I remember my first love, it was just a one-way love. He was 4 years older than I, I was just 15 years old, but when I saw him, my heartbeat recklessly started to race...
I loved him with all my soul and mind. I lived with him in dreams and moments.  But I was never brave enough to express my feelings. I just waited and watched from far away. It was my love for the whole 5 years. But suddenly, on Valentine's night, I decided to give up loving him and move on from him.
After 6 months, I fell in love again with the guy I didn't know who he was... I just saw that green and grey hoodie with black jeans...
I didn't know anything, but I liked him, I don't know how, but yes, the eyes...
The way of walking, the way of his looking... it was just one look and I felt it ...
I didn't see him for next semester, and then at the beginning of the next semester, he was sitting in the first row of my class. For 5 minutes, I couldn't breathe, I was in another world... But the coronavirus epidemic ruined my opportunity to know him and be in love with him...
I waited again for a long time, in the hope that he would fall in love with me and ask me to be his lover... it was a sweet dream for me, but it didn't take long.
One night, I had a dream about him. In my dream, he left me to be with someone else... that morning, I decided to express my feelings..
I wrote an long long text as a letter in Persian for him and expressed my feelings... and He just said: "SRY I'm in a relationship..."
It was a nightmare, but He broke that ideal vision I was created from him and made it easy to move on...
I was disappointed in love... I was 22 in my last year of bachelor's and without a relationship or being a lover....
Last semester of my bachelor's changed my life. Something happened and Ian started to know new people and a new goal in life...
And I started my first relationship, but against others, it wasn't a first-sight love.
We were friends, and according to the situation we got closer and started a love, but maybe we weren't in love...
But we broke up after 2 years and 6 months...
And now I again feel in impossible love...
But  I think it's the same story...
Maybe my love story is spelled ...  and I should just accept my destiny...