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No Plagiarism!w1zxFesU35VU0glU9p5xposted on PENANA 那天下午,我只是想來拿一份報告。8964 copyright protection39PENANAtU9ZR7WHfP 維尼
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諮商中心樓下的自動販賣機,還是會吐出半溫不冷的礦泉水。這幾年來唯一不變的東西,大概就剩這個了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAvFfRVLgRKv 維尼
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只是我沒想到會在這裡看到她。8964 copyright protection39PENANAW7AfeXwrFo 維尼
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她剪短了頭髮,比我記憶中還瘦,臉色也比以前白了一點。穿著制服外套,但不是我們當年聊過的那間學校。我沒走過去,只是站在原地,看她從大門走進來,腳步很輕,好像隨時會被風捲走。8964 copyright protection39PENANASUr9SCaXL2 維尼
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我原本以為,如果再遇見她,我會不知道該說什麼。但話竟然自己從喉嚨滑了出來。8964 copyright protection39PENANAMEDBeEwysY 維尼
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「……我們,能不能再交往一次?」8964 copyright protection39PENANAmrQKNAtl4a 維尼
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她站在我面前,沒說話,只是看著我。那眼神裡有很多東西——疲倦、熟悉,還有一點點不忍心。8964 copyright protection39PENANA8owm25CZtR 維尼
但沒有回答。8964 copyright protection39PENANAOuGS0XjjgA 維尼
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她走進去了,像什麼都沒發生一樣。8964 copyright protection39PENANAspyZp7z4G3 維尼
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那天晚上,我躺在床上翻出舊訊息。8964 copyright protection39PENANAIXQTSIxf0V 維尼
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我曾經寫了一段長長的話,打了又刪,刪了又寫,最後存在草稿裡,從來沒按下「傳送」。8964 copyright protection39PENANAmUkcB7Ochd 維尼
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「如果有一天你真的不想回我了,沒關係,我不會怪你。8964 copyright protection39PENANAeVECYgUj9C 維尼
我知道你不是真的走掉,只是比我還努力地活著。」8964 copyright protection39PENANA6L5Qe6YtTl 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAmCFwQbE0gR
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她再也沒回來過。8964 copyright protection39PENANAUJG6KtlU6h 維尼
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我也沒再問。8964 copyright protection39PENANAtaCOEqNhc1 維尼
那次見面,是她主動說想來的。8964 copyright protection39PENANAeJfxAMM1Ge 維尼
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她說她剛好放寒假,也想換個地方透口氣。8964 copyright protection39PENANA64mhvIel8k 維尼
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我沒有太多遲疑就答應了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAqEezLUtb90 維尼
雖然我知道,我們都還未成年,她一個人坐三個小時的車來見網友,這種事說出來誰都會皺眉。8964 copyright protection39PENANAuSU17fcMEJ 維尼
但當下的我,只覺得——8964 copyright protection39PENANAverxo3ROlY 維尼
她能來見我,是一種信任。8964 copyright protection39PENANAGU0lFAbqXe 維尼
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我提早半小時到車站。8964 copyright protection39PENANA5BPdeKVj9l 維尼
天氣冷,月台上的風硬得像砂紙一樣。8964 copyright protection39PENANAHte0obPi5F 維尼
我記得自己來回走了幾趟,手機在手裡翻來翻去,連要不要拿花都想了又想,最後當然是沒有買。8964 copyright protection39PENANAbSVpYRmoBq 維尼
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她穿著一件黑色大衣,背著書包,一眼就認出我。8964 copyright protection39PENANAC8661RtT6a 維尼
我們對過照片,但她本人比照片瘦很多。8964 copyright protection39PENANAVgI4eR69Jc 維尼
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她笑著對我揮手,那瞬間我有點忘了怎麼動作。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJPeIrZSh50 維尼
我也笑了,然後點頭,就像老朋友那樣自然,卻又有點不自在。8964 copyright protection39PENANAINs9BVVDC6 維尼
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我們那天沒做什麼特別的事。8964 copyright protection39PENANASY3uPskspr 維尼
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去了一家巷子裡的咖啡廳,氣氛不錯,甜點難吃。8964 copyright protection39PENANAkwNxAbTOs5 維尼
她點了紅茶沒喝完,我點了杯太甜的可可。8964 copyright protection39PENANANFEVIuyXR4 維尼
我們聊了很多平常不敢跟別人聊的東西,但也有幾段對話卡住。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJC2yJ0tmrw 維尼
有時我們會突然安靜,但不是尷尬的那種,而是有點像——終於可以不用一直打字的那種放鬆。8964 copyright protection39PENANARTzxxiONn7 維尼
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我記得她看著窗外說了一句話。8964 copyright protection39PENANAzzEfl35geS 維尼
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「這樣坐在一起,很像正常情侶欸。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAysPR1wcaFz 維尼
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她說完就笑了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAOsIJ1KUL1e 維尼
但我聽得出來,她不是開玩笑。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJ6IQAE0xu3 維尼
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我沒有接話,只是看著她那副想掩飾什麼的神情。8964 copyright protection39PENANABpXNNpXhF1 維尼
我突然覺得,我好像不是她想像中的那個「能讓她變好」的人。8964 copyright protection39PENANAm1KMHW6tV0 維尼
也許我也只是個正在崩塌的人,剛好跟她一樣爛而已。8964 copyright protection39PENANAnDasC1HKgu 維尼
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她傍晚就要走,我送她回車站。8964 copyright protection39PENANAHF3vi7n8xA 維尼
路上我們沒說太多話。8964 copyright protection39PENANAfpwuShS9XP 維尼
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快到月台時,她突然停下來,看著我。8964 copyright protection39PENANAUCR2QkfgsH 維尼
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「我覺得你會變好。」8964 copyright protection39PENANALw9N9vFyHK 維尼
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那不是鼓勵,也不像是安慰。8964 copyright protection39PENANAr2Sk7LNmgN 維尼
比較像……她對自己的期望。8964 copyright protection39PENANAlFLENzqKkB 維尼
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我還沒來得及回應,她就轉身走向剪票口。8964 copyright protection39PENANAI1mKknjP34 維尼
她沒回頭,我也沒叫她。8964 copyright protection39PENANAc1K80ZyfPg 維尼
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那天晚上,我傳了一句訊息給她,寫了又刪,最後只打了這樣:8964 copyright protection39PENANAmkU3ZV3crI 維尼
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「我也覺得,今天像真的。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAPF4XYmfyTz 維尼
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然後我按了送出。8964 copyright protection39PENANA75xHqCfqtp 維尼
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但在那之前,我原本寫的是:8964 copyright protection39PENANAK4flIXpCLi 維尼
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「如果你願意,我可以去你那邊找你。8964 copyright protection39PENANAcisi3ouEWh 維尼
我不知道能不能幫你變好,但我想試試看。8964 copyright protection39PENANAuMcgwPEAFe 維尼
我只是很怕,有一天你會不見,像我以前那些人一樣。8964 copyright protection39PENANAIZr8beDvhM 維尼
所以我想,至少在你還在的時候,我應該做點什麼。」8964 copyright protection39PENANADnn5VVpsVP 維尼
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我沒傳出那段話。8964 copyright protection39PENANApLCHRZ3lKM 維尼
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而後來的我們,真的就只見過那一次。8964 copyright protection39PENANAZAIUKEskhM 維尼
我花了三天,寫了一封信給妳。8964 copyright protection39PENANADOmuZ2qofH 維尼
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一開始只是想說清楚一點,至少讓妳知道為什麼我會離開。8964 copyright protection39PENANAhoWd84fQku 維尼
但寫著寫著,我才發現,我真正想解釋的,不是分手的理由,而是——8964 copyright protection39PENANAZC4NirKAIM 維尼
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我很遺憾,沒能成為妳值得依靠的那個人。8964 copyright protection39PENANAyBL7jqb2L5 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAn6pLKZKaPn
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給妳:8964 copyright protection39PENANADcLS8IpYbu 維尼
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我想過很多次,我到底能不能陪妳一直走下去。8964 copyright protection39PENANAwfSh3k4xGc 維尼
不是我不願意,也不是我不想努力,而是我開始發現,我好像越來越不會愛人了。8964 copyright protection39PENANA2Cts1igYyF 維尼
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我常常在等妳回訊息的時候,看著聊天室一行行字往上滑,8964 copyright protection39PENANAV0WUoRu4D6 維尼
以前我們可以從凌晨聊到天亮,8964 copyright protection39PENANAFN33blQpvb 維尼
但最近……連貼圖都不會多一個。8964 copyright protection39PENANA6zB8VtCxRq 維尼
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妳說妳在努力活著,我知道。8964 copyright protection39PENANApkHsFJyuko 維尼
只是我開始害怕,哪天我也撐不下去,8964 copyright protection39PENANAoKaj13x9fz 維尼
然後我們會一起崩潰,沒有誰能救誰。8964 copyright protection39PENANApJc0tXujjN 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAkkbHImbbeC
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有一陣子,我很想說服自己堅持下去。8964 copyright protection39PENANAKGiREKGNAV 維尼
我甚至查了妳學校附近的住宿,想請假去看妳。8964 copyright protection39PENANANHLVtrp61N 維尼
但妳好像愈來愈遠,像隔著玻璃,看得見卻碰不到。8964 copyright protection39PENANA4hJkgFhezg 維尼
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我不想當那個讓妳更糟的人。8964 copyright protection39PENANALufnZEXRok 維尼
如果我退開一點,妳是不是比較有空間好起來?8964 copyright protection39PENANAHp8LiGLJ4E 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAJyOT7HVf8c
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我沒有辦法當妳的光。8964 copyright protection39PENANAR12Mt2txI5 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAgYo2f7e9WL
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但我希望妳還記得,我曾經很努力想當。8964 copyright protection39PENANA4RMhmDZYSI 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAt6b5xUS1dx
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對不起。8964 copyright protection39PENANAziPbutoC87 維尼
也謝謝妳。8964 copyright protection39PENANAcbRqKRvdDt 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA8g2LOESs0c
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不是妳不好,只是我不夠強。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJk2YHE7MzX 維尼
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我反覆修改這封信十幾次,每次讀完都覺得有哪裡太矯情,或哪裡太冷淡。8964 copyright protection39PENANAM0IOej64S4 維尼
我想說的其實很簡單:我很怕失去妳,但我更怕在妳眼裡,我只是另一個讓妳變得更糟的人。8964 copyright protection39PENANALcaW8ZklFB 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAztWCdHivtz
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後來我沒有按送出。8964 copyright protection39PENANAUjvzmoySJS 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAoBjfnx3WHe
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我只是把這封信貼在備忘錄裡,檔名叫做「如果她還在的話」。8964 copyright protection39PENANA2opqdRfJ8i 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAihV2AGEbUm
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幾天後,我發了一句話給妳。8964 copyright protection39PENANA5nE1kXHhj1 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1u74sOcu4
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「如果妳以後遇到比我更好的人,就把我丟了吧。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAaYEDhrSv6H 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAxS3ZN4CDav
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妳回了:「嗯。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAC8bvO20iBJ 維尼
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我們的關係,就在那一個字裡,結束了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAYckgcxH2aK 維尼
她曾經說過一句話,我到現在還記得。8964 copyright protection39PENANAX1DgRGZGxy 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAHUkVs3YBw5
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「我最討厭的,不是吵架,不是分開,是……有人忽然就不見了。」8964 copyright protection39PENANA2twUouNIB2 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAK4GKui1by7
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那時候,我還很天真地回她:8964 copyright protection39PENANA7KT0yTrNsH 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAsWLG2A3fSm
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「那我會一直在,好不好?」8964 copyright protection39PENANAClCUbc9P6l 維尼
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她回了貼圖,一個笑著點頭的小狐狸,尾巴繞成一個圈圈。8964 copyright protection39PENANAITQxsbKQP5 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAo3SBPThCXY
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我當時以為她相信我了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAPI6MAva5Ck 維尼
後來才知道——她回覆那個貼圖,是凌晨三點半的事。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJEjZxb9KsK 維尼
我睡了,沒看到。8964 copyright protection39PENANAyY40gXsJ6j 維尼
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最近我重新打開那個聊天室。8964 copyright protection39PENANAgxWgH82hWB 維尼
對話還在,但看起來不像對話,比較像——8964 copyright protection39PENANA9z33tGtmkH 維尼
一邊倒的留言板。8964 copyright protection39PENANAPVvMxQOefB 維尼
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滑回去的時候,我發現她的語氣變得越來越短。8964 copyright protection39PENANAKhOOywNP0W 維尼
從「哈哈你真的很白癡欸」變成「嗯」8964 copyright protection39PENANANXgtXIS1ig 維尼
從「等我一下我洗澡馬上來」變成「先忙」8964 copyright protection39PENANAwK3E4u9aA9 維尼
最後是——8964 copyright protection39PENANANsC9VIB80d 維尼
「你睡了嗎?」8964 copyright protection39PENANAYadgZIgmvi 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAyd1pZ3pDq4
8964 copyright protection39PENANAZA2KsZkNNC 維尼
我沒有回那句話。8964 copyright protection39PENANAR48Pixp4cf 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAKAwje1cD6f
8964 copyright protection39PENANAd1vkqwaECb 維尼
不是我故意不回,是我當時真的在睡。8964 copyright protection39PENANA3yuzKjV0di 維尼
只是我不知道,那可能是她最後一次主動開口。8964 copyright protection39PENANAV54Ec8g3Ne 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAMyJEH7DKZR
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAwc42OyYtCU
8964 copyright protection39PENANABaZzce48rI 維尼
我記得那段時間她狀況很不好。8964 copyright protection39PENANAEndafnwPm8 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANABpG8aQH8lx
8964 copyright protection39PENANAsxg08r2HnK 維尼
她說她的手最近又開始發癢,想抓、想割。8964 copyright protection39PENANADcHVXmRD1b 維尼
她說不想去醫院,而且學校最近很吵,每天都想把桌子掀掉。8964 copyright protection39PENANAfGoKymLP5h 維尼
她說,有時候真的會懷疑,活著到底是為了什麼。8964 copyright protection39PENANA9PgKGHFvxE 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAjADoEmqYiw
8964 copyright protection39PENANAD1U0aHwqZk 維尼
我那天正在補習班,訊息跳了一整排。8964 copyright protection39PENANAcU70iFRaBs 維尼
我只回了一句:8964 copyright protection39PENANAR1o56lche9 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAau5FRxZHsO
8964 copyright protection39PENANALTlhRZjL80 維尼
「我還在上課,等等回妳。」8964 copyright protection39PENANA5KASHpM8rK 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAGbJaFZnOKZ
8964 copyright protection39PENANAcrM1JmMU5e 維尼
結果我回的時候,她已經刪掉了所有訊息。8964 copyright protection39PENANAGND9SWrYHq 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAycHHS07aP4
8964 copyright protection39PENANAzvuy6iLByL 維尼
我沒問為什麼。8964 copyright protection39PENANARzTuKpCjtc 維尼
我只是裝作沒看到,回了一句「今天還好嗎?」8964 copyright protection39PENANA50dkPz8GAg 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA4nfj5gxTLT
8964 copyright protection39PENANArHQOul4sfY 維尼
她沒再提那件事。8964 copyright protection39PENANAVmAqzVDQHT 維尼
也沒再發訊息長談了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAujivluoXF1 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAtFA6ACagso
8964 copyright protection39PENANA8CZDPUXzOc 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAXW1MRwWXQy
8964 copyright protection39PENANAY8gYjgZJXI 維尼
我後來才發現,她其實不是突然走掉的。8964 copyright protection39PENANAx51j0udO4Y 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAnbzDZRcB8z
8964 copyright protection39PENANAt3yjY9pTwm 維尼
她是一點一點把自己收回去的。8964 copyright protection39PENANARFOkb2FfsW 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANApRvTILA7z7
8964 copyright protection39PENANAhgw60Q4YqY 維尼
語氣、表情、語音、貼圖、分享的歌……8964 copyright protection39PENANAIwQxHdKsVZ 維尼
她像是從這段對話裡慢慢退出,最後留下來的,只是我自己。8964 copyright protection39PENANAtfniazNA9x 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA7ITi3b2yqc
8964 copyright protection39PENANAdw17JUrKtL 維尼
她沒有消失。8964 copyright protection39PENANAXGBM58Dpfs 維尼
只是變得安靜。8964 copyright protection39PENANAT5WCDpl9xq 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAhjb9xCTB8r
8964 copyright protection39PENANAe8zDTrRiDI 維尼
而我也一樣。8964 copyright protection39PENANA60ODQiZOMe 維尼
我從來沒說出口,我也開始不會說了。8964 copyright protection39PENANA2ll7ulln3s 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA3gWHBtni7x
8964 copyright protection39PENANADNK8QUmWSK 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAp5p33gLRDE
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【2022.07.18】8964 copyright protection39PENANA9szyHFSQpx 維尼
她:你有時候會突然不見8964 copyright protection39PENANAag6sPVIF84 維尼
她:會讓我覺得你是不是也不想繼續了8964 copyright protection39PENANA4r5eJfrHYU 維尼
我:沒有啦 我只是剛剛睡著了8964 copyright protection39PENANAKckz64IZGh 維尼
我:抱歉8964 copyright protection39PENANAT2VQidEvfK 維尼
她:(貼圖:縮在角落的兔子)8964 copyright protection39PENANAsTZoopnzGu 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANArywEqmVQcd
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【2022.10.05】8964 copyright protection39PENANAjOPq7O2UOp 維尼
我:你在幹嘛8964 copyright protection39PENANAyl7UCKWLYa 維尼
(未讀)8964 copyright protection39PENANA4sAl2qRqjc 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANABN0JIrjUwS
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【2022.10.10】8964 copyright protection39PENANAvcN1JSpwU3 維尼
我:……你最近是不是不太想講話8964 copyright protection39PENANA5rWpPZfqPm 維尼
我:那我不吵你8964 copyright protection39PENANA7HGUBlbXiC 維尼
我:晚安8964 copyright protection39PENANAcR5j5u3Wt4 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAUiZhtuuSYX
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【2022.10.20】8964 copyright protection39PENANA7gu15P3MZ1 維尼
她:你會記得我嗎?如果我不見的話8964 copyright protection39PENANARqeCv2yyJF 維尼
我:(打字中)→(沒傳出)8964 copyright protection39PENANAWIGYYNzLRp 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAj2fObdjG0v
8964 copyright protection39PENANAhDGCuYD47X 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANA5slKcxCbla
8964 copyright protection39PENANAdCX5e4Mmt8 維尼
現在想起來,我們之間最可怕的不是冷戰,不是爭吵,不是誰先放手。8964 copyright protection39PENANAIYS3L54C1y 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAdHkwy6Z1sP
8964 copyright protection39PENANAqA6jWIyTOe 維尼
而是我們都還想留下來,但誰都不敢再靠近了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAq0ep1GPaiY 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAkpRfU7hIHs
8964 copyright protection39PENANA7SzeUV07LX 維尼
就像她說的:8964 copyright protection39PENANAfb42Ud0m7s 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAQHspJzhgKG
8964 copyright protection39PENANAgjGFuG5AUr 維尼
「我最討厭的,是有人忽然就不見了。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAjCXN0vQ0ac 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAkIT6AZnz13
8964 copyright protection39PENANARipt7CeWlZ 維尼
但其實更殘忍的,是——8964 copyright protection39PENANAFPu8jg0ZiO 維尼
明明還在,卻已經不見了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAtbbKayd21Q 維尼
我以前常在想,我是不是做錯了什麼。8964 copyright protection39PENANAfMQtJj3cSN 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAg8jusvCho6
8964 copyright protection39PENANAmbYouI5WqP 維尼
是不是我不夠體貼,不夠努力,不夠溫柔;是不是哪一句話讓妳更想逃開;是不是有哪一刻,如果我再多堅持一下,就能改變結果。8964 copyright protection39PENANAR4A05SrgTn 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANALRh8LGGw2N
8964 copyright protection39PENANANRlexQOms4 維尼
但最近,我開始想——8964 copyright protection39PENANAHmEDEpMB9j 維尼
也許這段感情從來就不是要讓誰「變好」的。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJwOq6ENLHq 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA2hM8qVxCgh
8964 copyright protection39PENANA8TA6INFGI2 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANA0doAOgFcBP
8964 copyright protection39PENANAABHRmvRNKJ 維尼
前幾天我整理電腦備份,看到一個叫「寶物」的資料夾。8964 copyright protection39PENANAA1zHKzPX65 維尼
裡面全是她傳給我的東西:網路短片、崩壞的笑話、歌詞截圖、動物影片。8964 copyright protection39PENANAgqtna4JJXf 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAKhhm7pvAZD
8964 copyright protection39PENANAnxr9qr32lK 維尼
有一張是某天我們半夜聊到快睡著,她說:「來,我們交換一首現在最想聽的歌。」8964 copyright protection39PENANA031ZkroqID 維尼
她傳的是陳奕迅的〈全世界失眠〉。8964 copyright protection39PENANAoRYCiBqjGg 維尼
我傳的是那個時候正紅的輕快歌曲。8964 copyright protection39PENANARBglSaXJ2v 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAwZjk6IxH4H
8964 copyright protection39PENANATyjq6vICjK 維尼
她打了一句話,我一直沒刪掉:8964 copyright protection39PENANAZni7p7Pxvz 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAIPnV6LbOFD
8964 copyright protection39PENANAJntPytoFu6 維尼
「你永遠比我樂觀,這樣也不錯,我才可以往上靠。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAbDKeX3W1XT 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANATsECjzgXrP
8964 copyright protection39PENANAJnh6A2mp6Z 維尼
那時候我覺得那句話像在撒嬌。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJXtir4g2OT 維尼
現在再看,卻有點酸。8964 copyright protection39PENANAmWT4dUdsFA 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAb0QMVvIihl
8964 copyright protection39PENANAvLj3NfESQg 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAXJ7gwsesSO
8964 copyright protection39PENANACbdXafYbwN 維尼
我也看到以前一則備忘錄,寫著我們說過的話。8964 copyright protection39PENANA8NKFMYacOx 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA4MEg0UEacd
8964 copyright protection39PENANAabRAtTwfQq 維尼
「我們以後一定要常常一起出去。」8964 copyright protection39PENANA9LncWGTLQe 維尼
「你一定要記得我喜歡紅豆餅。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAlbmO6nBVT9 維尼
「如果我哪天不見了,請你幫我記得我曾經有努力過。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAHhr200mSqO 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA6odf3JEDpT
8964 copyright protection39PENANALPAMNrcrxQ 維尼
最後那句話,我一直記著。8964 copyright protection39PENANAyKGUPGu15y 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAEDUTBjOwRf
8964 copyright protection39PENANAwaZayqHIM4 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANATpqLKfgp1x
8964 copyright protection39PENANAsxERfPqjVR 維尼
這段感情沒有結局,只有停在某一點上的呼吸聲。8964 copyright protection39PENANAmHgRXCqgl5 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAO5VFRJZxge
8964 copyright protection39PENANAUXx7MgCdRY 維尼
像是一場對話,沒有人先說再見,但話題自然就結束了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAbCBgWPolan 維尼
像是一封信沒有收件人,但還是寫了好幾頁。8964 copyright protection39PENANAntIAkVUfNK 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAfzrY0p4tuD
8964 copyright protection39PENANA7uGUX0ArmN 維尼
我們都太想證明自己值得被愛了,卻忘了去問彼此——累了嗎?8964 copyright protection39PENANAjLal3siD9T 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA8r9JgPPEUT
8964 copyright protection39PENANA94ZwhtR2Ax 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANApglcl5savO
8964 copyright protection39PENANA6iJH1qS7KK 維尼
我現在開始覺得,那些曾經沒回的訊息,那些沒說出口的話,也許不只是遺憾,8964 copyright protection39PENANA9mqpH9I0yO 維尼
也是一種溫柔的方式——讓彼此不要再傷得更重。8964 copyright protection39PENANAbqa3G5hcfo 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA1v2J4Iwn7u
8964 copyright protection39PENANAVUJU12yktg 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAYw6TYfbcE6
8964 copyright protection39PENANASFIP5QNuQA 維尼
我曾以為是我不夠好,才會讓這段感情壞掉。8964 copyright protection39PENANAbcOJU0MlFx 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA80WFdTJejE
8964 copyright protection39PENANADBbp8P7QHW 維尼
但現在我終於能夠說出口:8964 copyright protection39PENANAGVf5dt2I2L 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAYRomgICXui
8964 copyright protection39PENANANUtyAnYoVl 維尼
這段感情,不是你的錯,也不是我的錯。8964 copyright protection39PENANA2uzhkek7ek 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAOJ3GDqYtui
8964 copyright protection39PENANAwQdYvgGeur 維尼
我們只是還沒學會怎麼好好相愛。8964 copyright protection39PENANA7AiNBMPxZx 維尼
而學會這件事,往往是在愛錯過之後。8964 copyright protection39PENANAYN1oK7Uro6 維尼
我不知道她為什麼會出現在這裡。8964 copyright protection39PENANA8rhofXOcrR 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAsdaOsfl8uy
8964 copyright protection39PENANAmHTxSeMmzw 維尼
那天我只是來陪一個朋友看診,無聊地走到醫院樓下的便利商店。8964 copyright protection39PENANA1aRZM3jTEZ 維尼
我正要結帳時,轉頭就看到她站在門口,正在找販賣機投入口。8964 copyright protection39PENANAJNnVryoKsJ 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAjJcExaKNIJ
8964 copyright protection39PENANAwMPx4Y1vWX 維尼
她變了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAfSLlN8gpN4 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAXuLOUQjVYG
8964 copyright protection39PENANAyV4fg2vCnq 維尼
頭髮剪短了,背影沒以前那麼瘦,氣色也好了些。8964 copyright protection39PENANAshviZuYYCV 維尼
但她一轉過頭來,我還是一眼就認出來了。8964 copyright protection39PENANAn4jcyxTQJ5 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANARHVidE6kNP
8964 copyright protection39PENANA4vak3Jdmkb 維尼
她也看到了我。8964 copyright protection39PENANAkfvYHuHifl 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAFSRIAIjo0v
8964 copyright protection39PENANApYOaRzgEKX 維尼
我們隔著玻璃對望,大概兩秒,誰也沒動。8964 copyright protection39PENANAjwFOiVTLBm 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAqYY4sMfJl5
8964 copyright protection39PENANAgr2dJvq5eu 維尼
然後她推門走了進來。8964 copyright protection39PENANAxYrczPTtUm 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANArT4KlAMNPq
8964 copyright protection39PENANASM1uBRoLYO 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAcplamLyhVN
8964 copyright protection39PENANAhf5rdjD5Ob 維尼
我們在門口站了快半分鐘。誰也沒有先說話。8964 copyright protection39PENANA02LIxLBRU5 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAuyrHnTAIgD
8964 copyright protection39PENANAlJ2YpfOegm 維尼
我低頭笑了一下,像是想破冰,又像嘲諷自己的語無倫次。8964 copyright protection39PENANAdR9EqfMS5Z 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAFKU5fk0aF8
8964 copyright protection39PENANAqgLIi0bxvI 維尼
「……妳好像比以前有精神了。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAMfHNSZgoz0 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAATBCbNGjPU
8964 copyright protection39PENANARZnKCoUIU1 維尼
她點點頭。沒有開口。8964 copyright protection39PENANA0lZRN9VRH4 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAF9gN4LP1Ye
8964 copyright protection39PENANAxpg6o47xyF 維尼
我吸了一口氣,說出這幾年我腦海裡不斷反覆的那句話。8964 copyright protection39PENANAxu3j5q8aVt 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAK2PPE4WPFo
8964 copyright protection39PENANAh1buhMWkeT 維尼
「我們……能不能再交往一次?」8964 copyright protection39PENANAwCc4gMkUUn 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAwbYz1F3bEd
8964 copyright protection39PENANAsYLbNVo4jo 維尼
她眼神微微一震,但沒有驚訝。8964 copyright protection39PENANACPBcwrOd3v 維尼
就像她早知道我會這麼說,只是沒料到我真的會開口。8964 copyright protection39PENANAYuxCElEqhM 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAIPU5q16jn4
8964 copyright protection39PENANAc27YTFcwmJ 維尼
她沒有回答。8964 copyright protection39PENANA6Etz82PEWv 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAz1hQlOcyiC
8964 copyright protection39PENANAw7ebCYt7sX 維尼
只是看著我,像是過了很久,然後淡淡地笑了笑。8964 copyright protection39PENANAs3bEmSaeI7 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAOOAYnBLr8H
8964 copyright protection39PENANA89OCx3k9ef 維尼
不是快樂的那種笑,也不是無奈,而是一種——8964 copyright protection39PENANAd9ihVyeraZ 維尼
「我懂你,但我不能再回去了」的笑。8964 copyright protection39PENANA5I5IS26wBn 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAciKKnpbOfd
8964 copyright protection39PENANAxYes5rguUF 維尼
她拿起桌上的瓶裝水,走過我身邊。8964 copyright protection39PENANAaTh1T9RKbW 維尼
腳步很輕,但沒有停下來。8964 copyright protection39PENANAwPHutEqx67 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAH0tlFK55A9
8964 copyright protection39PENANALJm49I4ee2 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAc6ZahPjsYm
8964 copyright protection39PENANAJbi1280jO4 維尼
我站在原地,看著玻璃門自動關上。8964 copyright protection39PENANAUQY2ksdRcC 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAVgWOa5TFha
8964 copyright protection39PENANAILBXy7RW3Z 維尼
那一瞬間,我的腦中浮現的不是她走遠的背影。8964 copyright protection39PENANAvt8WFvmKfT 維尼
是當年她在訊息裡說過的話:8964 copyright protection39PENANAxF1nHUffNf 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANA1L2EavsSVo
8964 copyright protection39PENANAc2N6S4VpYu 維尼
「我最討厭的,是有人忽然就不見了。」8964 copyright protection39PENANAUFhcdFiI7O 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAI1khr01gHV
8964 copyright protection39PENANAZlCJ6N5AwW 維尼
她沒有消失。8964 copyright protection39PENANAMmyw6LIcPf 維尼
也沒有回來。8964 copyright protection39PENANASOoS9mD8HQ 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAjZNBvRT4VX
8964 copyright protection39PENANAniAHUAreUp 維尼
她只是,走到了屬於她自己的地方。8964 copyright protection39PENANAAxr3rDYb32 維尼
43Please respect copyright.PENANAjzBBSthtu1
8964 copyright protection39PENANArEGz9zAhOR 維尼
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43Please respect copyright.PENANAx2zZunMUKH
8964 copyright protection39PENANAmYnRhoAnbi 維尼
我回到診間,坐下。8964 copyright protection39PENANAum5XieRgsj 維尼
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