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記憶是不可信賴的。13Please respect copyright.PENANAqaaOsqxuZH
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很多時候,人為了繼續走下去,會用各種方式自欺欺人,為了活下去,再怎麼可笑、荒謬的謊言都無所謂,人的記憶,本身就有可塑性。13Please respect copyright.PENANAfVlo7a7cS2
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即便如此,梧殷看著面前的馮適嶼,仍是感到一切可笑、荒謬、不可置信。13Please respect copyright.PENANA5SpJjjiejb
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馮適嶼將他拉往休息室外的走廊,期間不時有工作人員走過,這次是一個小品牌瓶裝飲料的廣告拍攝現場,所以人已經算少的了,縱然如此,梧殷還是皺起眉頭。13Please respect copyright.PENANAqcrHQQSYCl
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強自鎮定地問出:「你要做什麼?」已經是他最大的讓步。13Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZlUr5UJe2
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馮適嶼將梧殷固定在牆面,端著他的下顎,強迫梧殷不能看其他地方。13Please respect copyright.PENANAUBYOKdvAN8
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「你什麼時候才打算告訴我實話?」13Please respect copyright.PENANAQsR8fUXiCI
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「什麼實話?我最近和你說過什麼了?」13Please respect copyright.PENANARPrFw4yeNv
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「最近?」向來溫和的馮適嶼忍不住諷刺地笑了出來,「吳諺明,你是不是根本不記得?還是騙我已經是你的習慣了?」13Please respect copyright.PENANAK3fYx0v9IN
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「你既然知道就放、」13Please respect copyright.PENANAlFEbjZghHy
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「我不放。」馮適嶼吸了一口氣後,勉強壓抑一些高漲的氣焰,眼也沒眨地直接問:「所以你一直覺得我很好騙嗎?」13Please respect copyright.PENANAPhg04Fa7bZ
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聽到這句話,梧殷閉眼片刻後,冷冷地回:「什麼時候不是這樣了?」13Please respect copyright.PENANAp8ZZqkWlsK
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梧殷不曉得對方到底在說什麼,會直接質問他、甚至用上本名,說明馮適嶼現在完全不能溝通,他昨晚原本就睡得不安穩,今天是因為有浮倚在旁邊,才顯得他情緒穩定而已,實際上也是一點就燃。13Please respect copyright.PENANAYhkXlkbWnf
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馮適嶼閉上眼的同時張嘴,不是為了說話,而是先吐出一口氣,低聲說了句旁人幾乎沒能聽見的:「真是無法溝通。」13Please respect copyright.PENANAUjUPbvjynr
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梧殷沒見過馮適嶼這樣,即便是他提分手的時候,對方也沒有這麼強烈的情緒,以至於被拉著走的時候,梧殷還在想,是他不夠了解馮適嶼嗎?還是對方之後曾經遇到什麼事情而轉變?和浮倚有關係嗎?13Please respect copyright.PENANASNeTXxyYHe
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任由馮適嶼拉著他離開,梧殷只勉強來得及從袋子裡取出報童帽戴在頭上,盡可能讓陰影壓暗自己的臉,記憶裡上次馮適嶼這樣緊握住他的手,還是在對方二十歲生日那天。13Please respect copyright.PENANA8dWMIi7Z7v
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一路上即便是到了旅館櫃台,梧殷也只是按著帽沿,全然沒有反抗的關係,馮適嶼一次就把人拽到床上,單膝跪在梧殷雙腿之間,沉沉壓著梧殷左肩,抬起梧殷的臉。13Please respect copyright.PENANA9OtE8IGyUV
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「我該訝異即便最初你都在騙我,或者你看起來好像很習慣這種事了?」馮適嶼諷刺地笑。13Please respect copyright.PENANAwMA3ThDCcm
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「你不要做你不習慣的事,」梧殷撇開頭悶聲說:「那不值得。」13Please respect copyright.PENANAiHH8YSaf7f
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馮適嶼再次扳正梧殷的臉說:「我不習慣的事?你到底懂我什麼?」13Please respect copyright.PENANAB3bLat3IVG
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梧殷沒來得及反唇相譏,馮適嶼逼近梧殷,拇指抹過梧殷下唇,「你不需要溫柔以待,不是嗎?」13Please respect copyright.PENANA7v2rCTcLEv
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那個恍惚間,梧殷彷彿又回到很久很久以前那天,馮適嶼的聲音有強自鎮定的輕顫:「那也沒關係,我會等,萬一有一天,你也喜歡我。」13Please respect copyright.PENANAz0S1QtH0TW
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梧殷下意識想喊馮適嶼的名字,只是口型裡沒有聲音,馮適嶼閉上眼睛數到三後,按住梧殷的肩膀、把他按到床上,甚至為他蓋了被子,起身的時候並無留戀,背對梧殷說:「你在這裡睡吧。要是你覺得很難和浮倚開口,我幫你說。」13Please respect copyright.PENANAhEvIQNAgpD
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「就這樣嗎?」13Please respect copyright.PENANAUYoO1pgk0B
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在馮適嶼碰觸到門把前,梧殷問他。13Please respect copyright.PENANAlpXMz7YaLu
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梧殷見他還是要開門,還是脫口而出:「你沒有其他要說的了嗎?」13Please respect copyright.PENANAVlOvmETCRQ
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「你從來沒有跟我說過實話,我不可能知道你希望我說什麼。」13Please respect copyright.PENANAG0IaVFpvU1
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梧殷發不出聲音,直到馮適嶼留下的關門聲消失很久後,他才能說出:「所以我是讓你不要再執著我這種人啊。」13Please respect copyright.PENANAvoe9RdBf5z
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況且平心而論,他不想再看到馮適嶼主動和浮倚說話了,早就已經到極限了。13Please respect copyright.PENANAFi2oCTdI8o
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迄今為止,梧殷仍舊覺得和馮適嶼認識的時候,恰好是他人生最為紊亂的時候,看到馮適嶼,他總能聯想起自己在當時自我放棄後的所有失敗與錯誤。13Please respect copyright.PENANAKVuC9ixvdd
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其中最大的錯誤,就是明知道馮適嶼對他有什麼想法,還湊上去,讓馮適嶼再也分不清楚,他們之所以開始,並不是起因於任何浪漫的因素。13Please respect copyright.PENANAlq86u6xe5h
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因為自己很軟弱的關係,明知道正確的答案是什麼,仍舊冀望先提出放棄的人是馮適嶼。13Please respect copyright.PENANAXlqiMwlgxP
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他想握住的希望,該選擇的並不是自己。13Please respect copyright.PENANAu2qkugzwG5
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梧殷很清楚他只是湊巧在那裡而已,剛好利用上馮適嶼的迷茫,原本就是自己太自私的緣故。13Please respect copyright.PENANA75aSDBtwWR
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很可悲的是,他分明還會感到謊言一般搖搖欲墜的幸福感。13Please respect copyright.PENANAvAHSDqeVbe
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馮適嶼不只看出來他沒睡好,還直接幫他解決問題──單單是這樣,就維持住被他所愛的錯覺了。13Please respect copyright.PENANAEI3fIyvbHx
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可是,梧殷是不能回報等量的情感的。13Please respect copyright.PENANAE0lXe6rtyt
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他向來是個有所欠缺的人,他曾經以為,對其他人而言,愛情只是將黯淡無光的日常點亮,輪到自己身上,卻是將他破碎的自己黏著在一起的金漆,讓他看上去彷彿金繼。13Please respect copyright.PENANAC2UoKC1qZU
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更沒想過,在自己身上只是縫補的金漆,到馮適嶼身上,反而會鏽蝕侵占他原本完整的那些。13Please respect copyright.PENANABtV5FswUyY
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偏偏他又不像文藝創作裡的主角,能為了對方離開得坦然。13Please respect copyright.PENANA663rieMF83
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梧殷想著,身體輕易被倦怠不堪攫獲,強扯著他躺在旅館柔軟的床上。13Please respect copyright.PENANAcH5X3r2Rks
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「那根本不是……」13Please respect copyright.PENANAVbfGja2UIQ
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──根本不是你所期待的那種溫暖情感。13Please respect copyright.PENANAw0ipmhiahL
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他害怕睜眼。13Please respect copyright.PENANAxwMYWfE1Ww
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要是糢糢糊糊間又看見了馮適嶼將溫暖的手心蓋在他眼皮上,遮掩住擾眠的光,溫柔地叫他快睡,他會忍不住去依賴,伸出手叫他別走。13Please respect copyright.PENANAVNqFaMUJPK
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倘若馮適嶼能和霍恩一樣討厭自己就好了。13Please respect copyright.PENANAo2L6u2r15y
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已經……昨天已經刻意在知道進來的人是馮適嶼的狀況下,刻意喊出了霍恩的名字。13Please respect copyright.PENANAgPJVmkojYj
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──所以不要再相信我是什麼好人了。我只想傷害你。13Please respect copyright.PENANAZMFEaWosmK
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──我只想傷害你。13Please respect copyright.PENANA6PAhQGxNvE
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