清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBh6DVxnXU
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又做了這個夢？381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqGydDPBIv
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACQtpvC7l2
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOWfOIkMpE
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyDqzwqv0t
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NaTxFyHtd
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWXsmCs9DC
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibdahQcLpc
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRjwGoZA3z
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSmOmuZFoO
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3ANS8o5I8
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcl0E72gXxD
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ13sNkUzsE
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVMnhufcS6
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１９９８年１１月２７日：381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQ9qzxX9xN
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE9VvQCYSu
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8R9tBTysIk
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPnPxdX5f2
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqGFn3Gyj1
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這個過程的目的是？381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSsPf3bxtQ
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3KRDUtl29
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtrP5x383b
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１９９８年１２月２４日：381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNDYwZWQtX
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvpvBwCXRY
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lHj7NNTEe
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只是為了生存！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmPlvGHZBe
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ibot1yL7i
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMkYu9I8Xy
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpLwo0e43h
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6ueg4Fdlx
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLN4HAYbdx
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJqZkt4Fhs
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiXUyBrBX6
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPywaKGSqM
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvK5UtVNkq
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztPfzMQzTt
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7YFKy2GAk
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BWL7Tykzn
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPykND2Nh4Y
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL24wdvwMPC
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMw811u4di
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「喔？為何呢？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcphYu41w5a
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kqAg3jBPu
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想起了雙親．．．．．．381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG2Pu3XNqt
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIhs70p5lN
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2je6Sm9Tt
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgnH98zDv8
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dkM9VyNHe
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpptPIJMXs
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTb4tPgZESM
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TQYCehaoK
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「你感覺到了什麼？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpoPII6nJa
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGhzUBvyhd
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBjb3jIPiD
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我仍是搖頭。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFT1NP6vNj
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMs2bKKcW2L
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdgHsABkCg
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZJDFssIIT
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMsT148Cz4
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「．．．．．．．」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Cb5RVx9g6
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI1UeFsGDp
381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvggKuEz2mO
「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqcX46QRv8
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「是這樣子嗎？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iI0Brf3R3
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jYOZzvB9v
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrGBwsw2e2
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRBGnzayRD
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YuLI1cFg5
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbKfLyzkIy
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2HNd8EyqC
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9yiWSjU3q
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「我、我的水彩？」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmJDPqQBQ3
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1IeXr4WME
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LkASGja7W
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSgBPmqYxC
381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrf1cVhpsi
「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8Vj7zdaDd
381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OIFv5WfVd
老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQwAgIRzZk
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftLn4r2HOD
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiolnfRwWjv
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5XxqLRdVF
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英國；381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIl5YTwEDk
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１９９８年１２月２４日；381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5J86jKoSc
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYCOQnho8v
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！381Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvKFWMHRGJ
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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