I had a dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0SRfB8cVx
Come to think of it, it was the first time I had a dream about him.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cMQV5jFfL
When I opened my eyes, there was a black air blocking my view. Numerous colors, smells, and sensations disappeared at once, and in the sudden darkness, I blinked for a moment and realized that I had a dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsjqK9xvT2
Slowly, with a sense of reality, memories came back. I was in prison. This black darkness, the spirit of isolation alone, was my reality at this moment. I looked back on my memory with the senses I had tasted a while ago.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwqI4DnjKp
It felt strange. Usually, I rarely dream. Sometimes even if I had a dream, I would forget it soon after I opened my eyes for a while.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipIMrgHsE4
But I can't believe this is a dream.
There were still sight, hearing, and tactile senses left. It was the first time I had a dream of pretending to be real with a vivid sense.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rfM5bzMGc
As such, I was told that I had a vivid dream, but the first time I experienced it, I couldn't distinguish between dreams and reality for a while even after opening my eyes.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70GDDV2JLu
Where did you go?
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvq6OoI36Z
The body temperature that was held in my hand just a while ago. The scent that touched the tip of my nose, the soft sensation of the skin.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJqv3BK0PE
I frowned. It was hard to believe that all of that suddenly disappeared and that only this dark darkness was left in my hand. The world suddenly changed and I was thrown out of the world where I was supposed to be.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTKYmxZoUO
Suddenly, a violent anger rose. It was an anger that I had never felt before.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzabhK4mPhX
I felt like I was deprived of what I deserved. What was originally mine, something I believed to be mine, and I didn't doubt, they disappeared from my hands at once. And darkness remained there instead.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrCZuu0Kf5
***
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd95lGCijcC
I felt like I was living in a dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0cJD7XA4Y
Instructor Jeong said with an awkward face that I killed someone. He said that I killed two members of the department for a reason that was not great, and asked me to go to Eoryung for a few days, even formally.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSjcd5wPXY
I didn't remember. I didn't remember whether I killed a person, killed two people, or for some reason. However, when I heard that and thought about it, I think that happened. However, it seems that what happened was not reality, but in a distant dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcKhA2miTv
Yeah. I think I killed one guy in a vague memory. I couldn't remember the other one. I don't remember what happened. I was annoyed by what he muttered about. So I removed anything that bothers my eyes.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLMJFBdDkL
But was it a reality?
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG8tG3MMKz
I was surprised. The faint sense of that time still remained in the hand, but not in the head. It was like what happened in a dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaGX1xzHDx
No, I was living in a dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorusNvAU8I
I looked at instructor Jeong clicking his tongue. I probably looked quite desolate at him, who formally told him to go to the fishing grounds only for a few days.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXL7WdZHop
Instructor Jeong, who gave me attention, was seen frowning. It could also be seen that the edge of his chin was dimly hardened. Seeing the clear boundaries and anxiety reflected, I realized that I was hinting at him to live.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JE162kG4j
I was surprised once again.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZg3SSAnDU
Only then did I realize that I thought of killing even Jeong for a very short time. They were unconscious, so they were not even aware of themselves.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaJ9GrbZ4V
I thought it was annoying for a moment. But I didn't know it would lead to murder right away. Moreover, I can't believe it is.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdfuZ2WDq1
This is how I killed them.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElKaVbmozi
I couldn't remember, but I was convinced by thinking of the two men I killed.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIac61RT8Q
Instructor Jeong Chang-in was a fairly old friend of my brother. We've known each other for a long time. He was also an indispensable helper in conducting company work. So I never thought about being tough on him. This is because I know that there is nothing good about falling out with him.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rDSfB02WQ
Nevertheless, they spewed life on me without being aware of it, so there's nothing strange about them no matter when I killed them.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8ZHZQMWNM
I thought it was a little dangerous. If I stayed in this state, I couldn't tell who else would die in my hands without knowing it. I thought it would be better to be included in the prison according to what instructor Jeong said. I thought it would be better to isolate myself because I could avoid annoying things in the future. So I nodded gladly.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciykMHbOQP
Jeong Tae-ui.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FG5KRzBUP
I could pronounce his name correctly.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LGTCpJZhn
But the guy didn't seem to have noticed it. At first, it may have been because it was called Tae-ui as it was comfortable to pronounce. Sometimes I said it with the right pronunciation, but he didn't seem to notice it.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnP8PCfcHt
It didn't matter. I sometimes called his name straight and laughed to myself as I saw him answering, "Oh, why?" without noticing.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKdSdnvbmY
A long time ago, the guy who clearly said his name because the pronunciation was not accurate, how did it get so dense over time.......
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnu8Jupj19
I laughed at the dull memory, thinking that I would tilt my head and ask when I did it when he heard it.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KwTZpynsT
It wasn't bad. It was also fun to watch him while remembering by himself. At that time, it was delicious to see if he was this kind of guy.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fn328FOaR
I already knew his name before I met him.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHcAqc3U0k
As with the name I heard directly from his mouth when we were young, he was a famous figure in some cases. I didn't know and didn't dream, but there were so many people who wanted the luck of genius.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8PlsBoVC9
Me too, it wasn't enough to look for it, but I was curious in my own way. What kind of human mask does the famous Gilsangcheon wear? And when I encountered it, I was surprised by the mediocrity that far exceeded expectations.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyXTO83qOt
The appearance, tone, feeling, atmosphere, etc. were all normal. I calmed down when I saw the guy who had visited the Asian branch in a joint training session with the Asian branch, who was a member of the European branch at the time, entering the room assigned to me on the first night of arrival. Others called the feeling disappointment.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgivWBF7sKO
However, it was the very next day that the disappointment was broken and joy came out of the inner shell.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDigqEZt9w
When someone attacked me at the restaurant, he put a gun on me to prevent a person from dying. The judgment was correct. If he hadn't stopped me, the person who attacked me would have definitely died.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8CaqpmyyU
But despite the right judgment, I thought he was a fool for putting a gun on me. He already knew. Perhaps he heard rumors and watched the record video of the previous training. He already knew what kind of person I was, and he knew that his power was far below me.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcRFeHe3i7
Nevertheless, I lost interest in the guy who rushed to me.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldHHdRylZh
But what he put on me was an empty gun.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFaeCrNNXH
When instructor Jeong told me that story, I felt like I was hit in the head. And, even though I still think he's a fool for doing such a thing, I tasted the joy that burst out at once.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d9Jf2qhIu
So I was interested in him. So I got to know more and more. The more I dig it, the more interesting it is. And how much more interesting it could be, I thought I would know only after digging for a long time. The reason why Jeong and Jeong Jae have cared so much about him.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3HuldV0AD
I considered his personality foolish. But at the same time, I didn't hate that personality. It was normal, but it clearly set its own standards in that it was a line that people should keep. Also in relationships with others, there were certain criteria that were difficult to express in words.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKIQNPtQk0
I thought, "I'm a little in trouble."
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIpHZzP9FT
If he finds out the truth later, he will be angry with Jeong Chang-in and me. He'll be upset thinking I have used him.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0XD5YZJB0
As I got to understand his personality, I sometimes thought like that, and one day, I brought it up at first glance when I talked about something different with instructor Jeong. Later, when his nephew finds out about this, he'll be resentful.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoS3mnGxFJE
Then, instructor Jeong smiled with a difficult face. He sighed, saying, "I can't do it." Even this man, who doesn't show much emotion in a lot of things, cared about his nephew a lot. He sighed for a long time, perhaps bitter for his nephew to resent him, and continued to say, "But still."
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tLt64Rvgv
"Even if you blame me and get angry at me for a while, the child will eventually continue to meet and live with me. Even if you don't like it, you have no choice but to do so."
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO28iLbbuHh
Anyway, the child and I are family, fortunately, he laughed.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERxOTzNeKZ
At that time, I felt like I was covered in cold water.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68TgLxzg6Z
Even if he resents and gets angry, he is supposed to continue to be connected to Jeong. It was already reserved like that from birth.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ArGxU9Wu7
Then what about me?
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspwKZHorif
The moment I came up with the idea, I was embarrassed.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9OIioNKx8
There was nothing for me. Nothing like a link.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GBYCGqcT6
But soon, I changed my mind. Anyway, he is my second lieutenant. As long as I'm in UNHRDO, he's supposed to work next to me.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHaZoJt9tn
Another thing.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWFce91n2q
This is the reason why I think he's silly but on the one hand, he didn't hate people. Rather than not disliking it, he lived with that heart as one of the very natural emotions. Even if there were a lot of things, he would frown for a while and take it with a sigh. He grumbled, but that was all.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcbknkOhED
It was the same for me.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lq2otn7Kw
He had never expressed dislike to me. He often felt unpleasant, bothered, or speechless, but he didn't have a face that he hated in the general sense of "hating people."
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1JFtZXbC3
Even if he was a little forced, he would grumble that he didn't want to, but eventually gave up to do what I wanted.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsqoy6mYrw
Moreover, it was the same when I pressed him with force and attacked him. For the next few days, the man, who had always grumbled inside even if he was unhappy with me with his attitude of taking care of his life, was very angry, and he burst into anger at me.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ipNfr9Cef
Nevertheless, in the end, he opened his axe's eyes and sighed and was drawn back to me.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhq5B9tMCld
So, it was okay. Even if he resents and gets angry, it doesn't last long. He went around sulking to some extent, and it was a matter of trouble. Soon, his mind calmed down.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyfJPQX0O6
But then another embarrassment came to mind.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvMkNFd8Sd
Then I...
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QpRzBLHcB
I was embarrassed to suddenly realize that I had no connection with him. What does that have to do with it? I laughed absurdly with that thought.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc83qq3Y4ov
"That day, I thought I was going to die because my teeth were split. Do you know how terrible I hated being with you the next day? Let's not see each other again, punk."
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pyJwgGy0b
That's what he said that day. With anger in every word, he expressed the anger he had accumulated.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDy1qhy04Bb
I couldn't move. Maybe even if the hand was free, it could not move.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BG3CTBcfk
My mind faded white, so I couldn't think of anything.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtncJ9Q73t9
He said he was leaving. He said he would leave in an hour, and he shook off what he had piled up inside.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ82enIa1Ox
I looked at him vaguely. I didn't remember exactly what I said then. What clearly came to my mind at that moment was that he was leaving out of sight now, and the fact that he had hated me terribly so far.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmNHrNauJ4
As the accident slowly returned, I recalled what he said.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gGA3oJhrD
Ha, I laughed. Why? What's wrong with that?
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvdixRAv6a
But at the next moment, I thought my laughter was blurred, but after a while, it stopped.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5xSNQhDFf
I was furious. I felt a frighteningly intense murder so that I could fully feel what it meant to have a spark in front of my eyes.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstoPpXdHrd
I hate it terribly. I hated it terribly. The words lingered in my head. And with that remark, my flesh rose without knowing that it was over.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOQDgSce9I
I've never been so angry. No one has made me so angry.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPmBf4F0JY
I thought I wanted to kill him. I thought I should kill him. I was suffocatingly angry at the guy who disappeared after leaving only that behind. I vowed to find him, find him, and cut off the breath with my own hands. Otherwise, this anger would surely not have been erased for life.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTJopTjlFX
But his whereabouts could not be determined.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBG1shoTkw
And around that time, I couldn't control my emotions as if I were living in a dream, and I used to hurt people almost as close to my instincts without even capturing them in my memories.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eQkPg7VdL
Then I went into chaos.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoq1N16b1PK
***
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvRzj7VRPQ
The day before I came out of the detention, I dreamed once again.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1IAxLzTM0
I met him in my dream. Even in my dream, I was crazy looking for him, looking for him for a very long time, and barely able to meet him.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLEWZHwPEU
And in my dream, he said again.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOl55zgDEN
"I didn't want to meet you. I hate it terribly."
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNet1hzzRyO
Even in my dream, I was immersed in the terrifying anger that captured me in reality. So I killed him.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ytde57Dvw
In my dream, I killed him. I didn't remember how I killed him. But what is clear is the fact that I killed him. It was a dream that was infinitely close to reality. In my dream, I thought it was reality.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvm9kBg0Zwa
His voice had been heard. I could smell his body. The hot and sticky feeling of his hands soaked in his blood remained clearly in his hand.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrQSHMiNfd
It was already a reality, not a dream. There were no more of him there.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZ9I8SipGb
The dream suddenly disappeared.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvViZDFkwb
I was again in the dark of the spirit.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9wF9hvYLa
In that darkness, still unable to wake up from a dream that was no different from reality, I raised my hand puzzled. It was buried in the dark and invisible, but it seemed that there must be blood on the hand. I killed him with my own hands, and the blood of Jeong Tae-ui, who no longer exists, must be there.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe4n0m3Jyy
I may have screamed. I think I woke up close to screaming. But it may not be true. I could only hear it in my ears.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtX915lrMR
Wake up. Wake up, Ilay Rick.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUMBOKf6OH
He whispered, tearing the skin off my heart.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M0U7tdfYK
It was, like, the same sensation. The dream was the same as the reason why I entered the prison, the reality that I remember vaguely like a dream, and the one that killed someone as the instant anger led me without even realizing it. In reality, I killed two people as if it were a dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTHtxBhaLd
In my dream, I killed him as if it were reality.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeK8ZcMAAqo
I couldn't control my feelings. After he disappeared like that, I couldn't control my feelings.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lvtM7baAK
Wake up, Ilay. Wake up, Ilay Rick.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfvNfKkI0x
He yelled over and over again. Scream-like shouts filled my head.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tURpNcN1i
I had to. I had to wake up in this dreamy chaos. Otherwise, I would have killed him and said, without my consciousness, without controlling myself.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaqqt09qc9
Then, in the reality that came a step later, I will feel the shuddering loss I felt in my dream.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3VTgOuLBt
I heard a scream in my body.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UL23VtKYa
Wake up. Wake up, Ilay.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszDW5S680s
I no longer thought about what the anger was. The name of anger was not important. I was just angry, and I had to control that anger myself.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPEJEDG4FQ
After that, I had to drag him back into my hands.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9Q8Dmc4dt
I had to. Otherwise I would have lost him twice.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVHvsZXu31
That was the only important fact for me today.
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6UjDMatVq
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGbWiLAPo5
466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3x644ohL9Y
