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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1VZtXjA03
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTT2m4RbhZ
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRcpAYUbOW
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFzLgZt2xw
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIKOapKRGJ
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvisZza51Ur
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnolty9fh7
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQzx2VLXKN
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIQJOnTycP
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFdby3PUJA
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FxQzufQLo
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAQs0c0eYH
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceqjklBu6m
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdHxjhQf2f
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqlR0hT3m8
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這個過程的目的是？402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRxn9whLAl
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFba7MibxB
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3izSjILuU5
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49L4vLRGEF
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdfo0Nf0PX
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只是為了生存！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8qR2jizwg
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFY95wTqIf
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xtcbm23N2
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiLv7nHh1o
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhzqd9i2oE
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kxio24Xm4
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMoFUiSx5h
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LpJeyJalD
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7dQMIobuL
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPnyu7wzwL
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJJ5qBkGMK
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3lMe1TYHP
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanRBCMBliC
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gMniaxyit
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtOd1pWj6y
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAWMVIDqKL
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「喔？為何呢？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBK0NtyDNh5
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0UFCSA5sb
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想起了雙親．．．．．．402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhLrctVG66
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBFJhaVRCZ
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡja53vSX2Ql
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACdKDaYn5K
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcu9vlvgwB
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuydsK77krj
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSk5k4MQFvf
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYEwPB1a1p
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「你感覺到了什麼？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJM5Yf7SWo3
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtxAwVw4hg
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXtCZHt3xf
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我仍是搖頭。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wdhWP6Xse
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOTw55r41f
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cXNrbuuyD
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgy8Cnw6YTK
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「．．．．．．．」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujF5TNw1t1
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QDeKA295d
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM5nCM87Lv
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「是這樣子嗎？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4ikAqPe0c
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAG9Z7voPA2
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoWGV0s84S
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCFSJPqwF5
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7e4npOnfiF
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3pYwpeDX6
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZDw8pZ6np
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLWUgDZ1XL
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「我、我的水彩？」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaGyxzi6I1
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7ZGYBoiiw
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoU4IO9KLN
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrz4sXv69M
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9bFVnVz8e
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRGfcarY78
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFp3961Llu
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSll0bXmaM
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZLbFfyaCp
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英國；402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3hH1GTnW0
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１９９８年１２月２４日；402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90Rbn8SLxn
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH279ayl3zt
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！402Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTpYZtcoSm
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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