一間格局只有三張座位的居酒屋。114Please respect copyright.PENANAPRD5C2FRG9
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麥芽子坐在吧檯最邊緣的位置,喝著威士忌酒一杯接一杯,威士忌酒只剩下三分之一。114Please respect copyright.PENANAusAwxo2xXe
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「妳不要再喝了,求求妳不要傷害自己,是我對不起妳,我向妳道歉,我不該拖累妳。」柳葉子百般懇求。114Please respect copyright.PENANAJCcDluGMgE
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麥芽子不發一語,不露任何情緒,繼續默默獨自喝酒。114Please respect copyright.PENANABh8kuVPkjU
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喝到酒瓶見底,麥芽子才開口:「妳以為我是為什麼而喝酒啊?我是為了喝酒而喝酒。」說完麥芽子吟唱著一首詩(改編波特萊爾的惡之花詩集同名毀滅一詩)。114Please respect copyright.PENANAr2GCdgv9BC
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<毀滅>114Please respect copyright.PENANAaTOuq6MEg5
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惡魔在我身邊不斷騷動114Please respect copyright.PENANApYiSIXP8gU
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像不可碰觸的空氣,四面八方飄盪114Please respect copyright.PENANAYadd2KVnka
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我將他吞下,感受著肺部的灼熱114Please respect copyright.PENANA57CTrNu4RQ
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充斥永遠不會消失的罪惡與慾望114Please respect copyright.PENANAkijASlnWui
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他知道我對「理想」的執念114Please respect copyright.PENANAc9q3qOivU6
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他化成誘惑的神明114Please respect copyright.PENANAWmP3qfZ1vd
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以偽君子的巧言令色114Please respect copyright.PENANAzzoYbVpPcS
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使我的雙唇習慣於蒙昧的春藥114Please respect copyright.PENANAEMKoNrVOnJ
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如此引誘我遠離世俗的眼睛114Please respect copyright.PENANAgpchRnJIhx
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將疲憊不堪的我,引向114Please respect copyright.PENANAchhNIUDCUh
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迷霧的曠野,無垠且荒涼114Please respect copyright.PENANAjhg9cMfqT3
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向我充滿迷惘的眼中114Please respect copyright.PENANAJPVHKVTPw7
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汙穢我的衣裳,剪開裂口的創傷114Please respect copyright.PENANA5EJGtbmDBw
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以及毀滅所有,血跡斑斑的剪刀114Please respect copyright.PENANAbI9dsrkg2t
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麥芽子的吟詩聲像手術刀般精準地割開柳葉子的內心,柳葉子的懊悔與屈辱全部化為無聲的淚水。114Please respect copyright.PENANAcnGtPM4dEA
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「其實我對妳的恨遠超過教主。教主只是弄髒我的肉體,而妳卻玷污我內在最寶貴的屬性。我恨的是這點,妳明白嗎?」麥芽子冷冷地說。114Please respect copyright.PENANASm0l2ccmTW
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「我知道,我明白,是我把妳推向了火坑,我本意良善,當時我真的相信剪刀教教主,是我的愚昧害了妳啊!」114Please respect copyright.PENANA39WVyDqo0K
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「住口!其實我一點也不想在妳面前扮演受害者,妳沒有那麼重要,我只想讓妳感受被背叛的痛苦,事實上我已經告訴檢察官妳協助教主性侵我。」114Please respect copyright.PENANAjtFqqAwLeS
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「妳怎麼可以這麼說,我承認錯誤,我不該拉妳進來邪教,害你發生這樣的遺憾,但你說的這件完全是沒有的。」114Please respect copyright.PENANAEe3DDoHkbG
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「妳真的清白嗎?妳真的對教主的獸性完全不知情嗎?妳曾經不也是被教主強暴嗎?妳為什麼還讓我一個人與教主獨處,而且還是在我喝醉的情況下。」114Please respect copyright.PENANAREh0OEv4BX
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柳葉子陷入沉默,自從自己被教主侵犯後,她就喪失部分自我認知的能力,這也許都是為了麻痺痛苦 ,她的思緒回到事發當天,那是發生在去年的二月。114Please respect copyright.PENANANcLqEsla36
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「妳讓我感覺妳的道歉只是作秀,而不是發自內心。」麥芽子不給柳葉子解釋的機會,便到櫃檯結帳,丟下柳葉子一人獨自走出居酒屋。114Please respect copyright.PENANAO6OHwfUd2D
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我需要原諒一個傷害我最深的朋友嗎?仇恨已經蒙蔽我的雙眼嗎?柳葉子說她沒有陷害我是真的嗎?麥芽子心裡百般糾結,她隨著思緒在街上遊逛,現在已經是半夜三更。114Please respect copyright.PENANAZaVasRSkOK
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「唉!這樣自甘墮落的日子要持續多久?我對自己的厭惡什麼時候才能化解?」麥芽子對著天上掛起的新月嘆息。114Please respect copyright.PENANAbr6lypQyKp
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柳葉子我真的很想原諒妳,但我做不到,我連自己都無法寬恕了,更何況是妳啊!妳知道嗎!我好想念妳,也好想念跟妳在一起的自己,但往事不堪回首。麥芽子拿起筆在記事本寫下壓抑在心中的話。114Please respect copyright.PENANAKZ9Y1B8ax2
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我們說好畢業後一起環島旅行,一起考心理師執照,還要一起完成未來的夢想,我會成為詩人,妳會開一間書店,我們知道這個夢想或許蠻天真的,但我們都是理想主義者,怎麼知道命運對我們開這樣的玩笑……麥芽子寫出這段文字,為破裂的友情深深哀悼。114Please respect copyright.PENANAPOCVqtSnRk
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「我們可能回到當初嗎?怎麼可能啊!時光又不會倒流。」麥芽子對著濃霧遮掩的新月嘆息。114Please respect copyright.PENANApwjMrfbozj
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