I am dreading growing old.279Please respect copyright.PENANAgjpiPSBaWa
I was looking on Craigslist, at their jobs and domestic gigs,279Please respect copyright.PENANA3NUzPnYRKo
everyone asked for a young female.279Please respect copyright.PENANAH1GWFbaken
what happens when I grow old,279Please respect copyright.PENANADM9YjRYpZX
what happens when my tits sag 279Please respect copyright.PENANAxhcZfYxJRL
and wrinkles are ingrained in my skin,279Please respect copyright.PENANAWWolvlgLVA
will I no longer be wanted?279Please respect copyright.PENANA0iQ2Runue5
No longer desired or admired.279Please respect copyright.PENANAKX11SMMTHb
will I just be old?279Please respect copyright.PENANAQXruTQeXO0
With nothing to show for it, no children no husband. 279Please respect copyright.PENANAHcPK9bElJv
Just279Please respect copyright.PENANALUkoSRoLDc
Old.279Please respect copyright.PENANABy8V5UeSr4
279Please respect copyright.PENANA8oyI2br0h2
What then will I have to offer if not my body or my face?279Please respect copyright.PENANAj40jntM0cz
I'll have to be good at something,279Please respect copyright.PENANA7vvbc1AdN3
I’ll have to find a trade, I'll have to have marketable skills279Please respect copyright.PENANAkmDAGI8dW9
I can't just get by being shallow and selfish and vain279Please respect copyright.PENANAbs5iAwA7ut
I'll have to be somebody279Please respect copyright.PENANAfCzFZEmU1X
or I could be miserable, clinging to the last shreds of my youth279Please respect copyright.PENANAJtOxXiOndM
but I know I can't keep it.279Please respect copyright.PENANAgKLYlugDfc
Good things never last.279Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZoMyKoxFL
279Please respect copyright.PENANAvqQMs5zBtu
I don't know when youth became so important to me279Please respect copyright.PENANAj3IwDAsnYi
but now I understand the quest for the Holy Grail279Please respect copyright.PENANAnevzTqA2k5
and why so many people died over it279Please respect copyright.PENANA5fnbEh8J0Q
Cause if I had the chance to go after something to keep me young and beautiful forever,279Please respect copyright.PENANAowgwEx5rAZ
I would.279Please respect copyright.PENANAsIjmTVoOpJ
perhaps that makes me a bad human,279Please respect copyright.PENANATVDFFsm2vl
a bad feminist279Please respect copyright.PENANAWZ7WXlev77
bad person,279Please respect copyright.PENANATrGHB9aWDh
but all I know is it's the truth279Please respect copyright.PENANAq3SOgtAm7R
and I would do it,279Please respect copyright.PENANAp7Jc5Y6mZr
279Please respect copyright.PENANAejqLS9rvVd
I would give up so much to stay desirable.279Please respect copyright.PENANA9Y7FEOZecK
Because I've never been desired before279Please respect copyright.PENANA38GPfdSMeK
and I can't imagine living without the feeling of somebody wanting me,279Please respect copyright.PENANAd6NrrMd0dl
but who would want me when I'm old and ugly?279Please respect copyright.PENANAUQOrc36rxc
and my skin sags from my bones279Please respect copyright.PENANAlC1tbwN9rG
and there's fat bulging out of my stomach279Please respect copyright.PENANAsywYRfjf8V
my neck doubling,279Please respect copyright.PENANAW4SeQo9Yur
When my eyes are hooded and bagged and so very sad279Please respect copyright.PENANAsTVpFlDH6v
279Please respect copyright.PENANA8VqJxUD7UD
some people think when you get older looks matter less279Please respect copyright.PENANAtJNvY3dFJN
But that's not true, nobody wants that279Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8x6JoL07O
they always go after young childlike innocence and naiveté.279Please respect copyright.PENANA2SQcxFnb6P
What will I be?279Please respect copyright.PENANAYfqZ3mESe5
Chopped liver I suppose.279Please respect copyright.PENANA3zU5jeF6Xy
This is no self-pitying write, just a sharing of truths between fools279Please respect copyright.PENANAxFY1UhrHNi
279Please respect copyright.PENANAvgFdmYNrPe
I'm so afraid I've wasted my life279Please respect copyright.PENANAPx2s8lV9jw
I'm young279Please respect copyright.PENANADYly2fezbc
I have done nothing time is flying by279Please respect copyright.PENANA7YtsOjM3Uz
I don't know where it's going but it's leaving me too fast279Please respect copyright.PENANAlG5CR46Uwg
Keeps slipping from my fists.279Please respect copyright.PENANAdKRbWm00Bp
I can't keep up (c’mon, keep up).279Please respect copyright.PENANAWpp4EU1bqa
I just keep on running and running after it but I can't keep up.279Please respect copyright.PENANAMgXc4zuW6e
I can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up279Please respect copyright.PENANArTPFesXX5Z
Hoping to get somewhere but I stay stagnant.279Please respect copyright.PENANA1njD5cwrHS
279Please respect copyright.PENANAfMT6fQHUrN
now that I'm appealing, my whole life has been consumed by vanity279Please respect copyright.PENANAWQMSpWwszK
I feel it closing in on me279Please respect copyright.PENANADtcog5JLSA
I must be this horrid beast like in Dorian Gray,279Please respect copyright.PENANARgwaOPjxBe
looking in the mirror I see my painting.279Please respect copyright.PENANAzgHNbvvgbU
my maggot-infested flesh staring back at me through those wretched, rotting yellow eyes,279Please respect copyright.PENANA4jwgMaMBxf
I know they're going to be my demise.279Please respect copyright.PENANAwrXOaOeNb0
279Please respect copyright.PENANAedKoMGBVCc
But I just lay here in bed letting the crinkles around my eyes deepen279Please respect copyright.PENANAzhwLQEZuNS
the lines around my mouth stretch cause I smile too much.279Please respect copyright.PENANAlVC1tbvCJi
Letting the sun dot my skin in a dusting of freckles. 279Please respect copyright.PENANAepoxthvFyS
my hips, and how they widen. Childbearing wise. 279Please respect copyright.PENANAGPJgkb31gC
279Please respect copyright.PENANAbpDKz7ADLY
People say when I get older I'll have children and a husband to keep me occupied but I will have neither279Please respect copyright.PENANA459QLKfJIu
because I know myself if not anyone else279Please respect copyright.PENANAindd1LjhB3
and I know I can never hold on to anything that long.279Please respect copyright.PENANA7iQy9FXcOJ
279Please respect copyright.PENANAlHnlJI4vUE
i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old
I am dreading growing old.279Please respect copyright.PENANAJZMvg78IKL
I was looking on Craigslist, at their jobs and domestic gigs,279Please respect copyright.PENANAW74EgIMLR3
everyone asked for a young female.279Please respect copyright.PENANAc3fQO9tmaV
what happens when I grow old,279Please respect copyright.PENANAnLx3SGDfWU
what happens when my tits sag 279Please respect copyright.PENANAJjQemzGbNW
and wrinkles are ingrained in my skin,279Please respect copyright.PENANAE00PYszUOm
will I no longer be wanted?279Please respect copyright.PENANAKsY4AwhfYF
No longer desired or admired.279Please respect copyright.PENANAgioJoy9F3m
will I just be old?279Please respect copyright.PENANATUQVaymxwl
With nothing to show for it, no children no husband. 279Please respect copyright.PENANAYwokljTFEf
Just279Please respect copyright.PENANAAcRCXxZ0Hs
Old.279Please respect copyright.PENANAcXppCaXGSy
What then will I have to offer if not my body or my face?279Please respect copyright.PENANAxlCTSJS2c2
I'll have to be good at something,279Please respect copyright.PENANABa77vts7Gu
I’ll have to find a trade, I'll have to have marketable skills279Please respect copyright.PENANA9nm1zipf7D
I can't just get by being shallow and selfish and vain279Please respect copyright.PENANAS8zMZ2hKp5
I'll have to be somebody279Please respect copyright.PENANAuWKRdiWZuV
or I could be miserable, clinging to the last shreds of my youth279Please respect copyright.PENANA1i9N32jxE9
but I know I can't keep it.279Please respect copyright.PENANAgbXvpMTZzJ
Good things never last.279Please respect copyright.PENANAHfXyHnuw6M
279Please respect copyright.PENANAzMCcpKgcn1
I don't know when youth became so important to me279Please respect copyright.PENANA7XcunRpqLF
but now I understand the quest for the Holy Grail279Please respect copyright.PENANAmyLopAqTtS
and why so many people died over it279Please respect copyright.PENANA5h95Of3WDi
Cause if I had the chance to go after something to keep me young and beautiful forever,279Please respect copyright.PENANAJGMO5PY97b
I would.279Please respect copyright.PENANAnwBptGRTxb
perhaps that makes me a bad human,279Please respect copyright.PENANAG1h4BzJFXP
a bad feminist279Please respect copyright.PENANAsZ62noz1EB
bad person,279Please respect copyright.PENANAwTwlKh1EhP
but all I know is it's the truth279Please respect copyright.PENANAIlyvpSCEny
and I would do it,279Please respect copyright.PENANA1QRzgjpA1g
279Please respect copyright.PENANAd7MyxwQP4p
I would give up so much to stay desirable.279Please respect copyright.PENANAgL0OYTRQzL
Because I've never been desired before279Please respect copyright.PENANA3gUVXDHbfj
and I can't imagine living without the feeling of somebody wanting me,279Please respect copyright.PENANAWlbgzCURcF
but who would want me when I'm old and ugly?279Please respect copyright.PENANA0AZSAZDdbg
and my skin sags from my bones279Please respect copyright.PENANAk9zkn6BQ4X
and there's fat bulging out of my stomach279Please respect copyright.PENANAfYbrJtQGjQ
my neck doubling,279Please respect copyright.PENANAplEeBuz9Qz
When my eyes are hooded and bagged and so very sad279Please respect copyright.PENANAQZJa0QgJa7
279Please respect copyright.PENANAyt2DoDXv3Z
some people think when you get older looks matter less279Please respect copyright.PENANAEUNVbPs02Z
But that's not true, nobody wants that279Please respect copyright.PENANAbhH7fTzgAG
they always go after young childlike innocence and naiveté.279Please respect copyright.PENANAlLaOttxqOk
What will I be?279Please respect copyright.PENANADMquyD4bkV
Chopped liver I suppose.279Please respect copyright.PENANAVICCePMsll
This is no self-pitying write, just a sharing of truths between fools279Please respect copyright.PENANAYRxBTn1KWD
279Please respect copyright.PENANA6e1l1d64XV
I'm so afraid I've wasted my life279Please respect copyright.PENANAekmxQ9riFQ
I'm 20279Please respect copyright.PENANACYshkKPbEM
I have done nothing time is flying by279Please respect copyright.PENANA61NpyzbYdN
I don't know where it's going but it's leaving me too fast279Please respect copyright.PENANAIIe6F3NUEY
Keeps slipping from my fists.279Please respect copyright.PENANAoicKuGnT3U
I can't keep up (c’mon, keep up).279Please respect copyright.PENANAWcnscW02rP
I just keep on running and running after it but I can't keep up.279Please respect copyright.PENANACIEZQX1Hoy
I can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up279Please respect copyright.PENANASGBuXOjCsL
Hoping to get somewhere but I stay stagnant.279Please respect copyright.PENANAjL3t7v4SZC
279Please respect copyright.PENANAR5s2yj1Fd2
now that I'm appealing, my whole life has been consumed by vanity279Please respect copyright.PENANAmIJhbMC5XO
I feel it closing in on me279Please respect copyright.PENANA4z0lEXBsq9
I must be this horrid beast like in Dorian Gray,279Please respect copyright.PENANA6QXYMDWmRr
looking in the mirror I see my painting.279Please respect copyright.PENANAChR1qnBpJI
my maggot-infested flesh staring back at me through those wretched, rotting yellow eyes,279Please respect copyright.PENANAANQaMtF53D
I know they're going to be my demise.279Please respect copyright.PENANAvEsj245daO
279Please respect copyright.PENANARreZHqeGuL
But I just lay here in bed letting the crinkles around my eyes deepen279Please respect copyright.PENANA7GXAXML5Uf
the lines around my mouth stretch cause I smile too much.279Please respect copyright.PENANAToHJkSayk2
Letting the sun dot my skin in a dusting of freckles. 279Please respect copyright.PENANAzthUnG0vfq
my hips, and how they widen. Childbearing wise. 279Please respect copyright.PENANAA6aw6GQOGe
279Please respect copyright.PENANAxKIWRH80fI
People say when I get older I'll have children and a husband to keep me occupied but I will have neither279Please respect copyright.PENANAAsYOkgXc64
because I know myself if not anyone else279Please respect copyright.PENANA4w6MLRevA7
and I know I can never hold on to anything that long.279Please respect copyright.PENANAc2ENdoa7SV
279Please respect copyright.PENANAj5Z8mkhjIf
i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old