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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA4tBDkp7R
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzefmAQq52
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLj46pHZS3I
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmm74p6Dtgn
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這個過程的目的是？405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg36A4SVdIn
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cfyV05fnW
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLbGVLrV8L
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19fsWiNGlM
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只是為了生存！405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QKJXqqq2S
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCLK7We6gS
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx15pUFOu1
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vLM36pQz0
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVdQaaLV80
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FRa6w5je6
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4T5blldAL
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeePjbWsDI2
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jpuh47fBh
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7nOvdh81j
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf34GJNruqb
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「喔？為何呢？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDwVueu3Bh
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNBK3ptPY7
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想起了雙親．．．．．．405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiGt3pyjot
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaWjl2xVnZ
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqGQOo5Jd9
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIdXkVgX0i
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLCVkTN8qk
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFrajOOpGc
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDvSehY4Be
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ955KY0NXXu
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfZDVQf1Hv
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOlyZ0YNQU
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIeNCSeuuc
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHDdSlEp93
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNpHBXj7qi
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaId4LoIRJC
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvOf4EvuN8
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog6dWk2VVo
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKugmGUh43
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdilPKSHbD
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「我、我的水彩？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcicwyFoJwv
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCEmeIU4f8
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglTr4W9u43
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloGm2L4y8J
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XbzqxNV35
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9O3cJT6Gk
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGnJiZxRV0
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8z7RWBDBt
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTNLZTPerN
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英國；405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBILh11fkb
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１９９８年１２月２４日；405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJz1myIbTp
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwYNhE1Lxn
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvdheuUW2u
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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