第十一章 承諾篇 第十四回 諮詢70Please respect copyright.PENANA6ruWHHY3v1
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鍾媽媽看著情緒日記70Please respect copyright.PENANA4SvKlpUPy1
發現李湘渝這幾個月來70Please respect copyright.PENANALyuOSg34Mf
都過度積極的控制情緒70Please respect copyright.PENANAP0wYJ74Ere
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雖然發作的頻率有點減少70Please respect copyright.PENANAYZkBEXsYj1
但始終幻覺痛的情況令人擔憂70Please respect copyright.PENANALmJZJnlvkb
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「傷口的幻覺痛頻率如何?」70Please respect copyright.PENANA0X0hoB42I0
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「每天都有…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAKHwc8e1LxK
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「比起剛出院70Please respect copyright.PENANAgSO1WStGJO
或上個月70Please respect copyright.PENANAqAgoZchsdO
有好轉嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAy9waq8pVbw
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「好像…差不多…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAeg9PfrhAI4
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「十級的話70Please respect copyright.PENANAB84jTg2hxa
有多少級痛?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAPQJnVr4qnU
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「大概…有試過持續七至八級左右70Please respect copyright.PENANA6j9LCZYCO5
試過幾次真的很痛…」70Please respect copyright.PENANA1eEiLljFLV
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鍾媽媽看了看李湘渝勉強的笑容70Please respect copyright.PENANA6Hs5RDgYBo
掩飾不了他憔悴及不安的眼神70Please respect copyright.PENANAC7qIQFYurw
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「已持續兩個月了70Please respect copyright.PENANASlRWne1Drm
是吧?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAovdIcbbyb9
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「嗯…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAJVzSv3nz5b
李湘渝點點頭70Please respect copyright.PENANAcmiO3XPgUb
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小時候的事70Please respect copyright.PENANANYgtAdv4zg
實在記得太清楚70Please respect copyright.PENANAE3dHAjI87x
印象太深刻70Please respect copyright.PENANAq01BGtKTZG
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而且幻覺痛發作的時候70Please respect copyright.PENANADYLHVIYyzk
彷彿提醒著自己70Please respect copyright.PENANAIcpbsMH2xi
不斷的重溫事發經過70Please respect copyright.PENANAkZpMtgSesw
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加上被陳俊言和洪文健的欺凌和恐嚇70Please respect copyright.PENANAJzR1QI0Qlv
精神一直都維持在繃緊的狀態70Please respect copyright.PENANAdssDXkqqC9
沒有一刻可以放鬆下來70Please respect copyright.PENANA7xwH9cATlh
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鍾媽媽再次仔細翻看著70Please respect copyright.PENANA7pCl1LVBkc
自從幻聽出現後的日記70Please respect copyright.PENANAH4IeFZsrxd
看得出李湘渝心裡70Please respect copyright.PENANAEL3jIbID9C
是極度的恐慌70Please respect copyright.PENANAou79pczTM0
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從字裡行間裡70Please respect copyright.PENANAvOJDxZb45x
李湘渝透露出的是70Please respect copyright.PENANAsCJst2pqKl
逃避現實70Please respect copyright.PENANAqxGCLE5rCa
置之不理70Please respect copyright.PENANAxoKNUV4qhc
過份抑壓情緒70Please respect copyright.PENANAotp61bjiWn
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「湘渝70Please respect copyright.PENANAnsJOtkRQpF
欺騙誰也可以70Please respect copyright.PENANAW8BOseO9UU
但就是不能欺騙自己70Please respect copyright.PENANAMcVhG7uLGb
要對自己誠實」70Please respect copyright.PENANAGlnF2LOAAW
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「嗯…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAbvCZqujnkc
李湘渝低著頭70Please respect copyright.PENANArTEs5cDCf5
點了一下頭70Please respect copyright.PENANADOVakhIK9X
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「有點勉強自己了嗎?70Please respect copyright.PENANAsU7ALsFqnQ
在逃避嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAPwvYvRbNCi
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李湘渝沉默著70Please respect copyright.PENANAiBw3adFtsE
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鍾媽媽也安靜的觀察他的微表情70Please respect copyright.PENANAWbBrQ5WI5N
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李湘渝思考了一會70Please respect copyright.PENANAsROBc2Zpa1
點了點頭70Please respect copyright.PENANAVbMZz1KmFt
「嗯…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAQWih5hsFuf
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「有什麼原因70Please respect copyright.PENANA2fJBGO3BPF
令你想逃避?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAuAjYH7p5CI
鍾媽媽溫柔的說70Please respect copyright.PENANAjq6atu0g88
「或者70Please respect copyright.PENANACzDVospwiz
最近有沒有事情想跟我分享?」70Please respect copyright.PENANADbewKwUxUa
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李湘渝低著頭70Please respect copyright.PENANAYoNpeMXuOz
手按在昨天傷口的位置上70Please respect copyright.PENANAaslGVPUtq1
「我…」70Please respect copyright.PENANArCrf83K2ti
突然低壓情緒湧了上來70Please respect copyright.PENANAfcEAVjHm1K
「很…70Please respect copyright.PENANAo7ZpcpHPg1
累了…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAYHBYyP5kx8
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「所以昨天70Please respect copyright.PENANAYAfXoVdPes
控制不住要傷害自己嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANA0KBJS6G6uv
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李湘渝點了點頭70Please respect copyright.PENANA2iNigAK3sQ
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「昨天有過輕生的念頭嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAJylQ2SbG9n
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李湘渝的眼流湧出來了70Please respect copyright.PENANAfBjRqLIHn1
抹著眼淚70Please respect copyright.PENANAdrRlSQZcYW
搖著頭否認70Please respect copyright.PENANANMHoGYKHhw
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鍾媽媽昨天看到他的情況和反應70Please respect copyright.PENANAU7mAun6Y9q
已經知道他經歷過想結束自己生命的掙扎70Please respect copyright.PENANA83fy9l1GJ8
只不過在鍾天程面前70Please respect copyright.PENANA3PxHWR16Ay
不適宜直接問他70Please respect copyright.PENANA8x4LmC08S2
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「在這裡說的話70Please respect copyright.PENANAK16mVSA27w
我是不會跟天程說的」70Please respect copyright.PENANAQnaqR0Frmq
鍾媽媽知道礙於身份問題70Please respect copyright.PENANAaDJvp6vQ6O
李湘渝開始對她有所保留和隱瞞70Please respect copyright.PENANAVICLgLCxdB
「你可以放心的告訴我70Please respect copyright.PENANAhx988gZthm
我有責任保障你的私隱70Please respect copyright.PENANACs9BLm4w6L
就算他是我的兒子70Please respect copyright.PENANAOt7Yy38Tbi
我也不可以告訴他70Please respect copyright.PENANACFdqf8YL8P
這是我的專業操守」70Please respect copyright.PENANAke8UoRFKy7
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李湘渝繼續低著頭70Please respect copyright.PENANAKC11bD1YYL
「對不起…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAvpDiPPbkH6
為自己的撒謊而道歉70Please respect copyright.PENANAa8WhHvq50y
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「乖孩子70Please respect copyright.PENANA1TkqvDvBg4
不要怕去面對70Please respect copyright.PENANA6fbT1jImSR
要坦誠接受自己的情緒70Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5CKFVDT34
知道嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAVLarDGWHaK
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李湘渝沉默了一會70Please respect copyright.PENANACNw2RoW2WX
緩緩的說著70Please respect copyright.PENANAtwr3SFCREc
「我…很怕…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAwUrU5t6BJS
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「你在怕什麼?」70Please respect copyright.PENANADe1qtmOcQE
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李湘渝的思緒有點混亂70Please respect copyright.PENANAG121vgp1UX
「不…不知道…70Please respect copyright.PENANArsXQbKPuJJ
就是…很怕…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAGiKWcw2nYj
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鍾媽媽安靜的讓他說70Please respect copyright.PENANAlnwIpxLJRg
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「真的…很討厭自己…70Please respect copyright.PENANAnQuPL3RAsf
很麻煩…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAqEByQtlASP
李湘渝忍哭著說70Please respect copyright.PENANA5284Oe2USq
眼睛和鼻子也迅速的紅起來70Please respect copyright.PENANAPOHfPgdsYb
「我真的…70Please respect copyright.PENANAR1eiGfwQAW
一點用處也沒有…70Please respect copyright.PENANAb3mzzJzFe9
我是…一個負累…」70Please respect copyright.PENANACQaasZ3g3h
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鍾媽媽聽著也心痛起來70Please respect copyright.PENANAX56rb7F8dv
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「我知…我不可以這樣想…70Please respect copyright.PENANAOaLwoj29zx
我也想…拋棄這個想法…70Please respect copyright.PENANAwtNlOFQijK
可是…我…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAnDWgoEZUG1
李湘渝看著鍾媽媽70Please respect copyright.PENANASywDnbs6bF
「我…做不到…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAlgdGh9d5hT
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鍾媽媽點頭示意明白70Please respect copyright.PENANAMyHACWTgWp
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「我…真的…70Please respect copyright.PENANA9eAgF4gvvx
很累…了啊…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAdexoJmwan2
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「可以告訴我嗎?70Please respect copyright.PENANASSi9Ym4gVN
昨天的經過是怎樣的?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAzKEbpdbp8k
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李湘渝愣了一下70Please respect copyright.PENANAghOUeurVe5
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鍾媽媽慢慢的引導他70Please respect copyright.PENANAtEHBL73jkP
「是幻覺痛了嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANA1gxFKcRHUl
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「昨天…傷口很痛…70Please respect copyright.PENANAMIeTVFWj1Q
痛了很久…70Please respect copyright.PENANAFXYYjVEcQm
整個下午都在痛…70Please respect copyright.PENANAoXFseZiTP5
痛得…70Please respect copyright.PENANAKbqbXuzh5D
那鐵枝好像仍然插在背部那樣…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAlGjtnRZzvh
李湘渝慢慢的說出來70Please respect copyright.PENANAvoPOi7qKon
哽咽著70Please respect copyright.PENANAGw5I6XiUEG
「我…真的…70Please respect copyright.PENANA0DfXTUoRF4
忍受不了…70Please respect copyright.PENANAHbwB53TESZ
不想再忍受下去了…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAPDXKgasaXl
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「然後你用了什麼傷害自己?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAEWJHzvTyEw
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「我在書枱上70Please respect copyright.PENANAudV9YIHFPY
隨便拿起了鐵尺70Please respect copyright.PENANAYAlxmT1UVn
便開始…弄痛自己…」70Please respect copyright.PENANArLYLFjQTOO
李湘渝回想著昨晚70Please respect copyright.PENANAazsbV7Quc8
那種痛好像又要開始了70Please respect copyright.PENANACmpcjGxRPo
「好像…變得沒那麼痛了…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAEUA48PUSOo
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鍾媽媽坐近一點70Please respect copyright.PENANAZXT9SsgL29
「然後?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAxYWnrTS9hS
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「然後…又變得很痛…70Please respect copyright.PENANAwVs9km8qEI
全身也在痛…70Please respect copyright.PENANAog82JeKqDM
很辛苦…」70Please respect copyright.PENANA7mbpd9qOEo
李湘渝握緊了拳頭70Please respect copyright.PENANAVvFL0K8WdC
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「嗯」70Please respect copyright.PENANAJRmVTHc2SU
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「我想…用鎅刀…70Please respect copyright.PENANAAvDBXqbK55
在手腕上…割一下…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAEhofTQWbSm
李湘渝哭了出來70Please respect copyright.PENANAZKLaMgAIa6
「那…我便…以後…70Please respect copyright.PENANApGgbzuo9xS
都不用再痛了…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAZB2tpf3ww1
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鍾媽媽專業的保持冷靜70Please respect copyright.PENANAAvdsgQQfLj
停頓一下70Please respect copyright.PENANAUomHeSKESG
再續問70Please respect copyright.PENANAfYpHT7gMVe
「是發生了什麼事70Please respect copyright.PENANARhkkhTIhoL
讓你停下來嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANABJzMlC8c5C
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「我…在筆袋裡找著…70Please respect copyright.PENANAFdZWThyzV7
看到了…70Please respect copyright.PENANAoQJyOal4tP
師兄…寫給我的信…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAVSiKm3sFAT
李湘渝激動的哭著70Please respect copyright.PENANANbVauPssiz
「是他…的…信…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAFiYX7v2GMJ
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鍾媽媽心也揪著的痛70Please respect copyright.PENANAOTruDeDeUo
給李湘渝遞上了紙巾70Please respect copyright.PENANAt3L2qOgpog
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「你看到了天程給你的信70Please respect copyright.PENANAKycTCyBSyk
然後便停了下來70Please respect copyright.PENANAEETzQ4Pakr
對嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAUYtpzuPKfL
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李湘渝接過紙巾70Please respect copyright.PENANAy1QTOGKh9H
點著頭70Please respect copyright.PENANA3cDjTmm5Ym
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「那封信令你想起了什麼?70Please respect copyright.PENANAlFiRJaO46W
促使你停下來70Please respect copyright.PENANA2cingMUwcF
令你選擇繼續忍受痛苦」70Please respect copyright.PENANAoI4UherZQO
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「我記得…70Please respect copyright.PENANAlko5ZWqPIG
無論我怎樣放棄自己…70Please respect copyright.PENANAb8sIsvKZDg
他都會…在我的身邊…70Please respect copyright.PENANAZD6ujrBGJP
不會離棄我…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAOLvjAi82eg
李湘渝痛哭著說70Please respect copyright.PENANAjugWpJSDCa
「上次…爸爸打我那晚…70Please respect copyright.PENANASvJoAMsYSb
是他說…70Please respect copyright.PENANAHcNjYgj2Yz
明明知道了…看到了…70Please respect copyright.PENANAtvYdeZAxan
不能什麼也不做…70Please respect copyright.PENANA6FWsuSai7H
便讓我回家去…」70Please respect copyright.PENANA3cKaydnKD9
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鍾媽媽聽著李湘渝的宣洩70Please respect copyright.PENANABMwvv19xwV
感歎著愛情的力量70Please respect copyright.PENANAVR7FGePwNj
影響力實在很大70Please respect copyright.PENANAnbIk4FNXSK
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幸而鍾天程的愛70Please respect copyright.PENANAXVYPBiZAx4
能夠承載著這個重擔70Please respect copyright.PENANAb0JI1k1YWi
分擔著李湘渝的壓力70Please respect copyright.PENANARKWvUVly0E
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而李湘渝亦從鍾天程的愛裡70Please respect copyright.PENANAjaU9U6HCPf
得到了很強的力量70Please respect copyright.PENANA6N0CVKV0Dp
有了寄託70Please respect copyright.PENANA4Q2GXIPxb0
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要不然70Please respect copyright.PENANA12D9A1GdpE
李湘渝可能早在幾個月前70Please respect copyright.PENANAMvv6ddE0D9
已經離開了這個世界70Please respect copyright.PENANAJbfrfnTrKH
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「我知道…如果那個時候…70Please respect copyright.PENANAmKnYXXD6UO
他在我的旁邊的話…70Please respect copyright.PENANAWnsiXDevX0
他會毫不猶豫的…70Please respect copyright.PENANAbas91z6N88
抱著我…70Please respect copyright.PENANAv8czwc30xg
不讓我傷害自己…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAPaGcrZDB0C
李湘渝仍在痛哭著70Please respect copyright.PENANAj5gFDfcOgQ
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鍾媽媽坐在李湘渝的旁邊70Please respect copyright.PENANAEZOwLFwgIC
握著他的手70Please respect copyright.PENANAsgMzPz0rhQ
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「我還記得…70Please respect copyright.PENANAQmOKvyDs0O
在天台那時…70Please respect copyright.PENANA4DYCb6wp7a
他…70Please respect copyright.PENANAsJkknmHaU3
他……」70Please respect copyright.PENANAfjcQ7ZtlGi
李湘渝泣不成聲70Please respect copyright.PENANA8gdjv6N41L
覺得自己愧對了鍾天程70Please respect copyright.PENANAyls8WCZq7g
不斷的哭著70Please respect copyright.PENANA7jIKrCayZF
哭得難以呼吸70Please respect copyright.PENANA3BRNPqPwsg
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鍾媽媽讓李湘渝盡情發洩悲痛70Please respect copyright.PENANAjQDm0bhi5u
輕掃著他的背70Please respect copyright.PENANAwyESyIzATs
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一會70Please respect copyright.PENANAow4dqgQNFK
待李湘渝情緒平伏後70Please respect copyright.PENANALwrgw0bZda
鍾媽媽溫柔的說70Please respect copyright.PENANAMZT7R6ASiX
「謝謝你對我誠實70Please respect copyright.PENANApwj5KymmYI
亦謝謝你選擇繼續活著」70Please respect copyright.PENANAOfYLQVzxaj
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李湘渝低著頭70Please respect copyright.PENANANQFwiPF1Go
擦著眼睛70Please respect copyright.PENANA0Ulp4M6NEB
「不…我…70Please respect copyright.PENANAHia7l8U68w
很沒用…」70Please respect copyright.PENANAOh89gMroNs
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「湘渝70Please respect copyright.PENANAJfjPV1Urgu
你真的很勇敢70Please respect copyright.PENANAmiXZTjPSpw
而且70Please respect copyright.PENANAkpWokzoqkv
你也有很堅強的信念70Please respect copyright.PENANAtXFOIG1h3O
只是一時有點迷失70Please respect copyright.PENANAvbRT4U5Cn6
加上幻覺痛70Please respect copyright.PENANA4V9xNOqcZi
令你軟弱了」70Please respect copyright.PENANAYNJ712sptI
鍾媽媽撫摸著他的頭70Please respect copyright.PENANAjIh4CHRNQg
「我非常欣賞你的堅強70Please respect copyright.PENANA5HXqsWIb7l
因為這是真的不容易啊」70Please respect copyright.PENANAAoG7Isow1K
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李湘渝慢慢的停著哭泣70Please respect copyright.PENANAT9FANAr6sz
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「這件事70Please respect copyright.PENANAcUfiwassh2
你有跟天程說嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAymSrK0lskY
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