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——让我带你离开这儿吧。
她在营地里花半日整顿了士兵来去、生死和管制,出门时神色惶惶,肩线垂落,马过河谷而神游移,眼前浮现的,仍只有他那不修边幅,屈从衰老的脸。诗妲库娃不曾想七月能使一人老上这么多;而更前,她不曾想,她还能见到他。歌德泼伦较之前更瘦,紧拥她时,她可闻他身上沉淀泥泞。她唯一的,先前已不免抛弃的亲属,从薇萨维亚斯奔赴极南,发似绺藻,脸生皱纹,甫一见她便泣不成声,挤过城门,将她抱在怀里。诗妲库娃。他语带哽咽:跟我走吧。我们去东部。
她不能挣扎。他有多久没这样抱着她了?她不知道。
“将他拉下去。”诗妲库娃僵涩道。她见歌德泼伦抽搐的手指,蓝眼出泪。她嘴唇颤动,对他道:“你是不是打算对安提庚也这样说,叔叔?”
他怔住。卫兵后来问:要将这男人投到牢里么?她摇头,忽不知何处生火,吼道:“将他安置到客房里!他是我叔叔!”卫兵便下去了。她晓得歌德泼伦仍回头望她,她却没回头,感手心烧着痛。
“长官。”一声音柔美道。她抬头,见那白衣女人微笑望她:“我是应继续跟着你,还是像歌德泼伦大人一样,上'君王殿'?”维斯塔利亚似有歉意:“我不愿给您添麻烦,但一路劳顿,我体弱,实在累了。”诗妲库娃凝望她片刻,不见她面色丝毫松动,垂眸道:“你上'君王殿'罢。”她眸光闪烁:“陛下会想见你。”她谢过她,诗妲库娃却不愿同她多说。她离开,带满身刺痛。
——刺心脏。这些人杀不死,只有刺心脏。
她神情恍惚,推开酒馆之门,便见副奇幻景色:约莫两月阵前为敌的兵士,一红一黑,分坐木屋两边。窗开,阳光正好,风吹帘布,满屋士兵若百尊塑像。那黑像,面带恍惚出神之微笑;那红像,眼露不信戒备之神色。诗妲库娃见塔提亚坐在桌上,手握酒杯,双腿摇晃,却不见过去那真正的散漫,而显然,杯中的酒,也一滴不曾以享用姿态印下。酒水滑落她的衣襟,她的蓝眼紧盯对面那黑士兵,身后众士兵面色各异,从茫然到愤怒各有各有之。
——心脏,是吗?我很高兴你能告诉我们这么一个重要的信息。
阿默黛芬.盖特伊雷什文坐于对面的桌边,手前有一杯酒,水面平稳,藏于阴影之下,几如深黑。那周遭,数十士兵环绕,身绕其旁,手撑桌上,面色无不若宗教出神之画像,环成一奇异和谐的拱型。诗妲库娃内心暗惊:她上回见她,还是在'海境墙'前,她拨开众人,姿态似狂,将纳黛莉娅.盖特伊雷什文刺死,之后又悲哀嚎泣,痛不欲生。她以为她定已经重归疯狂,今日一见,却比从前更平静安稳;她说这话,举杯轻抿一口,眼眸低沉,面露微笑,复将杯盏递给身侧士兵。
——嘿。那必然就是你,杀了姗坦因,是吧?
第二个士兵也喝一口这酒,眼眸漆黑,瞥向对面:既然所有人都害怕我们这不死之身,而你在唠唠叨叨什么心脏,杀死,且只有姗坦因死了。她亦微笑,难见真心,将这杯盏递给第三个士兵。
——你杀了姗坦因。让我和你握手。她经常说:死亡,死亡,死亡。现在她如愿以偿。也许我们每个人都一样?
第三个士兵低声道。她没有微笑,但神色平静,喝下那水。她抬手,将这杯盏递给第四个人。
——告诉我,当你握住那心脏,你有什么感觉?那心脏挣扎了么?她挣扎了么?
这第四个士兵端着酒杯,似不急于饮其中之物,而抬头向前,望向那红方士兵,姿态似乎随性,但终于显出长辈对晚辈的散漫和调侃。诗妲库娃不能不意识到这是对在年龄上相差迥异的队伍,漆黑一队具为天年已尽,死地巡游的老兵,其对面那猩红士兵,却大抵青春年少。塔提亚蹙眉不答,这第四个士兵抬手而下,终于将酒杯靠近嘴唇。
塔提亚摇头。第四个士兵笑了。
——你将我们的心脏,说得很脆弱。不是这样的。心脏在我们身体的最内部,你捉住它,它也拉扯你。你很难将它取出。没什么事物是永生不灭的,然而以心为命的东西,最难杀。
她饮了酒,将杯递给第五个士兵。那士兵接过,当即饮了一口,随后抬起手,姿态激动而喜悦。
——很显然,姗坦因自杀了。我祝贺她。她求而不得的事物终于降临。
她举起那酒杯,向天一泼,阳光浮动,不知其中究竟是明是暗,酒落众士兵之头颅。她振臂高呼:“我祝贺她——也祝贺我们!”她向周遭道:“战友们,我们终于要解脱了。”她手抚自己的心:“当那一刻来到时,我们将这颗心剜出,我们便还清了债务,也不堕永恒的折磨。敬自由!”
“敬自由!”众士兵回道。诗妲库娃感头皮发麻,忽听一声音寒冷道:
“死亡就是你们的自由么?”塔提亚漠然开口:“你们究竟为为何替那男人卖命?他还了以死为押的短暂自由给你们,使你们做他的奴隶?”
阿默黛芬.盖特伊雷什文双手交握,一声叹息。 “我们非是受他恩惠,达成交易。这是我们欠他的,年轻人。我们在还债。”她抬起手,其上黑纹经阳光闪耀:“谁使我们精力超凡——谁使我们狂奔如电,挥剑似雷?”她叹道:“谁使我们生生不息?”众士兵幽幽回应:“梵恩-克黛因。”她们黑眼向前,使人胆寒:“我们饮下了他的血,欠了以命尚不能相还的债。”
“你问得冠冕堂皇,我倒要问问你——小鬼,”一士兵,高笑道:“你是为什么替你的陛下出生入死?她又给了你什么好处,你要付出什么代价?”
塔提亚抿唇不答。 “我从你的脸上看得出,”阿默黛芬笑道:“没有理由。最深刻的理由:你没有选择,可怜的人。我们都一样。”
“哪是没有理由?”诗妲库娃偏头。看一年轻士兵从塔提亚身后,声带颤抖地道:“那是个男人,陛下是个女人! ”她站起身,似鼓足勇气,但最后,不知怎么,这逞强变作了愤怒,使她声音高了:“黑血能做到的,陛下的血都能做到,甚至更好!她是向着我们的,你们看不出来么?”
她伸出手,却又哆嗦了一下:“女人是比男人聪明!”她颤声道:“但没有这血——我们没有他们力气大!我们不能比他们聪明,但没他们力气大!这不行。”她看向她们,眼露绝望:“你们明白吧?”
我看了那些男人喝了血后的样子。她有点焦急地解释道:他们不能喝到这血。不然我们就……我们就……
她说不下去了。阿默黛芬摇头微笑。 “这就是你们选择的生存之道:弱肉强食,强强相争。一条染血的兽道。”那士兵不回答了。
她站起身。一圈黑环起伏,右侧的红方士兵亦拔剑。她身后的士兵也有愿持剑的,但被她制止了。
“这是你们的选择。”她平静道,目视前方:“而这是我们的选择:愁长恨短,终有一死。万物终有其绝灭之时,非人可决定。”一士兵拔剑向她;她垂头瞪视她一眼,使其胆寒。
“长官——她们看上去便是要作乱的模样。请下命令,我们不如在此将她们歼灭。”一士兵焦急道,朝塔提亚。诗妲库娃见塔提亚抬手扇她一掌,力道极大,全队登时鸦雀无声。
“你竟可以建议你的长官应该做什么!”她吼道。阿默黛芬看着。
她张开手。
“你们可以试着来消灭我们,但你们暂且不能做到,也不必心急。”她微笑道:“绝灭之时很快就会到来,届时,让我们共赴解脱和自由之中。”
“列队。”阿默黛芬道。那黑方士兵便整齐划一,成阵向门口走来。诗妲库娃让开一步,却见阿默黛芬抬头看她一眼。
“你是葛德莉亚的侄女。”她静默道,声音微弱,只有二人可闻:“你又是为什么在这里?”诗妲库娃僵硬不动;她走了,她向前迈步。阳光温暖,却感身体寒冷。
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——为自由。我是为自由这么做的。
她尤为印象深刻的一件事是,少年时代从寄宿学院返家,撞见叔叔接待客人。她蹲在门廊前许久,听得原来是'象院'来的传令官,通知歌德泼伦,他要被免职。来人称他为'歌柏伦',似亲近,又更如轻蔑。 “您代领祖母职位的年日已足够长了,”使者笑道:“您的侄女已准备好了么?”
歌德泼伦叹息。他不曾辩解,而签下了文件。 “我自愿将席位交还'象王'。我的家族已尽了义务,享了权力。”他环顾大宅破败灰尘,合上双眼:“如今我们再没能力,自当退却。”
叔叔没为她争取这个职位;他是对的。她不能怪他。诗妲库娃不曾见过母亲,也没见过父亲。歌德泼伦带她长大;他是她唯一的亲人。叔叔从前是诗人,她听人说——他确实是个细腻敏感的男人,为掩饰此,他甚至曾剪短头发,留起胡子,但他体察入微,了解她的个性。诗妲库娃不属于'象院',她继承了父亲的性情刻薄,却全盘承了母亲的自由散漫,在学院,她因为经文背诵,数理计算而逃学。这事儿对她来说无聊地吓人。她不喜欢同孛林的年轻贵族往来,而渴望新鲜空气。
但家庭需要钱。
当她还小时,家族的财富便在迅速流失,多出于她从未见过长辈的失败投资。她们有地。很多地,荒芜难理,歌德泼伦从未积累到一笔足够料理这些的财富,而他在'象院'的职业生涯也不曾带给他除背痛以外的遗产。问及此事,她后来逐渐发现,这一脉的不善理财应说是遗传。自百年前崛起以来,她们在增加人口,却在消耗财富。
遗传:'蓝眼王'有名的王弟伊里安尼恩是个温和游离的男人。他与世无争,喜静好思,但不善争辩,也不长于敛财——那似乎是他威名赫赫的姐姐尤其偏爱他的原因。她死后,她将王位给了政敌,但她的财富和秘密,只给了伊里安尼恩。
“那么,廷斯芙蕾德的财富是怎么来的呢?”
她问歌德泼伦。诗妲库娃从未能明白财富是怎么被聚集的;特里图恩大街上那些能日进斗金的职业对她而言无聊透顶。她更愿意去下城区看工匠做钉,裁缝做衣。这些人永远不可能聚到她们曾拥有,她们现在需要的财富。歌德泼伦笑笑,难掩尴尬。
“战争。”他道。
她在那些没开垦,也没长树的荒地上奔驰。她掠过的课程越来越多了;牧首说以她的散漫程度,即使给三千明石,也不能将她送进'鲸院'。 “我不想去'鲸院'。”她跟歌德泼伦说。她离开他的看护,去下城区闲逛,到荒野里过夜。她学会了给自己配烟草,看过棕熊吃野狼的幼崽,见过下城区的女人死于难产。
去'圣母'教会的人脸上总带着病色。她骑马通行全城,看窗户从明到暗,餐盘上的食物以此衰暗;离女神最近的城市,她的居民也不是人人能饱腹。某年冬天,气节寒冷,粮市无余,斗金难买米,她照常出门,在湖对面,便见到西岸低洼处火光大作。下城区民众暴乱,据说先王在时常有,然而自她有生以来,还是第一次见。
一队明亮的红光掠过诗妲库娃身旁,几如这火焰般。她侧过头,看见一连披着甲的高大女人,骑战马疾驰而去。
'鬣犬'。
别靠这些长官太近;歌德泼伦时常同她说。他尊称她们为长官,语气却透着悲凉。他说过一千遍,你的二姨,葛德莉亚,死于服役期间,自己却总忘记。这队士兵骑得如此快,她的马都心潮澎湃。
她跟了上去。
“离开点,小鬼。”一士兵回头道,神色漠然。 “这是个贵族。”另一士兵小声说。 “更应该离开点。我们担不起责。”那士兵回答。
“不要你们负责。”诗妲库娃道:“我只是想去看看。”
“行。”为首的士兵咧嘴笑:“如果你跟得上。”
她确实险些跟不上。她们加了速,快得使人难以置信。但诗妲库娃太熟悉这条路;她换了小路包抄,最终还是将她们追上。首领面露惊讶:“你应该留在后边,小鬼。别给你家里人添麻烦。”她摇头,气喘吁吁:“我只是想看看。”她只是需要看看。她如愿以偿。
财富的秘密昭然若揭:她见成堆的男人从低地冲上来,但这些穿红衣的女人们像打沙包一样将他们打回去。她们善于格斗,善于作战,善于战术。善于战斗。她看见她们手臂上鼓起的黑色血管,像梅伊森-克黛因的水。待到夜幕降临,终于再无人来,'鬣犬'绑了几个头领作为主犯,将他们吊死在广场上。诗妲库娃从墙边钻出来,见一个孩子在巷子里,用小刀割下死尸被烧焦的肉。她脸色微变,身后忽来风声,转头见一男人,挥舞着把菜刀向她劈来。
她向后退去,浑身紧绷,发出尖叫。但周围没人。诗妲库娃尝试跑出去,到自己的马身旁,但那男人太庞大结实,堵住她的去路。她身体灵活,左躲右闪,紧盯那男人的动作以求不被刺中,忽听身后那孩子喊道:“小心身后!”
她回了头。刀从她头顶劈下,痛得她两眼一黑。她跌倒在地,蜷缩身体,勉力护住要害,然而那男人跨在她身上,一刀一刀砍她的四肢,头皮。叔叔。她模糊想,眼前竟出现歌德泼伦的脸,我要死了。
之后,她所见到的,就全是红色。
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——为什么不离开呢?
歌德泼伦道。他身旁那人影转过了头,诗妲库娃听她沉默,最终开口,道:
“你不明白,歌德泼伦大人。”安提庚道,语气苦涩:“在纳西塔尼舍这般的偏僻地区,贫困家庭的女子很少出路,母亲偏爱儿子,胜过女儿。我们没有机会读书,进入教会或者商行,需要体力活的职业偏爱男性。”她张开手指:“终其一生,我们使用两音节的名字。若长大成人,我们会在生育中耗费一生。教会放弃了我们,她们称之为,行使神圣的生育权利。”
她回过头;那面孔上已不见其真情。她看上去沉稳而平静。
(从她知道这件事开始,她时常不免好奇:歌德泼伦竟喜欢如安提庚一般的人。她的身边从没出现过。)
“'鬣犬'是我们唯一的机会。”安提庚安静道:“当我还是孩子的时候,我很瘦小;我父亲酗酒后经常打我,我知道我很难杀死一个男人,而我能否杀死一个男孩,我不知道。即便如此,我还是这么做了。我赌上了我的一切,险些死在考核中,靠这一搏,我换来了这个名字。”她轻声念道:“'安提庚'。”
“……我理解。”他叹息。 “你不可能理解,歌德泼伦大人。”安提庚略微抬高了些声音:“不置身其中的人不可能理解。”她抽了口气:“这就是为什么事会至此。”
他沉默片刻。诗妲库娃可想象他的表情——歌德泼伦时常沉默。听说他在'鲸院'讲课时口若悬河,过去担任理事时也能言善辩,但在家中,歌德泼伦不常说话。他会看着她,许久,一言不发,像是他对这世界,已不剩什么可说。
“我很抱歉——但我没有假装,我完全感受过你的痛苦和你的挣扎,安提庚。”他低声道:“我只是感受到了你的悲伤。从我第一次见到你,你说你想做我的学生开始,我就感到了你的压抑。你那么年轻,好学,温和,却总是强撑持重,点到为止。我想这一切对你来说一定艰难,像对我的母亲和姐姐一样。”
诗妲库娃见泪水滑下歌德泼伦的眼眶,莫大的痛苦使他的嘴唇颤抖;她退后一步。
叔叔总是无精打采。她知道——但他从来没在她眼前哭泣。
“——每个贵族家庭都有一个主母,在我的家庭里,就是我的母亲。我总是想起她,因为她离开我太早了。我的出生拖垮了她的身体。”眼泪滑落,但他的语气平稳;他说着,如梦似幻,年华深沉:“之后,是我的大姐,她用生命养育了她的孩子,但她们全部死于瘟疫。”
他笑了笑。 “最后,是我的四姐。她是和我关系最好的姐姐;死于难产。她是诗妲库娃的母亲。”歌德泼伦顿了顿,看着安提庚的眼睛:“我的二姐葛德莉亚,也是个'鬣犬'。她常说着这一仗打完就退役回家,继承家业,但她再也没有回来。”
诗妲库娃看见叔叔的眼睛,湛蓝如天。'蓝眼王'无情而隐秘的蓝;她唯一的爱,便在这蓝色的凝望中。泪水从中滑落,仿佛晴天之雨。
“——而如今留给我的,就是我的侄女,和那个秘密。”
歌德泼伦轻声道。 “……秘密?”安提庚说。他点了点头。
“你记得你那天同我一起去看戏?”他道。她点了点头。诗妲库娃瞳孔睁大,一阵预感使她胆寒,然而时间不息向前推进,她见他微笑。
“我们走过了东部环城大道。你去南边,我去北边。月亮升在天空最高处,你记得我们在哪儿分离?”
声音柔柔。安提庚也面露诧异:“血井。”她摇头,面色颓唐:“你的家族……保存的就是血井的秘密?”
他点了头。歌德泼伦清了清嗓,继而开口。一生中头一次,诗妲库娃知道了他为何曾是'诗院'的次席。他有如此适合诗歌的声音:
它是钢铁;是七千六百块骨头,自最初就残破,损坏了。
当月光将地面变作镜子,你若走到断崖下,朝那石心一样的地层下看,
就能见到它在那里,仰面,横卧,用平静的面孔对着你。
诗妲库娃闭上眼。她知道歌德泼伦破解了血井的位置,却不知那秘密的实情,此时夏风吹风,她却感到阵阵凉意。但那不刺骨,冰冷,只是微凉,夹着不散的情意,而正是这执着却脆弱的真情,让这雨和泪格外冻心。朦胧的目光中,越过她藏身的树荫,她能看见歌德泼伦的眼泪滴落,落在地上的红花上,如落下一滴血,燃烧不息。
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血泼洒在她身上。诗妲库娃浑身如烧伤般剧痛,气息垂危,抬头只见她顶上这男人颈脖上的热血喷溅而出,一鲜红人影傲立其上,手中长剑滴血。此人红发飞舞,蓝眼燃烧。蓝眼:南方那璀璨的天空,而非北方寂静的沉默。
“……公主……”她挣扎道。 “噢,你认识我。”来人笑道,而后向身后士兵喝道:“这是怎么回事?”
“回殿下,这是个我们在路上遇见的年轻贵族。”那士兵无奈道:“她非要跟来,屡劝不听,才酿成此祸。”士兵低头:“属下无能。”
“罢了。”卡涅琳恩道:“咎由自取。”她复低头,打量她一番,面露考量:“啊,这不是格奇伦西的曾孙女吗?侧王亲的继承人。”那士兵闻言大惊:“我听说她是独嗣啊!”
卡涅琳恩哈哈大笑,抬手道:“——拿血来! ”她伸手接住一空中小瓶,蹲下身子,在她面前晃了晃。
她看见那黑色。然而她的眼已被鲜血染红,仿佛天空滴血。 “喝了这个,你就能活,不过你以后要加入'鬣犬',为我工作,愿不愿意?”
先前那小巷中的孩童先前跑去。他哭起来,装作受惊而不知情的模样——诗妲库娃猛地起身,攥住她的手。她爆发出惊人力气,用牙咬碎了那玻璃;黑血和玻璃碎片一起灌入,她的唇边黑红交杂,然而她双眼睁大,手指向前,死死指着那男孩逃跑的方向。 “抓着他。”她挣扎道,血喷涌而出,但力气却越来越大。一士兵捞起那男孩,诗妲库娃站起身,浑身滴血,步步向前。那男孩回头望她,如见恶鬼。
她闭上眼——她见到了那月亮,照在黑水上。
她砸下一拳。
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从它身体中涌出的泉和血,你不喝,它便是最纯净的泪水,当倘若你,
用嘴唇触碰它,它会燃烧你的骨头,侵占你的心。
“……歌德泼伦大人。”
安提庚闭眼,声音颤抖。 “我明白你的意思。”他停下,微笑望她,道:我也明白你。
他握住她的手。 “你能相信我可以感受到你的悲伤吗?”他有些绝望地道:“你能相信我么?”她闭眼不睁,眉头蹙起,似承受极大压力。
“……女人偷窃了这血。”她最后小声说:“现在他来收回它了。我们除了相信她以外,别无它法。”歌德泼伦语气急切:“但你们不能相信她!安提庚,所有人都看得出卡涅琳恩是个疯子。她的道就是一条无休无止的杀戮之路,凡是生命,无人幸免,人皆草木,必将燃烧。生命便是一场燃烧,死亡是它的灰,时间是它的燃料。你能想象这样的生命该有多痛苦?”
他泪如雨下。 “那就是你们的生活!你和诗妲库娃的生活。我只是个凡人,安提庚,改变不了过去,但我怎么忍心看到你们受如此折磨?”歌德泼伦挥开眼泪,双肩颤抖:“我已经做了一辈子的衰败之梦,现在它近在眼前,这是我最后的机会。即使我粉身碎骨,我也想,至少,使你们脱离这苦海。”
他又哭又笑。 “所以,请你,安提庚。”他低声道:“离开吧。木已成舟,但你可以不要在此命运中燃烧殆尽。”
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生命是一场燃烧。
死亡是它的灰,时间是它的燃料。
不。她一拳一拳砸下,听那男孩哀嚎,嘴中咆哮:“你竟敢骗我!”她将他生生打得脑浆迸裂,身体抽搐。那血液在她身体中蠕动,似在对她喃喃细语,然而那巨大的暴怒,似换了种颜色,使她对此充耳不闻。她扯下他的四肢,将他撕得四分五裂,眼珠滚落地面,茫然望向天空。待她起身,周遭士兵都静默看着,其中一人露出苦笑。
“不愧是'蓝眼王'的后代。”她道。卡涅琳恩为她鼓掌:“不想歌德泼伦那窝囊性格,竟有如此酷烈的侄女。你过关了,小鬼,来我这报道。”
她瞪着她。卡涅琳恩似笑非笑:“怎么,觉得自己还行,想跟我叫板?”她勾勾手指:“你离我,还差了一万年呢。”一万年也不行。
诗妲库娃摇头。她闭上眼,尝到身上那股人体撕裂后的新鲜死气,就像死后的家畜。她张开双臂,身上伤口结丝,似对此有所领悟。
生命是一场燃烧——死亡是它的燃料。
所有的财富都以死亡为基础;我们制造死亡,吞食死亡,掠夺死亡。有了足够的死亡,才有繁荣的生命;你可沉浸于生命的制造和玩乐,死亡却总在此徘徊。何人总凌驾于你头顶,威胁将你的梦和乐都掷于火中?何人制造生命,逼迫其行此烈焰,渴求慈悲,燃烧为灰?
“故我当为火本身——汝之司命,毁灭之毁灭,血的君王。天予我以创生之胁迫,我还其以绝灭之苦痛。”这声音笑道:“何需创造众生长存之乐园,而唯得须臾之幻梦?若常道分一为二,以半死换半生,何不喋血修罗之境,极乐野火之中?”
这声音起先似火,燃烧庞大,最末却低了。那手靠近她,声音轻微,只是个再普通不过,年轻女人的声音。
“……如此,我好歹是自由的。”
那女人道;这惘然转瞬即逝。诗妲库娃在她面前跪下。卡涅琳恩显得满意。
“帮我做点事。”她笑道:“我要从北方运点东西,放在你家的庄园里……”
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“不。”她忽然说,挣开了他的手。歌德泼伦面露怅然。 “为何?”他道:“难道你希望继续走在这条喋血之道上么?”
“不。”安提庚仍道;她亦流泪,咬紧牙关,不曾回头,直到那眼泪干涸,方转过头。然而终是无用之功——她见他神情的瞬间,仍是泪流满面。
“……正是因为这是条染血之路,才不可回头了。”她挣扎道,面容苦痛:“我感谢你的好意,歌柏伦。谢谢你。”
她的泪落在那红花中。歌德泼伦上前一步,两人拥抱在一起。诗妲库娃见叔叔紧紧搂着安提庚;她转过头,看着这城市,看着她红色的网,听那她不曾听过的诗行,仍自响起:
你会尝到那埋藏地底的苦。而这时你明白,它为何能将其忍受,
在你喝到那水时。你知道,
那一无所有,埋藏地底的永远,
终于将是所有人的命运。
“……请你离开吧,歌柏伦。”安提庚含泪道:“在踏上这条道路时,我们就应该知道。纵使万劫不复,也不能回头了。”他摇了摇头。歌德泼伦笑道:“不必了。不必了。正如那诗所说。”他笑笑:这是所有人的命运;这是我们共同的罪孽。无可回避。
宫殿号角吹响,诗妲库娃转头离开,抹去眼中泪水;太阳炙烤着,不一会,就再没人看得出,她曾哭过了。
她走向'君王殿'。
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