——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。479Please respect copyright.PENANAnDV8kNGLlr
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自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?479Please respect copyright.PENANAhbAbWDJDww
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他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。479Please respect copyright.PENANAcRl4z7pogQ
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俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。479Please respect copyright.PENANATWYUKynKt7
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該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?479Please respect copyright.PENANAQeFmIsx8cA
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他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?479Please respect copyright.PENANAEGbKAiBLpV
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最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。479Please respect copyright.PENANAt5HPQu2Qj6
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我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——479Please respect copyright.PENANAF1fSczKA8a
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那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?479Please respect copyright.PENANAy4JYCrrOx7
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「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」479Please respect copyright.PENANAje1uboxHvX
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俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。479Please respect copyright.PENANAXoLYnlQlLH
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這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」479Please respect copyright.PENANA1O6h40sGML
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對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?479Please respect copyright.PENANAV3ZU0BKGIK
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他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。479Please respect copyright.PENANArkAv7gCecz
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那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。479Please respect copyright.PENANAWBZKgRqtUH
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當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。479Please respect copyright.PENANA769HnzCbUi
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眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。479Please respect copyright.PENANAgSi2zNZza4
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「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。479Please respect copyright.PENANArul3DQ7pah
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「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」479Please respect copyright.PENANACuKdml3mEU
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「關係真好呢?」479Please respect copyright.PENANAz9Pv85CuL3
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他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」479Please respect copyright.PENANAUFtsC9oqWP
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不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。479Please respect copyright.PENANAr5GdnTXeDG
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那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。479Please respect copyright.PENANAXIkPR38fY1
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『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』479Please respect copyright.PENANAbDWaIYstWY
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『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』479Please respect copyright.PENANAKISjZjjLB0
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『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』479Please respect copyright.PENANA1FwHfuYSIt
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『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』479Please respect copyright.PENANARoNWnqGOCC
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是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。479Please respect copyright.PENANAR9qVnk23O4
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回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。479Please respect copyright.PENANArGR3LPUfCs
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是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?479Please respect copyright.PENANAvw9c75zQGG
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是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?479Please respect copyright.PENANAuWmBb0Pv8L
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還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——479Please respect copyright.PENANA8VTOCnTR1M
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俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。479Please respect copyright.PENANALjfWt4PQrf
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「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」479Please respect copyright.PENANAiN39F4gO2V
479Please respect copyright.PENANAp67xjxEiHq
戰勝不了悲傷的夜479Please respect copyright.PENANA67SsG1zgoM
又撐過睡不著的夜晚479Please respect copyright.PENANA4SUUHSNvCN
與我的絕望無關479Please respect copyright.PENANAf9mNBGO3ns
早晨又無心把我叫醒479Please respect copyright.PENANAzFPizOxD2n
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「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」479Please respect copyright.PENANAaqIZRsmA42
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「謝謝你。」479Please respect copyright.PENANAzsyHTlUBCK
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俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。479Please respect copyright.PENANAiZoYLK3YLD
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他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。479Please respect copyright.PENANAwaNt5aT5Q3
479Please respect copyright.PENANAAHhHGJ8DBL
傷口比想像中的灼痛479Please respect copyright.PENANAIWONQnlvgT
痛苦比想像中更深479Please respect copyright.PENANAlFqU1HZqF8
無數個埋怨你的晚上479Please respect copyright.PENANAvOr827afde
就像地獄479Please respect copyright.PENANAZdr0w6UmsB
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「俊赫,你來了啊!」479Please respect copyright.PENANApYvHOsFErj
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「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」479Please respect copyright.PENANAsWN3WMmnLE
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「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」479Please respect copyright.PENANAs4w4oMercV
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他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」479Please respect copyright.PENANAl1QCHMnsOx
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「好。」
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請留在我身邊479Please respect copyright.PENANAXVvDhxn4YP
請停留在我的身邊479Please respect copyright.PENANAxtRc5IZMup
請不要放開抓著你手的我
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他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。479Please respect copyright.PENANARATEjiqsjR
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俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。479Please respect copyright.PENANA7ms0KDQbNr
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「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。479Please respect copyright.PENANAFR943AP5bn
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要是你走遠了一步479Please respect copyright.PENANAq8esXuPjLU
我向你走一步479Please respect copyright.PENANAUMVLjQ3ggj
那不就行了嗎479Please respect copyright.PENANAaIJXlb3UWL
479Please respect copyright.PENANAhQ5URVGvnT
你是漂亮的人……479Please respect copyright.PENANAeEfZDpGm1P
你是漂亮的人479Please respect copyright.PENANAI5VFsS55AE
拜託不要對我這樣479Please respect copyright.PENANAHBBy76F6IW
你很了解我不是嗎?479Please respect copyright.PENANA60YtmDJGVh
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「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」479Please respect copyright.PENANATMOC3vWy0f
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「嗯,我是。」479Please respect copyright.PENANA5MLVOOpIgn
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「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」479Please respect copyright.PENANA3iIrHmovPD
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他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。479Please respect copyright.PENANAMxxnWAruHF
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他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。479Please respect copyright.PENANA5DQ2srMFlx
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上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞479Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5XRFlsRLY
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他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。479Please respect copyright.PENANAW9n5Pwx59W
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我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。479Please respect copyright.PENANA29W8sZdwgc
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但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。479Please respect copyright.PENANAZUbtDEyRfV
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這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?479Please respect copyright.PENANA7ONdaEqD1u
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俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。479Please respect copyright.PENANA6Tw5czZJc5
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酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。479Please respect copyright.PENANAm1DrjM9SZv
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我對自己沒有自信479Please respect copyright.PENANAqaVfMeNLrS
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天479Please respect copyright.PENANA6U3K0YSndf
現在不知該要怎麼做479Please respect copyright.PENANAPAPD3BndpY
失去你的我479Please respect copyright.PENANAxCL7Hja4u2
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就這樣抱抱我吧479Please respect copyright.PENANAAwqDqak3V5
請擁抱我吧479Please respect copyright.PENANAvsP8G7tRgn
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧479Please respect copyright.PENANAL8112BRthv
孤獨且不安的心479Please respect copyright.PENANANEWUDqoa60
正在如此等待著你479Please respect copyright.PENANAOtwg9tsd2W
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他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。479Please respect copyright.PENANAGl7bUI3UUB
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這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。479Please respect copyright.PENANAPcsfUk4ABc
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她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」479Please respect copyright.PENANAttCcbFTdCv
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可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——479Please respect copyright.PENANAQCdrXDxbGA
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秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。479Please respect copyright.PENANAoLuzzxKoVp
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在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」479Please respect copyright.PENANA4YftRwpyfe
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請留在我身邊479Please respect copyright.PENANA80WKs9UUVz
請停留在我的身邊479Please respect copyright.PENANASunwlyaIL1
請不要放開抓著你手的我
479Please respect copyright.PENANA5oOzw5uQRn
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可是,她只能離開。479Please respect copyright.PENANAr1x6Xlptre
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她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。479Please respect copyright.PENANAOwEm6Bl9rF
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秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。479Please respect copyright.PENANAomANYfj9Gz
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不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
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要是你走遠了一步479Please respect copyright.PENANAdV4xKwvByx
我向你走一步479Please respect copyright.PENANAy9IQ0lMR9b
不就行了嗎
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嗯——479Please respect copyright.PENANAVQd3lFOqP6
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俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
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我愛你——479Please respect copyright.PENANAAaJ0E3ISAy
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它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。479Please respect copyright.PENANA6DOoRAr2Zl
479Please respect copyright.PENANAKtxtpT452j
真的很愛你——
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謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。479Please respect copyright.PENANAAnhiwBw7Fv
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。479Please respect copyright.PENANAYoVPz6VCbb
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。479Please respect copyright.PENANAA0BryAvBzj
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。479Please respect copyright.PENANA9A1yulhyJp
秀亞479Please respect copyright.PENANAYzfHTYZQw0
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俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。479Please respect copyright.PENANA0GiU9ulXn3
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他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
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在漫長的沉默中479Please respect copyright.PENANA00MsKDNlfd
我會大聲呼喊479Please respect copyright.PENANAVb4KTbeEOI
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他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。479Please respect copyright.PENANAhQcQgx9qXq
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將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:479Please respect copyright.PENANAcCdsNHiZzH
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。479Please respect copyright.PENANAhs4VfNHXVk
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
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我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。479Please respect copyright.PENANAYAQUfbzcao
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。479Please respect copyright.PENANARaedGuYLAI
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。479Please respect copyright.PENANA6tTCaSDslk
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。479Please respect copyright.PENANApuWlpEPxfr
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)479Please respect copyright.PENANAXUtn9lq8Ro
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)479Please respect copyright.PENANAvyzzhRi9BU
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。479Please respect copyright.PENANALleMIAmL2E
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。479Please respect copyright.PENANAyFnHNyia1F
個人參考的是這個網址:479Please respect copyright.PENANAdFhupIRKKP
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/479Please respect copyright.PENANAyPpxc2jldr
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。479Please respect copyright.PENANAAp0SEQFvPC
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。479Please respect copyright.PENANAuyXSULXX2N
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)479Please respect copyright.PENANAE49qmaWAjX
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……479Please respect copyright.PENANA89L5uJwvDO
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。479Please respect copyright.PENANAnw8tRZS2p0
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。479Please respect copyright.PENANAVpmPF3sxSM〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。479Please respect copyright.PENANAPhGSz5cFLR
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。