
「去哪?」306Please respect copyright.PENANAhOcLXVtlyj
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「急事。」306Please respect copyright.PENANA8dErZ0WNkH
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「你不吃晚餐?」306Please respect copyright.PENANA7jMjw7ErQv
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我沒應答,逕自出門。306Please respect copyright.PENANABHKd2dq4Qp
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冬夜六時。厚衣下的溫暖身軀與袒露的臉和手,不協調感令我忐忑不安。306Please respect copyright.PENANAKJKZApkBLJ
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難以言喻的鬱悶。306Please respect copyright.PENANArtXOpLBxXM
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長嘆。306Please respect copyright.PENANAyTRwp7DZUb
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「紅萬。」我邊說邊掏出八達通。306Please respect copyright.PENANAlAkcWbPeAy
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店員爽快從身後陳列架取來貨品,熟練在收銀機屏幕上點點按按,然後給我贈品——果汁味肉乾三小包。我有意無意瞄了瞄她的臉。大眾臉,過目即忘。306Please respect copyright.PENANAkvtctXuTS8
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「不需要贈品?」她驀地抬眼,與我眼神對上。是發現我的無禮目光嗎?306Please respect copyright.PENANALWCkXH7t8S
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「我……錯認是口香糖。」我慌忙編個爛藉口,連忙接過香菸和肉乾。306Please respect copyright.PENANAvR2onzwjHl
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她假笑,沒再搭理我,拿起抹布四處抹。306Please respect copyright.PENANAjdTgMl9Cwc
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我走出光線充足的便利店,重踏漆黑夜空下的大街。306Please respect copyright.PENANAfwUSCrktLb
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另一種不協調。另一種忐忑,另一種不安。306Please respect copyright.PENANAzpNReEVUs9
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櫥窗五光十色,路人絡繹不絕。人潮亂中有序,不約而同在紅色燈號前止住,然後在綠色燈號亮起當刻同時邁步。一致得神奇,一致得可怕。並肩而行的男男女女在過路以後分道揚鑣,不為曾經的遇見生起任何印象或猶豫。306Please respect copyright.PENANA4z9bd9BOVF
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心血來潮,我莫名其妙拐到小巷去。306Please respect copyright.PENANACplwmYNgY4
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污水,雜物,廚餘,鼠餌,坑渠。306Please respect copyright.PENANAwNABClLB9H
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髒,亂,腐,毒,臭。306Please respect copyright.PENANAEFoyAJZO53
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為何要到這種地方來?不是捷徑,不知盡頭何處,不懷目的……306Please respect copyright.PENANAo8rKAb4RlI
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小巷盡處是另一小巷,盡頭以後是另一開始。路接路,走又走。不停前行,像是正在找出口;絕不回頭,像是不打算找到真正出口。306Please respect copyright.PENANA9hr6XtFZgX
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厭煩日常走過的路,不欲重覆。若問想要到甚麼地方去,其實我沒有答案。很奇妙。眼下似乎有很多選擇,實質一切已成定局。那是大街,這是小巷。大街在明,小巷在暗。大街繁華,小巷冷清。306Please respect copyright.PENANAIS1bWe9Cdg
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註定的。306Please respect copyright.PENANApEPNhpZ3A2
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冷清小巷盡頭會有好東西麼?我不相信,亦不願輕言不相信。306Please respect copyright.PENANAc1uNsYkE02
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汪——汪——嗚——拐角傳來狗隻悲鳴。306Please respect copyright.PENANA3ekwDYXrCP
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停步。猶疑。306Please respect copyright.PENANAZYEus3YNSN
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惻隱?慈悲?然後呢?根本沒有然後,因為我自顧不暇。306Please respect copyright.PENANAyG0dAdIV8o
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轉身。306Please respect copyright.PENANACaf8EKITK6
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汪——汪——嗚——拐角狗隻再次悲鳴。306Please respect copyright.PENANAKqg1xap9ri
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我回身走去。306Please respect copyright.PENANAhCTgMe1eEn
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惻隱?慈悲?不,好奇罷。306Please respect copyright.PENANAdxqX2Aw9LD
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把小狗抱入懷內。306Please respect copyright.PENANA6CY1Ba8aLE
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「暖和沒?」我傻傻自語——嘴巴極需要說話理由。306Please respect copyright.PENANAXRNLtpMYO6
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陣風從後疾過,寒意夾雜水氣與鹹香。306Please respect copyright.PENANAUth1oRkgo9
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海風?海濱公園步道?306Please respect copyright.PENANAox0Cs0FKOn
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「一起散步去吧。」我沒期望小狗會回答,但我需要溜達原因。306Please respect copyright.PENANA0dLFwI53Vk
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多拐兩個彎,我帶著小狗在兩幢高樓之間走出來,恰巧看見銀月自海平面升起。清澄,純淨,圓滿。306Please respect copyright.PENANAABXVZRLeIH
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「看!這是月亮。」我指天示意小狗往上望去。306Please respect copyright.PENANA4j1tWigXIs
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汪——牠回答,但沒有依指示抬頭。306Please respect copyright.PENANADNOuC67oA9
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「找個好地方坐坐吧!」為免小狗中途跑掉,我微微拉下外套拉鏈,把小狗往內塞。牠沒反抗,甚至懂得稍為伸出頭部,方便呼吸和看風景。我真慶幸剛才沒有對牠視若無睹:「乖。」306Please respect copyright.PENANAqSKb24I4Ix
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銀月清冷,步道冷清,寧靜。心跳規律,呼吸有序,乏味。回憶很多,未知更多,迷惘。306Please respect copyright.PENANAzBhWt4Y05N
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「我上一次來海濱公園是小學畢業後的那個暑假。與幾個特別要好的男生相約到來踩roller,跌了幾跤,膝蓋流血。明明怕血,明明怕痛,偏偏為保面子而強說無事,硬撐一整天。結果翌日膝蓋腫黑大片,痛得要命,不得不到醫院求醫。結果在醫院留醫足足兩個月,九月中才可到新學校上課。」我在路邊長椅坐下,拆開一包贈品肉乾給小狗充飢,報答牠聽我發牢騷。306Please respect copyright.PENANAUIVD0YQBX7
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「留醫期間,我生氣朋友們不來探望我,打算出院後臭罵他們一頓。出院後,我忙於學校課業,忘記致電他們,然後順理成章忘記他們。當我再次想起他們,已是高中畢業的事。」我點菸,一吸一呼,虛假短暫的舒爽。「其實沒甚麼大不了,無需要記在腦袋裡。但事情就是發生過,不是說忘記就可以忘記。」306Please respect copyright.PENANAFCrochTU10
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記憶零碎,思路紊亂。嘴巴想要表達更多,無奈腦袋運轉不來,沒能將感受化為言語……算了吧。反正小狗根本沒興趣聽下去。306Please respect copyright.PENANAqkwJnbuuUa
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「你似乎對肉乾比較有興趣。」我又拆開一包肉乾予牠。牠吃得津津有味,舌頭不時舔舔嘴邊,甚至舔到小小鼻頭。306Please respect copyright.PENANAokVbHEZN9j
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我笑,笑牠傻氣可愛。306Please respect copyright.PENANABkvHg17qXC
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又吸一口虛假短暫的舒爽。又呼一口難以言喻的鬱悶。306Please respect copyright.PENANAPoH57ivhwW
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鬱悶何來?306Please respect copyright.PENANAPRsKQxAvc0
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學業壓力?愛情煩惱?家庭不和?306Please respect copyright.PENANAjfoTkcxkFu
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也許統統都是,也許統統不是。306Please respect copyright.PENANAbWAafeBo6E
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多件零星不順心瑣碎事湊在一起成為一股無法消弭的鬱悶。306Please respect copyright.PENANARiJg9giJZC
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有如一根經過繁複工序生產的香菸。306Please respect copyright.PENANAgVJVVQgD3m
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有如一塊由豬肉、糖、鹽、增味劑、醬油、香辛料、護色劑、色素組成的肉乾。306Please respect copyright.PENANAlbhrZkycXG
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「好吃吧。」我又拆開一包肉乾。趁小狗專心咬嚼,我彈走菸屁股,將牠從懷裡抽出,來個深深擁抱。306Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0trDTyCQ3
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然後呢?根本沒有然後。306Please respect copyright.PENANAwT1vB0okQn
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我輕輕放下小狗,動身邁步離開。306Please respect copyright.PENANAJQBgiUQyNT
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正如牠知道我身上沒有更多肉乾,自然而然不會跟上來。306Please respect copyright.PENANAIB8fUHQkAM
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