清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoL74TVfNQ
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWaatkFMC7
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7SeMsHMPH
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFat2RI6fJ
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftVCN6117k
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavNq1E8sJw
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzOt4spuzx
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJegQou342N
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf64d0c1K3g
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkamkAoLMO
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qScEIBkBc
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hzWiztg7D
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCDBsE6z6w
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0908rVsKZZ
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2DFPBZRgP
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6HNMqZEqu
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtKy9BzCeY
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這個過程的目的是？457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpnZPwxWAx
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiOvvaAndr
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbyha4NOSN
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１９９８年１２月２４日：457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH7RGXURtS
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTlRFJSoH1
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJElg0dd8C
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只是為了生存！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0WACyrnMI
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEY6LUkbin
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CjaWOw2LW
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALqi8Oezz3
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYw66wYxSGz
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbPDep9MK0
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDihHj9Ijfl
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbdWK2xAVa
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqP9zfKZ2N
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZgGNRVnYJ
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpW52lwL7XD
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXt7s7C3dOV
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiI8J6k8GzB
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DIoG9KAky
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9hdA64BiQ
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GaqZdhjX2
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「喔？為何呢？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yeK3vViq6
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VHqW1kjSk
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想起了雙親．．．．．．457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY34rhNpYa
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5V0D8p5fT
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7WBELp5F2
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvucW2ODoz
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmx7f8mgVg
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdzgHCJEMK
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxNaxzZHSO
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwkb46awQ6
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「你感覺到了什麼？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgkYy04aZG
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqRnXQ794e
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlle12IBWQ
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我仍是搖頭。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZaWzLMRJC
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCpAezTlMi
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOZJ8cKeQc
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9YogT4LFn
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc5OWTBGOX
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「．．．．．．．」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc10w6jABzj
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOHUZuI4Mb
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmzggYzJ3P
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「是這樣子嗎？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YNyePO3ty
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SSm1YezQw
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2au0tL8JJ
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vwEPp1VdO
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdscNRGLfei
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqFZDXXPaS
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIoJ04F0CF
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmVjned9XB
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「我、我的水彩？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPtLSDPxOu
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4vxBh6wnl
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0CZl4el8W
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaM36HeOHk
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHWY3APuKB
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEo5yxdKRj
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfHtY4wtsB
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA47ZcvjWwW
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJ7KnzYXMy
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英國；457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDlNplUcji
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１９９８年１２月２４日；457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqI7jhFSWOg
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuBveYyXrP
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGuTitBeZH
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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