隔天一早,山上的霧還沒散,旅館外的木棧道上濕漉漉的。
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四個人簡單吃了早餐,拖著行李準備下山。
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「怎麼有點不想回去上學……」黃炫承嘆了一口氣。
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「又不是只你不想回去。」陳冬月小聲說。
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她望向窗外遠方的山巒,眼裡閃過一絲不安。書包裡那份還沒念完的複習講義,像顆隨時會爆的炸彈。
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賴夏陽注意到她眼神的變化,輕聲開口:「別怕,妳不是一個人。」
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她抬頭看他,他只是笑著拍了拍她的頭。
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那個笑容像是什麼都沒變,卻也像什麼都快來不及了。
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當車子駛回熟悉的城市時,陽光灑在學校正門的牌樓上,白得有些刺眼。
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陳冬月低下頭,緊了緊背包的肩帶。
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旅行,結束了。
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現實,準備追上來了。
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自從旅行回來後,陳冬月就像變了一個人。
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每天早上進教室,第一件事就是打開課本,翻到昨天還沒做完的練習題。下課不去福利社、不去廁所,只趴在座位上繼續寫。
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「冬月,要不要喝奶茶?我多買一杯——」
曹敏站在她旁邊,手上拿著還冒著氣的飲料。
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「謝了,我不喝。」冬月眼睛沒離開習題本,語氣不重,卻冷。
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曹敏愣了一下,把奶茶放下來,咬著唇沒說話。
她轉身走回座位時,黃炫承皺了皺眉:「她最近怎麼了?」
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曹敏搖頭,眼神有點失落:「不知道……大概在拼段考吧。」
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他沉默幾秒,抬眼看向前排那個同樣安靜的男孩。
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賴夏陽正側著臉,看著陳冬月的背影。他沒說話,但指尖在桌下輕輕摩擦著手心,像壓著什麼話沒說出口。
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陳冬月低著頭,像一塊沉在水底的石頭,一筆一劃地抄著課本上的關鍵句。字寫得很慢,像是努力壓著什麼情緒。
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她知道他在看她。15Please respect copyright.PENANAZz2n36Prsi
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不需要轉頭,她也能感覺到。15Please respect copyright.PENANAmAH18ieDfq
那種安靜又柔和的目光,一直在她背後,不遠不近,不說話,卻讓她幾乎快要承受不住。
可是越是這樣,陳冬月越覺得難受。15Please respect copyright.PENANAztfJQ7cOCR
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他那麼聰明、那麼溫柔,什麼都會,考試永遠是前幾名;而她呢?連最基本的題目都還要反覆練十遍,還是錯。15Please respect copyright.PENANA8sh0PgyqPD
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有時候冬月會想:他是不是只是心軟?是不是只是因為他們從小認識,所以才不忍心放著她不管?15Please respect copyright.PENANAisLXMoRpEv
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她咬著下唇,不敢轉頭。15Please respect copyright.PENANAi9tn8t69R4
她怕,只要一對上他的眼睛,就會忍不住把所有壓在心裡的話全說出口。15Please respect copyright.PENANA7Nvo2SAjn9
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「我真的好怕考不好。」15Please respect copyright.PENANABRjF2VXpPJ
「我不想讓你失望。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAiKzhXEFL8J
「我也不想再被罵了……我真的已經很努力了……」15Please respect copyright.PENANABK4K4jyTJS
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可她什麼都沒說。15Please respect copyright.PENANAHGAIcdRt7I
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因為她怕一旦開口,自己就撐不下去了。
時間快速地流逝,一眨眼就到了放學時間。
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教室裡的光線開始轉黃,喧鬧聲一點點消退。剩下的紙張翻動聲、筆尖刮紙聲,顯得格外刺耳。
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曹敏打著哈欠,收起書包,轉頭笑著說:「我跟黃炫承先走了,小月亮你也快點回家吧!」
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陳冬月沒抬起頭,只淡淡地「嗯」了一聲,像是沒聽清,也像是根本不在意。
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曹敏愣了一下,笑容有些僵住。
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「那……掰囉。」
她試著把語氣拉得輕快,像什麼都沒發生。
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黃炫承站在門口,望了冬月一眼,沒有說什麼,只是靜靜地陪著曹敏走了出去。
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走出教室後,走廊的風有點涼。
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曹敏把頭埋在圍巾裡,悶悶地說:「她最近……都不太理我了。」
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黃炫承走在她旁邊,沒立刻回答。
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「我知道她壓力大,也知道她真的很努力……可是……」
曹敏頓了頓,聲音有些低落,「她是不是不需要我了?」
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黃炫承側頭看她,輕聲說:「她不是不需要妳,她只是……快撐不住了。」
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曹敏低著頭,鼻子有點酸。
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她們從小一起長大,冬月一難過就第一個來找她,講話講一半就哭,哭完又笑。
但現在,她卻連一點表情都不給她了,只剩下一句淡淡的「嗯」。
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教室裡的燈閃了一下,陳冬月終於停下筆,揉了揉眼睛。
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她的脖子僵硬,眼睛酸脹,頭腦一片混亂。
她知道曹敏剛剛叫她,也知道自己那樣回應一定讓對方難過。
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但她真的沒有力氣了。
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她怕一開口,情緒就會像水庫潰堤一樣全部湧出來。
她怕只要一笑,眼淚就會跟著掉下來。
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她不是不想理人,她只是現在連自己都快照顧不了了。
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她低下頭,筆停在空白的習題上,一動也不動。
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心裡突然很想逃,哪怕只是逃個五分鐘也好。
教室的燈越來越暗,只剩最後一排還亮著。風輕輕地從半開的窗吹進來,夾著一點晚霞的餘溫。15Please respect copyright.PENANA0eDhuWnLqa
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陳冬月獨自坐在座位上,翻著剛才錯的數學考卷,一題又一題地重算,卻怎麼都算不出來。15Please respect copyright.PENANARQzKYM1zUW
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筆心斷了。15Please respect copyright.PENANARXahqiE3fV
她吸了一口氣,低頭從鉛筆盒裡拿備用筆芯,手卻微微發抖。15Please respect copyright.PENANAMrhvFRAK2D
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她也不知道自己是在氣自己太笨,還是在氣自己剛才對曹敏那樣冷淡。15Please respect copyright.PENANAvf7WsHx5oD
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她有好多話想說:「我不是不想跟妳說話,我只是太累了。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAFW47pke3lZ
「我怕我一講話就會哭……」15Please respect copyright.PENANAdktMuJLStX
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但她一句都沒講。15Please respect copyright.PENANAL6isdwzSHy
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「小月亮,又卡住了?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAO3p4QUVhSf
熟悉的聲音在她身旁響起。15Please respect copyright.PENANABYSLe0fbim
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她嚇了一跳,轉頭看見賴夏陽正坐在隔壁位子,桌上攤著他的筆記本和補充講義,還有兩杯便利商店的熱可可。15Please respect copyright.PENANAsvcNsKMN5q
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「你怎麼還在?」15Please respect copyright.PENANALYnGA7fs3z
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「本來想走的,但我看到你還在掙扎,良心過意不去。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAEKYb4PV4be
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他笑著說,聲音一如往常輕鬆。15Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ut1RxjA6u
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「……你不是說今天要早點回家寫物理報告?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAsVDaszoIqe
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「我早上寫完了。」他咬著吸管,眼神帶笑地看她,「我很聰明,忘了?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAYbvE9Xse2k
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她忍不住笑了一下,但很快又垂下眼。15Please respect copyright.PENANAvwwsnl3LpG
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「你不用一直陪我,真的……我很煩吧。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAbO9ic4Df5T
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他搖搖頭,語氣忽然輕了下來:15Please respect copyright.PENANALlK3YREMKs
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「小月亮,你可不可以不要一直這樣想自己?」15Please respect copyright.PENANA3brtFC4u6L
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她怔了一下。15Please respect copyright.PENANA5zOcKAiplK
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「你哪裡煩了?你現在這麼努力,這麼咬牙堅持,我覺得你……超級了不起的啊。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAJBvHuEZgMH
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「可我就是……好像永遠都追不上。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAhW0sahtY3f
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「那你就慢慢來。我會陪你慢慢走,不趕時間。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAu22gzUZClB
他看著她的眼神,溫柔得像整個世界只剩她一個人。15Please respect copyright.PENANABzMgr5O5ma
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「你會一直陪著我嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAz9KNmazf5j
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她的聲音很輕,像風一吹就散的那種。15Please respect copyright.PENANAtVaOx3vQrU
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他沒馬上回答,只是伸出手,敲了敲她的筆記本。15Please respect copyright.PENANADqFIuVDPDz
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「把這題算完,我會陪你。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA07c5eJXq9o
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她抿嘴笑了,點點頭,低頭重新拿起筆。15Please respect copyright.PENANAnR4k8gLKOe
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那一晚,她什麼話都沒說,但心裡某個角落忽然被照亮了。15Please respect copyright.PENANAtSBkgDWQTN
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她知道,這個世界很大、很吵、很壓迫,可是她還有一個地方可以安靜地呼吸——15Please respect copyright.PENANAtvFdpTbN8C
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就在他的旁邊。