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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNPxIpMlB8
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「嗡隆……」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAHOT9FdWN
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvPtkqKhpf
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錯過尾班車了…呢。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlhq7e6NUv
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左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqH2pLfGKw
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4r6dVeRCbK
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvA7ZTzLhT
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdwlBj9vwM
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心情壞透了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0p3MiUYQ9s
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7u1dw8micq
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNBYp9sd3D
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……抱歉，我也不知道。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQWzqx1coL
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQp9Pq7EV2
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLF6qWxIEK
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「唉。」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn23JV3NTt2
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抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8nDqDDXnd
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsIN9dORiv
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwNob4k26F
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQ8GFQQT0L
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12Ei4UMRvE
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaY8WhcZNls
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbEmLIQPv3
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzlVlWSCXP
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7lJuDklou
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamY5bqVgRP
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6I12XifCrQ
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRt1gpDVhI
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpgHyiZtbv
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1WCUe6TTJ
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCOSH7ifQj
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvpKWMDQWs
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKaPQkDddO
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活成這個樣子，真抱歉。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UgIjIYHgp
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbr6eyVkDAR
本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJtPSHztFp
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「先生。」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlL7XULu0q
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPN2ohXwC7
一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAMjH9wVQh
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg84INjFL7K
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZrUd2EXir
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「閂…站？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsX0UspLcBb
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「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmX63Cd6Bj
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv0SJAxhQs
要不是這條命是借來的話……854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoqud2SH7P
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYt8NInllX
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXmFZ64WW1
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kII7Vv55B
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKa4jgytPk
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWMa5HXb5z
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3G05isscQ
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「咁……啊。」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkEEaIxw1K
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「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rNdXpuzns
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「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIWTz0qLVN
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「我帶你行。」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ea4mgDkm2
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領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7noBHVmK6K
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNYJviFhFf
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F2MW8Taz1
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vIlAz3exY
「呃……算係。」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIp6LldLq9F
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不再是了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZVqrMAfGW
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgGZyVeSy2
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK9ZYbNWBB
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxf0hlAILt
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDw1XwLzHEj
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk7nclJcJ4
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKPs1tCalg
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfGlQ9MFUw
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RLN8Wy5uh
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDekO4tg3ST
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQWEk43sxQ
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagixMqjfux
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8SKtA6ey4
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZesAKGXsNc
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因為我沒有。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgy62F6dTy
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCei8D27Vf
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDDXKJUaGU
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活該。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjU5Wl9o44l
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我活該。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPSaTy45ls
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正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRRfVtN9ub
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不想。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmji9k019H
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILVum8wLSW
我……我不想找她。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDwtulO5Ks
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTyDguWfYT
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBi6l08SRgP
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohRMHNLNqy
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUeoCbOlJI
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCg9dp6I2K
我不想。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5cC0RXUHz
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkuJoNs9a9
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFpyM6yEZg
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI8x3e8aYh
不就有了嗎？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAZvK2Fv9D
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掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwFwDU2LEJ
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JMWwR3b41
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIF6VrIqkg
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而且，我連地圖都不用。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4aP1h6vpX
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnaSkLgYLq
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlqgqPg4Tv
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOIYlnslHK
光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfq9aohoNbd
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmcfBMnBMX
出發吧。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h2cLhUlB8
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpuafwizD1
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuNtOJmbTA
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJAh1KPL8B
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5JpSmZ3Ig
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TCd4DkCYI
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQZ95kRVnT
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYge4BY3wwp
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpLmdark5R
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「溫年柏。」854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoYFk91Ell
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wbOWne6KN
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfT7Kh6ePxS
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUNAqxgevh
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PauVOwrKq
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沒有人。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYObePMrxM
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MlnTM1btc
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlUXPOUbGw
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQlkpoHX3u
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsKY6xVdP5
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyPWLdAFdx
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZI5gXC8XF
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3irodTcQK
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi7731iJsL
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這到底是……854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlL7cWSMC7
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeymZkqX6PJ
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXBgOe69jo
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GK2UjnYGG
是…霧之類嗎……？854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvZ10cH1Ql
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wH4JevAy2
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bZqHfIpYB
854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4dmK8R7Hq
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzuW4ls3gd
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfoIdYAo1C
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PH3sDYaNn
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHueR6p7qgU
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFml6cOeKb
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDNcr3NUX7
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZD5WqX83Y
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。854Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrgHXvSAjX
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