信嘅人背叛，無翻天覆地嘅傷心，無傷心欲絕嘅情緒，平靜到好唔自然。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQqhhcnbAI
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平靜過後嘅係罪疚感，佢覺得因為自己唔識考慮前輩嘅感受先會咁樣。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4v0EkxtTyx
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因為無考慮到人哋就嚟畢業、呢個係人哋嘅最後演出機會，自己膽粗粗咁去試鏡仲搶咗人哋個位先搞到「朋友」都怪責自己。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnjK6pGLLW
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyfQTGQoKI
好神奇，子瑜仲當佢哋係朋友。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJly4T2DJ7
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因為做錯事嘅係自己，所以「朋友」怪責自己都無可厚非。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDYXU4EO3R
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xI9SKtFrw
係門口嘅子瑜無走入去會室，佢轉身離開。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupqfQyVO6d
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CtXXq14Ac
翌日排練時，係台上嘅子瑜聽到「朋友」同佢打氣，叫佢加油。平時唔理他人目光嘅子瑜突然感覺到好多視線，而呢啲視線彷彿伴隨無盡嘅惡意，即使對方無呢個意思，子瑜感覺到嘅就只有惡意。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNc823UpNeR
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3e6cGTOlg
企係台上嘅子瑜怔著，郁都唔郁咁望住台下，天旋地轉，眼前嘅畫面化成模糊嘅油彩畫慢慢分散，雙腳莫名其妙地感到酸軟。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwnk4yiWun
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子瑜覺得所有人對佢對有一種無講出口嘅負面諗法，覺得在場嘅人都討厭佢。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXTjTYlmQJ
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點解你會係到？341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngCuvuR32T
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你憑乜係到？341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYq6AKvUpw3
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無人鐘意你呀？341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjo9Y2ROCBq
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面皮咁厚都有。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhiJmmOQ8S
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幻聽。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkUBgZM7jt
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無盡嘅負面想法有如颱風般湧入子瑜腦海，惡意刺痛子瑜全身，入血入肉。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMY13ZPKJk
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXBJQLfRUq
反胃，係台上嘅子瑜因為一股反胃感而奔去廁所嘔吐，呢刻嘅獨自攬住馬桶子瑜知道要離開。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YSRhqEyqA
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb66Oop599
子瑜無視前嚟關心佢嘅「朋友」，子瑜轉身離開劇團，離開話劇，離開「朋友」。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTdBaQAhNb
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU88zSbEdRH
之後八婆們有whatsapp問子瑜點解突然之間潛水，但係子瑜完全無心機去回覆。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMULgkxnhPN
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自此之後，子瑜就懼怕人群，驚咗人群嘅視線，假定所有人都對佢有惡意。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XeP2MZrnT
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2G3FTEkkgQ
當然，子瑜話恆樂係例外，因為佢係一個不折不扣嘅on9仔。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JUnBIsCPg
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMcoW3DUxl
離開話劇社後，子瑜嘅表演慾還在，輾轉之下佢選擇成為vtuber，本身鐘意動畫嘅佢出盡全力自學coding同時學畫3d模組，只係一個暑假就搞掂所有嘢再成功出道。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5ISD3eyzM
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螢幕背後就唔會直接感受到惡意，所以呢個就係子瑜選擇嘅方法。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoS7lYy54YT
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvtD54i4Wf
一切都係自己一個。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgy402kCf7u
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwaWOYyKCt
「我嘅故事就係咁無聊。」子瑜苦笑道。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoNrVtGvzU
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNThCE7sal
子瑜嘅表情痛苦非常，但又勉強擺出苦笑，就好似叫恆樂唔好關心佢。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lWKsLV6rh
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2IpGYZoga
但係就因為咁，恆樂先更加扎心。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHWgvxJLN9
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或者子瑜都唔知道自己想點，唔知道自己想要啲係自己身邊嘅人。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5u7ymnFQg
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuwLXQUb3O
一切都係或者，恆樂無嘢可以好確切咁講。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHVAY1MSl8
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但係因為佢迫子瑜講，子瑜先將自己喺內心唔想講嘅人係自己面前宣之於口。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRR5wItXbK
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所以恆樂點都想好好安慰子瑜，因為自己就係令佢講出呢段難陷過去嘅原因。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvd3p813zH
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所以恆樂決定踏出一步。341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiJSmVI2uZ
341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx7dzbNfVO
「你⋯⋯」恆樂輕輕攬住子瑜再講：「佢哋根本唔係你朋友，你無做錯過事，根本唔需要咁自責要受苦嘅應該係佢你而唔係你。」341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3v0PuSFj7A
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「唔好抽我水喎。」子瑜雖然嘴上咁講，但係毫無甩開攬住佢嘅恆樂嘅意思。
