清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qd4k5fJbJ
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXC5VGFDUq7
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOfc0csxE9
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxWDSZbIXF
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUlvvhw0sF
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPqditlnie
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWotU060NS
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQG2qSZL0Zc
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0aD1CDVpl
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzphr68r70d
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYxuYkOx1b
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8ShDBvCNX
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczkiTHtWSJ
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xrD6YDxF8
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwdiazPWlC
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6hE7okPfV
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Tp3gj6BZ7
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這個過程的目的是？441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoDaaOkCI8
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJL1THRcrc
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8AzfTGeNo
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１９９８年１２月２４日：441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjFaJ9UKJz
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDj0C451CE
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTBj85spmK
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只是為了生存！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDP6Xia8JW
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRM6IBAiH9
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrohnq5NIKO
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnWOYL6pz3
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZkkmhnXSc
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZfYcj1rtk
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡki12FdRFFQ
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMpV6RJZtm
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKYB5qfjxJ
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7aN8oMcFP
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSFbY1a5ju
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb4VJTYwHv
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUrA4uQniD
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3NZchyVlT
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTu1rlhOB1D
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKe8jmFidA
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「喔？為何呢？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcswAaYoDyU
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWta4Qkjx9
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想起了雙親．．．．．．441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FqUFl81qc
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyow8IrQ2g4
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOspU4SneW
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMxxD3HtWC
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp4sQQUGQ8
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzpq6IJbTZ
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pWAHoZnoN
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6o5Tl3Ng3y
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「你感覺到了什麼？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ817LsaprhE
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTedpRPep4e
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJxFpMxX88
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我仍是搖頭。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3EFpfqfAf
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3t2aub4tL
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4MZ6498a4
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMUOa91Bcn
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTXNpOvbjp
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「．．．．．．．」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCtq8nE8nE
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8v7cL1Mvxu
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJarkFalHU
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「是這樣子嗎？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXNB3MLu42
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpasG1olkb
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBJU2C6ZAq
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfPKCKvNeo
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOR6hJ99wv
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmUBEC4zfr
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4kLCe7nb4
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GXc780EVV
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「我、我的水彩？」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SlzDmroIE
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfjlAiFzgm
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwNNBb9sOg
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbLScTO3GO
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vysm1Y5GS
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYJxEvLMnc
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKexS2ManE
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbVsZhqLcy
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqItGS5ueYY
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英國；441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbAK6yhk7n
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１９９８年１２月２４日；441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZBQ4NoT7m
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmP9sAH3Lo
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！441Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlPXvbKhuu
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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