they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,242Please respect copyright.PENANAa5GN7NjB1C
all in the same breath with no hesitation.242Please respect copyright.PENANAXMShHi5NpW
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later242Please respect copyright.PENANADaGBr1ghbu
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.242Please respect copyright.PENANAnzaJrOJdEw
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,242Please respect copyright.PENANAvIvBelEBDk
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s242Please respect copyright.PENANA1kzznJmhAR
but in the end they still withhold dinner,242Please respect copyright.PENANA1HYDOSnwFT
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.242Please respect copyright.PENANA0TuG0IKdnZ
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals242Please respect copyright.PENANAW42eYlCYSn
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.242Please respect copyright.PENANAl2AEMvlqlT
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch242Please respect copyright.PENANAmcn5LTf1jY
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.242Please respect copyright.PENANAmE4bEtbQJN
242Please respect copyright.PENANASAZR6zHRwX
bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,242Please respect copyright.PENANAWdq0uEnqlZ
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.242Please respect copyright.PENANA1TNNZo8Wzp
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief242Please respect copyright.PENANAWPu7Ux7Klu
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.242Please respect copyright.PENANAq6mkzrEdX7
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",242Please respect copyright.PENANAVJ8k1Ti0NG
said it was all mental and to just stop242Please respect copyright.PENANAYdrvD8w89y
but it was habits formed out of pent up242Please respect copyright.PENANAXQGz505csQ
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.242Please respect copyright.PENANArbrY3Wpx4S
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they said it was all in my mind,242Please respect copyright.PENANANUZ9MgqW71
the anxiety, the stress.242Please respect copyright.PENANAUHBde9Ybiu
that i had a happy, loving family242Please respect copyright.PENANAM3HZt5RzMy
and i was perfectly fine.242Please respect copyright.PENANAkuimm58vLh
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i'm not.242Please respect copyright.PENANAKeHW8jWSSf
i'm drowning in my own blood242Please respect copyright.PENANA2ylZckWkau
and choking on my tongue242Please respect copyright.PENANAq0zwxPcrav
when i try to say so.242Please respect copyright.PENANAuKEwWUdN7N
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...242Please respect copyright.PENANAg5pUSgxcSl
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(it's all in my mind.242Please respect copyright.PENANAS2WP1J1Cwo
every last drop of anxiety,242Please respect copyright.PENANAUD291j60my
i have a happy, loving family.242Please respect copyright.PENANAjYyuQ4zz8m
i'm perfectly fine.)242Please respect copyright.PENANAzrABlFkKN9