Setting here almost 48 yrs old in a week and I think back in my life did i do any thing i wanted to do out of my life and all i can say is no i feel like i failed my self and my wishes where i wanted to me married one time to a man that loved me and have 5 kids and did that happen nope I had a kid out of wed lock and i was 23 almost 24 then i married my high school sweet heart at the age of 28 and then 7 months later we was divorced then my father gets sick and i stop working for 5 and half years to take care of him and be a mom to my son then i met someone in the 5 half yrs mark like 3 and half years but i thought he was the one and i wanted 4 and half yrs to marry him cause i don't think i was over my first marriage and i did not want to make the same mistakes and i did not want to rush in to another marriage and finding out 15 yrs in to a marriage was based on lines and I just wish i knew what the hell i did wrong but the answers do not help me from my questions that keep wondering in my mind.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi2d66Yp5a
The only thing i keep finding is this lost little girl that wants that happy ending that will take care of her be there for her no matter what and give her the love and support that she needs but instead i feel like i did not get none of that and the only thing i got was heart break and lies and disappointments . I just feel this lonely and emptiness and deep dark cave is looking pretty good right now cause that is what i feel like i am at right now and i do not want to come out i just want keep hiding cause all i know its going to bring me is more pain and loneliness . I have scares that can last for a life time in my mind cause they feel like the are on repeat and i can see my self screaming to shut the damn thing off while i am setting there crying in a dark room when no one can here me scream and cry . 13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIhph5sQvD
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Why do i keep finding my self this way no matter what i do i just feel this emptiness in my heart and still feel the lonely part of me still there and it wont ever go away13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoWukNrZIv
