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有人在海濱長廊放下白色蠟燭，悼念去年於此蹈海殉情的同性戀人。告訴亡者，世界會因為他們的捨生表態而變得寬容大同，生者會因為他們的犧牲而有所覺悟，肩負起消弭歧視、追求平等的責任。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAorLGpMXax
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蜿蜒曲折的岸堤石壆上排滿白燭。綿延燭光在海風吹拂下或搖或擺，於無盡黑暗中顯得脆弱渺小無力。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYS3Gzjv8N
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我嗤之以鼻，默默走開——過去一年，世界依舊，生者依舊，歧視依舊。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfPA8goOeN
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重於生命的責任同時輕如燭火。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFqUkgyj6X
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海風忽勁，呼，燭火滅了。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhFYTWbyJg
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甚麼都不在了。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7WrcKJn6j
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燭火不在，責任不在，生命不在。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI6ZdkkCib
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我繼續走。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6a1Zt3qas
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有人在家等我。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniJ2iGlaSh
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家人端出蛋糕，送上禮物，為我的存在而高興。蛋糕上插有一根紅蠟燭，燭上有火，火光脆弱渺小無力，經不起我的輕輕一吹。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeMoZxz56O
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家人祝我生日快樂。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgWqrvxyNv
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我笑。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnXJgbjg70
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是儀式，是象徵，是寄託。如禱告，如誦經，如許願。上天不會因此動容，地面不會因此和平，人生不會因此一帆風順。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvaXbB8waQ
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可笑。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQW6cADuCE5
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我笑，卻不道破。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKW2kXcceHq
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道破了，不就得要面對自身的無能無力無奈。自身的無、生命的幻、意義的虛，不是每個人都承受得來。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CbG95gZlS
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寧願相信點亮燭光就是盡責的表現。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKH56VzHkW
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寧願相信拋頭灑血就能改變世界。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mxbfLcE9Z
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寧願相信改變世界就是一種偉大。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8POqkYlLe
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我笑，笑著入睡。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mO7Bn1r3J
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夢裡，西西弗斯仍在推石上山。他告訴我，他知道大石總會在到達終點前滾下來，他知道他的努力不可能改變結果，他知道這是無法打破的循環。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4N5jdqAMX
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「既然明知所作所為毫無意義，何解不停止？」260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuYrQGZnx3
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「停止這種行為才是真正沒意義，連被傳揚的價值也沒有。」260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50W6UtWZd3
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「故事傳揚開去又會帶來甚麼意義或價值？」260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBS6YWpzPg1
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「目的不是帶來意義或價值，而是被傳揚就是意義或價值本身——不被傳揚，也就不被知道。不被知道，也就等於不曾存在。」260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9Dpm054Hb
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「『存在』真的那麼重要？」260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMgCEZyDFR
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「於我，我存在與否不是那麼重要，但是尼采真的很需要我繼續做這沒有意義或價值的行為，否則他的觀點理論就不會精彩、發人深省。」260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7DF9beBdq
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恍然大悟。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7YBDAnrZV
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重點不是事情本身是否有意義，而是事情必須被說成有意義，否則所有事情均沒意義，生命也就沒意義，自身同樣沒意義。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aX2tW8EWq
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我笑，笑得從夢中醒來。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOR6cKtM7HP
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睡不了，散步去。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8Wn7qJSO1
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岸堤石壆上，燭光點點，浮魂處處。一魂附一燭，一燭牽一魂。魂魄不滿我對他們的否定。聲聲不忿，句句帶怨。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBQjIXayGh
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「即便你們不曾存在，人類文明依可推進如儀。總會有人代替你們本身的位置。你們絕非唯一而必須的存在。」我淡然莞爾，開步前行。步步生風，風吹，燭滅，魂散。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIm7eI5MVLg
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燭光盡處，一個老者的魂朝我微笑。他是唯一沒有對我不滿的魂。我好奇，停下腳步，免得步風滅了他的燭火。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB34KaO1ZL7
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「『無』是『有』的另一面向，『有』是『無』的另一面向。『無』『有』並存，兩面一體。他們在『無』中尋找『有』，你在『有』中發現『無』。道不同，不相為謀，毋須同謀。順心而行，順其自然。」話畢，老者化蝶拍翼，翼風滅掉最後的燭火。蝶飛，飛往天海之間、暮晨交界，再無覓處。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcjl2tUPjd
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天海如常，暮晨如常，世界如常，不在乎有無意義。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUYt8VdWBK
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我笑，笑我多管閒事，專制橫蠻。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeML43pUO4M
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輕聲對壆上蠟塊講句對不起。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdZZJoa2iP
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蠟塊不瞅不睬，繼續以奇特而自然的姿態躺臥於天地之間。260Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH41JMnuhO
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