I'm a horrible person.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPjYQUvWYA
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgNbi75lYr
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4tT2IFypA
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMbFBW7B6F
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKp7Y30eBL
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVzXr2xMEJ
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGFtCj93Ep
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgK4FBrsCCE
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnlrCJyJMC
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22TtGbiwIQ
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQ7cBUTgpH
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AN1x28jzr
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZgnsHr1kd
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnWvTCVzzy
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ldjuYauUA
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9L8frCM4Kg
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHn2aF6ZqVv
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyUvH6EqHn
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmowmsTq68p
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33pbHsHVls
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIQFGygadA
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fkEvmOl8z
Of being lonely.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QT1NiJrYS
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHqmK5BRki
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So I take comfort in my own world.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dcfEosJd4
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcx5c985CE6
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjlfZBirU4
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnchT8IIUk
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmudYWbnmDy
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiPcQpqxf6
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJNOGURg0E
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7HdxtfrM9
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLPhprz7a2
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQ8BDuQQx6
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzmuuwsarC
I shouldn't even have been born.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla4cE9sgis
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkvc2gZ3e7
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