祈祈抵家時，適逢母親剛剛預備好晚餐。她立即更衣梳洗，然後幫忙端菜到餐枱。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LaIeNQdRY
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自從童黨一事曝光後，母親大受打擊，情緒異常暴躁。非單氣走僱用多年的家傭姐姐，還需到精神科看診，長期服藥。作為過來人，祈祈深切明白那是何樣的一種感受。她心軟下來，答應父親，好好修補母女之間的關係。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnlUnyUE5f
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席間，三人有講有笑，好不融洽。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡql8riwgNp1
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母親久違的笑容令「好」與「壞」的界線變得含混不清。這笑容是用藥物換來的，孰好孰壞？為了保留這笑容而對問題的根源視而不見，孰好孰壞？這種虛假的融洽家庭關係，孰好孰壞？祈祈越來越不知道該如何抉擇。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgBk0pMt5N
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她驀地想起阿藍和阿藍媽舊日的僵持關係：如果自己勇敢一點，堅持表達不滿，大概會落得和阿藍差不多的下場吧。禍福相倚，阿藍受襲失憶，忘記與阿藍媽的不咬弦，無意間給予母女二人一個和好的上佳機會。阿藍媽識趣地改變心態，加上楠少從旁指導，阿藍的家庭問題得以完美解決。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69tPyx8Ob2
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飯後，祈祈洗碗時，發現廚房亂糟糟的。難怪，畢竟母親是個職業女性，少有接觸家頭細務，平日依賴家傭姐姐處理一切。現在，因祈祈的緣故，她辭去高薪厚職，當個全職家庭主婦。聽父親說，母親做家務時雞手鴨腳的，時而不小心捽破水晶飾物，時而誤將容易變形的衣物放到洗衣機裡一併清洗，時而將鹽和糖混淆……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBfgVGaMSg
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能夠作出如此重大的改變，除了因為愛，還可以是甚麼？連倔強的母親亦願意退讓，自己還要自私到何年何月？難道要母親整輩子不停遷就自己嗎？祈祈暗罵自己的不孝與不懂事。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcZ7hDEUaI
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洗碗後，父母硬拉著她聊天。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYIeYO17J6
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「我們不會再阻撓你和光仔發展，但希望你可以到外地升學。托展國際視野，豐富人生經驗，肯定對日後找工作有正面影響。」父親出奇不意地將話題由「光仔」轉移至「升學」之上。「我的舊同事有三名兒女，全都在外地升學，對這方面頗有心得。他……」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOEY4AphYv
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「我們將會舉家移民嗎？」祈祈詫異。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9xa7hxRpw
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fvN450Z82
「不。只是想你在外地升學而已。這跟移民有必然關係嗎？」父親不解。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUmWyhlrHz
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「既然最後是要回來，何不一開始就不離開？外出見識過就一定是好事？世態瞬息萬變，我留在這裡緊貼本地潮流豈不更好？有沒有前途並非只建基於學歷，還有個人能力和……」祈祈一口氣拋出大堆道理。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoW1s1LWzEL
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQDaSocISm
「你知道自己在講甚麼嗎？我明白你想留在這裡，卻總不能晦氣地押上前途！的確，前途並非只建基於學歷，但外出見見世面總比坐井觀天好。你沒理由會不明白！」父親面對強詞奪理的祈祈，耐性頓失。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGD4ebEU7gh
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「我明白，但我就是不想！我不要去到一個全然陌生的地方，睡在一張全然陌生的床。每天對著聊不來的陌生人，吃不對胃口的食物……」突如其來的恐懼挑起了祈祈的敏感神經，一幕幕半真半假的畫面在她腦海中不斷縈迴。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakG1CAj2qE
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她被排斥、被孤立、被欺凌。在那所小房子裡，童黨把她壓在地上，扒光她的衣服。身邊沒有光仔，沒有楠少，沒有志恆，沒有阿藍，沒有馨儀……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeUSBTNcUU
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「別孩子氣！不知多少人想到外地留學卻苦無機會！」父親氣得面紅耳赤，沒留意到祈祈的不對勁。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzTpmanM6t
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「那就讓別人去吧！」祈祈越講越激動，將壓抑已久的心底話全都拋出來。「人家想要，不代表我想要！你們想要，不代表我想要！」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvpbbdSIUH
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTGGynPgQJ
「我們想你活得好而已……」父親被祈祈嚇了一大跳，連忙放軟聲線。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSc4WTidfO
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「你們認為我現在活得好嗎？」祈祈怒火燒心，轉身回睡房，更將自己反鎖房內，懶理父母在門外苦口規勸。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa2MGWYYIj
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlQ4SkKx9v
兩老的聲音很煩人，祈祈隨手擸來書架上的玻璃獎盃飛擲房門上。獎盃應聲碎裂，兩老立即噤若寒蟬，不敢亂作聲，直到門後傳來祈祈的哽咽：「我需要時間冷靜一會兒。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOkRP3Vn4p
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS438huEGTA
看見書桌上那粉紅色的情侶掛飾，祈祈不期然想起光仔。猶豫了好一會，她掏出手提電話，發訊息予他。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5m73MIwFp
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祈：在休息嗎？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMna5QNNkvb
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光：寒窗苦讀中。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOs9J0McVik
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祈：乖。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21QZmdorFg
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2BMZ5H2FX
（附上粉紅色情侶掛飾的照片）438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBOkK4pyez
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光：我也有。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyS6SNxBbT
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LME8b7Ahf
（附上粉藍色情侶掛飾的照片）438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31C9enyOvP
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祈：好！放過你吧！438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD5J2MJmtG
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWV4kYPRPos
光：叩謝女神！咦？這個時間……你怎麼還沒睡？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHctp4z57pO
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祈：我在思考未來。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvz484zviXh
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光：不用擔心！你的成績那麼好，必定可以考入大學！438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtXcj2F8pY
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祈：不是這個問題……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTW86yBSSad
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（靜默了一分鐘）438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHMGoaDc74
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祈：畢業後，不如我們一起租屋住，好嗎？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2VNQ7IlSI
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光：你剛和父母吵架嗎？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQapv7rVaw
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祈：答我。好嗎？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmi8odcUdC5
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECXU67tPRu
光：我們沒有足夠的金錢。學費、租金、水電煤開支、膳食、交通……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlkevjAj1D
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祈：我會立即投身社會工作，不再繼續升學。再加上我手上的銀行儲蓄，該足夠應付日常開支。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOCURTukv1
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3WepOO9PE
光：生活不是那麼簡單。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhccdC4BVO
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnF7zXnRmzG
祈：會有多複雜呢？千萬不要被我媽媽的說話影響到！438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmSBN09NKJ
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRDfosdCiF
光：甚麼說話？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSsnFObX3E
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxD7L2frwj
祈：我昏迷時清楚聽到你們的對話！438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcHhAUx089
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1Z5fKv38P
（光仔關掉通訊軟件，致電祈祈）438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wAvfejBFJ
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光：祈祈！你還好嗎？有頭暈嗎？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XKPqvTO6D
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祈：少許……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzEE4iY9Y0
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光：快吃點糖果。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKna8893PC
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祈：不了。他們在廳裡。我寧可在房裡多呆一會兒……慢著！別拉開話題，快回答我！438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKH1qdL2JN
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iKJgqwc78
光：認真，我們目前沒有足夠的經濟條件。待畢業後工作兩三年，努力儲蓄，那就有機會。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OJIEhagMq
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祈：真的沒能畢業後立即走嗎？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIggdVOI9a
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光：假設我找到一份月薪一萬元的工作，再扣掉強積金，還剩下九千五百元。假設我和你的每月的實際收入一樣，二人合共有一萬九千元。合租一個實用面積二百五十平方呎的單位，月租一萬元，包管理費、差餉、地租。另有水電煤開支，每個月約五百元。餘下的八千五百元，要包括二人的日常基本開支，包括交通費、膳食費、電話費、上網費、雜項……根本沒有餘錢！還未計及租屋前要預繳的高昂按金。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzAIkQCgR8
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祈：你那麼知道價錢的……438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlH9re69m4X
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZxShf27YI
光：我……我曾計劃和你在外邊一起生活的。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79yyaKeMsD
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnobn9QYA0b
祈：好！我們一起努力，畢業後工作兩三年，努力儲蓄，租屋同住！438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5yp3n5e24
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXDdHXsFQA
聽見祈祈的情緒平伏下來後，光仔才敢鬆一口氣，借口家人喚他做家務，匆匆掛線。離開鋪滿參考書的書枱，軟癱床上，呆望天花。久久沒能入睡，思緒在愛情和未來之間來回跳躍，時而甜蜜，時而痛苦。他細思過往的一切一切，越想越心灰。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsP1R0RA1j1
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0MROl9IPH
冷不防，手提電話突然響起。沒有來電顯示……不認識的人？438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mEQ2aw0le
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猶豫片刻，光仔決定接聽：「喂？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6pdcl9T4j
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「請問是光仔嗎？」對方是一名男子，聲音似曾相識。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroKGpJuCC2
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「我是。」光仔猜不出對方的身份：「你是誰？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWE5cFsa9g
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaSgXFNH7L
「祈祈父親。」對方的聲線很沉重，無奈又無力。「我想約你見面。」
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