目送著駱輝離開的郭伊絲陷入長久沉默之中，從她眉頭深鎖的表情看來，似乎有些事已經困擾她好一段時間，而她根本束手無策。站在她身旁的弟弟看了她一眼，問道：「家姐，到底嗰個人係咩來頭？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsrL4fNgZ4
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「家姐！」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jrMrS6lKv
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郭伊絲從沉思中驚醒，忙道：「伊騏？你頭先講咩呀？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVfr97Ek1E
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名叫郭伊騏的青年沒好氣的說道：「我係問，頭先嗰條友係咩來頭呀。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaYW46yWsg
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「佢係杜嵐嘅男朋友。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFmNyJqk7t
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郭伊騏恍然大悟，「原來係男朋友。」然後他忽然意會了甚麼似的大叫：「吓？頭先嗰條友？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJyeARgfG5
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郭伊絲若有所思的點點頭，「......我都估唔到佢會失驚無神返嚟呢到。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7WB6PkyLB
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「佢係嚟搵呀嵐架？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUFK8wt6Ux
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「嗯。不過佢唔知道呀嵐已經......」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDDUhzuHJh
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「好喇。」郭伊絲伸了個懶腰，「我要返村喇，你記得好好咁看門口呀。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDaO3AefpR
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郭伊絲嫣然一笑，伸高手摸摸比她高出不止一個頭的弟弟的頭頂，笑道：「拜拜，汪汪！」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrS9cSLOc4
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「唉，你鐘意啦。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2U0RwPBVm
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郭伊絲離開後，郭伊騏看著前方道路，駱輝的背影早已隱沒在馬路轉角的盡頭。中午的太陽不算猛烈，然而一絲風也沒有。馬路上滿是一個多月前的風暴帶來的雜物，兩旁的樹木橫七豎八的倒臥著。這樣荒涼的景色，自從她們一個月前遷移到黑沙圍後，就一直沒有任何變化。此時百無聊賴的郭伊騏腦海盡是那個在床上的瘦弱身影：220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk90sgxAzx3
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郭伊絲回到村子後，馬上收起只有和弟弟獨處時才會顯露的笑容，再度擺出一幅冷冰冰的樣子。村中對喪屍不抱負面態度的村民向她打招呼時，她也只是微微頷首；奔跑中的孩子瞧見了她則馬上停下，向她揮手道：「郭伊絲！郭伊絲！」當她手一揚向他們致意時，孩子們就在一片哄笑聲中跑開了，繼續你追我逐的遊戲；更多的村民，停下手上事務，不動聲色地看著她走過，然後原本在高聲交談的人群，忽然低聲交頭接耳。看在眼內的郭伊絲，沒有感到任何異樣，彷彿一切不過是從千篇一律的日常隨便剪輯下來的毫無驚喜的片段。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJxrDwwxHx
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她一直走到村子北部某一棟毫不起眼的房子前——這村子所有建築物都是一個樣子——停下，熟練地走上房子二樓，推開虛掩的的卧室木門，向床上那個瘦削的身影說道：「我趕走咗佢喇。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBHM5jRhz8
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床上的身影沒有回應，連任何表示她已經聽到的身體反應也欠奉，彷彿郭伊絲只不過是在對一具屍體自言自語。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsldKOlDTu
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郭伊絲在旁邊抄了張椅子，椅背面向床地坐下，頭伏在椅背上，懶洋洋的說道：「喂，你仲打算絕食到幾時？你就嚟死喇喎。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGkkzuw2O9
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那人依舊不聞不問，郭伊絲接連喊了她好幾次也是這樣。郭依絲在旁邊的茶几撿了一把木尺，戳了對方幾下，「喂，唔係真係死咗吓話。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLThoHdosbP
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那人不勝其煩，終於低聲回道：「......唔好搞啦。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8O6aLnBdl
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郭伊絲笑道：「終於肯應我喇咩，呀嵐。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7pLaWQBws
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「話說，我哋到底算係仍然生存定係已經死咗，呢個都已經係問題，哈哈哈！」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiR47bXzdK
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郭伊絲笑道：「你唔理我就算啦，點解連駱輝都唔理呢？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKq2zsCIGr
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杜嵐仍然維持剛才不理不睬的態度，郭伊絲逕自續道：「唉，駱輝見到你唔喺嗰到嘅時候，成塊臉白哂，然後發咗癲咁搵均哂全間屋......其實只不過係想搵條屍啫，我就唔明點解要咁著緊嘞，人死不能復生吖嘛，雖然你真係復活咗......其實如果佢夠冷靜嘅話，見到你訓過嗰張床竟然係乾乾淨淨，連少少屍水都冇，就應該估到你已經變成喪屍，如果佢呢個時候再同我對質嘅話，我都冇信心可以隱瞞落去......喂，畀啲反應好喎，唔好搞到我好似個自言自語嘅癲婆咁先得架......」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcq6t7BCIfl
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她靠了過去，想看看杜嵐的反應，這時才發現，杜嵐雙目緊閉，已經淚流滿臉。她這時才收起本來嘻皮笑臉的態度，臉色也沉了下來。她站起，把椅子轉好，重新坐下，說道：「......其實你根本唔需要咁做。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXIxQesj3U
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「我......我而家咁嘅樣......」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5nKt2NqAs
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「咁又點呢？如果佢真係愛你嘅話，根本就唔會介意你變成咩樣。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZIS5dsykr
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「我就係知道佢唔會介意，我先唔可以去見佢！」杜嵐嗚咽道：「人同喪屍，咁樣根本唔會有未來！......」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhS5qkZPsat
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「你都真係幾殘忍。」郭伊絲長長嘆了口氣，「我從來都未見過，一個活人嘅眼神，竟然同喪屍冇分別......你嘅死對佢嘅打擊，比你想像中大好多。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiptDsZU68
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「就算係咁，佢終有一日......終有一日會忘記。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aMdzw1Qa1
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郭伊絲搔搔頭，低聲道：「所以我先話你好殘忍呀。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwm84wURWhR
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「唔通令佢再傷心多一次，再欺騙佢，我哋會有未來......咁樣唔係更殘忍咩？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgN1oEOSdM
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郭伊絲喃喃說道：「就算係咁......都未必......」她覺得自己有甚麼想說，卻卡在喉嚨，說不出口。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0Yb2qfJNF
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「你知道嗎，經過嗰件事之後，我先明白，我之前係幾咁幼稚。」杜嵐因為饑餓而深陷眼窩的雙眼盯著天花板，哭腫了的眼圈令眼睛看來陷得更深，「死抱虛無飄渺嘅希望，最後咩人都拯救唔到，甚至連自己都拯救唔到......然後我終於發覺，呢一切根本係一個大話。希望本身就係一個包裝精美嘅謊言。我竟然要死過一次先明白呢點，真係可笑。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1wyuAjFNN
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「咁你打算點做，知道根本冇所謂嘅希望之後？好似而家咁，選擇自暴自棄？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAIhYLWwmC
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「反正做咩都好，到最後都係冇意義。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7hsEZiKGc
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「如果要講意義嘅話，我諗意義唔係在於行動嘅結果，而係在於行動本身掛。」郭伊絲撥了一下及肩的長發，遲疑說道：「嗯，應該點講呢？我覺得......重點其實在於，我哋到底想成為點樣嘅人。有好多事，我哋根本控制唔到結果係點，但起碼......最起碼，你可以選擇要成為點樣嘅人。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFuhQD7MHL
「如果最後嘅行動，反而導致相反嘅結果呢？譬如話，你希望救一個人，最後嗰個人反而因為你嘅行動而死，你仲可以宣稱，你嘅行動出於高尚，所以嗰個人嘅死，責任唔在於你？又譬如，假如目的同手段係完全相反......用所謂必要之惡去實現，你仲可以宣稱，自己嘅行動其實係出於高尚嘅目的？你知道呢條村發生過嘅事架。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYP7FJorXr3
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「我嘅意思並唔係你咁樣做就可以撇清，行動帶嚟嘅一切後果。」郭伊絲眉頭深鎖，本來打算說服杜嵐，讓她停止絕食，但現在自己似乎反而因為對方而動搖，「我自己覺得，行動之前應該要有覺悟，要承擔起一切嘅後果，否則就唔應該去做。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6IyWtV5sX
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杜嵐冷冷一笑：「唔通你就認為自己有能力去承擔一切嘅後果，無論後果係幾咁嚴重都好？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE9QSsX2gx
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郭伊絲平靜地回道：「咁我只有令自己有能力去承擔。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrQITbX7h9
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杜嵐把頭轉向郭伊絲——一直以來她都是在盯著天花板說話——凝視著郭伊絲那雙和自己一樣血紅的眼睛，「......我就當你有能力。就算係咁......你憑咩話自己嘅行為就係出於善？喺呢個失去一切基礎嘅世界，失去善惡準則嘅世界，每個人都宣稱自己代表真理嘅世界？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡas4vkrsfWz
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郭伊絲看著杜嵐，似乎觸摸到她內心深處的困惑。杜嵐躺床的這段期間，這些問題一直像鬼魅般纏擾著她，甚至可能就是她拒絕進食的原因。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5E3Z7n2zF
「咁我唯有......」郭伊絲驚訝地發現，自己竟然開始顫抖起來，「我唯有遵循我自己嘅準則......遵循我自己嘅良心。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52XInpBbXu
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「就連你迫我食人肉，都係遵循你嘅良心？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcauCLCLxKs
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——先前杜嵐絕食已經兩個星期有多，如果算上她死前的時間，她已經絕食超過一個月。人類在水份充足的情況下，絕食超過一個月的例子也大有人在，然而有先例不代表每個人也做到。杜嵐變成喪屍後，當然試過去食人類的食物，然而她吃下的毫不例外地，完全沒有消化過就排出體外，而她身體則繼續消瘦下來。杜嵐倒也不是一開始就要絕食，只是因為人類食物她不能消化，人肉她又不願吃，出於不想浪費資源下才拒絕進食。畢竟，其實只有一開始的一星期最難熬，之後的時間其實饑餓感已經大大下降......這一點她先前就已經領教過了。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMajoiHGLb
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然而，即使她已經成為喪屍，但誰也不能保證她不會餓死，又或者身體機能不會受到永久損傷，而杜嵐先前的情況似乎已經虛弱得快要餓死。故此，郭伊絲多番死磨軟求都不果後，強行把人肉——喪屍目前為止唯一可以消化的東西，塞入她嘴裡迫她吃下，保存了杜嵐性命的同時，也令杜嵐對她反感起來。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXPwWCGcxS
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郭伊絲怒道：「我咁樣做係為咗救你呀！」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vDoz6SeEe
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「真係奇怪。」杜嵐臉上掛著一抹冷笑：「你先前強調行動本身嘅意義，咁我想成為一個『唔屈服於喪屍食人嘅本質，因而餓死』嘅喪屍，咁又有咩問題呢？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtARhpk0Wm7
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「有問題！好大嘅問題！」郭伊絲猛然站起，「問題在於你太早放棄！對喪屍而言，食人呢件事到底代表啲咩——到底『可以』代表啲咩，呢一點你太早落定論！甚至連喪屍係咪必須要靠食人維生，而世上係咪有食人以外嘅方法，你諗都冇諗過，就竟然想放棄！如果咁樣真係有意義——如果一定要用『意義』去解釋嘅話——咁你就只不過係懦夫！」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82d30Y3uoz
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郭伊絲倏然沉默。她看著杜嵐把臉埋進被窩的樣子，讓她想起當初剛剛變成這個模樣的自己時，無數次想要自殺的那段時光。拯救了她的是終端的一句話——儘管這句話本身不過是一段陳述，而它本身訴說的反而更像是詛咒，而不是把人從虛無深淵拯救出來的救命稻草——220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuYFTv45mk
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「你只有生存落嚟，先可以去選擇。呢句係終端同我講嘅說話，而家我將呢一句送轉送畀你。我知道要去選擇係好困難，要去承擔就更加困難，而我哋根本冇辦法唔去選擇，呢個就係生存係咁痛苦嘅原因。」郭伊絲頓了頓，「......而就算呢一切係咁痛苦都好，每一秒都好似畀火燒咁辛苦都好，我只係想你明白一點：我會陪住你。呢句係我私人送畀你嘅。」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWxQmGrIP9
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說罷，郭伊絲就靜靜的離開了，留下把臉埋入被褥中哭泣不止的杜嵐。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNOgP4kR6m
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就在當晚，杜嵐終於願意進食，然而她的身體十分虛弱，直至她恢復進食的一星期後才可以下床活動，這時距離那場後來被稱為九龍巷戰的戰役的爆發已經過了整整三日。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt74AtXbP7w
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