——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。517Please respect copyright.PENANAnSmZfoRwNO
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自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?517Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5Ux4r1msy
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他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。517Please respect copyright.PENANAxqasnZKow1
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俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。517Please respect copyright.PENANAoVz4mE9UC4
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該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?517Please respect copyright.PENANAZuDU5W0WLz
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他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?517Please respect copyright.PENANAcj10Rpvibo
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最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。517Please respect copyright.PENANA5tfMcE7yeA
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我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——517Please respect copyright.PENANAt5SdWXwOZe
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那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?517Please respect copyright.PENANAjXYPKdLLCT
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「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」517Please respect copyright.PENANA67fVaVQzsL
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俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。517Please respect copyright.PENANArD9KmsVFRE
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這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」517Please respect copyright.PENANAuLGzxZuiSi
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對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?517Please respect copyright.PENANA1yl3Mqkttg
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他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。517Please respect copyright.PENANASsMVl1zKWf
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那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。517Please respect copyright.PENANACMcu6CxVol
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當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。517Please respect copyright.PENANArOCeeMTjLb
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眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。517Please respect copyright.PENANAEOFIBhYiKo
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「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。517Please respect copyright.PENANAWSvQ7ykkow
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「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」517Please respect copyright.PENANAo5L11tOetI
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「關係真好呢?」517Please respect copyright.PENANA7javjYoyZC
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他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」517Please respect copyright.PENANAZXRO9xiKnV
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不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。517Please respect copyright.PENANAhRi43guHmf
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那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。517Please respect copyright.PENANAV8Pxqg23KP
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『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』517Please respect copyright.PENANACUyWGAR2Un
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『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』517Please respect copyright.PENANAJXoJ1x3flI
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『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』517Please respect copyright.PENANAvnyPerADC8
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『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』517Please respect copyright.PENANAeqUSqV4w5W
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是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。517Please respect copyright.PENANAbcWXdcopcy
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回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。517Please respect copyright.PENANACTgRNsRm0i
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是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?517Please respect copyright.PENANAvJmzVSvGRb
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是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?517Please respect copyright.PENANAhH9tbHJyTH
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還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——517Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2i8MAqJGD
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俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。517Please respect copyright.PENANAUQgXR4ROD9
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「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」517Please respect copyright.PENANAhSGJpFauQr
517Please respect copyright.PENANAxxLQ92YQ3V
戰勝不了悲傷的夜517Please respect copyright.PENANAqmAAZkKCSO
又撐過睡不著的夜晚517Please respect copyright.PENANAfXQv2F2lyo
與我的絕望無關517Please respect copyright.PENANAQBXJxHjCqv
早晨又無心把我叫醒517Please respect copyright.PENANAuE7h6PVRYN
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「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」517Please respect copyright.PENANAM8iTJ8Pcio
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「謝謝你。」517Please respect copyright.PENANA6xJD2s9bkw
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俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。517Please respect copyright.PENANA6kaUDJTicm
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他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。517Please respect copyright.PENANACJ7IPXOm4T
517Please respect copyright.PENANA5Mu6lfsf5V
傷口比想像中的灼痛517Please respect copyright.PENANA7DNOdFoJNY
痛苦比想像中更深517Please respect copyright.PENANAzxyzvbB5Xs
無數個埋怨你的晚上517Please respect copyright.PENANAKRw67TfGu1
就像地獄517Please respect copyright.PENANASEJk1OzXzM
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「俊赫,你來了啊!」517Please respect copyright.PENANAPJykRFXEDF
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「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」517Please respect copyright.PENANAPzmVfEPF8s
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「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」517Please respect copyright.PENANAApUACM3uY0
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他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」517Please respect copyright.PENANAVgabg9Zihk
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「好。」
517Please respect copyright.PENANAO9ghrbJjBZ
請留在我身邊517Please respect copyright.PENANAgrN904sJaG
請停留在我的身邊517Please respect copyright.PENANArIQnqAjYsf
請不要放開抓著你手的我
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他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。517Please respect copyright.PENANA3omgii8gbY
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俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。517Please respect copyright.PENANAF8fIQddbDs
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「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。517Please respect copyright.PENANAi5CamPM195
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要是你走遠了一步517Please respect copyright.PENANAXWo5LSbQIi
我向你走一步517Please respect copyright.PENANAGNgKAQTWtL
那不就行了嗎517Please respect copyright.PENANAqualu0Zpdb
517Please respect copyright.PENANA4zLiWz5n5L
你是漂亮的人……517Please respect copyright.PENANAW6obrL4Fpf
你是漂亮的人517Please respect copyright.PENANAogGZh8qo4j
拜託不要對我這樣517Please respect copyright.PENANA58ceSFosTD
你很了解我不是嗎?517Please respect copyright.PENANA2LRdEs8Ciz
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「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」517Please respect copyright.PENANA7b927BAKnA
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「嗯,我是。」517Please respect copyright.PENANAHJTIHcrDB2
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「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」517Please respect copyright.PENANAyWzSgD6xtj
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他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。517Please respect copyright.PENANA6BReZPszkj
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他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。517Please respect copyright.PENANAhUsjVPNH3C
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上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞517Please respect copyright.PENANAwi8RmbV87U
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他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。517Please respect copyright.PENANAXmfdGYygQG
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我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。517Please respect copyright.PENANAmYkFMeWysB
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但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。517Please respect copyright.PENANA3gy4uah6Px
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這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?517Please respect copyright.PENANAfC0z7vVElu
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俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。517Please respect copyright.PENANAhXIBzDW5VS
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酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。517Please respect copyright.PENANAeYURvYQDyd
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我對自己沒有自信517Please respect copyright.PENANAhYo7JPs03Z
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天517Please respect copyright.PENANAuy0NTw5TqS
現在不知該要怎麼做517Please respect copyright.PENANAbUwgWiawOL
失去你的我517Please respect copyright.PENANAfAjJSqbvJ6
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就這樣抱抱我吧517Please respect copyright.PENANAU6Fr1WUVEh
請擁抱我吧517Please respect copyright.PENANA65vUirHwIY
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧517Please respect copyright.PENANAyKrLEBgo4M
孤獨且不安的心517Please respect copyright.PENANAvLp4yXFoEw
正在如此等待著你517Please respect copyright.PENANAvhNNrG3wuu
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他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。517Please respect copyright.PENANAlv1J02IEcF
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這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。517Please respect copyright.PENANAwY7CVwGPiq
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她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」517Please respect copyright.PENANAkdUSJpoZQt
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可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——517Please respect copyright.PENANAfGlqLhUUHe
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秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。517Please respect copyright.PENANA4XGxLoVedG
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在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」517Please respect copyright.PENANAmIz2kMuB8P
517Please respect copyright.PENANA2MEBlHIk56
請留在我身邊517Please respect copyright.PENANAkDsIuQHpgB
請停留在我的身邊517Please respect copyright.PENANArjJQSJyT8Q
請不要放開抓著你手的我
517Please respect copyright.PENANAbPSgsjjXJf
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可是,她只能離開。517Please respect copyright.PENANAPxXRSL5ivK
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她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。517Please respect copyright.PENANAtAWvxB3YOP
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秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。517Please respect copyright.PENANAq2PXuj3rJS
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不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
517Please respect copyright.PENANAGU4tx5bR2N
517Please respect copyright.PENANAUCF8xWqIyJ
要是你走遠了一步517Please respect copyright.PENANA7lu9o9plez
我向你走一步517Please respect copyright.PENANApYoBKUFy5N
不就行了嗎
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嗯——517Please respect copyright.PENANAZx9KqI31Mz
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俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
517Please respect copyright.PENANAiYDF9s0GpH
我愛你——517Please respect copyright.PENANARurkA0nb5J
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它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。517Please respect copyright.PENANAx7iKKVeS2F
517Please respect copyright.PENANATwTTqdztyX
真的很愛你——
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謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。517Please respect copyright.PENANARIoobz6u31
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。517Please respect copyright.PENANAFsDwlytBZf
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。517Please respect copyright.PENANA60GBkbx6Wk
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。517Please respect copyright.PENANAHlGXWiD4Ec
秀亞517Please respect copyright.PENANAxqk7piy3fT
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俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。517Please respect copyright.PENANAkAKi2CsSye
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他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
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在漫長的沉默中517Please respect copyright.PENANAKw3AHxbjTi
我會大聲呼喊517Please respect copyright.PENANAtL65GlLEao
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他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。517Please respect copyright.PENANAWp3ZsiOs5y
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將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:517Please respect copyright.PENANAqMPOwjJYgk
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。517Please respect copyright.PENANAqSohdQJ7wn
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
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我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。517Please respect copyright.PENANAmFxPrPnbzd
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。517Please respect copyright.PENANA8KuUTEL6HF
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。517Please respect copyright.PENANAtI0YAA6Yq1
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。517Please respect copyright.PENANA08xL74fv2t
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)517Please respect copyright.PENANAk01UNsDCBt
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)517Please respect copyright.PENANAhd89ykOdRu
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。517Please respect copyright.PENANA6TS0WH7fv5
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。517Please respect copyright.PENANA8cyWtenWVi
個人參考的是這個網址:517Please respect copyright.PENANAaLjtag7n8G
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/517Please respect copyright.PENANA2wBAJSL9yK
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。517Please respect copyright.PENANAWAw845b38M
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。517Please respect copyright.PENANAfl4o5qYl1m
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)517Please respect copyright.PENANAv2tP2z8yA5
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……517Please respect copyright.PENANAP5YaumliNg
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。517Please respect copyright.PENANANn1wnhKoGR
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。517Please respect copyright.PENANA6RqtDoc8DC〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。517Please respect copyright.PENANAbxD5f4Qrh8
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。