I am dreading growing old.213Please respect copyright.PENANA9iwXThnxoq
I was looking on Craigslist, at their jobs and domestic gigs,213Please respect copyright.PENANAyv93Q6BZ4J
everyone asked for a young female.213Please respect copyright.PENANA8WE14v6oCS
what happens when I grow old,213Please respect copyright.PENANAkB5BHcNB47
what happens when my tits sag 213Please respect copyright.PENANAKQBHojJa6C
and wrinkles are ingrained in my skin,213Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0ghV7qMjz
will I no longer be wanted?213Please respect copyright.PENANAe36fBVrQm4
No longer desired or admired.213Please respect copyright.PENANAPaJeAK6Abg
will I just be old?213Please respect copyright.PENANAJq3A3j7jSV
With nothing to show for it, no children no husband. 213Please respect copyright.PENANADoXMOHIEHr
Just213Please respect copyright.PENANAXSpv28SwlR
Old.213Please respect copyright.PENANAZiXrhbE8VE
213Please respect copyright.PENANAEp4Q4L22S4
What then will I have to offer if not my body or my face?213Please respect copyright.PENANAmF2zljzFzd
I'll have to be good at something,213Please respect copyright.PENANAJnxkbchI1X
I’ll have to find a trade, I'll have to have marketable skills213Please respect copyright.PENANAtnlX8UXSCq
I can't just get by being shallow and selfish and vain213Please respect copyright.PENANAz7V5cb5GwY
I'll have to be somebody213Please respect copyright.PENANAYEihNqAbbs
or I could be miserable, clinging to the last shreds of my youth213Please respect copyright.PENANASfviYeXFhU
but I know I can't keep it.213Please respect copyright.PENANA3eJDpYou1y
Good things never last.213Please respect copyright.PENANA901AjpmADm
213Please respect copyright.PENANAykGnlIVCc9
I don't know when youth became so important to me213Please respect copyright.PENANAFSbOJsZFmm
but now I understand the quest for the Holy Grail213Please respect copyright.PENANAgNJ3ibl5Rg
and why so many people died over it213Please respect copyright.PENANAZg7buqAReQ
Cause if I had the chance to go after something to keep me young and beautiful forever,213Please respect copyright.PENANAuMiLuKyvS2
I would.213Please respect copyright.PENANACTrf3WmaTO
perhaps that makes me a bad human,213Please respect copyright.PENANA5rfIgVfG92
a bad feminist213Please respect copyright.PENANACTaVNyekHi
bad person,213Please respect copyright.PENANAkeLaRTePYd
but all I know is it's the truth213Please respect copyright.PENANAUT6Xelk9Rj
and I would do it,213Please respect copyright.PENANAnmQED9Octv
213Please respect copyright.PENANAhGPvaLB1gq
I would give up so much to stay desirable.213Please respect copyright.PENANAybLPKGOMTp
Because I've never been desired before213Please respect copyright.PENANAHdABdKJUBR
and I can't imagine living without the feeling of somebody wanting me,213Please respect copyright.PENANAmDh89uXL2x
but who would want me when I'm old and ugly?213Please respect copyright.PENANAXFp9jO50Cw
and my skin sags from my bones213Please respect copyright.PENANAgXlYcrEnsU
and there's fat bulging out of my stomach213Please respect copyright.PENANAFX7PjzlchJ
my neck doubling,213Please respect copyright.PENANAm3i2fP7W5U
When my eyes are hooded and bagged and so very sad213Please respect copyright.PENANAl5Xi53fi4k
213Please respect copyright.PENANAIHagt6cPS6
some people think when you get older looks matter less213Please respect copyright.PENANAF5eok6RJ7g
But that's not true, nobody wants that213Please respect copyright.PENANAISfqMMivJl
they always go after young childlike innocence and naiveté.213Please respect copyright.PENANA8d25aeZBkz
What will I be?213Please respect copyright.PENANA56iWDR3rZE
Chopped liver I suppose.213Please respect copyright.PENANAtL4EXTL889
This is no self-pitying write, just a sharing of truths between fools213Please respect copyright.PENANAjE2PNL06nj
213Please respect copyright.PENANAJwYUn2QwFk
I'm so afraid I've wasted my life213Please respect copyright.PENANAMuv6Ixvs3t
I'm young213Please respect copyright.PENANARyG8VuddaC
I have done nothing time is flying by213Please respect copyright.PENANAeF4Ftb0qUv
I don't know where it's going but it's leaving me too fast213Please respect copyright.PENANAqsaSEGGuSv
Keeps slipping from my fists.213Please respect copyright.PENANApj8GUNBnfe
I can't keep up (c’mon, keep up).213Please respect copyright.PENANAZD3LwpXuFr
I just keep on running and running after it but I can't keep up.213Please respect copyright.PENANAzCXzAvmclf
I can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up213Please respect copyright.PENANAjVi0HOmKSG
Hoping to get somewhere but I stay stagnant.213Please respect copyright.PENANAgzm5zkdUnP
213Please respect copyright.PENANA5cnOY7jGxp
now that I'm appealing, my whole life has been consumed by vanity213Please respect copyright.PENANAsEAzVoa2or
I feel it closing in on me213Please respect copyright.PENANAEOc8HikItY
I must be this horrid beast like in Dorian Gray,213Please respect copyright.PENANAyYFveK49tE
looking in the mirror I see my painting.213Please respect copyright.PENANAJzVAZOJ479
my maggot-infested flesh staring back at me through those wretched, rotting yellow eyes,213Please respect copyright.PENANAZrt4z0vPXB
I know they're going to be my demise.213Please respect copyright.PENANALbyZt93Lm4
213Please respect copyright.PENANAxh2PJwEoaJ
But I just lay here in bed letting the crinkles around my eyes deepen213Please respect copyright.PENANAnaGtdDPffB
the lines around my mouth stretch cause I smile too much.213Please respect copyright.PENANAi1EAaxBUse
Letting the sun dot my skin in a dusting of freckles. 213Please respect copyright.PENANA35nDHtEReL
my hips, and how they widen. Childbearing wise. 213Please respect copyright.PENANAO9sBb7Rteo
213Please respect copyright.PENANALZgaERDtQ5
People say when I get older I'll have children and a husband to keep me occupied but I will have neither213Please respect copyright.PENANASQzgSX7Pqd
because I know myself if not anyone else213Please respect copyright.PENANAdYLu1FE4Ft
and I know I can never hold on to anything that long.213Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7jsm4l2Wh
213Please respect copyright.PENANA66oEbab1hd
i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old
I am dreading growing old.213Please respect copyright.PENANAuOPCYR581e
I was looking on Craigslist, at their jobs and domestic gigs,213Please respect copyright.PENANA38ZU5GWMVS
everyone asked for a young female.213Please respect copyright.PENANAB0aFwVuzzg
what happens when I grow old,213Please respect copyright.PENANAlN0qoGzBg0
what happens when my tits sag 213Please respect copyright.PENANARVbSP23qmw
and wrinkles are ingrained in my skin,213Please respect copyright.PENANAmbZ1gRzzq7
will I no longer be wanted?213Please respect copyright.PENANALAmRlqodZ1
No longer desired or admired.213Please respect copyright.PENANACudH2yxMSS
will I just be old?213Please respect copyright.PENANAwaLZMSQiRq
With nothing to show for it, no children no husband. 213Please respect copyright.PENANAZa1PuM7Qu9
Just213Please respect copyright.PENANA6UqnC1qUZ6
Old.213Please respect copyright.PENANABUQPhp7SrJ
What then will I have to offer if not my body or my face?213Please respect copyright.PENANAwIYlC0cZdb
I'll have to be good at something,213Please respect copyright.PENANA6N2GKSeF7b
I’ll have to find a trade, I'll have to have marketable skills213Please respect copyright.PENANAchMb8UHAJr
I can't just get by being shallow and selfish and vain213Please respect copyright.PENANAVD1YU9MbdN
I'll have to be somebody213Please respect copyright.PENANAwMa8s0LGPJ
or I could be miserable, clinging to the last shreds of my youth213Please respect copyright.PENANAtMlSxjAiFR
but I know I can't keep it.213Please respect copyright.PENANA9J647K0z92
Good things never last.213Please respect copyright.PENANARzE5FAbKkE
213Please respect copyright.PENANALafsvMYo4G
I don't know when youth became so important to me213Please respect copyright.PENANA5Cp3D8pHMJ
but now I understand the quest for the Holy Grail213Please respect copyright.PENANAlknATexKjk
and why so many people died over it213Please respect copyright.PENANAEWSlkWfOuh
Cause if I had the chance to go after something to keep me young and beautiful forever,213Please respect copyright.PENANAg35DfufS2W
I would.213Please respect copyright.PENANAlxpaQDtZI5
perhaps that makes me a bad human,213Please respect copyright.PENANA9ne5F6ePB1
a bad feminist213Please respect copyright.PENANALkzXmJkLIZ
bad person,213Please respect copyright.PENANAx5Er7buwUi
but all I know is it's the truth213Please respect copyright.PENANADJnNQSV71q
and I would do it,213Please respect copyright.PENANAPgzX43ppa6
213Please respect copyright.PENANANkwJuXPanU
I would give up so much to stay desirable.213Please respect copyright.PENANA6CyLrCjglz
Because I've never been desired before213Please respect copyright.PENANAlwAC31qZd5
and I can't imagine living without the feeling of somebody wanting me,213Please respect copyright.PENANA6NRmkhYJ27
but who would want me when I'm old and ugly?213Please respect copyright.PENANA32pX6Kr23Q
and my skin sags from my bones213Please respect copyright.PENANAGlPeKGWB6x
and there's fat bulging out of my stomach213Please respect copyright.PENANACx0is79ZgN
my neck doubling,213Please respect copyright.PENANA6UuxSDIKAf
When my eyes are hooded and bagged and so very sad213Please respect copyright.PENANAzhqDTGyjI2
213Please respect copyright.PENANAFYPMOxQ40z
some people think when you get older looks matter less213Please respect copyright.PENANAQoBLG1L1XY
But that's not true, nobody wants that213Please respect copyright.PENANAW5qPkRzc2n
they always go after young childlike innocence and naiveté.213Please respect copyright.PENANAgaHs6MUgAK
What will I be?213Please respect copyright.PENANAxyfqEo0a3a
Chopped liver I suppose.213Please respect copyright.PENANA2it5Oc07gZ
This is no self-pitying write, just a sharing of truths between fools213Please respect copyright.PENANAsHlSh8hGn4
213Please respect copyright.PENANASx16s7w3wd
I'm so afraid I've wasted my life213Please respect copyright.PENANAcfApnkzR82
I'm 20213Please respect copyright.PENANAwmkbQ7WoJU
I have done nothing time is flying by213Please respect copyright.PENANAMrwPpfGmEU
I don't know where it's going but it's leaving me too fast213Please respect copyright.PENANAmSP4f7LkJ7
Keeps slipping from my fists.213Please respect copyright.PENANAeSrHdV5xfq
I can't keep up (c’mon, keep up).213Please respect copyright.PENANAgKXaN0qHry
I just keep on running and running after it but I can't keep up.213Please respect copyright.PENANAkhfojjzUVp
I can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up213Please respect copyright.PENANAxwn0rauyPM
Hoping to get somewhere but I stay stagnant.213Please respect copyright.PENANAqg0h8Clucz
213Please respect copyright.PENANA3jxhcsWXEl
now that I'm appealing, my whole life has been consumed by vanity213Please respect copyright.PENANAd49d3xTLuA
I feel it closing in on me213Please respect copyright.PENANA0DhNNqwvXS
I must be this horrid beast like in Dorian Gray,213Please respect copyright.PENANAOX4bWpzqm8
looking in the mirror I see my painting.213Please respect copyright.PENANACycT4LD6ad
my maggot-infested flesh staring back at me through those wretched, rotting yellow eyes,213Please respect copyright.PENANA0DfZdBRZoT
I know they're going to be my demise.213Please respect copyright.PENANA26YI9pKqaU
213Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ebp9nnQo2
But I just lay here in bed letting the crinkles around my eyes deepen213Please respect copyright.PENANAxBeEhICBO5
the lines around my mouth stretch cause I smile too much.213Please respect copyright.PENANA3nqU9nllF5
Letting the sun dot my skin in a dusting of freckles. 213Please respect copyright.PENANAkWlbEkELF8
my hips, and how they widen. Childbearing wise. 213Please respect copyright.PENANA2aHnbMOxki
213Please respect copyright.PENANA9QKy7YlPo6
People say when I get older I'll have children and a husband to keep me occupied but I will have neither213Please respect copyright.PENANArRGOnrd7uB
because I know myself if not anyone else213Please respect copyright.PENANAkxP8TlLXtz
and I know I can never hold on to anything that long.213Please respect copyright.PENANAX9KCSdsVNu
213Please respect copyright.PENANAB1PfywKkem
i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old