星期二的晚上，我忍不住找他。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hCDyT0tTM
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「今日有咩搞？」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3gp8l6TwV
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「唉班朋友又食煙喇。」我能夠想像他內心很嫌棄，卻裝出沒事的樣子。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzI0CZ5lw2
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「不如唔好去啦。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8UTuBtFtW
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「咁又唔得。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKV92Y8vR9t
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「咁不如帶個口罩？」我只能為他想點辦法。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4g3Jz76IK
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「好似好奇怪，佢地實以為我病。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlON2nR1BV
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「咁冇計啵。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxtPR6r8bc
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人總是愛面子，因為害怕被別人排斥、害怕失去一同玩樂的夥伴，Joe會選擇默默承受。他是那堆抽煙的朋友裡面唯一一個不會抽煙的人，就像那漆黑的洞穴裡，有著一隻螢火蟲，一點還沒有被黑暗摧殘的光。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8IYybYIik
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星期三的晚上，我決定再找他。我隨便找個討論區的貼文分享給他。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmlqNdjrc7
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「我啱啱都見到啊。」他秒回。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6eBD6cSlp
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「有咩做啊今日？」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW3JeyPS0k
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「班朋友又起到講上大陸食海底撈，講上面好發達，我都唔明點解咁都講的出口。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0XWGI8CpX
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「好多人都係咁翻大陸玩。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XYafmmSdh
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「上去又要check手機又剩，又唔知自己食緊咩元素表，啲野又唔係平，都唔知點解要上去玩。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbT9pwwtrB
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「係囉。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAmj5EEHjY
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「你試下說服佢地囉。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ76FptJqRt
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「佢地講都唔會明，全部都係港豬。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUYk2gUbDH
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Joe就像醒來的人，而房間裡的其他人都是裝睡的人。他努力的搖著他們的手，用電筒嘗試照著他們，甚至大聲在他們耳邊吶喊，而他叫不醒那些裝睡的人，最後他放棄了，卻選擇沉默的留在他們身邊。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CQfIZWGSh
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他忍受著好多好多不情願的事，卻又繼續這樣過活，有時候我會想，是他享受在這種强迫自己的狀態下嗎？還是覺得為了迎合他人比較重要？323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObZEJsupHF
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「如果你係我，你會點做？」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqD7eXtUMr
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腦海再一次閃過他的話。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLVryYByD8
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星期四的早上，Joe主動找我。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDx3GB1RV2
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「啲朋友又諗住r source。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBssTz45ZK
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「咁你又願意比佢地？」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhoQwZw6eP
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「冇計嫁。」我能想像Joe一臉無奈。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yTGX6wfbX
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「唔好比佢地啦。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkg2HkLmMUp
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一直到下午，Joe還是沒有回覆我。於是我決定打開話題。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6JJi1lhI1
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「Joe，其實我都好好奇，點解你可以起朋友入面堅持到唔食煙。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFmOiIAong
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「因為我真係好唔鐘意」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIS5b8ttb66
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「咁點解你容忍到佢地，你講到佢地又港豬，又食煙。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYhfRBMTuG
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「冇辦法，咁我都要搵人陪我玩飛鏢」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5L7aPDRGM
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「你會唔會覺得好慘，次次都要食二手煙？」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvhOKkwrHE
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「我覺得冇人同我玩慘啲。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGoWLxldwG
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「都係嘅。」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ6h9WZvby
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其實，我也不明白Joe為什麼要默默承受不喜歡的事情，和不喜歡的人一起，給朋友發source如是，跟吸煙、不問世事的朋友一齊玩樂如是。與其跟和自己不合的人在一起，那麼多看不過眼的事情，倒不如做一些自己喜歡的。就像Kenneth說的，那些求只為source而慕名而來的人，大可不給他們。反正source給出去，頂多換來女神一句「Thx」和「你真係好人」。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUC2look57
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他不需要羨慕Kenneth，他也可以像Kenneth，做著自己喜歡的事情。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjDtOKG91x
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「如果你係我，你會點做？」323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9b9ywAel6
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這句話不斷在我腦海中重複，卻還沒有答案。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHwomRXtHJ
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他不喜歡抽煙，於是無數次拒絕吸煙的邀請，卻又無數次答應玩飛鏢的邀約，讓自己渾身煙味。曾經，我覺得他是蓮花，在淤泥中堅持自己的底線，不抽一根煙。然而，他不是蓮花，他有手有腳，他可以選擇不活在淤泥裡，對吧？323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22R8gGAoJ0
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如果他是黑暗中唯一的螢火蟲，他可以離開這個沒有同伴的地方，去跟其他螢火蟲為伍，不用孤獨痛苦的存在？323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXHAusLLk1
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