第十一章 承諾篇 第十四回 諮詢195Please respect copyright.PENANA6Xm5CKD1dM
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鍾媽媽看著情緒日記195Please respect copyright.PENANA9QWSqVmvRn
發現李湘渝這幾個月來195Please respect copyright.PENANAPn3kSUP0x8
都過度積極的控制情緒195Please respect copyright.PENANAZKwwROzAce
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雖然發作的頻率有點減少195Please respect copyright.PENANAZfl2YSnHI3
但始終幻覺痛的情況令人擔憂195Please respect copyright.PENANAZQbSpbLyxc
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「傷口的幻覺痛頻率如何?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAWUAk516mLl
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「每天都有…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAZibnguLVzy
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「比起剛出院195Please respect copyright.PENANAp2lDUXbFxZ
或上個月195Please respect copyright.PENANAgJLCi5Imfw
有好轉嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAmig84Lt6Gi
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「好像…差不多…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAI067Re0eop
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「十級的話195Please respect copyright.PENANA1aCxz3iwMP
有多少級痛?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAuQzUosn2SF
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「大概…有試過持續七至八級左右195Please respect copyright.PENANAsJ1iubKkLy
試過幾次真的很痛…」195Please respect copyright.PENANALKQvgT7LJl
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鍾媽媽看了看李湘渝勉強的笑容195Please respect copyright.PENANAqOTxMY2l93
掩飾不了他憔悴及不安的眼神195Please respect copyright.PENANAvmeSxjoqEu
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「已持續兩個月了195Please respect copyright.PENANAuUOBpDR5ja
是吧?」195Please respect copyright.PENANA6Jrt4JSXgs
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「嗯…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAlpBv0WIHq7
李湘渝點點頭195Please respect copyright.PENANAU8MBGJ7KCx
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小時候的事195Please respect copyright.PENANA15H2tHIvJ6
實在記得太清楚195Please respect copyright.PENANAyKoIIJFWrZ
印象太深刻195Please respect copyright.PENANA7X3qShWnEL
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而且幻覺痛發作的時候195Please respect copyright.PENANAgY6oK6pRAe
彷彿提醒著自己195Please respect copyright.PENANAgh9X2lBpRK
不斷的重溫事發經過195Please respect copyright.PENANACYtsNy6DIl
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加上被陳俊言和洪文健的欺凌和恐嚇195Please respect copyright.PENANAntALb4ETXO
精神一直都維持在繃緊的狀態195Please respect copyright.PENANABcyPSHQSX3
沒有一刻可以放鬆下來195Please respect copyright.PENANAagVMGaZEMa
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鍾媽媽再次仔細翻看著195Please respect copyright.PENANAsAh8Qb4nHZ
自從幻聽出現後的日記195Please respect copyright.PENANAwhSBsATHkS
看得出李湘渝心裡195Please respect copyright.PENANATlKfdqYpCk
是極度的恐慌195Please respect copyright.PENANABFAhnnqGc0
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從字裡行間裡195Please respect copyright.PENANAYE6kS08n8d
李湘渝透露出的是195Please respect copyright.PENANAbsAkJv3LD8
逃避現實195Please respect copyright.PENANAHlhH2YMjdv
置之不理195Please respect copyright.PENANAfRS8vl4gCL
過份抑壓情緒195Please respect copyright.PENANAuJj7HWwEIO
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「湘渝195Please respect copyright.PENANAD0VFBSS6TL
欺騙誰也可以195Please respect copyright.PENANAREBkl4Ypz0
但就是不能欺騙自己195Please respect copyright.PENANAQrsvMgjpBv
要對自己誠實」195Please respect copyright.PENANARCudgpYzVM
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「嗯…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAIh1tsTQHUz
李湘渝低著頭195Please respect copyright.PENANApgYaquJtf3
點了一下頭195Please respect copyright.PENANA4UFxRHthQx
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「有點勉強自己了嗎?195Please respect copyright.PENANAK9OoTYTFNa
在逃避嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAKwaUGLGBtO
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李湘渝沉默著195Please respect copyright.PENANAn6QJthfOLC
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鍾媽媽也安靜的觀察他的微表情195Please respect copyright.PENANArxZHeCSHJX
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李湘渝思考了一會195Please respect copyright.PENANAsUqymKkizu
點了點頭195Please respect copyright.PENANAcpOgK932lr
「嗯…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAN9qBSs9XD3
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「有什麼原因195Please respect copyright.PENANAE4oUKYNu7a
令你想逃避?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAjFByzPzjlN
鍾媽媽溫柔的說195Please respect copyright.PENANAGH38yRAQ57
「或者195Please respect copyright.PENANAyl48RH8o2N
最近有沒有事情想跟我分享?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2c0GjJf84
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李湘渝低著頭195Please respect copyright.PENANAfO4W4yO8Zz
手按在昨天傷口的位置上195Please respect copyright.PENANACLoSaHyp8k
「我…」195Please respect copyright.PENANA8H7oXGIb9c
突然低壓情緒湧了上來195Please respect copyright.PENANAAiuYVjKKPm
「很…195Please respect copyright.PENANA4fMu9idm2B
累了…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAomoZKNauQU
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「所以昨天195Please respect copyright.PENANAnkv0nLWuZC
控制不住要傷害自己嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANATH6E5Ffufp
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李湘渝點了點頭195Please respect copyright.PENANA4wny2wyZ8n
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「昨天有過輕生的念頭嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAYCkJvLE19E
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李湘渝的眼流湧出來了195Please respect copyright.PENANA6AOcrGXgrF
抹著眼淚195Please respect copyright.PENANAA6INtIRwMT
搖著頭否認195Please respect copyright.PENANAU3lcH4ug3M
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鍾媽媽昨天看到他的情況和反應195Please respect copyright.PENANA0iQbQeTN0B
已經知道他經歷過想結束自己生命的掙扎195Please respect copyright.PENANA0d6lTR74j2
只不過在鍾天程面前195Please respect copyright.PENANADVzrlhchB1
不適宜直接問他195Please respect copyright.PENANATD9csphZVI
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「在這裡說的話195Please respect copyright.PENANAQlL75ZxIZG
我是不會跟天程說的」195Please respect copyright.PENANAGS7dXwXqEg
鍾媽媽知道礙於身份問題195Please respect copyright.PENANAlq9fCZ0ybz
李湘渝開始對她有所保留和隱瞞195Please respect copyright.PENANAMMiDQ6l7xV
「你可以放心的告訴我195Please respect copyright.PENANAp5P8wQCFT5
我有責任保障你的私隱195Please respect copyright.PENANA8KgkS4iYdC
就算他是我的兒子195Please respect copyright.PENANAvW1ZK4czbS
我也不可以告訴他195Please respect copyright.PENANAZyNlZeSqNn
這是我的專業操守」195Please respect copyright.PENANAnWy2xQ68DU
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李湘渝繼續低著頭195Please respect copyright.PENANApvnFaecMWP
「對不起…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAbJvJUyvAPL
為自己的撒謊而道歉195Please respect copyright.PENANAEjh5qDAIO5
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「乖孩子195Please respect copyright.PENANA2cTweHacFs
不要怕去面對195Please respect copyright.PENANAXiblH72OpB
要坦誠接受自己的情緒195Please respect copyright.PENANAyPAsJTivIF
知道嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAREk2SCPocq
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李湘渝沉默了一會195Please respect copyright.PENANA7gr6CymZOF
緩緩的說著195Please respect copyright.PENANAsqVyVrI6M9
「我…很怕…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAMJf5R6NO6Y
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「你在怕什麼?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAp3znjEDUn4
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李湘渝的思緒有點混亂195Please respect copyright.PENANA2056M7FQcT
「不…不知道…195Please respect copyright.PENANAgLOWRhlmAx
就是…很怕…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAzYpwgGcOLF
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鍾媽媽安靜的讓他說195Please respect copyright.PENANAt3Q4XurvRB
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「真的…很討厭自己…195Please respect copyright.PENANAEYwKoCDB1C
很麻煩…」195Please respect copyright.PENANA1Zdv8VL5EL
李湘渝忍哭著說195Please respect copyright.PENANAA2dDzJ5jZo
眼睛和鼻子也迅速的紅起來195Please respect copyright.PENANA5UhtUBZU7q
「我真的…195Please respect copyright.PENANA2qJIj5YJfJ
一點用處也沒有…195Please respect copyright.PENANAROVk2tX17y
我是…一個負累…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3GED2fU9y
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鍾媽媽聽著也心痛起來195Please respect copyright.PENANAhiRXEPjtZb
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「我知…我不可以這樣想…195Please respect copyright.PENANAdWMJC1cgcW
我也想…拋棄這個想法…195Please respect copyright.PENANAyH2I9jmSXH
可是…我…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAOC7dQ11ToZ
李湘渝看著鍾媽媽195Please respect copyright.PENANAIjdMPms1Po
「我…做不到…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAKDzn0EqPGL
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鍾媽媽點頭示意明白195Please respect copyright.PENANAAXI3m35crX
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「我…真的…195Please respect copyright.PENANAvDODBMiSyL
很累…了啊…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAgysQk3kMKE
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「可以告訴我嗎?195Please respect copyright.PENANAfHGmzIEhr2
昨天的經過是怎樣的?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAXahIaxT5fL
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李湘渝愣了一下195Please respect copyright.PENANARarwKtdPob
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鍾媽媽慢慢的引導他195Please respect copyright.PENANAH3RbbkgfFl
「是幻覺痛了嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANA03q14WkGDO
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「昨天…傷口很痛…195Please respect copyright.PENANAylnJo8Gs8X
痛了很久…195Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9Vzk3Bduc
整個下午都在痛…195Please respect copyright.PENANADSb2kYCeBP
痛得…195Please respect copyright.PENANAA717T7G397
那鐵枝好像仍然插在背部那樣…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAhVA4MDA3ck
李湘渝慢慢的說出來195Please respect copyright.PENANAxoptk60tEm
哽咽著195Please respect copyright.PENANA2epNSTKqbg
「我…真的…195Please respect copyright.PENANAV9Kazvlpv5
忍受不了…195Please respect copyright.PENANADwoecxsX1d
不想再忍受下去了…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAPokzTlzB1Q
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「然後你用了什麼傷害自己?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAilZ1ou27l1
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「我在書枱上195Please respect copyright.PENANA0rFEHtKkLC
隨便拿起了鐵尺195Please respect copyright.PENANAY3peCMPjYI
便開始…弄痛自己…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAohoRxkXLr2
李湘渝回想著昨晚195Please respect copyright.PENANAxbFCIjE9DR
那種痛好像又要開始了195Please respect copyright.PENANAsr0AVqRnHX
「好像…變得沒那麼痛了…」195Please respect copyright.PENANA0Bl4YKMikb
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鍾媽媽坐近一點195Please respect copyright.PENANAuhoqhLX7Uz
「然後?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAShKH1jGxuS
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「然後…又變得很痛…195Please respect copyright.PENANA7gO2kOGPCy
全身也在痛…195Please respect copyright.PENANAIzB0HU2cx0
很辛苦…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAdKSaxtIQqB
李湘渝握緊了拳頭195Please respect copyright.PENANABoiYFHHmVi
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「嗯」195Please respect copyright.PENANASSTpd3jHNk
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「我想…用鎅刀…195Please respect copyright.PENANAyLsNVz5fSK
在手腕上…割一下…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAvj4y1bn50q
李湘渝哭了出來195Please respect copyright.PENANA8mt8IDqtYm
「那…我便…以後…195Please respect copyright.PENANAlic4hANMCE
都不用再痛了…」195Please respect copyright.PENANA2EnL0t04ZB
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鍾媽媽專業的保持冷靜195Please respect copyright.PENANAgzt7zj2Mga
停頓一下195Please respect copyright.PENANAp2DFtNztCO
再續問195Please respect copyright.PENANA9OBenqX7AS
「是發生了什麼事195Please respect copyright.PENANAiTVMEx09AM
讓你停下來嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAu521tELkNx
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「我…在筆袋裡找著…195Please respect copyright.PENANAT1ii1NNpC6
看到了…195Please respect copyright.PENANAIBkNl97dUD
師兄…寫給我的信…」195Please respect copyright.PENANANdI7m7Gltf
李湘渝激動的哭著195Please respect copyright.PENANAMknSWXrKMd
「是他…的…信…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAYCDy8Mrwis
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鍾媽媽心也揪著的痛195Please respect copyright.PENANA6NAf5DrLsM
給李湘渝遞上了紙巾195Please respect copyright.PENANAFV4bF0DBPl
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「你看到了天程給你的信195Please respect copyright.PENANAaL04yR0hF9
然後便停了下來195Please respect copyright.PENANAWEMMThJAo8
對嗎?」195Please respect copyright.PENANAdLNF45YQuz
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李湘渝接過紙巾195Please respect copyright.PENANA3kDolklC01
點著頭195Please respect copyright.PENANAh2hS3roB8U
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「那封信令你想起了什麼?195Please respect copyright.PENANAgaYIOhl6Dd
促使你停下來195Please respect copyright.PENANA7sd8mezbpL
令你選擇繼續忍受痛苦」195Please respect copyright.PENANAHYYsI0i1JA
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「我記得…195Please respect copyright.PENANALJVIBqNLWr
無論我怎樣放棄自己…195Please respect copyright.PENANALZccfQKzyC
他都會…在我的身邊…195Please respect copyright.PENANAo3Aru5BLrs
不會離棄我…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAA6abFnwrtp
李湘渝痛哭著說195Please respect copyright.PENANAd7XxJ4kkHp
「上次…爸爸打我那晚…195Please respect copyright.PENANAp31OYJlAOT
是他說…195Please respect copyright.PENANAjQNtONpzU0
明明知道了…看到了…195Please respect copyright.PENANAkNBhAkfP57
不能什麼也不做…195Please respect copyright.PENANAqxCZin2u6q
便讓我回家去…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAWvjTUbAraa
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鍾媽媽聽著李湘渝的宣洩195Please respect copyright.PENANAD34lLnnx0M
感歎著愛情的力量195Please respect copyright.PENANAMMNaX9TVn1
影響力實在很大195Please respect copyright.PENANAf3Y8rEh8fj
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幸而鍾天程的愛195Please respect copyright.PENANAg5Z2OiZnqz
能夠承載著這個重擔195Please respect copyright.PENANAjcDMbyJxsD
分擔著李湘渝的壓力195Please respect copyright.PENANAxXDG9sxpfo
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而李湘渝亦從鍾天程的愛裡195Please respect copyright.PENANAgtRCRIpKYS
得到了很強的力量195Please respect copyright.PENANAFqB45m3uRm
有了寄託195Please respect copyright.PENANAZF1lmYFI2k
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要不然195Please respect copyright.PENANAxqz4xAyOT8
李湘渝可能早在幾個月前195Please respect copyright.PENANARE6MjMrwRU
已經離開了這個世界195Please respect copyright.PENANANzHOWkorQ8
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「我知道…如果那個時候…195Please respect copyright.PENANAstQKR2u4Z6
他在我的旁邊的話…195Please respect copyright.PENANAdtFUQOY1oL
他會毫不猶豫的…195Please respect copyright.PENANAtu3CS3zxux
抱著我…195Please respect copyright.PENANAVHt3zu3f43
不讓我傷害自己…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAyGOW8YqPE0
李湘渝仍在痛哭著195Please respect copyright.PENANAAGpbChm44T
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鍾媽媽坐在李湘渝的旁邊195Please respect copyright.PENANAKRq6IOKy7t
握著他的手195Please respect copyright.PENANAxtMQXtvzZR
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「我還記得…195Please respect copyright.PENANAWKDCDtd9Q7
在天台那時…195Please respect copyright.PENANAuhKXst7Vyl
他…195Please respect copyright.PENANAsOsZJ5lcFZ
他……」195Please respect copyright.PENANAhmNEWOJ4zp
李湘渝泣不成聲195Please respect copyright.PENANA6kshggIF9i
覺得自己愧對了鍾天程195Please respect copyright.PENANA7q9Bbybok3
不斷的哭著195Please respect copyright.PENANANXtUslFjGH
哭得難以呼吸195Please respect copyright.PENANAA9VlQ0kkwN
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鍾媽媽讓李湘渝盡情發洩悲痛195Please respect copyright.PENANAptg6quWOKT
輕掃著他的背195Please respect copyright.PENANA3X9pXp9ktX
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一會195Please respect copyright.PENANAEiY39T90Je
待李湘渝情緒平伏後195Please respect copyright.PENANAKQ61twEwWM
鍾媽媽溫柔的說195Please respect copyright.PENANAbKzS9ygu4F
「謝謝你對我誠實195Please respect copyright.PENANACDz04cRW05
亦謝謝你選擇繼續活著」195Please respect copyright.PENANAxxkZdrqYS9
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李湘渝低著頭195Please respect copyright.PENANAn2ci4C5JIE
擦著眼睛195Please respect copyright.PENANASnHJaFmkEX
「不…我…195Please respect copyright.PENANAbKwD1xKKRK
很沒用…」195Please respect copyright.PENANAyQcMSo8jWc
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「湘渝195Please respect copyright.PENANAhnzwJGBPDl
你真的很勇敢195Please respect copyright.PENANAyhib5UMopa
而且195Please respect copyright.PENANAcjnA0Iqkpz
你也有很堅強的信念195Please respect copyright.PENANA6dsuGVEWgA
只是一時有點迷失195Please respect copyright.PENANAVfGVQRYHTb
加上幻覺痛195Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9Zy5Tzwxk
令你軟弱了」195Please respect copyright.PENANAYYQ15MV1NW
鍾媽媽撫摸著他的頭195Please respect copyright.PENANAWQonDM7P83
「我非常欣賞你的堅強195Please respect copyright.PENANA5wPabtTXDI
因為這是真的不容易啊」195Please respect copyright.PENANAKl5gSNkysp
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李湘渝慢慢的停著哭泣195Please respect copyright.PENANAYzIvZlUuJm
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「這件事195Please respect copyright.PENANADlynfu9bwp
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