they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,265Please respect copyright.PENANAwdt501LGH6
all in the same breath with no hesitation.265Please respect copyright.PENANAKT9dRQVbDO
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later265Please respect copyright.PENANAa9tDz5WBnF
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.265Please respect copyright.PENANAoK0wXGogz9
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,265Please respect copyright.PENANATLQ49P32KL
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s265Please respect copyright.PENANAZPqmWbYDnb
but in the end they still withhold dinner,265Please respect copyright.PENANA8lXYiNgiuu
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.265Please respect copyright.PENANAPbwOXgdD1U
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals265Please respect copyright.PENANArAFtuUrO4Q
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.265Please respect copyright.PENANAgliPRnQjK8
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch265Please respect copyright.PENANAYrhuMzwUFO
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.265Please respect copyright.PENANAdF5HqGbOaw
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,265Please respect copyright.PENANAuKVoemTORB
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.265Please respect copyright.PENANAqR89MKnoXr
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief265Please respect copyright.PENANAasxc9mh8zE
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.265Please respect copyright.PENANA69WOk1TDAx
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",265Please respect copyright.PENANAMN9sUXyWbw
said it was all mental and to just stop265Please respect copyright.PENANASR7AQQ9Rml
but it was habits formed out of pent up265Please respect copyright.PENANAIRyj2Z5ZSO
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.265Please respect copyright.PENANAt65u69VdLg
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they said it was all in my mind,265Please respect copyright.PENANAIpEOVXLjeq
the anxiety, the stress.265Please respect copyright.PENANAIBVswDPQrE
that i had a happy, loving family265Please respect copyright.PENANArz6XleAvl0
and i was perfectly fine.265Please respect copyright.PENANAzbauubOvyt
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i'm not.265Please respect copyright.PENANAZHS45yTPbw
i'm drowning in my own blood265Please respect copyright.PENANASUK2zmPMix
and choking on my tongue265Please respect copyright.PENANASE5QsTEOfX
when i try to say so.265Please respect copyright.PENANAhQKLbDr7D1
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...265Please respect copyright.PENANAvH7kzS4pwH
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(it's all in my mind.265Please respect copyright.PENANAiJDgl5WNKK
every last drop of anxiety,265Please respect copyright.PENANAgpNKxhbU90
i have a happy, loving family.265Please respect copyright.PENANAeHSjZBUQj1
i'm perfectly fine.)265Please respect copyright.PENANAdxcLw7tkGT