言默最近總夢見自己快溺水的場景。203Please respect copyright.PENANAFfYLlrBXVv
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午休時他又夢見一次,明明游泳池的水很淺,然而他卻怎麼樣也無法穿透水面,獲取氧氣。岸上人的聲音傳遞下來成了刺耳的話語,接觸到水的雙眼因疼痛而睜不開,他嘗試開口求救,卻只是讓水灌入自己的氣管中……203Please respect copyright.PENANAoMEce16sBp
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言默知道自己最近的情緒總是很尖銳。他似乎有意地曲解他人的話語,將那藏在言語間的嘲諷放大檢視,為自己帶來無盡的痛苦。203Please respect copyright.PENANAVwHdQ6Y74w
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有人對他說:「你真的很認真,幹嘛那麼認真啊?」203Please respect copyright.PENANAqAG7Npsq9x
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「要不然要像你一樣不認真嗎?」他差點要脫口而出,但還是嚥下了,尖銳的情緒刺傷他人只會對自己造成成倍的傷害,在過去的經驗裡,他早已深有體會。203Please respect copyright.PENANAKlZQJgmvzq
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他為了什麼努力?努力又有用嗎?203Please respect copyright.PENANAmmy8hoaWiy
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他不知道,身在水中,他的雙眼睜不開。203Please respect copyright.PENANAx9fE1U3aG5
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「言默幹嘛一直讀啊,壓力好大。」203Please respect copyright.PENANAakcLhznCG9
「他除了讀書什麼也不會啊,平時也只會笑笑,都不說話。」203Please respect copyright.PENANALktbpnEAGp
下課時分,一片吵雜依舊無法阻擋言默聽到這句話。203Please respect copyright.PENANAc8NL68JjBk
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他只是輕輕地放下筆,緊緊咬住牙關,像是有水淹過他的口鼻,他逐漸缺氧,但凡張口,水就會毫不留情地流入肺中。203Please respect copyright.PENANAGri8Yu8Ror
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在他人的眼中,自己總是格格不入,不合時宜的沈默,不合時宜的努力。203Please respect copyright.PENANA2ySpJEKJb8
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他知道那些話語只是個人情緒的反射,他知道嫉妒、愧疚、不甘、憤怒都會成為一個人傷害別人的理由,他知道的事情很多,但他卻不知道該如何從自己的情緒裡逃脫。203Please respect copyright.PENANAtEO0a6zkSz
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笑容是他面對世界的保護機制,很多時候,他不知道怎樣說最好,但他知道怎樣說一定不好,有人說他溫和,但其實他只是一貫沈默。他的情緒總是尖銳又凌厲,他將之內隱深藏不是為了不傷人,而是他沒有勇氣面對放出情緒的後果。203Please respect copyright.PENANAY0vHdo6uIo
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他可能只是個膽小懦弱的人。203Please respect copyright.PENANAO23TnJZMb3
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擔憂的眼神,欲言又止的話語令他煩躁。203Please respect copyright.PENANA6kpEoneLhH
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在父母和老師眼中,他們都覺得自己受到升學的壓力影響,但不是的,他們不理解他,沒有人理解他。203Please respect copyright.PENANAQvZf2x2lOB
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溺水的前一刻,他想著,或許連他自己都不理解自己。203Please respect copyright.PENANAmStCbRmpWC