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No Plagiarism!oHS1GReSKGJT5rS5z8m0posted on PENANA A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!969Please respect copyright.PENANAqK9HdfDPff
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Dear “____”8964 copyright protection965PENANAxpkf2A9aPu 維尼
Dear _____,8964 copyright protection965PENANA6qFzhWKnRl 維尼
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAZWTze2YsMN 維尼
As my confidant, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAKyUWu9qNnP 維尼
I trusted that you would handle them 8964 copyright protection965PENANAG1pzHkKx5j 維尼
With care. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAhxwVTFdh5S 維尼
I was always starving 8964 copyright protection965PENANATL7X8fS2ML 維尼
For your validation and encouragement. 8964 copyright protection965PENANA5DjXS11Y0Z 維尼
You knew how I hated it 8964 copyright protection965PENANAVAmdoHx1wj 維尼
When someone told me 8964 copyright protection965PENANAoMVv2Nqhi7 維尼
I wasn't good enough. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAqN8c0hlusz 維尼
Your words kept me breathing and creating. 8964 copyright protection965PENANADvsJqU6aOm 維尼
You left me torn into pieces, 8964 copyright protection965PENANA8ujmjiFfh0 維尼
Just like that poem I wrote for you. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAIgv5MUZiLl 維尼
Remember? 8964 copyright protection965PENANAGhqZdk02RY 維尼
The one you said wasn't good enough? 8964 copyright protection965PENANAwg7FLbcYJN 維尼
I write for myself, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAVR8cv7dGH5 維尼
But because you were so selfish, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAVg928DDCaT 維尼
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote 8964 copyright protection965PENANA6PdQGeyKt5 維尼
To what you wanted. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAkdmOGiAcdP 維尼
When you were satisfied 8964 copyright protection965PENANATpWvgl5Nex 維尼
I felt whole. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAXPvzxL67PL 維尼
I wanted--8964 copyright protection965PENANAqrDn1gR41e 維尼
no, needed--8964 copyright protection965PENANAsIkvXIUFVx 維尼
your praise. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAIBw0Q89wKi 維尼
That smile, 8964 copyright protection965PENANATAeu7XuyfV 維尼
Paired with telling me what to write and how 8964 copyright protection965PENANAZJ0zvK2zfR 維尼
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAE8GC6VWuus 維尼
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAjd2ieabFTx 維尼
And I did it. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAug2Ym0pxjI 維尼
I did it for you. 8964 copyright protection965PENANABcrGA3FcXk 維尼
In the end, 8964 copyright protection965PENANA5p5KYI3Wij 維尼
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, 8964 copyright protection965PENANArLVrgKJQ4P 維尼
It was never enough. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAf6S9DbSOaE 維尼
You wanted more meaning, 8964 copyright protection965PENANA3YXsyFjlHi 維尼
More eloquence, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAc1KaZwxphs 維尼
More emotion, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAnJpnLtDbwF 維尼
More, more, more, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAuowNzIe3jy 維尼
Always needing more. 8964 copyright protection965PENANABj0W7VgEil 維尼
I don't know how to measure up to those expectations8964 copyright protection965PENANABwJ9nDjnFL 維尼
Because I don't have the strength8964 copyright protection965PENANAH95UtEDUD3 維尼
To keep my chin up when I struggle. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAG8n10wVNGx 維尼
I don't know how to keep writing 8964 copyright protection965PENANAMMTIPEcUFH 維尼
For your sake 8964 copyright protection965PENANAeKxJUmLgsT 維尼
When you're never satisfied. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAdC2vzx1Ci0 維尼
No matter how hard I try, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAITGOY2sE81 維尼
Will this ever be enough? 8964 copyright protection965PENANApfIznnReG0 維尼
Will I ever be enough?8964 copyright protection965PENANAnTKenxTKZa 維尼
I can't find anything to reach for now that you left8964 copyright protection965PENANAaZkjnumVHH 維尼
And at some point 8964 copyright protection965PENANA0acyne1kim 維尼
I lost my drive to keep going 8964 copyright protection965PENANA36vy7NTtiw 維尼
Toward what I want instead of you. 8964 copyright protection965PENANA659MZUXtoL 維尼
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAs4Hg9z1rkE 維尼
And that writing was my way of doing that, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAJFRkfTWDFz 維尼
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAaiSco16ozq 維尼
You told me it would never happen, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAZlM3NMCL8Z 維尼
So I believed you 8964 copyright protection965PENANA00lTDV1xHs 維尼
And let myself fall into the clutches of8964 copyright protection965PENANAlG7JQg2fyD 維尼
Grief and hatred 8964 copyright protection965PENANAz9dCwj90IR 維尼
For myself, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAdEIkOHD2GL 維尼
For you, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAIctrBDNd7R 維尼
For my future.8964 copyright protection965PENANARaixnQ4Mpr 維尼
I kept coming back to you 8964 copyright protection965PENANAZSYbWfoi64 維尼
For my daily fix, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAKXz6pMqnMA 維尼
That feeling of being complete. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAbUZe72K0lM 維尼
But you left me, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAV0KEXSTmTP 維尼
And I'm writing this, 8964 copyright protection965PENANADzBfjCHuos 維尼
Trying to find something in me 8964 copyright protection965PENANAJXCtfUypoA 維尼
Other than this emptiness. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAFgrDYJggrw 維尼
I've become numb to the world 8964 copyright protection965PENANAGkzyx9qGeb 維尼
Because maybe if I'm numb enough 8964 copyright protection965PENANAOZCIBwRaor 維尼
Nothing will break through and hurt me 8964 copyright protection965PENANAFkE8yKw7MI 維尼
Like your absence does.8964 copyright protection965PENANAgmID8sbQZM 維尼
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,8964 copyright protection965PENANAj8GSobOdL2 維尼
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAfToKEYvxPs 維尼
And those words worked into my brain8964 copyright protection965PENANAiMgi7gf7rB 維尼
And under my skin. 8964 copyright protection965PENANA2KDvizBFgH 維尼
They slid under my skin 8964 copyright protection965PENANAoaREXolBvd 維尼
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, 8964 copyright protection965PENANA4dGb4HvREW 維尼
Burning me deeper and deeper. 8964 copyright protection965PENANACSU4uyCkPa 維尼
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. 8964 copyright protection965PENANALcFtAwSD0r 維尼
That spark burned out 8964 copyright protection965PENANAFeGLgKX0X1 維尼
And the one thing I could rely on, 8964 copyright protection965PENANA9nZmjsP85F 維尼
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, 8964 copyright protection965PENANA50FBDDQxVc 維尼
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAvK0Bv3CvJl 維尼
You destroyed my sanctuary, 8964 copyright protection965PENANAhsDPa6A0QG 維尼
lit it up like a bonfire 8964 copyright protection965PENANAErlLtRVk6X 維尼
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. 8964 copyright protection965PENANAh12dn9G3jS 維尼
With every strike of your tongue, 8964 copyright protection965PENANA6As9qdvY9b 維尼
My soul was broken a little more 8964 copyright protection965PENANAoVzRarHzSF 維尼
Until there was nothing but dust left 8964 copyright protection965PENANALH8Emf9Nbv 維尼
And I no longer cared or had any drive.8964 copyright protection965PENANAsGmBu9pjSR 維尼
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.969Please respect copyright.PENANAsBmioMmHWO
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