剛洗完澡，電鈴就響了。有人今天沒帶鑰匙？505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡor0xrL3DCD
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我開門，花豹站在外頭。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTxMWFZxbw
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我先是一愣，趕忙開門讓牠進來，進到我擁擠的小房間。花豹沒有坐下，牠開口：「我拿這個來跟妳交換。」邊遞出了一個緞帶綁的蝴蝶結，我接過來，滿臉疑惑。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFHKcbWo07
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「我要妳幫我保管的東西。」牠提醒。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8cFuQdG9y
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「啊！喔…好，等我一下。」我翻找自己放飾品的小盒子，拿出牠的領結。自然又順手的就幫牠繫上，調整好位置。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBp1j3J1NFW
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牠盯著我，幾秒後，牠垂下頭，摸了自己的領結…然後是好長一陣沉默。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlUAJx8zSW
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這個動作……505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdTobAMx8N
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我瞬間明白了牠來找我的原因。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsjU7eHWAz
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等牠抬起頭時，我忍不住擁抱了牠。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ufy1xWlqR
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然後牠說「妳記得『哀悼的原因』嗎？」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFyBfatq3v
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「我記得。逝去的不會重生，所以哀悼是為了…感謝他們曾經出現…」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzRXJ5Ol7q
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花豹對我微笑。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo2duwkJxf
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然後牠在我旁邊坐下，和我說了那條緞帶蝴蝶結的來由。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccm6fCiutG
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「幾個月前我不想再繼續哀悼了，就去做別的事。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1U8m3RA3G
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「『哀悼』如果是一份工作，那『慶祝』就是另一份工作。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNsdQdZueU
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「這條緞帶，就是『慶祝』時必須用到的。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7LMnKnFGA
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「『慶祝』的內容是什麼呢？」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsy8OTx9d6G
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「哀悼為失去，慶祝則是為收穫。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2cuUETa3U
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牠說牠為懷孕的母親慶祝、為考滿分的孩子慶祝、為成為新嫁娘的女孩慶祝、甚至只是幫一隻餓壞的流浪貓得到晚餐而慶祝。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4r6nsuHD3
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「然而，不是每種收穫都值得慶祝。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxRMJaXfw5
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牠為分到遺產的人慶祝、為詐騙集團得手而慶祝、為走紅卻變壞的藝人慶祝、為一個吵鬧不休而得到玩具的孩子慶祝…505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZA7RAdML0
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「『慶祝』根本不管收穫的原因、得到的是好是壞…『慶祝』只為了當下的『得到』與『擁有』。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CfFWerqau
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「有時候我才剛慶祝完，就看見負責『哀悼』的在外頭等了…」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4wIEBnyJy
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我聽牠說完，點點頭，手中捏著那個蝴蝶結。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYfIuicoEJ
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「所以，我也許不適合『慶祝』。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj93kldBDBi
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「那你為什麼要把這個給我呢？只是為了換回你的領結嗎？」我問。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCHSSejiRX
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花豹搖搖頭。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTdqelNu9z
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「我拿回領結，重回我負責『哀悼』的身分，回來第一個哀悼的對象，就是妳…」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8lf6p7ElI
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「但是，妳應該收下這份『慶祝』。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFb67Z9FWFJ
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「妳得到了些什麼，對吧。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzt3YbJrfk
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……我點頭。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQdcwt9lUr
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前幾天，一個重要的傢伙過世了。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡND3MIdZz6p
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我在失去的同時，得到了……505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIKE8EXMfN
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我想，花豹想說的是，505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43HVqnIkNI
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有時候，不是「得到」或「擁有」，只是「學會」罷了。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCG9UjOsc4e
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難怪我們常常覺得快樂很假、難過很真，因為慶祝不分快樂的來源，只為了當下的快樂，而哀悼卻不是為了當下的難過。505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSoPmCqb7U
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「逝去的，就不會再重生，唯一能做的就是哀悼，感謝他們曾經出現。」505Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyulv5EflX
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花豹走後，這句話還在我腦海裡繞。
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