清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDntB0rVX3m
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54UvLnoQJt
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GHTlYWEVW
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMM4NLvwFmV
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsHkS8iFqW
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFUN5W25GI
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvcc1zV6Bb
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyskW4rjY3
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViaK6pETWr
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlL6n7UCFIc
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWz6jyNIpK
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVrZQAYdUI
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsznPDpIiF
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0v6OqZfzcZ
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZs8KuffKy5
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1v89htDNoN
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLO4xPsBu6
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這個過程的目的是？383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHtSIpswuy
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavC2YHIl3U
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngIRMPjVFN
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１９９８年１２月２４日：383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXDHcNZvNB
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9nrj4bsev
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUDg0gwn3a
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只是為了生存！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuepT0JEfIK
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb7EF2w8yK
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBV4U3VE1b
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lKYi1DA5a
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbdxvHBabE
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisWpNnAOX1
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5uyetYdyL
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2HV5hfJyj
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmwOnxb6fQ
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2CZe7r9Lo
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BHQJFpZbH
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pFiBOVk5u
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKtrgLLLXJ
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡir9Q4q9ajC
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcB83CFD9LK
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiqIe2U7Tb
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「喔？為何呢？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93ePizxpYi
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbQmYb31cb
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想起了雙親．．．．．．383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VmqB9oWq0
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9v3WSdY37
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNuJOi0ulJ
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkcIrDX8cX
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nwW1x844d
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMJIK3Mz39
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrfiU7kbdw
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSeMOIYYcr
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「你感覺到了什麼？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jbnAIHlgH
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQpyuk0uhE
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLhecR2PBV
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我仍是搖頭。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusswOEJkah
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uYlcFRjoO
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtJufFFFTt
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1FdaXsrFa
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZNlS22dqL
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「．．．．．．．」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTKWIc9YAw
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i96kWOjll
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9IgWnRLcr
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「是這樣子嗎？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dLNJTREYf
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMurUuOXaN
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHcRkwvxFe
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhRpxL6oIs
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Me9gw45TI
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJGIwzQoYK
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi31TjuvyYo
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXkTsss21X
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「我、我的水彩？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0WMQc14Hq
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLAciFcuvU
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaVjEXyLnV
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmSnxYUUbz
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eBqslmdQM
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBHTwvxA4T
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi3815POdY
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTZococ9te
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprnMJCjJ4G
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英國；383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMUNBhLshH
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１９９８年１２月２４日；383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyxd0Sj4FF
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofrJyVw5v9
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOd3KCWTfk
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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