——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。564Please respect copyright.PENANApgLt2GUzO4
564Please respect copyright.PENANAOhMQ3jvIUk
自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?564Please respect copyright.PENANAQIXnrJgtfw
564Please respect copyright.PENANAbNuUxbiY7S
他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。564Please respect copyright.PENANA1q5ZTjps22
564Please respect copyright.PENANALgFVFLh3qj
俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。564Please respect copyright.PENANA0bV1jIG4ys
564Please respect copyright.PENANAEq0wlnEbKw
該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?564Please respect copyright.PENANAkFVoFF4Sgy
564Please respect copyright.PENANAdMt6EqNXzC
他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?564Please respect copyright.PENANALXEgtLNe8r
564Please respect copyright.PENANAGYroSX13vy
最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。564Please respect copyright.PENANAFBq6fCxswp
564Please respect copyright.PENANAFjS8B1naoX
我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——564Please respect copyright.PENANAA8yf07kwdT
564Please respect copyright.PENANAqgApO2YAts
那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?564Please respect copyright.PENANAlavyOsQQuU
564Please respect copyright.PENANAuUjCgcTHsV
「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」564Please respect copyright.PENANAVpHNRMfe9b
564Please respect copyright.PENANAJOenS2Hzjf
俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。564Please respect copyright.PENANAxtnDGs0bh7
564Please respect copyright.PENANAzjmj4Agopi
這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」564Please respect copyright.PENANArwQjYbxRHG
564Please respect copyright.PENANAqqzeaPUCV8
對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?564Please respect copyright.PENANACfI3SzpZ8f
564Please respect copyright.PENANAB28RMZu1x0
他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。564Please respect copyright.PENANABFLfsFzbNH
564Please respect copyright.PENANAGS4ZFqQbst
那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。564Please respect copyright.PENANAGUa30O2WqT
564Please respect copyright.PENANAJqhqNWFlHH
當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。564Please respect copyright.PENANA0NJvnfDxRN
564Please respect copyright.PENANAbmO0xXZiUy
眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。564Please respect copyright.PENANAD3Tklt8LUR
564Please respect copyright.PENANASx9jxsYbee
「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。564Please respect copyright.PENANApYN6p9kKcI
564Please respect copyright.PENANAzK0Tf1fZ1G
「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」564Please respect copyright.PENANACiVam3cdnW
564Please respect copyright.PENANA9OVCHMU5Yx
「關係真好呢?」564Please respect copyright.PENANAYqmFLqw7E0
564Please respect copyright.PENANAs5OGQaians
他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」564Please respect copyright.PENANArcHnlO0z6O
564Please respect copyright.PENANAouvTcbVNZL
不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。564Please respect copyright.PENANAmRwfLwvZsi
564Please respect copyright.PENANAoOFyc8fmfB
那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。564Please respect copyright.PENANAjlvtVwDqMX
564Please respect copyright.PENANALpPRSagxvj
564Please respect copyright.PENANAhmmiaRZQj1
『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』564Please respect copyright.PENANAQg3hXSxNq5
564Please respect copyright.PENANAxfC0vkR7Iy
『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』564Please respect copyright.PENANApDdvyub5fX
564Please respect copyright.PENANAIU0cr9Sgy3
『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』564Please respect copyright.PENANAVIEvsYtx5K
564Please respect copyright.PENANASVDMxgh5Xm
『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』564Please respect copyright.PENANACMFkjrWRS8
564Please respect copyright.PENANAqyJ6IcuqMX
564Please respect copyright.PENANA7pws5EwX1A
是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。564Please respect copyright.PENANAVW85yBz1ql
564Please respect copyright.PENANARApqPULekm
回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。564Please respect copyright.PENANAehUSjHcypK
564Please respect copyright.PENANAPgmLSRjnEL
是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?564Please respect copyright.PENANAI4liNc4VJe
564Please respect copyright.PENANAJNP7eeZFX3
是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?564Please respect copyright.PENANAxoFgkgDClu
564Please respect copyright.PENANAR8PdgyuqYh
還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——564Please respect copyright.PENANAqZtmJlDm9u
564Please respect copyright.PENANA4kBSEJkoJS
俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。564Please respect copyright.PENANAoAhAhdkkJr
564Please respect copyright.PENANAkqBLvJxyg8
「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」564Please respect copyright.PENANAKZuhcAPZq4
564Please respect copyright.PENANAhvbUFUDzTj
戰勝不了悲傷的夜564Please respect copyright.PENANA6qaxKz8osC
又撐過睡不著的夜晚564Please respect copyright.PENANAVpUu4e7xMO
與我的絕望無關564Please respect copyright.PENANA5RoK66sbpq
早晨又無心把我叫醒564Please respect copyright.PENANAbQFQvI7Ge1
564Please respect copyright.PENANAZSqZNaxXpv
「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」564Please respect copyright.PENANA4qS2E1uiph
564Please respect copyright.PENANAgTnZWkoKE0
「謝謝你。」564Please respect copyright.PENANAiQWWsUcfBC
564Please respect copyright.PENANAEXcTqnxANB
俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。564Please respect copyright.PENANAin9Y6w8vfc
564Please respect copyright.PENANA0BeXbRd18k
他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。564Please respect copyright.PENANAGgDBeB2ZHF
564Please respect copyright.PENANA9SRx5tCJeK
傷口比想像中的灼痛564Please respect copyright.PENANA4fE2iTQLHz
痛苦比想像中更深564Please respect copyright.PENANASJjtyVao9d
無數個埋怨你的晚上564Please respect copyright.PENANA2daEYmf6Eb
就像地獄564Please respect copyright.PENANAsnOMYQZzLn
564Please respect copyright.PENANAFlBllxHT01
「俊赫,你來了啊!」564Please respect copyright.PENANARZQdZ6FFFe
564Please respect copyright.PENANAAfQHd94NP4
「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」564Please respect copyright.PENANAd27BUHyNFo
564Please respect copyright.PENANAXAhOX54FWt
「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」564Please respect copyright.PENANAXDD9CTLMns
564Please respect copyright.PENANA4ER8SUWiKQ
他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」564Please respect copyright.PENANACHM59BHIiY
564Please respect copyright.PENANAz4W9E6d1KG
「好。」
564Please respect copyright.PENANA09BWiwBYjK
請留在我身邊564Please respect copyright.PENANAJbJyocrqrq
請停留在我的身邊564Please respect copyright.PENANAovNaqgoGON
請不要放開抓著你手的我
564Please respect copyright.PENANAXDb0SWeyPh
他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。564Please respect copyright.PENANA7t0CesKmcT
564Please respect copyright.PENANAkOnWZc5375
俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。564Please respect copyright.PENANAV3CP014sjB
564Please respect copyright.PENANAMckqM63Lu7
「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。564Please respect copyright.PENANAcpSfHsPBDv
564Please respect copyright.PENANA8uriRmuHCa
要是你走遠了一步564Please respect copyright.PENANAzoeBR8NZy3
我向你走一步564Please respect copyright.PENANACijaP34Xmp
那不就行了嗎564Please respect copyright.PENANAMCty8MNA6z
564Please respect copyright.PENANASLL5b2HNw2
你是漂亮的人……564Please respect copyright.PENANAuZeVFvuLXt
你是漂亮的人564Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZLD9qNCUd
拜託不要對我這樣564Please respect copyright.PENANAov6XOZFFo3
你很了解我不是嗎?564Please respect copyright.PENANAS2SjfuH3a0
564Please respect copyright.PENANAe1xDhYgmOF
「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」564Please respect copyright.PENANAXJKLCSVzdH
564Please respect copyright.PENANAXSZOIQhOhW
「嗯,我是。」564Please respect copyright.PENANAVneTemcHBt
564Please respect copyright.PENANAUzZ7Y32izv
「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」564Please respect copyright.PENANAei0PCby9cL
564Please respect copyright.PENANAggsIjpsjK1
他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。564Please respect copyright.PENANA9I7NCD397t
564Please respect copyright.PENANA3FZ8FpJ6gW
他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。564Please respect copyright.PENANA7wvNCOBhXu
564Please respect copyright.PENANA1wBTWdBdV5
上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞564Please respect copyright.PENANAutiOjdJ7IG
564Please respect copyright.PENANAytQBAHwXLi
他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。564Please respect copyright.PENANAFkkvbjnx8c
564Please respect copyright.PENANAz6VkVITBxZ
我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。564Please respect copyright.PENANAGD1FcZLc0Y
564Please respect copyright.PENANAzrlhKdiL4p
但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。564Please respect copyright.PENANApd7jP3OREl
564Please respect copyright.PENANAYRjkuz6RQC
這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?564Please respect copyright.PENANAxu02OBsFDU
564Please respect copyright.PENANA0vg4ayvUX5
俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。564Please respect copyright.PENANAxEIG2w7ZXw
564Please respect copyright.PENANAQp3mQn8wgY
酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。564Please respect copyright.PENANAP4ZlV1P9Ex
564Please respect copyright.PENANAjQFHtML8Yq
我對自己沒有自信564Please respect copyright.PENANAnG7ESYqBTZ
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天564Please respect copyright.PENANAn5N33BKh2Z
現在不知該要怎麼做564Please respect copyright.PENANAM4nCC3vylx
失去你的我564Please respect copyright.PENANAgoLKYs3aqf
564Please respect copyright.PENANA7coaD7d1hf
就這樣抱抱我吧564Please respect copyright.PENANASlXZVEz20p
請擁抱我吧564Please respect copyright.PENANAT9VUAsxedL
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧564Please respect copyright.PENANAMdsH2BSBUM
孤獨且不安的心564Please respect copyright.PENANAPKh3xPavYs
正在如此等待著你564Please respect copyright.PENANA4DPfnVpQco
564Please respect copyright.PENANARX976atF7l
他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。564Please respect copyright.PENANA2vI3lfIQZP
564Please respect copyright.PENANAKM2uGGFJpw
這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。564Please respect copyright.PENANA3x99ztVZh1
564Please respect copyright.PENANASSwIdrhlq7
她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」564Please respect copyright.PENANAZrvexsfwYe
564Please respect copyright.PENANARJ5OUOB1vw
可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——564Please respect copyright.PENANAq5LrA8kuUO
564Please respect copyright.PENANAexEp2fWM3v
秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。564Please respect copyright.PENANAvzvynlRZNq
564Please respect copyright.PENANAkebtC8BQyP
在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」564Please respect copyright.PENANAUz0gvhhK5b
564Please respect copyright.PENANAwn415d0u92
請留在我身邊564Please respect copyright.PENANAqBeoxVqahQ
請停留在我的身邊564Please respect copyright.PENANAD3E2heXeSI
請不要放開抓著你手的我
564Please respect copyright.PENANADJJTETkdTA
564Please respect copyright.PENANAssUhEWQwvF
可是,她只能離開。564Please respect copyright.PENANAnUAFgLLhEF
564Please respect copyright.PENANAb6BWWuvzNx
她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。564Please respect copyright.PENANAaFwp90fY6p
564Please respect copyright.PENANA1E67Dl34mW
秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。564Please respect copyright.PENANAjUpBqHAKye
564Please respect copyright.PENANANR0Rq4Coyq
不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
564Please respect copyright.PENANA8cVPAEQXI8
564Please respect copyright.PENANAXh23l5IWum
要是你走遠了一步564Please respect copyright.PENANA9TDKH7f9TR
我向你走一步564Please respect copyright.PENANAWZhy0ZzBnk
不就行了嗎
564Please respect copyright.PENANAwdRm9BDeQ9
嗯——564Please respect copyright.PENANAv57xRlZFIb
564Please respect copyright.PENANAHT11t6oz9j
俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
564Please respect copyright.PENANAOGV8TST9sC
我愛你——564Please respect copyright.PENANAWLkyfEDqTt
564Please respect copyright.PENANAKA53MDQ5AE
它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。564Please respect copyright.PENANAx2a9qOllGM
564Please respect copyright.PENANALN2WIJlmzz
真的很愛你——
564Please respect copyright.PENANAVrLMnGLxZc
謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。564Please respect copyright.PENANAPjhoEmRYDD
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。564Please respect copyright.PENANA3diY077KK6
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。564Please respect copyright.PENANAaONtUstqbP
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。564Please respect copyright.PENANAMYzbcfuI4W
秀亞564Please respect copyright.PENANACT8S11YOwp
564Please respect copyright.PENANAoGeJsusqsi
俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。564Please respect copyright.PENANA7jdugpGBai
564Please respect copyright.PENANAhOLwveWvUa
他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
564Please respect copyright.PENANAZUNbRgUqYI
564Please respect copyright.PENANAazAO7Zj7Jl
在漫長的沉默中564Please respect copyright.PENANA27dxVPRVVt
我會大聲呼喊564Please respect copyright.PENANAVaSRqa7tMu
564Please respect copyright.PENANAKYGFfgNRn7
564Please respect copyright.PENANAP4IqF8xw3B
他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。564Please respect copyright.PENANAgZrMHbdgRP
564Please respect copyright.PENANAokDhg1MzWM
564Please respect copyright.PENANAfVdXneSETj
將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:564Please respect copyright.PENANAIdRDaHQo4d
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。564Please respect copyright.PENANAhQyD7ERxC0
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
564Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1nsdpuZZH
我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。564Please respect copyright.PENANAqTiZlvEpFw
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。564Please respect copyright.PENANAbN8IpGfi7s
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。564Please respect copyright.PENANA9thxPwdtUX
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。564Please respect copyright.PENANAV9UxhM8tOV
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)564Please respect copyright.PENANA3Wpt5qAGZc
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)564Please respect copyright.PENANAs1c42N9eKn
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。564Please respect copyright.PENANAoqeCqhvi95
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。564Please respect copyright.PENANAf5kppWOH0w
個人參考的是這個網址:564Please respect copyright.PENANAbBV4y7jpEr
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/564Please respect copyright.PENANAg5ZuUAUfvs
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。564Please respect copyright.PENANAGfbnP1rA0e
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。564Please respect copyright.PENANAKaYxz8WuzU
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)564Please respect copyright.PENANA4s3EpX30OS
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……564Please respect copyright.PENANAQMEpEP0xfW
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。564Please respect copyright.PENANATrdn7gywOx
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。564Please respect copyright.PENANA9yO3uDo0ew〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。564Please respect copyright.PENANAnsAOvchX2J
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。