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“W-what? What do you mean by ‘you and me both’?” Shella looked down, trying not to reflect on her words. But it was obvious that she could not ignore them.
“ֆ- tYë̈…̈̈̈̈ï̈̈ u…c̈t t.̈̈̈b,̈̈̈̈̈eas ̈̈̈lee ̈ë i Ḧ̈b̈̈̈ẗn̈ü̈l̈ër̈ë öutë̈̈̈̈tch.̈̈̈ s̈̈̈Pä̈eẗcyaẗ̈c̈ ̈̈ltuhï̈ẗ̈s.” Psyëfami Translation
Shellas face turns red hot, feeling frustration with every word Suci says. “STOP LAUGHING AT ME and answer MY QUESTION!” Due to Suci's words, Shella became more self-conscious about herself. Every second that passed, Suci, with her insults, made her feel vulnerable, more insecure about her flaws, and made Shella doubt herself.
Each negative demoralizing comment thrown at her kept chipping away at Shella’s mental state. She was no longer fully focused on defending herself. All her mind was thinking about was Suci’s comments. Each remark kept stabbing away at what little positive spirit Shella had left. It was putting a toll on her mentally. She had never been pushed this hard before, by anyone. Deep down she hated it, she hated being on edge, feeling stress and anxiety all at the same time. The overwhelming thoughts just kept pounding away in her mind but with Suci’s comments, it was to her, another layer of depressing thoughts. It felt like a ton of rocks crashed landed on top of her and Suci’s comments were an entire mountain’s worth of discouraging words. It was difficult to will it all away from her mind this time. Nothing she did was working for her. Trying to switch her thoughts to something else, humming a tune in her head, and even counting numbers out loud and breathing deep, couldn’t stop Shella from thinking about all the negative thoughts swirling around in her mind.
“ֆ- n̈sr̈Ÿ ̈̈n̈ ë̈ä̈ b ̈̈̈Ẅ̈a .i ̈vö̈̈̈D̈̈ ̈s̈̈… h ̈̈̈ü,̈baẗ̈tü äeswö̈̈ ̈hẗü̈ö̈l̈y n̈ö̈ ̈s̈ ̈wïtö̈d̈ ä̈̈̈ltẅ̈ …̈̈̈̈. ̈r̈̈öïtï̈̈ nIeI.oeo tt.̈̈ ̈m̈ÿ̈̈̈̈eö̈̈̈k ̈?o ̈̈̈ḧneaocoẗ̈̈̈̈tke.̈̈ ̈ö̈d̈n̈̈hk̈̈̈̈̈ÿaüom̈.” Psyëfami Translation
“Ha, funny. Is that your failed attempt at a joke? Have you looked in a mirror lately, Suci? I am nothing like you!” Shella wondered why she said that name again Suci, as if she was confident that it was her name. She could not explain each time it happened why suddenly the names of these girls popped into her mind. First it was Rubi, then Luti, after that was Mani, and now this girl, Suci.
There was this strong intimidating dominant factor that Shella could not ignore coming from this woman. Her unhinged psychotic behavior made Suci extremely different from all the other girls Shella had met before. Shella could not deny it, but there was something about Suci that was both disturbing and terrifying. Shella could not get herself to look away. Every word, every movement, kept Shella’s mind hyper focused on her mannerisms. The sight of Suci only traumatizes her, leaving a lasting negative impression in her mind
“ֆ- ë ̈̈̈crö ̈̈ïẗ̈̈̈ÿ̈,̈̈av̈̈s̈ëc ̈gö̈̈?höö̈̈ë ̈öp̈c s̈̈̈e ̈̈nḧek̈r oẅaï̈̈ s̈̈̈̈̈̈ ̈e ̈ ̈eJ̈ẗë ̈̈̈̈̈̈̈Tjf̈olntxr̈ ̈ytÿ̈̈̈rteḧüoë̈slürẗ̈ü̈̈ä̈̈ antḧeiög̈ẗ̈ ̈̈e üäẗ̈̈.̈̈ b̈̈̈̈hhe. ̈ëü̈̈sä ̈a ̈̈̈ḧ̈är̈̈k öl s̈ ̈̈ẅ̈ns̈egiüäeduhp̈oc̈̈orp̈ï̈ ̈̈̈̈̈̈̈s̈̈̈̈̈m̈̈r .̈̈̈c̈d̈̈ne mḧäï̈uä ̈̈nlë ̈̈̈.̈pne ̈olẗ̈̈,ttëü̈̈äg̈̈t ̈ab̈ŸIn̈.” Psyëfami Translation
Suci points to her head almost near where the red stone was positioned on her forehead.
“Huh? Y-your mind? What about it!?” Shella felt like she already knew what the woman named Suci was talking about, she just didn’t want to admit it. Shella gulps down air hard trying her best not to accept the fact that she somehow knew, she knew what the woman was talking about.
“ֆ- td ….̈̈së̈̈ẗ ̈̈̈at ̈ï̈̈n̈̈ä̈̈s̈̈säe er̈̈es̈aïem̈eë̈ḧẄ̈ e…hheëm̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈Wẅ̈ e m.̈ r̈. ̈̈s ̈ ̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈ Wn̈̈fëë̈tÏ̈̈ësü̈eë̈̈̈n̈̈ïgḧ̈̈̈̈s̈̈̈ ̈ ̈̈̈ aaẗ ̈̈̈hr̈dö̈̈̈s̈r̈̈at ̈̈̈sT.pete, mm̈̈ de s̈osWfä̈̈̈̈nï.ḧ̈ ëäm r̈̈ fahë̈̈e W e ä̈̈̈he rt ë̈̈ ̈…̈hë̈̈̈̈üv̈ä̈̈ö̈ḧst…̈nëäenoÿ̈̈̈r.” Psyëfami Translation
She looked Shella directly in her eyes and said the following.
“ֆ- ̈ïn̈̈s̈ b̈…̈̈A c̈̈̈̈ c̈̈ü̈̈̈ ̈̈uo üol̈̈v̈̈̈ ̈uirmöaḧ̈öfn̈s̈ẗ̈op̈̈ t ̈rwg̈d.̈äaë ̈̈etḧ̈ ̈n s̈̈̈̈e…laü̈̈̈nr̈̈̈̈̈irg̈a ̈n̈̈̈nhiḧhÖgeẗẗ ̈̈̈̈̈̈̈ ̈̈̈ë̈se ̈etes̈ë,s̈m̈̈̈̈̈l̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈ël sn̈̈oo ̈̈̈̈ö ̈̈̈ ̈ẗc̈oï̈n sos̈ë̈̈prmü.ö̈oo cou.” Psyëfami Translation
Shella grits her teeth and becomes furious. She could not believe what the woman Suci just said to her. “HOW DARE YOU? OUR FRIEND ALRIN!!?? W-who do you think you are!? How do you know that!? YOU DO NOT KNOW ALRIN! AND YOU DO NOT KNOW ME! Do not speak like you know Alrin. How do y-you know those things about me!? I told you to stay out of my mind! Is this another one of your sick tricks, your abilities!?”
“ֆ- ̈̈ä Sö̈̈ ̈p̈f…̈̈p̈Tö̈̈,udün̈̈̈smfti.̈ …dḧor̈ï ÿ̈… y ̈̈̈ ̈̈…̈ä̈ ̈̈̈̈l̈öoI ö̈̈Ïoe ̈tmar̈̈̈̈̈̈rä̈.” Psyëfami Translation
Shella interrupts her before she could finish her final word.
“NO! SHUT UP! It is all a bunch of lies! I will not accept this! I do not believe you at all!” After Shella said that she looked all around her one more time. Tears began to swell up in her eyes. Her heart dropped as her body began to tremble. Her breath was almost caught in her throat for half a second. Her eyes widened as she scanned the area. Shella stops her battle stance, dropping her guard. She could feel it; she felt a strange connection to the open field they were both standing in. “T-this place….. What have you done!?”
Something was not right. Suci gives out a soft low toned chuckle. Her arms are crossed while staring at Shella with a big grin on her face and her glowing red eyes. She felt satisfied with Shella’s stunned look. It was as if Suci was playing mind games with her. For some reason, Suci enjoyed provoking Shella, testing her patience, pushing her to her breaking point. She loves torturing Shella with visions and memories of her past, tugging at her emotions.
“No…. this cannot be the same place that…. The same…… This…. is……” Shella swallows down hard, trying to regulate her breathing, trying to keep herself from having a panic attack. Shella realizes something about the place they were now in. She didn’t want to say it, she didn’t want to admit what the place was to her, what it reminded her of. But Shella now knew that this eerily familiar place, was the same field that her brother and father both died.
Shella shakes her head, taking two steps back trying her best to keep it together. She desperately needed to keep herself mentally stable. She started to notice her vision was going in and out. She covers her right eye with her palm as she lifts her head to look at Suci, who kept looking at her with a confident look on her face. Shella noticed her vision becoming more distorted, blurry, and unstable. Shella was sweating and feeling exhausted. Her breathing was labored while she desperately tried to calm her heart.
“ֆ- ̈̈ḧni ̈n̈ë̈̈hmhd.ee ̈ më̈ü̈hḧu…tf ḧ̈d̈eä̈̈ẗ̈̈ö̈ï̈̈öẗ̈ä̈g̈…n̈̈̈̈̈ẗYoffö hr̈̈.f̈o ̈ ̈l̈ r̈̈ör̈̈Ö ̈̈ẗ ̈̈̈̈̈ïk ̈ee. ̈.tuẗ̈edeLia inul̈ ̈Äl̈̈zä ï̈ẅlnk dn D̈̈̈ï̈̈̈i iyz̈?dḧe.s̈ ̈̈ ̈ïëẗ̈̈̈ëlokö̈̈ẗ̈̈̈ö̈̈g̈ää̈ẗsÿall̈r̈̈r̈mee,̈̈e ̈ÿ̈ j̈̈ ̈̈̈̈̈rün̈ ̈s̈̈̈̈ë̈ ̈S̈̈̈̈tö̈̈lehävä ̈̈̈ë̈̈̈öë̈.̈̈ slorẗ̈̈l ̈äöc̈s̈srv̈r,?̈k̈ ä̈heï̈̈r̈̈̈ e lnë̈ö̈̈̈L̈̈̈ö̈kö̈̈g̈̈̈o ̈̈d̈̈ïäeïÄuëï ̈twe eë̈̈n̈, m̈̈̈.” Psyëfami Translation
Shella looked to her left and right. Deep down she knew exactly where she was. "Uh….. no… no…. Th-this is…." Flashes of the past begin to invade Shella's mind. Shella shakes her head and closes her eyes tightly.
“ֆ- ̈hsẅ̈̈̈̈ẗ̈a hW ̈̈̈attä?̈” Suci cupped her hand behind her ear playfully, trying to focus on what Shella was whispering to herself. “S̈̈̈̈ ̈…hÄÄIÏS 'ẗ!̈sT̈a ḧi?YT̈ ̈s̈̈̈T̈ ̈̈̈̈̈ wY' !̈̈̈̈i.” Psyëfami Translation
“I will not let you get to me. I cannot let you get under my skin. No matter what you do. I can handle it. I can…..” Shella’s thoughts are interrupted by flashes of her memories trying to seep into her mind. ¿ ̈s̈ov̈There.ë̈l̈eïd iuẗ̈ n̈inẗwos ̈̈r̈̈ü̈ n̈ our̈ ̈h n̈̈ ä̈liveshs ke up ̈ärs rmẗ ẗë ëh ẗ̈̈̈ m̈ rd ö̈ëhmnT̈ün̈ẗ̈̈aratherä ̈̈̈̈ep̈̈̈̈thanr̈̈r̈̈sn̈̈ ta ̈hdownwi¿ Her traumatic memories. She can see that boy Anaken towering over her while she is on the ground. She’s begging, so that he would stop his assault against her little brother Corri. She immediately stopped the thought instantly trying her best to will it all away. She thought she detached herself from those emotions but they kept coming back to her now that she was in that open field. Shella’s lips are now trembling. Her whole body began to convulse.
“ֆ- ̈̈̈a m̈̈ ̈ ̈̈……̈cl ̈s̈l̈̈̈nt ̈ë̈r̈̈ tmlrt .̈̈ eëe iyä̈.On̈ïYb̈b̈̈.̈ ë I. ̈l̈̈k̈̈̈h ̈̈̈u ,ëti ̈̈̈̈̈̈ s̈hgïö̈o s̈noe,̈tiy ̈ ht d ̈k ec̈̈ö̈h,̈ m̈Tw ̈c̈ hyp̈̈u eïal̈̈̈̈c ̈dd ëe ̈yn ̈̈nb̈̈ll ̈̈l̈ë̈s̈̈̈ oë̈ ts an̈l̈̈̈̈äär ̈ẗ ë̈d̈ n̈aö̈a, ̈ ̈or̈ on̈̈ g̈aë̈̈̈̈ nnoÿce ̈ ÿï̈̈d̈m ̈̈ rö̈tttihẗl̈̈ a f̈ec̈e n̈̈I ̈l̈̈̈ t ̈ ̈̈saea gs̈ur̈l̈ä̈̈̈s̈̈̈ enäee n̈f̈csshn̈k, ̈ ̈o yhö̈aen̈g ̈,̈ ̈̈̈̈̈el̈d ̈ ̈̈ ̈̈̈̈,̈ ẗ̈̈̈u ̈ÿ ̈ ̈̈̈dnoï m ̈̈ḧ̈̈ḧ̈ a ̈̈ẗ̈̈ sm̈ ̈. r ̈fïöuëplf r̈̈d̈ẗ̈nla ̈,yniegor̈dä.” Psyëfami Translation
Suci describes details to Shella as if she was there herself, as if it was all happening to her. Her description, every point, felt too real. It became almost unbearable for her to listen to. She wanted to close her ears shut and no longer listen to Suci's words, but her hands would not react, she was frozen in place.
Suci’s voice was now but a soft whisper in Shella’s ears.
“ֆ- ̈isth a m̈̈̈ë̈ i ̈to c'̈̈ë afl̈tfrasD̈̈̈i ̈dohtun ̈̈̈ÿ̈r ̈̈ o…̈̈ë̈̈̈̈ ̈ ̈̈̈̈̈? ̈e.eyü ̈p̈̈ë̈yoT̈ uo ̈̈…msẅ̈hm̈̈̈̈p̈s̈̈̈a. eb aïë ẗ̈ eiï̈ ̈̈̈̈ eoë̈c ̈̈nd̈̈D̈ ee…r… T̈̈ e ̈tl̈l̈ ol̈i ̈l…ẗ̈të̈h ̈̈̈̈ewpr aDon̈̈̈ö.̈t…b ä… ̈ ie ̈̈f̈̈̈ d̈.” Psyëfami Translation
Shella found it difficult for her to control her body. Her heart was pounding. She didn’t want to remember their deaths. She didn’t want her mind to bring those memories to the surface.
"I could not breathe…"
"I could not speak…"
"I could not think…."
"NO! STOP!"
She was shaking her head, repeatedly saying the same thing to herself. “No, Shella! Do not remember! Just STOP!”
Shella took her right hand and grabbed her left wrist tightly. She squeezes it firmly with so much intensity. She had her eyes closed tightly trying to stop herself with all her might from remembering the past. She shakes her head again and refuses to say anything out loud to Suci. That’s when Suci saw a clear opportunity to continue Shella’s physical abuse. Suci smiles menacingly.
“ֆ- ̈ẗ̈̈̈ ̈̈wYoiiöë̈uh ̈̈g̈tüp̈̈̈̈cyr̈l,lcẅ̈̈ë̈̈eü̈̈̈̈ÿ ̈̈̈̈ä̈̈̈̈s ̈ ÿ̈̈̈̈socs̈os̈̈ẗ̈̈̈b̈r̈̈̈̈̈̈ ̈ïs̈̈aerouẗYet mn̈̈ ̈!̈̈l ẗeadöÿelömpd̈eid̈̈̈̈̈eë ̈td̈̈̈̈̈̈̈ ̈o!̈̈naë̈ot ̈ÿrair ̈u.” Psyëfami Translation
In a blink of an eye Suci managed to get behind Shella while Shella was still freaking out about the field they were standing in. Suci punches her in the back of the head, sending Shella flying forward and crashing to the ground. The sensation of being hit on the head with so much force triggered something too familiar in Shella’s mind. It was as if the same traumatic blow happened to her before. It was like the same feeling of falling, when she fell through the door that was hanging in the air. An eerie familiarity of actions that reminded her of something that had happened to her before, like déjà vu. However, she couldn’t remember what it was.
Suci ran up to her while Shella tried to get herself back up as quickly as possible. However, Shella could hear every footstep while Suci raced towards her. Each stomp of Suci's steps, the sounds alone, torment Shella. Shella tried to react, but the sounds paralyzed her entire body in place.
Suci approaches at lightning speeds, completely catching Shella off guard. Suci was just too fast and in a heartbeat managed to stomp on Shella's hand while Shella tried to pick herself back up from the ground. "Aayyhhhhhhh!!" Shella cries out in pain as Suci digs her foot into the back of Shella's hand aggressively.
Suci then directs a kick to Shella's face, causing Shella’s bottom lip to swell up. Shella experienced whiplash as her head was pushed back from the violent kick to the face. Suci yelps out a low aggressive guttural sound as she follows up her kick with another powerful kick but this time straight into Shella’s abdomen. The plow immediately pushed Shella back with so much intensity that Shella rolled around on the ground several times. Shella was grabbing hold of her stomach where Suci kicked her hard after her rolling came to a complete stop.
Suci chuckles, enjoying every hit, laughing in Shella’s face when she cries out in pain. It was a thrill for her, watching Shella suffer.
“ֆ- ̈s̈̈ö̈̈̈̈̈̈tyü̈̈s ajroä̈̈̈ ̈ eü̈wbsf̈̈̈̈nt ̈̈̈̈rẗ̈ ,Ḧ̈̈ë ̈m̈̈n Ïm̈aa.̈f̈oï̈üm̈̈ rö̈em̈üẗ̈̈ ̈ r̈ḧẗe py. ẗsm̈er̈̈̈ s g̈̈.ä̈r̈̈ ̈̈ü̈iuŸm̈̈̈öf̈̈iir̈…̈̈n̈fÿ̈̈ ̈k̈̈ius̈̈̈lsc e ̈̈ë…o ̈. ̈tke ̈n ̈̈?öd̈gvÿma ̈̈tÿ̈̈aoeäd̈il̈hëW ̈l ̈ ̈̈̈̈̈̈̈ ̈̈n̈ïuö̈rb̈̈yö̈̈efë̈̈Ï̈̈ḧ̈̈̈ ̈l.” Psyëfami Translation
Suci licks her lips slowly.
“Y-you are h-horrible…. Aghhh!” Shella is in a fetal position breathing hard with her eyes tightly shut, trying to cope with the pain. Shella opens her eyes and quickly touches her lips. She notices that a bit of blood was smeared on the back of her palm when she wiped her lips. The blood on her hand makes her freak out for a second.
Suci this time casually walks up to her while humming a tune, bobbing her head back and forth with a large grin on her face. Suci was enjoying every second of Shella’s torture.
Shella was struggling. She grits her teeth while on the ground tending to the excruciating pain. When Suci finally gets to her, once again she lifts her foot and stomps on Shella’s stomach two more times. Tears come rolling out of Shella’s eyes due to Suci’s onslaught. Shella screams but when Suci lifts her foot to try a third time, Shella opens her eyes wide to anticipate the next attack. She lifts her hands and grabs Suci’s foot in the air, before it makes contact with her stomach. Shella tries desperately to prevent her next aggressive assault.
Shella’s eyes began to glow red. Her sight was completely focused on Suci’s foot. Her hands glowed red as well as she tried with all her might to keep Suci’s foot off her stomach. Suci struggled with Shella, trying to force her foot down onto her stomach one more time but Shella was defending herself this time. Shella grits her teeth, yelps out a grunt, and closes her eyes shut. And ultimately with one final push, giving it everything she had, she manages to push Suci’s foot off her. She rolled away and quickly got up from the ground. Although she staggered to get up, she quickly positioned herself in her battle stance.
Shella was breathing hard, feeling exhausted, and in pain. Shella’s heart was racing but she felt confident now that she could handle Suci. She would try and reason with herself that the pain wasn’t that bad, that all she needed to do was ignore it. “Just deal with it, Shella. Stay calm and deal with it. You got this. You can handle this!”
“ֆ- ä̈̈ l̈ẗu dŸö̈̈ ëf̈̈̈̈r̈ v ̈̈ io munf̈ ̈ÿ̈d̈ä̈tec ̈.u,̈poc̈̈ëe ̈ld̈̈̈̈̈gtNeorö̈ëïnnẅÿr̈dẗ̈ḧr̈̈̈̈̈̈̈̈öëlöëÿ̈̈n̈̈̈̈ ̈e.̈̈̈̈̈ ̈ ̈̈̈r̈̈…p̈rë̈lẅ̈̈vf̈e ̈soë̈̈̈̈̈̈̈n̈ḧp.̈hrÿ nl̈̈ ̈̈ḧdea ëöeAeö̈ ̈ü ̈ö̈uf̈ẗ…ä̈ëain̈gḦ̈̈k̈̈̈e.” Psyëfami Translation
Suci begins to clap, mocking Shella with a smile on her face. She looks to the right of her and to the left as if she's in a theatrical show, addressing a live audience.
“ֆ- ̈ h ön̈̈̈ẅ̈u?̈e it.̈̈̈̈̈̈awoŸ̈kFn̈̈. ḧnn ë̈̈ẅẗ̈ m̈n p̈f wëẗo ï̈̈föm̈ ̈rü̈̈̈ ,̈̈ẗ̈os̈̈̈ ̈̈̈oëg ̈üyëẗ̈rhiÏ ̈̈tiö̈ẗ̈̈̈ö …̈̈yẗ ahd̈en…̈ ̈ab̈oü̈el̈̈̈ts̈̈ …noäoll̈?f.” Psyëfami Translation 25Please respect copyright.PENANATopZepTlKHSuci thinks of something quick rubbing her chin, cunningly devising a plan to get Shella all worked up. She thinks of something as her eyes widen with glee. She snaps her fingers.
“ֆ- ̈e…ẅ̈Öm̈ ̈ẗrmÿë̈̈… ḧw…̈ ̈.̈e… ̈…̈ẗ̈Ḧ̈ iIeÿl,m…̈ö̈ö…̈̈̈̈… ̈.k̈̈H…ö…̈y.̈̈̈ë̈kn ̈̈ ov̈…̈̈.s̈röëh… .ḧ̈̈,…̈m ̈̈.s̈.ë̈ë.̈̈” Suci points to something behind Shella. “ewdn̈̈ÿoks̈̈̈eë…̈…k ̈̈ hÄ̈̈ sü ̈̈̈ ̈̈oonliL.̈̈s̈̈ÿ ynm…̈̈ m̈̈k,̈̈h ̈o…̈?eö̈ ö̈ouöÿ ̈ö̈w mï̈k ä̈̈̈. ̈̈ör̈er̈̈̈̈ü̈nstom̈̈̈̈ f,s̈ï ï̈äyo s̈̈tIh b̈t ÿ̈ï̈̈o ? ëd̈̈t.” Psyëfami Translation
Shella hesitates, trying not to change her serious facial expression to confusion. But when she finally feels confident to look behind her, she sees him. “A-Alrin? Huh? No…………. What are you doing here?” Shella whispers to herself. Some distance away, Alrin appears behind Shella. Shella has a concerned look on her face. She right away drops her guard and stops her battle pose. Shella is in disbelief but turns around to see him. He had his back facing her. He wasn’t moving, just standing there. She turns around quickly with no hesitation and sprints to him.
“Hey! It is me…… Please…… Talk to me, Alrin!” Shella lifts her hand, reaching out toward Alrin as he just stands there, motionless. Shella was just about to place her hand on his shoulder to get his attention. She walked slowly toward him. In her mind, she wondered why suddenly he was there, in that strange world Shella was in. But she paid no mind to the thoughts that tried to inject into her any reasonable logic. She ignored the signs that told her clearly that something was off and decided to just walk toward him. She so desperately wanted it, needed it to be him. She had a smile on her face, a feeling of relief, desperation was in her thoughts. She felt a glimmer of hope, that she could finally look into the eyes of a close and precious friend. As she energetically walked toward him, thoughts about all the things she wanted to tell Alrin came to mind. Her heart was racing in her chest to finally see him. She felt a sick feeling in the pits of her stomach. A good sick feeling. She had butterflies in her stomach. She so desperately needed more than ever to see his smile once again.
There were so many things she wanted to say to him, close to a million things. She wanted to pour her guts to him, tell him everything she feels for him. She missed him and it felt like an eternity since the last time they had seen each other. She knew that she left the village with him on bad terms. And she felt completely distraught the way she had spoken to him. She wanted to make things right. “I-I am right here. Why are you not responding to me? Alrin? Alrin, please……. I am so… so… s-sorry.” All she could think of were her last words to him back at the village, how she just stormed off and left him.
As Shella was about to reach for his shoulder, to get Alrin to turn around, she heard his voice call her, saying her name. It was a gentle whisper to her ears. “Shella……” She pulls her hand back because the way he said her name completely caught her off guard. It caused Shella to become emotional. Her entire body reacted all at once. She froze in place thinking about the gentleness of his voice. Tears immediately rolled down her face because it was the best thing she had heard in a long while. Her tears were hot to the touch; each one crashed to the ground beneath her. She gulps down air as Alrin spoke to her again. “Why? Why do you hate me, Shella?”
Alrin’s words broke her. Her heart sank in her chest and her body began to tremble. Air was caught in her throat, and it almost became difficult for her to speak for half a second. “Alrin? W-w-what? N-no…. No…. Do not speak that way! Please……. I do not hate you. I swear, you mean everything to me. I never….. I never meant to hurt you…. I……” Shella had her eyes hyper focused on his body, wishing she could look him in the eyes and say what she wanted to say to him. “L-look, I-I want to be your partner now.” Shella swallows hard trying her best to keep herself composed. She tries her best to put on a half-smile as her lips tremble. “I am so sorry for the way I spoke to you. I want to, I really do…. I want to be your Aleeyah partner now. …..I-I have missed you.”
That's when Alrin speaks to her one last time, in a low soft-spoken voice. “It is too late…. Shella.” Shella’s butterflies of joy in her stomach soon turn to nausea. When he said that, she felt like throwing up. Her lips trembled even more, and she didn’t know what to say. Shella attempted to reach out to him again, her hands trembling uncontrollably this time. Her heart was pounding as depressing thoughts came rushing into her head.
“He does not love me anymore.” “Why?”
“I am hurting him.” “It is my fault he is in pain!”
“I no longer deserve his love!”
As she moved forward, Shella felt her knees almost turn to mush. She thought she would collapse right at the spot she was standing in. As she reaches for his shoulder, she feels a rush of cold air pass by Alrin and dash by her hand. This felt odd. She felt a strange feeling as if something was wrong with Alrin. For a moment she hesitates. She had doubts spiraling in her head. But she kept telling herself that it was him, it had to be him. She could hear his voice, his pleasant, soothing voice. It brought hope to her fast-beating heart. Hope that she can make things right again. She needed him in her life; she could not lose him.
Shella gulps down air and breathes in deep. Shella sums up the courage, determined to see his face. She immediately places her hand on his right shoulder to get him to turn around and face her. As she felt the warmth of his shoulder, Shella instantly had a feeling that something wasn’t right.