410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtHDRblAgY
I consider whether I should go there or not. But my mind keeps telling me the last option and I wonder why my subconscious is wrongly refuting me. I pack my things into my luggage and scan the room. As I tilt my head, I see the image of my father carrying me on his shoulders.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxAEMGnYuh
"Lana," Mom calls me.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoAfcBD8Sq
"I am coming," I reply.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQbFv8J36Z
I grab all my things and sigh heavily as I pull the door behind me with a weak movement. I head straight for the foyer, knowing I'll miss this room as soon as I step into it because I know it was a part of my life. I wake up early and get on a bus near my friend's warehouse, which I find hardly classic and nerve-wracking.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4P5eYjoKjn
The tears try to escape, but I stop them by looking up at the ceiling – I know this is hard for me. But I know that not only do I want to do this, but I want to do it for my mother's sake. She says she's doing it all for my own good, but I know it's for her whims, and I have no power to fight it.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrK4S4iGNb
"Lana."
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4868qnexyw
My feet stomp on the concrete floor in annoyance. Why do I get the feeling she's happy to see me go? Why should she be? Should not she be? Anyway. I take a deep breath, press my feet to the stairs, and see her raise an eyebrow and look at me intently.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4hKme96Zo
I stop in front of her as my hand grabs the travel bag. She was on the phone to call a cab, I realise. How ironic! She must be sad to see her daughter leave, but it's just the opposite, because she's happy.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBU97SpvYI
"Who was it?" I inquire.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJF0Zb8KOJO
"Taxi, of course. Why do you ask?" she asks.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsY0IaU2CQ
I roll my eyes.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rV4B2K7ES
She did not seem like my mother because the way she treated me was pure hell. She was busy with work, like even with family day at school, she did not have time to put in the time I need.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9VngLSBuj
How horrible my life was.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUGFcOWqZE
"Just asking."
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsr5VZQOfxa
"Where are you going?" she asks in horror as I drag myself to the entrance, and if I were myself I would not have to turn around, but I have no power to restrain my subconscious.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BuKs0IYrZ
"Walk like you mean it."
I never mean to sound rude, but she was pressuring me, and there's nothing wrong with pressuring her. Somehow I just wanted to do it, but my heart suppressed me not to, but here I am, speaking mockingly to my mother.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4AFIVoDKL
"Lana, I did not raise you to be a brat." Her voice rises a little angrily, and it pierces my ears and through all the blindness-all the way to the top of my brain. The words engulf and moss all parts of my brain, and I do not know how to erase all the toxins in my balance so she never becomes part of my pain.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknzdnlu8HH
I laugh. A literal laugh that almost makes my jaw drop as I burst out laughing. Her jaw clenches and her eyebrows furrow. Who cares, anyway! This is my life. And how dare she tell me she's raising me when she's not here when I need her.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2d8C3AxEPJ
"You are turning into a psycho, maybe because you hung those idiots!" My left hand clenches into a fist in exasperation as she utters the words. I can not even calm down because my blood is boiling and it lasts longer than a minute or two.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgIlH1G4DX
How dare she lure my friends here. Why can not she just mind her own business? I want to scream at her like she did now, but I can not. I still can not, because she was still my mother, and I still respect her, even if she's not so good for my bank account.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpNDL9ll4q
"Right, fools. But those fools appreciated my efforts while you embedded your work. It's kind of pathetic, is not it? To have a mother who does not care about her child..." She interrupted me with a slap.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPT5cugSUvj
"How dare you talk to me like that! I am still your mother and I am not doing this for me. I am doing this for your well-being," she hissed.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSngVkBoI4v
I clap my hands together sarcastically. "Wow. You are doing this for me? You are not making a comedy joke, are you, Mom?"
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u75AVTeiS
"Shut up!"
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcVUKcy2bN
I half-shrug my shoulders. "Okay, if you want."
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhXQaTwyxI
I push my way to the door and leave a distracting noise after I get out. Tears gather and guilt seeps into me and in a split second the liquid runs down my cheeks and I just let it run down. I wipe the liquid away and leave the mansion as I tend to my travel bag, the pain relentlessly pounding at me.
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT51uduEwqL
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdJj7i7wmp
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0LBoCPCsZ
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaR558ZJeTf
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBqvQxuQPN
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpyK780wRm
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0m2EPpZje
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodB7qD1LWj
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKNhztGTAB
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzZg95fcfl
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1KLk2LLR7
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVq8lryFGDd
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLzTJUt3Wg
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4r2MNb2DRT
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9U3kzPmUp
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VS2jwRJEt
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlUAyc5udN
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fmseFfdV1
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu01xjxgXwQ
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42BCdiRFpv
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoo0rzce26H
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrwfzouRVe
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11pKzcUc4X
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmEen1JBt8
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYQvAp3U3S
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHo1liAHzO
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNjgXKokIs
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmExWBlW3s
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYdAVqWBTn
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTygLycyM9
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWJcg1SJnX
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKSDqDSTjp
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFnpz572U2
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpU6LQqlfG
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmc2Ib4l8He
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYX0xzVrcCz
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmcHO3ipQ9
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUpxtGooT6
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRO13SIcam
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEy17iLbhnM
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5bvMia1Uh
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5NsM8EGpK
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOx15XeWaz
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCOAVRbeim
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJSEFbYdU7
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqz0gts6WA3
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPJz6xhlZh
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjHs5NLutQ
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Pbbl1FpMu
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8uc0kqiJZ
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02Hdpt60Ry
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKDj1YqbPB
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeclGgU8RVc
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIC7jRuMcu1
410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIwYa8CgCq
Fuck this life.
ns3.147.2.160da2
