they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,342Please respect copyright.PENANAUEBz3sK1XQ
all in the same breath with no hesitation.342Please respect copyright.PENANAdF3zmT2kmF
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later342Please respect copyright.PENANAzCXUUUCN8e
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.342Please respect copyright.PENANAvlUpGs6I1b
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,342Please respect copyright.PENANA5VNou9ddoE
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s342Please respect copyright.PENANA7jpkvyEDjF
but in the end they still withhold dinner,342Please respect copyright.PENANAIX2V08MpU4
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.342Please respect copyright.PENANABuzNJ6GcKp
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals342Please respect copyright.PENANAGOeIEpcWUk
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.342Please respect copyright.PENANAdX3Hh6qbW6
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch342Please respect copyright.PENANACk90KjqORD
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.342Please respect copyright.PENANA0ON96U32sU
342Please respect copyright.PENANARslU9cojOb
bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,342Please respect copyright.PENANAGCYOIDrab9
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.342Please respect copyright.PENANAOeH8H2mrur
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief342Please respect copyright.PENANATLHu1rLxHB
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.342Please respect copyright.PENANAxUuZCh7epg
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",342Please respect copyright.PENANAWp7p29NpY4
said it was all mental and to just stop342Please respect copyright.PENANAM426lEMe3n
but it was habits formed out of pent up342Please respect copyright.PENANAiNTjPT42Sa
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.342Please respect copyright.PENANAn9beOCrSTM
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they said it was all in my mind,342Please respect copyright.PENANAGN6tcjZrRm
the anxiety, the stress.342Please respect copyright.PENANAWOuSZL5M42
that i had a happy, loving family342Please respect copyright.PENANAHKepZBuiX2
and i was perfectly fine.342Please respect copyright.PENANAOzQvTGUI8U
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i'm not.342Please respect copyright.PENANATCDlgFhAni
i'm drowning in my own blood342Please respect copyright.PENANAlICsJgpPMU
and choking on my tongue342Please respect copyright.PENANAccidqECBrh
when i try to say so.342Please respect copyright.PENANAmSowSZspRr
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...342Please respect copyright.PENANALqctYRgAff
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(it's all in my mind.342Please respect copyright.PENANAVvGAqOBQHg
every last drop of anxiety,342Please respect copyright.PENANA6KgQrGchqR
i have a happy, loving family.342Please respect copyright.PENANAGmN0F5pc4l
i'm perfectly fine.)342Please respect copyright.PENANAKnuaqA6zAK