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有人在海濱長廊放下白色蠟燭，悼念去年於此蹈海殉情的同性戀人。告訴亡者，世界會因為他們的捨生表態而變得寬容大同，生者會因為他們的犧牲而有所覺悟，肩負起消弭歧視、追求平等的責任。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqzQQYQW9U
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蜿蜒曲折的岸堤石壆上排滿白燭。綿延燭光在海風吹拂下或搖或擺，於無盡黑暗中顯得脆弱渺小無力。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FigW9X94h
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我嗤之以鼻，默默走開——過去一年，世界依舊，生者依舊，歧視依舊。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY3tMlInWw
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重於生命的責任同時輕如燭火。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGuAjv8kgC
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海風忽勁，呼，燭火滅了。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOE68mp0DI
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甚麼都不在了。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pMswMWr5o
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燭火不在，責任不在，生命不在。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrc91q2tQXc
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我繼續走。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMcYxA4LjG
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有人在家等我。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pfrCJS4Fa
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家人端出蛋糕，送上禮物，為我的存在而高興。蛋糕上插有一根紅蠟燭，燭上有火，火光脆弱渺小無力，經不起我的輕輕一吹。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3De2n33eR
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家人祝我生日快樂。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE1EmnypQN
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我笑。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJrqabSswo
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是儀式，是象徵，是寄託。如禱告，如誦經，如許願。上天不會因此動容，地面不會因此和平，人生不會因此一帆風順。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAdVSP1OSA
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可笑。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3bgTM1x1p
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我笑，卻不道破。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRettQdZdPG
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道破了，不就得要面對自身的無能無力無奈。自身的無、生命的幻、意義的虛，不是每個人都承受得來。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsckPyCxAO
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寧願相信點亮燭光就是盡責的表現。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVVd91JMZ4
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寧願相信拋頭灑血就能改變世界。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxIMJ55FLZ
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寧願相信改變世界就是一種偉大。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprnPSTkLSO
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我笑，笑著入睡。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWObI2mqnaI
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夢裡，西西弗斯仍在推石上山。他告訴我，他知道大石總會在到達終點前滾下來，他知道他的努力不可能改變結果，他知道這是無法打破的循環。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1A5OIEISg0
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「既然明知所作所為毫無意義，何解不停止？」311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPxXqyknHb
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「停止這種行為才是真正沒意義，連被傳揚的價值也沒有。」311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzduTjc0uKw
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「故事傳揚開去又會帶來甚麼意義或價值？」311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVWS1JjQ7F
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「目的不是帶來意義或價值，而是被傳揚就是意義或價值本身——不被傳揚，也就不被知道。不被知道，也就等於不曾存在。」311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMe0JdaTr5
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「『存在』真的那麼重要？」311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjKBs59D4C
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「於我，我存在與否不是那麼重要，但是尼采真的很需要我繼續做這沒有意義或價值的行為，否則他的觀點理論就不會精彩、發人深省。」311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDOGdgDmo3
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恍然大悟。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOHFkfk4vL
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重點不是事情本身是否有意義，而是事情必須被說成有意義，否則所有事情均沒意義，生命也就沒意義，自身同樣沒意義。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxXBv5OFzc
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我笑，笑得從夢中醒來。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MAeEbXh05
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睡不了，散步去。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpJ1p4eG8f
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岸堤石壆上，燭光點點，浮魂處處。一魂附一燭，一燭牽一魂。魂魄不滿我對他們的否定。聲聲不忿，句句帶怨。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwNXt0UXoC
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「即便你們不曾存在，人類文明依可推進如儀。總會有人代替你們本身的位置。你們絕非唯一而必須的存在。」我淡然莞爾，開步前行。步步生風，風吹，燭滅，魂散。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM86j2AjNCf
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燭光盡處，一個老者的魂朝我微笑。他是唯一沒有對我不滿的魂。我好奇，停下腳步，免得步風滅了他的燭火。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMozYB6LAG
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「『無』是『有』的另一面向，『有』是『無』的另一面向。『無』『有』並存，兩面一體。他們在『無』中尋找『有』，你在『有』中發現『無』。道不同，不相為謀，毋須同謀。順心而行，順其自然。」話畢，老者化蝶拍翼，翼風滅掉最後的燭火。蝶飛，飛往天海之間、暮晨交界，再無覓處。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttYUymZ54P
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天海如常，暮晨如常，世界如常，不在乎有無意義。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniRT6VbySC
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我笑，笑我多管閒事，專制橫蠻。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIhi0sll9Y
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輕聲對壆上蠟塊講句對不起。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrtpZlky0s
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蠟塊不瞅不睬，繼續以奇特而自然的姿態躺臥於天地之間。311Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLka5yqZyh
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