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No Plagiarism!dEBw43e7yVckvq9GFQGZposted on PENANA Part 18964 copyright protection179PENANAvZeeuhdowj 維尼
I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection179PENANAu2zQIE1QM4 維尼
when I realized what happened.8964 copyright protection179PENANAK1Pte8Pyi8 維尼
The water fountain next to my boss’s office 8964 copyright protection179PENANAPmWNpo3FUt 維尼
shared that moment with me.8964 copyright protection179PENANAd60weoLgnP 維尼
While a small piece of my sanity melted8964 copyright protection179PENANAm2ee8dH0yA 維尼
the fountain never moved.8964 copyright protection179PENANAkyR75eNtkz 維尼
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The melted pile of goo8964 copyright protection179PENANAG4WQ0lx3oq 維尼
was hidden away.8964 copyright protection179PENANA5hLNzSWrD7 維尼
The same place where I stuffed memories8964 copyright protection179PENANApu9rodo86H 維尼
of that day.8964 copyright protection179PENANAf086L9mrLA 維尼
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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection179PENANAOdL6fnxy0a 維尼
when I told myself it didn’t happen.8964 copyright protection179PENANAvKU4Mq7G7k 維尼
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To make sense of what happened8964 copyright protection179PENANABI7FuD7cP2 維尼
I sought out other men,8964 copyright protection179PENANASkagklDBMM 維尼
and waited for it to happen again.8964 copyright protection179PENANABAWbdC93F0 維尼
I chose the most vile and abusive men,8964 copyright protection179PENANADX4kcSDIBI 維尼
because in my broken brain if they did 8964 copyright protection179PENANATugu8Mu6to 維尼
that to me then it was normal.8964 copyright protection179PENANAOfFx4aTIdP 維尼
If they hurt me the way he did,8964 copyright protection179PENANAP6h70hk09b 維尼
then what happened wasn’t rare.8964 copyright protection179PENANA34y3o7eDpQ 維尼
Then I wouldn’t have to admit something had happened.8964 copyright protection179PENANAV4C2ujDL1n 維尼
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They hurt me in other ways8964 copyright protection179PENANAh2orMpe3tZ 維尼
but never the way I thought they would.8964 copyright protection179PENANAt7fNcvTerc 維尼
By trying to rationalize this one trauma8964 copyright protection179PENANArIuNQV0B5S 維尼
I created so many more.8964 copyright protection179PENANAWrw8q35Bnh 維尼
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The hours I spent in backseats of cars8964 copyright protection179PENANADUIJhHamNw 維尼
or time I spent on my knees8964 copyright protection179PENANAtSxcwVrvBr 維尼
are pieces of me I can’t ever get back.8964 copyright protection179PENANAO7zWPb5RVd 維尼
I know from experience how little support8964 copyright protection179PENANAB8j1ZoD9Tl 維尼
a cardboard box has8964 copyright protection179PENANAt1wHT5TrFs 維尼
and how grimey the underside of a bathroom8964 copyright protection179PENANAPtup0Yj16Y 維尼
sink is.8964 copyright protection179PENANA3P6lxvJhVj 維尼
I let sweaty middle-aged men climb over me8964 copyright protection179PENANAnFuq8QmJRT 維尼
while I blankly stared at mirrored ceilings8964 copyright protection179PENANADAE1rUUXDA 維尼
because I told myself I deserved it. 8964 copyright protection179PENANAVsCDdjquGG 維尼
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Moments of realization will8964 copyright protection179PENANAkmUfd9IeqP 維尼
come to me when I least expect it8964 copyright protection179PENANATI2TyWsvkX 維尼
Driving, and thoughts of8964 copyright protection179PENANAJNBI1mpjBh 維尼
“my rapist was in my house”8964 copyright protection179PENANAmF8gZSlFiM 維尼
distract me.8964 copyright protection179PENANAybMVrYzx19 維尼
Washing dishes, and my brain chirps8964 copyright protection179PENANAFSzZsLmglv 維尼
“he helped your grandparents move a shelf”8964 copyright protection179PENANAp8cX2NNdy4 維尼
showering, and all I can see8964 copyright protection179PENANATOdD1k6CrW 維尼
are faces8964 copyright protection179PENANAviG1Qqj4JF 維尼
An endless cycle of regret8964 copyright protection179PENANAW8Gl4nqRq6 維尼
Everyday my brain resurrects 8964 copyright protection179PENANAGzhiE7RUf0 維尼
a new ghost to haunt me8964 copyright protection179PENANAyPVgUxShJL 維尼
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Your way of thinking will change.8964 copyright protection179PENANAmqBQKu96PW 維尼
No one talks about that.8964 copyright protection179PENANAskCMG9B8xv 維尼
You’ll realize it too late8964 copyright protection179PENANAcIZXb69J0X 維尼
and it’ll be another thing you’ve lost. 8964 copyright protection179PENANAkBLZnbk936 維尼
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There’ll be a joke8964 copyright protection179PENANAI99VFIO7mk 維尼
someone always makes one8964 copyright protection179PENANAuHvI7I18Xd 維尼
and it’ll take almost breaking 8964 copyright protection179PENANAEEiisSso2D 維尼
your teeth8964 copyright protection179PENANA10hzlFsxSZ 維尼
to stay quiet8964 copyright protection179PENANAfWmERc2BEH 維尼
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This thing that happened to you8964 copyright protection179PENANAdmd9ThWyrH 維尼
is used as a plot twist in movies.8964 copyright protection179PENANAgHuaolUK5R 維尼
You’ll have this weird8964 copyright protection179PENANAT33v0FA2Ha 維尼
understanding or knowledge8964 copyright protection179PENANACee5udzQoW 維尼
that the rest of the audience won't. 8964 copyright protection179PENANAHIAAl7faff 維尼
“I get why they froze.”8964 copyright protection179PENANAqb0QLCNJAc 維尼
”The shower made sense.”8964 copyright protection179PENANA21667LgtiG 維尼
”I didn’t say anything either.”8964 copyright protection179PENANAMlJ2rkyPN3 維尼
“Zoning out is normal.”8964 copyright protection179PENANAiXwJGmDRy3 維尼
“Ah, the random crying stage.”8964 copyright protection179PENANAXVjX4MLGdl 維尼
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People might not understand8964 copyright protection179PENANA5dtFvweST4 維尼
why you connected to someone8964 copyright protection179PENANAZQRok1dHba 維尼
with ten minutes of screentime8964 copyright protection179PENANAn4Kf1DoggW 維尼
or some side character8964 copyright protection179PENANAzdF3SODzc8 維尼
(but you’ll know)8964 copyright protection179PENANAvMeDStHB0c 維尼
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I mean that genuinely 8964 copyright protection179PENANAreHP6CivSP 維尼
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You may get help, justice, or pity8964 copyright protection179PENANAnOMBrtA8xE 維尼
but that only lasts for so long.8964 copyright protection179PENANA4EJuYPVxtO 維尼
The world moves on8964 copyright protection179PENANArMEz5MAhWr 維尼
with or without you.8964 copyright protection179PENANA6hw9bZiGSA 維尼
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Eventually you have to stop8964 copyright protection179PENANA6czRHog5VE 維尼
mentioning it8964 copyright protection179PENANA9fPmPd26Vx 維尼
or you’ll get left behind.8964 copyright protection179PENANAOnvNWRe6dT 維尼
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I called ten offices8964 copyright protection179PENANACDnN5cdedd 維尼
there were no openings8964 copyright protection179PENANAdlYB3afDkm 維尼
when I was finally ready8964 copyright protection179PENANA8vWocHQF94 維尼
to tell my story8964 copyright protection179PENANAOgV0jKtDUA 維尼
there were no ears8964 copyright protection179PENANAHvt55c0kmO 維尼
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I have to remind myself8964 copyright protection179PENANAybFfpPt9Hi 維尼
to call him what he actually is8964 copyright protection179PENANAudqHdiS6dW 維尼
a rapist8964 copyright protection179PENANA4yTBgcIqHi 維尼
Monsters are the things from fairy tales8964 copyright protection179PENANAx9QnBLGas0 維尼
that show us darkness can be defeated8964 copyright protection179PENANAhAG83sXJPc 維尼
Fantastical beings born into evil8964 copyright protection179PENANAtVdUs32CCd 維尼
He chose it in that moment8964 copyright protection179PENANAjloD2gDC9L 維尼
and there wasn’t a sword for me8964 copyright protection179PENANAjmzO8tiCdv 維尼
I have to remind myself that he was nothing more than a man8964 copyright protection179PENANAwWCE2j7oCH 維尼
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You can’t get raped in you’re not having sex.8964 copyright protection179PENANAsXv3y5E83B 維尼
So they don’t teach you about it.8964 copyright protection179PENANAjczBQQhoh0 維尼
Now that you know nothing 8964 copyright protection179PENANAVLJGTm23hr 維尼
how do you tell crime from nature?8964 copyright protection179PENANAt8iaTDl9Sj 維尼
You don’t.183Please respect copyright.PENANAA7ZeUsMMCW
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You learn about it in secret.8964 copyright protection179PENANArtOp0ezRdQ 維尼
On darkened screens where predators lurk8964 copyright protection179PENANAdkFgEWTToe 維尼
and you get desensitized. 8964 copyright protection179PENANAHjkmYslN88 維尼
Violence=love8964 copyright protection179PENANARMAu04UN6V 維尼
or so the internet says.8964 copyright protection179PENANAppNRts8SMe 維尼
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So when something violent happens you think everythings normal.8964 copyright protection179PENANA0NyXfugYIw 維尼
It takes years to figure out what went wrong.8964 copyright protection179PENANA8x0ix7U411 維尼
You blame yourself,8964 copyright protection179PENANAOGp9gVvYpU 維尼
for not realizing it sooner.8964 copyright protection179PENANAli45X4qX47 維尼
They blame you,8964 copyright protection179PENANAYz6Xm7pHot 維尼
because how could you have been raped8964 copyright protection179PENANAoKtbCJjpBb 維尼
if you’re not having sex?8964 copyright protection179PENANAcQp83ISRz9 維尼
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138964 copyright protection179PENANAh3nq3R3xx8 維尼
I vilified myself8964 copyright protection179PENANA3qvif5qPhk 維尼
ruined my own background8964 copyright protection179PENANAPMffP2Ay37 維尼
lied to myself8964 copyright protection179PENANAZpF5ShBTYV 維尼
why would anyone believe me8964 copyright protection179PENANAIEOVClwEUO 維尼
if I didn’t for years8964 copyright protection179PENANADn2pEwCywb 維尼
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Seven years.8964 copyright protection179PENANAZDZU9Yenwf 維尼
That’s how long I sang8964 copyright protection179PENANArs9F1qTGz0 維尼
my song of denial.8964 copyright protection179PENANA7oNsWiDF8Y 維尼
That could have been years8964 copyright protection179PENANAcSHeT3sSyW 維尼
of therapy, moving on,8964 copyright protection179PENANA1Jo4PMuRnX 維尼
or at least acceptance.8964 copyright protection179PENANAVrsLinCNnd 維尼
Seven years8964 copyright protection179PENANA4yr8IoURKe 維尼
spent fighting myself8964 copyright protection179PENANA869Sdlfgkw 維尼
while the real monster8964 copyright protection179PENANAELamAMWizm 維尼
roamed free8964 copyright protection179PENANAykJNiu2Rt4 維尼
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