76Please respect copyright.PENANAoaSOC4Woca
──我想我是嫉妒那個可以和他擁有對等身分的自己76Please respect copyright.PENANAYcOdopzZQe
By 黑子哲也76Please respect copyright.PENANAvfRZlWVJ3V
76Please respect copyright.PENANARhjpinPTQn
76Please respect copyright.PENANAMEuD5wh74R
76Please respect copyright.PENANAV4HgZXOPld
76Please respect copyright.PENANA8N2j6zEpCW
76Please respect copyright.PENANAcicDZDvXob
「嘿──咻。」奮力地將裝滿紙張的箱子搬到書架的最上方,大功告成後,黑子吁了一口氣,露出小小的笑容。76Please respect copyright.PENANAvTmMeeneiU
76Please respect copyright.PENANAA5JxygMQiq
黑子甩了甩手,紓解搬書搬到手痠的不適感。76Please respect copyright.PENANAUnAxhNJrw1
76Please respect copyright.PENANAu62MB0FESJ
他現在所在的地方是綠間的書房,這個家裡面積最大的房間裡超過一半都是堆滿各式書籍的書架,不止架子上,包括書桌上、電腦旁甚至地上都堆著滿滿的書。76Please respect copyright.PENANAahtp0swhNf
76Please respect copyright.PENANAwwES1IxmC9
76Please respect copyright.PENANAFoUN2e4jSK
前面說過綠間生活習慣很嚴謹,已經到了近乎神經質的地步,照理來說書房亂成這樣他不可能視若無睹,只是最近太忙的關係,讓他抽不出多餘的時間好好整理下自己的藏書。76Please respect copyright.PENANAa17hwqYyfR
76Please respect copyright.PENANAVNB0oZ8JTL
然後堆在書桌和筆電旁的書就越來越高、越來越傾斜……76Please respect copyright.PENANAoxpB6ePcVs
76Please respect copyright.PENANAgIMrXLZ3aS
於是在好心收留他的綠間先生同一個晚上第五次被堆在腳邊的「書塔」絆到差點摔死後(沒辦法最近都在熬夜,眼花看不清是正常的),黑子自告奮勇在綠間去醫院的時候幫他整理書房。76Please respect copyright.PENANAMmsbATlLgq
76Please respect copyright.PENANAB2OqmKTxRr
76Please respect copyright.PENANAYyZCkZU1Q8
「《人體解剖大全最新修訂版》?果然是綠間君在看的書。」都好正經。76Please respect copyright.PENANA6yqsSFzDcu
76Please respect copyright.PENANACELtoYN2j3
76Please respect copyright.PENANAdTaZ7GRETi
把手上的解剖大全細心擦過後,依照分類放到書架上,這工作聽起來很簡單,事實上做起來卻比想像中的還累,黑子花了幾乎一整個早上的時間也不過整理好三分之二而已。76Please respect copyright.PENANAcEFO9CmI9n
76Please respect copyright.PENANAPqMPlf4S0t
雖然其中也有一部份原因是因為黑子遇到自己感興趣的書時就會停下來看看,聽綠間說,他還沒失憶前也很喜歡看書,還是一名頗有名氣的作家。76Please respect copyright.PENANAyfz7v3zquT
76Please respect copyright.PENANA73kpoF4nN5
儘管沒什麼印象,但他喜歡看書這點似乎一點也沒變。看來即使失憶了,大腦還是會殘留一些過去曾經留下的痕跡,不能稱之為記憶,卻自然而然的保留了下來。76Please respect copyright.PENANAnFmNYUnhp8
76Please respect copyright.PENANAMvyG2gHFkf
記憶啊……到底回不回得來呢?不知道是誰說的,記不起來的事物並不是遺忘了,只是想不起來而已,也就是說一定都還存在的吧?76Please respect copyright.PENANAw7tVQDNoDy
76Please respect copyright.PENANAp5JhuxsNEg
76Please respect copyright.PENANA146HHOeI4d
對了,那天高尾似乎有說過,他和綠間認識的時間比高尾跟綠間認識的時間還久的樣子……?76Please respect copyright.PENANAhEQVxWEfiV
76Please respect copyright.PENANAEnilt6DtAE
76Please respect copyright.PENANAgpjjeD1c13
其實從來沒想過綠間對自己是那種感情。黑子有些發楞的揉著痠痛的手腕,眼眸望著窗外和他眼睛同色的晴空,連他自己都沒有發現的一絲惶然從那張甚少有感情波動的面孔上掠過。76Please respect copyright.PENANA8HSR2cddHT
76Please respect copyright.PENANAIvgdeVD1RS
因為其實連黑子自己都不知道他對綠間的感情到底算是什麼了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAw4q9z9uoIU
76Please respect copyright.PENANATNs8JEUEqp
他失憶後第一個來看他的人是綠間,聽說也是綠間把他送到醫院的──雖然貌似是因為綠間就是撞到他的人──在他失憶後收留他的人也是綠間,在他懷著對周遭完全陌生的感覺時拉著他的是綠間,沒有因為不會做家事對他生氣,雖然說話不中聽卻還是耐著性子幫他收拾的還是綠間。76Please respect copyright.PENANA6ysoFQ7syx
76Please respect copyright.PENANADtywf0E1he
76Please respect copyright.PENANAUS7pyAyLPQ
太短太短的日子裡,可他卻已經對綠間有了太深太深的依賴。76Please respect copyright.PENANANVPsJbQPId
但這樣的感情可稱之為喜歡,甚至稱之為愛了嗎?76Please respect copyright.PENANAUejyDJF3TL
76Please respect copyright.PENANAmVnMIBzQkl
76Please respect copyright.PENANAFl8uDvrpyF
76Please respect copyright.PENANA7KqAj95pXe
不用高尾提醒黑子也知道,不完全的喜歡對那個驕傲的男人來說只是一種不尊重。76Please respect copyright.PENANAqvaN3sOU7M
76Please respect copyright.PENANAvLssiTZgq7
所以黑子很困惑,非常的困惑。76Please respect copyright.PENANAf8irGkWT4o
76Please respect copyright.PENANAaZZWRJFf0U
「啊,糟糕……」想得太入神導致手上的書不慎掉到地上,幸好沒有折到內頁的樣子。黑子連忙撿起來,卻在書櫃的最下面一層發現了一本看起來擁有頗久歲月的相冊。76Please respect copyright.PENANA05x2bw0oWf
76Please respect copyright.PENANAa6thSLgEcz
素色的封面,沒有太多不必要的花俏裝飾,儘管被放置在書櫃的最下面一層,卻顯然很常被翻閱,細心保養的相冊即使看得出擁有一定的歷史卻依然乾淨整齊,連一點灰塵也看不到。76Please respect copyright.PENANASgj5sUCicX
76Please respect copyright.PENANAgA87Bmw4RG
76Please respect copyright.PENANAUG9VQtotAG
「相冊?應該是綠間君的吧……」猜測著或許會是全家福或者是生活紀錄之類的內容,黑子好奇地打開來。76Please respect copyright.PENANAXrYEoFLoWe
76Please respect copyright.PENANABkIalHVZMa
76Please respect copyright.PENANAiCImWqZmh7
相片很多,厚厚的相簿算一算大概有幾十頁。儘管場景不盡相同,卻大多都是籃球場或運動館;每一張相片的主角不盡相同,卻可以發現幾乎都是同樣的幾個人。赤青紫綠黃藍粉,有著鮮亮髮色的少年少女在遙遠的過去、在每一張屬於記憶裡的場景裡露出燦爛的笑容,那般張揚的、鮮活的、充滿生命力的,肆意揮霍著屬於他們的年少輕狂。76Please respect copyright.PENANAJMnomFMfRh
76Please respect copyright.PENANAwPZqwkk2tA
76Please respect copyright.PENANAi8zrnr8Pg9
相片裡少年們都穿著寬鬆的球衣,水藍與白的底色上標誌著鮮明的「TEIKO」。76Please respect copyright.PENANAlYA8mEY2VB
76Please respect copyright.PENANAXgnOQQCdfW
TEIKO,帝光。76Please respect copyright.PENANAm4uxMjkDDr
76Please respect copyright.PENANArWPVUVxDqL
76Please respect copyright.PENANA5qAdbBamEQ
儘管模樣比起現在要稚嫩許多,但黑子還是一眼就認出了相片中的自己和綠間。76Please respect copyright.PENANAPAdAlxm4g1
76Please respect copyright.PENANANDKFviIAiF
隊伍中的少年,一個有著水藍色的眉眼卻存在感稀薄得不可思議;一個身材高大拿著浣熊信樂燒,一雙秀麗的翠綠色眼眸卻滿臉彆扭,顯然是硬被拉過來拍照。76Please respect copyright.PENANAixxoCQ44sm
76Please respect copyright.PENANA87ebJMgDMV
76Please respect copyright.PENANAXwgeZFLcfV
看了下相片背後註明的拍攝日期,這是綠間國中時期拍下的相片。76Please respect copyright.PENANA21qlJALpFz
76Please respect copyright.PENANAB9okInmCIw
也就是說,黑子跟綠間早在他們中學時就已經認識了。76Please respect copyright.PENANA0C32uFjBIT
76Please respect copyright.PENANAqQOHpyErL3
76Please respect copyright.PENANAF9xoiViEcw
難怪高尾會說黑子跟綠間認識的時間比他要更久啊……那是現在的黑子哲也所不知道的、屬於過去的回憶和時光,而那樣的時光肯定對綠間有著非常特殊的意義,從這本相冊被保存的如此之好的情況就可以知道了。並不是什麼隨便的東西都能讓綠間真太郎如此重視,在這個家住了這麼久,黑子不曾看過其他有關於過去的綠間的任何物品,不管事畢業紀念冊還是其他什麼的也好,可是這本不起眼的相冊卻讓綠間如此珍而重之地收藏著。76Please respect copyright.PENANA9csth2Yp1t
76Please respect copyright.PENANAjt43tNRMCw
76Please respect copyright.PENANAcPZH9pGb5H
懷著有點複雜的情感收起了那本保存良好的相冊,黑子繼續著先前整理書架的動作,只是思緒卻完全無法專注在這上面。76Please respect copyright.PENANAHBjLfv7K4Y
76Please respect copyright.PENANAPXaaAICGu7
想著那本相冊,想著相片裡神采飛揚的少年們,想著那個時候的他和他,想著在綠間最珍惜的過去裡佔著一席之地的自己,那個從前的黑子哲也。76Please respect copyright.PENANAkFJnqJKuCd
76Please respect copyright.PENANAJRK4T1sppX
黑子突然發現他居然有點嫉妒起那個和綠間有著不一樣牽絆的、以前的自己。76Please respect copyright.PENANAhVeyhFonUZ
76Please respect copyright.PENANAeCfc8XzWX0
76Please respect copyright.PENANAwWAMDcTeUp
76Please respect copyright.PENANA4sVUUJo8hM
76Please respect copyright.PENANAXKHe92JSHh
76Please respect copyright.PENANAaKblY55AO3
76Please respect copyright.PENANAtblBfOyOjh
TBC.
ns216.73.216.210da2 ──我想我是嫉妒那個可以和他擁有對等身分的自己76Please respect copyright.PENANAYcOdopzZQe
By 黑子哲也76Please respect copyright.PENANAvfRZlWVJ3V
76Please respect copyright.PENANARhjpinPTQn
76Please respect copyright.PENANAMEuD5wh74R
76Please respect copyright.PENANAV4HgZXOPld
76Please respect copyright.PENANA8N2j6zEpCW
76Please respect copyright.PENANAcicDZDvXob
「嘿──咻。」奮力地將裝滿紙張的箱子搬到書架的最上方,大功告成後,黑子吁了一口氣,露出小小的笑容。76Please respect copyright.PENANAvTmMeeneiU
76Please respect copyright.PENANAA5JxygMQiq
黑子甩了甩手,紓解搬書搬到手痠的不適感。76Please respect copyright.PENANAUnAxhNJrw1
76Please respect copyright.PENANAu62MB0FESJ
他現在所在的地方是綠間的書房,這個家裡面積最大的房間裡超過一半都是堆滿各式書籍的書架,不止架子上,包括書桌上、電腦旁甚至地上都堆著滿滿的書。76Please respect copyright.PENANAahtp0swhNf
76Please respect copyright.PENANAwwES1IxmC9
76Please respect copyright.PENANAFoUN2e4jSK
前面說過綠間生活習慣很嚴謹,已經到了近乎神經質的地步,照理來說書房亂成這樣他不可能視若無睹,只是最近太忙的關係,讓他抽不出多餘的時間好好整理下自己的藏書。76Please respect copyright.PENANAa17hwqYyfR
76Please respect copyright.PENANAVNB0oZ8JTL
然後堆在書桌和筆電旁的書就越來越高、越來越傾斜……76Please respect copyright.PENANAoxpB6ePcVs
76Please respect copyright.PENANAgIMrXLZ3aS
於是在好心收留他的綠間先生同一個晚上第五次被堆在腳邊的「書塔」絆到差點摔死後(沒辦法最近都在熬夜,眼花看不清是正常的),黑子自告奮勇在綠間去醫院的時候幫他整理書房。76Please respect copyright.PENANAMmsbATlLgq
76Please respect copyright.PENANAB2OqmKTxRr
76Please respect copyright.PENANAYyZCkZU1Q8
「《人體解剖大全最新修訂版》?果然是綠間君在看的書。」都好正經。76Please respect copyright.PENANA6yqsSFzDcu
76Please respect copyright.PENANACELtoYN2j3
76Please respect copyright.PENANAdTaZ7GRETi
把手上的解剖大全細心擦過後,依照分類放到書架上,這工作聽起來很簡單,事實上做起來卻比想像中的還累,黑子花了幾乎一整個早上的時間也不過整理好三分之二而已。76Please respect copyright.PENANAcEFO9CmI9n
76Please respect copyright.PENANAPqMPlf4S0t
雖然其中也有一部份原因是因為黑子遇到自己感興趣的書時就會停下來看看,聽綠間說,他還沒失憶前也很喜歡看書,還是一名頗有名氣的作家。76Please respect copyright.PENANAyfz7v3zquT
76Please respect copyright.PENANA73kpoF4nN5
儘管沒什麼印象,但他喜歡看書這點似乎一點也沒變。看來即使失憶了,大腦還是會殘留一些過去曾經留下的痕跡,不能稱之為記憶,卻自然而然的保留了下來。76Please respect copyright.PENANAnFmNYUnhp8
76Please respect copyright.PENANAMvyG2gHFkf
記憶啊……到底回不回得來呢?不知道是誰說的,記不起來的事物並不是遺忘了,只是想不起來而已,也就是說一定都還存在的吧?76Please respect copyright.PENANAw7tVQDNoDy
76Please respect copyright.PENANAp5JhuxsNEg
76Please respect copyright.PENANA146HHOeI4d
對了,那天高尾似乎有說過,他和綠間認識的時間比高尾跟綠間認識的時間還久的樣子……?76Please respect copyright.PENANAhEQVxWEfiV
76Please respect copyright.PENANAEnilt6DtAE
76Please respect copyright.PENANAgpjjeD1c13
其實從來沒想過綠間對自己是那種感情。黑子有些發楞的揉著痠痛的手腕,眼眸望著窗外和他眼睛同色的晴空,連他自己都沒有發現的一絲惶然從那張甚少有感情波動的面孔上掠過。76Please respect copyright.PENANA8HSR2cddHT
76Please respect copyright.PENANAIvgdeVD1RS
因為其實連黑子自己都不知道他對綠間的感情到底算是什麼了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAw4q9z9uoIU
76Please respect copyright.PENANATNs8JEUEqp
他失憶後第一個來看他的人是綠間,聽說也是綠間把他送到醫院的──雖然貌似是因為綠間就是撞到他的人──在他失憶後收留他的人也是綠間,在他懷著對周遭完全陌生的感覺時拉著他的是綠間,沒有因為不會做家事對他生氣,雖然說話不中聽卻還是耐著性子幫他收拾的還是綠間。76Please respect copyright.PENANA6ysoFQ7syx
76Please respect copyright.PENANADtywf0E1he
76Please respect copyright.PENANAUS7pyAyLPQ
太短太短的日子裡,可他卻已經對綠間有了太深太深的依賴。76Please respect copyright.PENANANVPsJbQPId
但這樣的感情可稱之為喜歡,甚至稱之為愛了嗎?76Please respect copyright.PENANAUejyDJF3TL
76Please respect copyright.PENANAmVnMIBzQkl
76Please respect copyright.PENANAFl8uDvrpyF
76Please respect copyright.PENANA7KqAj95pXe
不用高尾提醒黑子也知道,不完全的喜歡對那個驕傲的男人來說只是一種不尊重。76Please respect copyright.PENANAqvaN3sOU7M
76Please respect copyright.PENANAvLssiTZgq7
所以黑子很困惑,非常的困惑。76Please respect copyright.PENANAf8irGkWT4o
76Please respect copyright.PENANAaZZWRJFf0U
「啊,糟糕……」想得太入神導致手上的書不慎掉到地上,幸好沒有折到內頁的樣子。黑子連忙撿起來,卻在書櫃的最下面一層發現了一本看起來擁有頗久歲月的相冊。76Please respect copyright.PENANA05x2bw0oWf
76Please respect copyright.PENANAa6thSLgEcz
素色的封面,沒有太多不必要的花俏裝飾,儘管被放置在書櫃的最下面一層,卻顯然很常被翻閱,細心保養的相冊即使看得出擁有一定的歷史卻依然乾淨整齊,連一點灰塵也看不到。76Please respect copyright.PENANASgj5sUCicX
76Please respect copyright.PENANAgA87Bmw4RG
76Please respect copyright.PENANAUG9VQtotAG
「相冊?應該是綠間君的吧……」猜測著或許會是全家福或者是生活紀錄之類的內容,黑子好奇地打開來。76Please respect copyright.PENANAXrYEoFLoWe
76Please respect copyright.PENANABkIalHVZMa
76Please respect copyright.PENANAiCImWqZmh7
相片很多,厚厚的相簿算一算大概有幾十頁。儘管場景不盡相同,卻大多都是籃球場或運動館;每一張相片的主角不盡相同,卻可以發現幾乎都是同樣的幾個人。赤青紫綠黃藍粉,有著鮮亮髮色的少年少女在遙遠的過去、在每一張屬於記憶裡的場景裡露出燦爛的笑容,那般張揚的、鮮活的、充滿生命力的,肆意揮霍著屬於他們的年少輕狂。76Please respect copyright.PENANAJMnomFMfRh
76Please respect copyright.PENANAwPZqwkk2tA
76Please respect copyright.PENANAi8zrnr8Pg9
相片裡少年們都穿著寬鬆的球衣,水藍與白的底色上標誌著鮮明的「TEIKO」。76Please respect copyright.PENANAlYA8mEY2VB
76Please respect copyright.PENANAXgnOQQCdfW
TEIKO,帝光。76Please respect copyright.PENANAm4uxMjkDDr
76Please respect copyright.PENANArWPVUVxDqL
76Please respect copyright.PENANA5qAdbBamEQ
儘管模樣比起現在要稚嫩許多,但黑子還是一眼就認出了相片中的自己和綠間。76Please respect copyright.PENANAPAdAlxm4g1
76Please respect copyright.PENANANDKFviIAiF
隊伍中的少年,一個有著水藍色的眉眼卻存在感稀薄得不可思議;一個身材高大拿著浣熊信樂燒,一雙秀麗的翠綠色眼眸卻滿臉彆扭,顯然是硬被拉過來拍照。76Please respect copyright.PENANAixxoCQ44sm
76Please respect copyright.PENANA87ebJMgDMV
76Please respect copyright.PENANAXwgeZFLcfV
看了下相片背後註明的拍攝日期,這是綠間國中時期拍下的相片。76Please respect copyright.PENANA21qlJALpFz
76Please respect copyright.PENANAB9okInmCIw
也就是說,黑子跟綠間早在他們中學時就已經認識了。76Please respect copyright.PENANA0C32uFjBIT
76Please respect copyright.PENANAqQOHpyErL3
76Please respect copyright.PENANAF9xoiViEcw
難怪高尾會說黑子跟綠間認識的時間比他要更久啊……那是現在的黑子哲也所不知道的、屬於過去的回憶和時光,而那樣的時光肯定對綠間有著非常特殊的意義,從這本相冊被保存的如此之好的情況就可以知道了。並不是什麼隨便的東西都能讓綠間真太郎如此重視,在這個家住了這麼久,黑子不曾看過其他有關於過去的綠間的任何物品,不管事畢業紀念冊還是其他什麼的也好,可是這本不起眼的相冊卻讓綠間如此珍而重之地收藏著。76Please respect copyright.PENANA9csth2Yp1t
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懷著有點複雜的情感收起了那本保存良好的相冊,黑子繼續著先前整理書架的動作,只是思緒卻完全無法專注在這上面。76Please respect copyright.PENANAHBjLfv7K4Y
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想著那本相冊,想著相片裡神采飛揚的少年們,想著那個時候的他和他,想著在綠間最珍惜的過去裡佔著一席之地的自己,那個從前的黑子哲也。76Please respect copyright.PENANAkFJnqJKuCd
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黑子突然發現他居然有點嫉妒起那個和綠間有著不一樣牽絆的、以前的自己。76Please respect copyright.PENANAhVeyhFonUZ
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TBC.