他們搶了他的錢446Please respect copyright.PENANAePHpkjtXfq
一次又一次,再一次,又再一次。446Please respect copyright.PENANAofjx8hStMp
同樣的台詞戲碼,在同樣的轉角每天上演。
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有慣性脫臼不知道有沒有慣性流鼻血。446Please respect copyright.PENANAu0cNOf3Nec
抱著頭蜷曲身體的阿正竟還有閒心胡思亂想。連被打都成了反射動作,大腦放空眼神空洞。446Please respect copyright.PENANAR3GuK43uik
充斥在鼻腔的是腥甜的鐵銹味,還有他們身上劣質的香菸味。446Please respect copyright.PENANAqXJ5aRVqyi
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「廢物、才這點錢是要衝啥毀!」帶頭的那個在離開前又轉身踹了他一腳,將空蕩的錢包往他頭上扔。「孬成這樣…嘖、真的是廢物。」446Please respect copyright.PENANALRIvngp7Rr
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等他們的腳步聲消失後,他才爬起來,拍不乾淨的制服跟他的臉一樣五顏六色。東西散落一地,他收拾著課本筆袋也把一身的狼狽不堪一股腦塞進包裡,看看手機屏幕上的時間邁開步伐奔馳在昏暗的街上。446Please respect copyright.PENANAqap0Isj4YU
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夜幕低垂,慘白的月光不是無人的街上唯一的指引。街燈下有一群一群的飛蛾,身後那一雙雙背上的眼睛注視著他奔向黑暗的姿態,茫然無措,奮不顧身。446Please respect copyright.PENANAlmquEW6sak
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打工快來不及了,這個月的房租水電費還差一點,家長座談會的回條還沒交。跑步時放空的大腦還是會被各種瑣事擠得亂七八糟,每一件事情都在吹著警笛──他快沒時間啦、沒錢啦、沒有辦法啦。446Please respect copyright.PENANAfwbsiEP067
咧著嘴的月亮也在嘲弄著他。446Please respect copyright.PENANAtnkQp0nOc5
快看你身後的飛蛾,小心別被牠們追上了。月亮說。446Please respect copyright.PENANAaHzHLSycbu
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果不其然到了打工的店,店長已經站在門口一手插腰一手指著他大罵。446Please respect copyright.PENANAsL68IAJ5ik
「看看現在幾點了!現在的年輕人就是愛遲到不負責任!要不是看你可憐早就開除你了!還不知道感恩…」低頭道歉聽著店長的碎念,手腳俐落地換上工作服後便立即上工。446Please respect copyright.PENANAeSRHPA9mCB
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點餐結帳、上菜收桌、帶位倒水、洗碗打掃、安撫客人,忍受喧鬧謾罵,清理喝醉客人在廁所的嘔吐物,應付半醉騷擾女員工的客人,微笑微笑拼命微笑。446Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9jFWnXwOu
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想想這個月的房租水電費、家裡空蕩蕩的冰箱、下學期的學費奶奶的看護費爸爸的酒錢。446Please respect copyright.PENANAbQsixlST40
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微笑、彎腰,再微笑、彎腰。腰再彎得低一點,嘴角上揚的幅度再高一點──446Please respect copyright.PENANAmDhgZs4ny6
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「我們先走囉,掰掰」446Please respect copyright.PENANA04UcDsUhrU
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一個回神,同事們都已經收好東西要下班了。燈關了大門也鎖了,剩休息室和後門還開著。446Please respect copyright.PENANAFfxH2IH9TJ
剛剛跟他說再見的女孩是店裡最資深也最會帶人的前輩,她一蹦一蹦地跟另一名同事相伴離開。446Please respect copyright.PENANAHAbz6HLG1E
「啊…好,掰掰」446Please respect copyright.PENANAG6b9WrP5jo
揹上包包正要走出後門時,突然被店長叫住「喂你過來一下」446Please respect copyright.PENANAq5DRy4Ph7j
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店長倚著門框點了根菸,抽了幾口開口道「你就做到今天吧。不要說我虧待你,薪水我多給你半個月。」446Please respect copyright.PENANA1qNXDEU3fs
「為什… …」446Please respect copyright.PENANAwusceKZIxK
「唉我說你,看看你身上的傷,附近的鄰居跟客人都在說你是在混的。我沒信啊還是讓你在這邊工作… ….可是,你想想長期下來對我們對的評價影響也很大,客人都不敢進來了,對吧。不要說客人連同事也怕你,這樣工作氣氛怎麼會好?」他把抽了半根的煙丟在地上,用鞋尖將它捻熄。從工作服的兜裡掏出一個比平常厚的信封袋塞給他「回家吧。別說我不照顧你,我自己也是有小孩的,很了解你們這些年輕人嘖,多為父母想想吧。」446Please respect copyright.PENANA5QQ7uFV9dP
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他立在原地,低頭看著左手緊抓的信封袋,肩上的包沉得他挺不起身。446Please respect copyright.PENANA7xUTYYlMGg
粗魯地把它塞進包裡,狠狠地甩上後門,上鎖發出的喀擦聲刺痛了他的眼眶。446Please respect copyright.PENANAREmodpweDI
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「… …廢物。」 446Please respect copyright.PENANAshBvhAMXPX
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這個月的房租水電費夠了,不用打工可以繞去搶特價品這樣菜錢也能省一些些,看護請不起了拜託隔壁大嬸看一下吧… …酒… …去他的酒!446Please respect copyright.PENANAIKfzQuI9V8
想到那張猙獰憤怒的面孔,他的左腿抽痛了一下。那隻瘸了的,再也跑不快的腿。446Please respect copyright.PENANAomNWFcPFdU
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「啪─」一記又快又猛的巴掌如雷擊甩在他臉頰上,瞬間就變得紅腫,嗑破的口腔內膜滿嘴的血味,連鼻子都有一陣濕熱感,液體滲入唇縫是熟悉的鼻血味,他麻木地想著。國文老師聽到用熟悉來形容鼻血八成會氣到吐血吧。446Please respect copyright.PENANAejJZlk349f
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「連個工作都做不好!現在做到被炒魷魚,養你這廢物有什麼用!!沒用的垃圾!你那甚麼眼神!該死、不給你點教訓你不知道厲害是不是!」446Please respect copyright.PENANAgT1vOxXZns
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啪─碰─唰─喀碰─嗵噠─啪446Please respect copyright.PENANArxl6NEXLd3
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腥甜的、鐵鏽味的、紅色的,從鼻子流下、含在嘴裡、咳出來的鮮血。446Please respect copyright.PENANAYjySmTRQjr
刺鼻的、劣質的、混濁的,飄散在空氣中、攀附在皮膚、從口中噴出的酒氣。446Please respect copyright.PENANArjWlZvejlP
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用上次買的肥皂好像可以把衣服上的血洗掉。他倒在牆邊,小心護著頭跟腹部,天花板上的吊扇搖搖晃晃地轉著,看久了還有點昏昏欲睡的錯覺。幾隻從窗外飛進來的蛾倒掛著停在扇葉下。啪噠啪噠。446Please respect copyright.PENANAugUWkbz6m0
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啊、好險有預繳了一個月的看護費。446Please respect copyright.PENANAlsvpqh2YEr
在血流進眼裡時他想著。446Please respect copyright.PENANAuryromfy2I
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人是很有韌性的生物。446Please respect copyright.PENANArLV6jwnHJj
在他拖著滿是傷痕五顏六色十分精采的身體走進教室,聽到來自四周細小的議論聲時,有點感嘆的想著。446Please respect copyright.PENANA0R5W13LgP6
「喂、畢旅同意書就剩你還沒交了」帶著眼鏡的班長到他的座位旁,敲了敲桌子「有帶的話就趕快拿出來吧。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAHJDBujeIkp
他摸索書包翻出一張被折疊再折疊的同意書,看也不看就交了出去。446Please respect copyright.PENANAMM2T7tXkM7
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「老師叫你去辦公室找他。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAChDdLsAu4r
午餐時間他剛要離開教室,就被抱著一疊考卷回來的班長叫住。446Please respect copyright.PENANA7fapk8l5e7
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他點點頭表示聽到,拎著裝有午餐的提袋一拐一拐地前往三樓的導師室。446Please respect copyright.PENANAyIXJBTz8Jc
「報告。」他喊了聲,環顧整間辦公室只有兩名老師,他們班的導師在位子上邊吃便當邊看電腦,另一名老師已經悠哉地喝起了剛煮好的咖啡。
「哦,你來了啊。來、坐這邊,老師有些話想跟你聊聊。」導師拉出一張凳子示意他過來坐下。「不要緊張,就隨便聊個幾句而已。老師我呢有些問題想跟你說。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAnMk5lC208N
他乖順地坐著,表面看來鎮定冷靜,但雙腳不自在地換了好幾個擺放方式,手指擰在一起,整個人都是緊繃而防衛的。446Please respect copyright.PENANAXOxDa6CiLi
「OK放鬆點,老師我平常也不是那麼嚴肅的人吧哈哈。」他撇了眼老師桌上的電腦畫面,是一群穿著短裙的少女們正跳著略帶性感的舞蹈,查覺到他的視線,老師尷尬地笑了聲,連忙將網頁關掉「哈總是得跟上你們這些學生的腳步啊,看看你們喜歡什麼。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAChbgJKWhhy
446Please respect copyright.PENANADHeED383Ut
「咳、高中畢旅呢可是一生只有一次的回憶啊,如果錯過了不是很可惜嗎?老師我啊真的很希望全班的同學能一起留下美好的回憶,這樣子不管在幾年後都不會因為當時沒去而會感到遺憾。青春可是要好好把握的喔!」446Please respect copyright.PENANA0eMBwp97VL
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「老師,我真的沒有興趣,我留在學校自習也可以。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAbNtDDmp79U
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「哇年紀輕輕的怎麼可以這麼固執呢?這樣可不行啊,不要馬上就拒絕老師。室友遇到甚麼問題嗎?不是說了,老師跟大家都是朋友,有困難隨時都可以跟老師說。」班導師揮動雙手、誇張的面部表情和高昂的語調,令人感到一股壓迫。另一旁喝咖啡的老師假裝還在喝實則早已將注意力放到這邊來,閃爍的眼神是打探的好奇心。446Please respect copyright.PENANAyk1YsfFYah
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餓到疼痛的胃,還有發出沉默悲鳴不堪負荷的疲憊身體,全部扼殺掉了所有耐性。韌性可以讓人苟延活著。但耐性不行──446Please respect copyright.PENANA6VkMoZLtAi
「對不起,但是老師我真的不想去。我放學還要趕回去照顧阿嬤。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAzsAJRKbv9l
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廢物。他想到那群人的嘴臉。你就是個廢物!連個屁都不敢吭一聲!446Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8dmNo6ZDk
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關上門的瞬間,依稀聽到身後傳來的聲音446Please respect copyright.PENANAkn5FtbNtDD
「真的是有夠不合群的,這麼難搞以後出社會怎麼辦。」446Please respect copyright.PENANA9H2pOWWWXG
「唉呦班上總是有一兩個這種學生,不用白費力氣去管他們了。」446Please respect copyright.PENANACvpJaUqQi7
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咳、不堪折磨的胃終於吐出了鮮紅的抗議。他把手擦在舊提袋上,將原本就很花的布弄得更髒了。
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今天放學後超市有生鮮七折的限時優惠。現在跑過去可以來得及。446Please respect copyright.PENANAOuiDV4Makj
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如果沒有被那群人攔住的話。
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「哈小廢物你那隻腿還要跑去哪啊。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAopg5C4HLZP
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這次被帶到了另一條巷子,不變的是被搶走的錢和倒在地上無力掙扎的身體。446Please respect copyright.PENANASMykWWHdBI
「不錯嘛,今天的錢比較多一點了。下次也要帶這麼多啊。」他們將那些錢在他眼前揮動著,嘲弄地笑著他。446Please respect copyright.PENANA6f8chWIUDf
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滿臉的血,停不住的鼻血。眼前晃著無數的眼睛。446Please respect copyright.PENANAMDcpQVDHTU
煙味、血味、鈔票和上頭油膩的味道。他聞到了。飛蛾死在火光中蛋白質燒焦的臭味。446Please respect copyright.PENANAZbcT98FSpH
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他今天沒有回家。446Please respect copyright.PENANA3qPntVEA0j
深夜在街上遊盪的他,制服上一堆髒污腳印,外頭套了一件不合身的黑色外套,還沒消腫的臉頰,剛止住的鼻血,怎麼看也都是會被警察帶回去關心的對象。446Please respect copyright.PENANAn6z2aGfRyF
可是今天沒有人,沒有警察攔住他,路過的行人也紛紛避開他。只有打量的眼神在他身上停了一秒到便又轉開。446Please respect copyright.PENANAuIhhAh3ihW
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他坐在速食店二樓的座位,點了一杯可樂,打開之前聽人家說過的援交網站,註冊登錄──性別男,身高177,第一次。附上以前學生證上的大頭照。446Please respect copyright.PENANAe5oSseWmOU
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「叮咚」不到20分鐘,一條通知推播上面是邀請訊息。1小時3500,房費對方付,沒有特殊要求,頭像是一雙白皙的長腿和火紅的高跟鞋。點進去看個人檔案,性別女,年齡30~39歲,位置顯示離這裡1公里內。446Please respect copyright.PENANAFZAHp1AfpZ
「叮咚」第二條訊息,這次附上了地址和房號。446Please respect copyright.PENANAAJvyEigKbR
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燈火通明的街上,閃爍著的各式霓虹招牌,店面展示櫥窗的白燈。沒有月亮。映照他慘白的臉的只有街燈。446Please respect copyright.PENANA8w0HjTpm35
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「本人比照片更帥呢,身高也沒灌水。就是看來是未成年吧。」長髮女子米色高領毛衣短裙,露出的一雙長腿倒是比照片上更有溫度,踩得是那雙細跟紅色高跟鞋。慵懶地靠在門邊,塗著紅色指甲油的指間夾著細長的涼菸,用一種看似漫不經心實則銳利地眼神觀察他。446Please respect copyright.PENANAlnxkNyVbdG
446Please respect copyright.PENANAyRjDRxT1iN
來之前他隨便找了間連鎖店買了件T恤長褲換上後,在藥局買了個繃帶OK繃處理好傷口,才到訊息上指定的旅館。446Please respect copyright.PENANAIgwFL2pNul
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「重要嗎?」他問。推開她半掩的門走進房內,偌大的室內,一張白色的加大雙人床直白地告訴來人的目的。446Please respect copyright.PENANAGhPH8wlU15
「不重要。」她將房門關上,落了鎖。「你先去洗吧。我已經洗好了。」她逕自走到床邊坐下,翹起的腿在昏黃的燈下顯得溫暖,但她一半的臉陷在陰影中讓人無端感到陰鬱。446Please respect copyright.PENANApcIJfXHoNo
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洗乾淨牙齒、嘴巴、手腳、臉、身體,把殘留的血跡洗掉。446Please respect copyright.PENANAi4TU5hnU4y
披上一旁旅館提供的浴袍,在鏡前停下腳步,很久沒有這麼看自己的臉了。446Please respect copyright.PENANASJR5Mrvcyo
年輕青澀,顴骨上有瘀青,眉眼深邃,鼻樑很挺但有一點不明顯的歪,左臉頰還是有些腫,下頷的線條冷冽得像是會割傷人。446Please respect copyright.PENANAN4ef49j6N3
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走出浴室,靠近她,低頭接吻,一切如此自然。446Please respect copyright.PENANAizr5HtOQic
他不是第一次覺得肌膚感到火熱,但是是第一次沒有伴隨著疼痛。鼻腔裡聞到的不是鐵鏽味,不是劣質的煙味,是乾淨的肥皂味和她身上的香水味。446Please respect copyright.PENANAm4UAKzPWVX
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沒有人流血。446Please respect copyright.PENANAg4MaX7HqND
他們交纏著躺在一起,她把玩著他的手,輕輕撫過每一寸疤痕和經年累積的繭。446Please respect copyright.PENANAVvECZZLzTT
他四肢放鬆地平躺著,而不是蜷縮著。446Please respect copyright.PENANAT0l4tq2Zvv
她側過身觸碰他的臉,略尖的指甲劃過。446Please respect copyright.PENANArqE70kNMG1
他看著她抬起的手,手腕處有泛白的疤痕。
接吻,再次親吻,脣齒相依。
「那件外套不是你的吧。太大了,也不適合你。品味很糟。」她突然說起那件早就被丟在床下的外套。「丟了吧,找個沒人會看見的地方。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAx3DOVg2ey6
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呼吸停了一瞬。446Please respect copyright.PENANAlXG52ow3pW
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「抱歉我看了你的包,裏頭的東西趕快處理掉吧。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAlzTT2sP6Fv
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他又聞到那股腥甜的帶著鐵鏽的血味,還有縈繞在空氣的劣質菸味。446Please respect copyright.PENANAZtYulvwADX
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「你還這麼樣年輕,雖然有大把的時間但不該被浪費。」女子起身,長髮散在她光裸的背後。「不是嗎?」446Please respect copyright.PENANAfTbDbHIPLr
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「叮咚」今天手機的第三條訊息,收款通知,一萬元。446Please respect copyright.PENANAckN38f2v2S
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他發不出聲,在鏡中看見褪去血色的臉,試圖說甚麼張開的嘴,還有從口中湧出的蠕動著想要飛出來的蛾。446Please respect copyright.PENANAMmMLgfmM5U
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「你的學生證」她說「明年就要畢業了呢。」446Please respect copyright.PENANAFHfGC306mE
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