
My brother died,
And in his place;
I was born,
But I was repelled.
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My mother threw me from the table,
Abused me, both mind and body.
My father never present,136Please respect copyright.PENANAuoolRFuuEV
And if so, he ignored me.
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They left each other fast,
'cause mother was a lesbian.
But my father needed a woman,
For his children and as a housewife.
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The second was quite alright,
Even if she made me eat axis.
Only my sister I couldn't see,
That became off limits.
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After years they had their divorce,
And then came the third, the most terrible.
My wicked stepmother,
The greatest dictator.
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She tried to strangle my brother,
Then father did interfere.
She put me in the sanitarium,
With false motives, my fear.136Please respect copyright.PENANAOnbFsG8kO9
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Firstly in a crisis-centra,
'cause I run away from home.
Then in the sanitarium,
Where I for six months did roam.
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In the sanitarium,
Provided with medication.
By which I lost my memory,
Crawling in the emptiness of chaos...
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Regularly I suffered blackouts,
By which I saw nothing.
Not knowing what I did,
Much like sleep-walking;
And strange vistas occurred.
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I wasn't suffering delirium,
Is what the doctors told.
So all this time,
I was in the asylum for no reason.
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Then I had to go to boarding-school,136Please respect copyright.PENANAY8dLAr9alg
Where I developed something bad: anger.
I wanted to kill another, a female;
And Nyarlathotep, I am sorry;
Maybe I didn't wanted to commit this act,
But I had to from Satan...
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What happened was unforeseen,
'cause my room was now aflame.
The building completely in axis,
The police came to arrest me.
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A year and a half in prison,
Locked away in a cell, in Hell.
A year and a half terror,
The bondage of society.
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When I got out, there was another project,
Named room-training.
I had to work in a factory,
But that didn't end well...
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I started to mutilate myself,
Which I learned in the sanitarium.136Please respect copyright.PENANAYyzo921kEe
They send me to the hospital,
To the psychiatric division.
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Then again to the crisis-centra,
Which I didn't liked at all.
As if I had to start over,
This was too much overall...
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Through the open door I escaped,
And from my last money;
I bought a train-ticket,
Which brought me to Ramses.
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