烏雲密布的天空遮蔽了清晨的微光,陰沉沉地壓在頭頂上。403Please respect copyright.PENANAPqOV2AjIco
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不曾停歇的濛濛細雨朦朧了我的視野,踏在雨水漫流的石板路上,淅瀝雨聲將我急促的腳步聲洗得更加響亮,雨水的冷意浸蝕了孤身一人的我。403Please respect copyright.PENANAR6DJWXOZOa
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抵達了停放蓮舟的水岸渡口,揹著輕便包袱的我,手裡緊抓著一紙徵兵令,上頭寫著清漣的名字。403Please respect copyright.PENANAoVT9nxrNEm
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三天前,官府果真前來連方鎮發派徵兵令,已入籍冊的清漣領受了這紙令狀,而從未入籍的我,則避過了將無數人送往戰場烽火的徵兵令。403Please respect copyright.PENANAI8UvbxvwW5
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但我心中另有打算,在眾人陷入熟睡的深夜,我趁四下無人之際偷偷潛入青門客棧。403Please respect copyright.PENANA7QTdNI9GqY
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如我所料,清漣的徵兵令就放在客棧櫃台的暗格。403Please respect copyright.PENANApzbHjfbnAy
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以前清波姨會把重要財物放在這個暗格裡,清漣也依循了清波姨的習慣,只有從以前就在他們身旁的我,才知曉這個秘密。403Please respect copyright.PENANA8dr0RgtcF7
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我完全沒有碰放在暗格裡的錢財及權狀,只拿走了徵兵令,並在裡頭放了一封書信。403Please respect copyright.PENANAGOCjD1BFKk
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我悄悄地走出客棧,趁夜回家收拾包袱,在尚未有人清醒的破曉時分,就此離開這座養育我多年的水鄉小鎮。403Please respect copyright.PENANAsEZuwaYifz
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我已下定決心,要冒名頂替清漣從軍,讓清漣能繼續留在連方鎮。403Please respect copyright.PENANAZlKntVSbWE
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我與清漣年紀相仿,體格健壯,官府不會發現我並非清漣本人,畢竟他們要的只是能在沙場赴死的士兵罷了,我們真正的姓名相貌,根本無關緊要。403Please respect copyright.PENANAtGlDdRsmom
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就算在點兵場上有其他連方鎮的人,他們知曉我和清漣的深厚情誼,也應該不會當場揭穿我。403Please respect copyright.PENANAq0OG6rJZoj
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然而我這樣做,並非是為了清漣,而是為了我自己。403Please respect copyright.PENANADjj9WFxQJC
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糾纏我多年的情根魔障,加上清漣對我的誤解,已經將我逼至絕境,我不知今後該如何面對清漣,既然此情無計可消除,那麼就捨去我這條命吧。403Please respect copyright.PENANAI02j4kV7c2
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反正我原本就一無所有,是清漣在我孤苦的生命中注入了一道活泉,所以拿我這條命還給他,也是應當的。403Please respect copyright.PENANAbA3BK6FLvT
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而我也能及早脫離這煩擾苦多的塵世,以免因這份心中的孽障而走火入魔。403Please respect copyright.PENANAh6upGkFWCo
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最後一次,那曾在冷雨中感受的暖意,以及那雙清澈的眼眸,無聲無息地浮現在心底。403Please respect copyright.PENANAz4Oy6MSsUa
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此生,已是無緣再相見了吧。403Please respect copyright.PENANAdaAm4mqHSJ
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陰鬱的天氣還未有雨過天霽的跡象,在綿綿細雨掀起無數漣漪的水面上,我渡著蓮舟前往我應去的地方,讓朦朧雨幕隱去了我的身影……403Please respect copyright.PENANAJO8tqo4qZ0
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「清漣小哥啊!清漣!」身後傳來渾厚有力的吆喝,將我從遙遠的往昔,喚回霜雪紛飛的現實。403Please respect copyright.PENANAzm68KwpYzI
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「還呆愣在那裏幹嘛?看我和老張拿了什麼好東西過來,是酒,是酒啊!快過來一起喝啊!」403Please respect copyright.PENANAb70BsAx64H
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此時我的軍中同袍,趙豐和張瑜一同蹲在臨時搭建的營帳中,趙豐拿著一袋酒囊對著我晃了晃,已逾不惑之年的他蓄著濃鬍,寬厚的臉龐紅撲撲的,朝我露出得意的豪爽笑容,笑得眉眼都擠在一起。403Please respect copyright.PENANAqLdOEEFdNE
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而坐在他身旁的張瑜面頰枯黃,削瘦的他駝著背,雖然他的年紀才三十來歲,看起來卻像五十幾歲的老者。403Please respect copyright.PENANAPjTHaqOqIn
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張瑜一言不發灌飲酒,即使他的表情像被風雪凍住了般冷然,眼睛卻散發炯炯精光。403Please respect copyright.PENANAEM6WgQvfgU
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「我還在站崗呢!」403Please respect copyright.PENANAphSqymZIQe
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我站在外頭的主帳旁,扯開被寒冷掐得發緊的喉嚨,對他們兩人大聲喊道。403Please respect copyright.PENANAuNv86MD0Wa
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不斷飄落的皚皚寒雪,將我身披的鎧甲鋪上一層霜白,也將我身處的天地埋進茫茫無盡的雪白裡。403Please respect copyright.PENANAMGmg9Ll4Po
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「有啥關係,反正這時候將軍都不會過來,偷閒喝點酒又不會怎樣,清漣小哥,快來啊!」403Please respect copyright.PENANA7hHRPY6IQZ
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趙豐的盛情讓我不好意思再度拒絕,我抬起凍得僵直的雙腿,緩慢地踩踏厚厚一層的碎瓊亂玉,在盈白雪地拖行出一道足跡,同時身上的厚重鎧甲,和空氣中的寒意摩擦出細微而清亮的聲響。403Please respect copyright.PENANAijBufIoF6s
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「哈哈,這才對嘛!酒就是要越多人一起喝才好啊。」403Please respect copyright.PENANA2DO9sp2anU
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見我走進營帳,趙豐笑得咧開了嘴角,趕緊遞了一個酒囊給我,默默飲酒的張瑜也將目光放到我身上,唇角牽起淺淺的笑意。403Please respect copyright.PENANAO3creDw8VG
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接過酒囊後,我仰頭就把酒一股腦地灌進喉裡,辛辣的灼熱隨著酒液湧入五臟六腑,化去了體內蓄積的寒氣。403Please respect copyright.PENANAib2TpqhEsY
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軍中的粗薄劣酒,滋味雖說不上芳郁甘醇,卻辛烈有勁,對我們這種雪中行軍的士兵來說是祛寒提神的好東西。403Please respect copyright.PENANACHMNNqqWjc
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趙豐和張瑜和我同樣出身自江南地區,趙豐來自明德縣,而張瑜是齊揚鎮人,而我則謊稱我來自瑀南鎮,從未向他們倆提起連方鎮,也沒說出我真正的名字。403Please respect copyright.PENANAsDsSJjak7W
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我從軍至今已有五年,被發派到專門輸送糧草武器的運輸部伍,和同樣是江南地區出身的趙豐和張瑜自然而然地混在一起,漸漸生出惺惺相惜的同袍情誼。403Please respect copyright.PENANAVQWDIu0jZ4
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如今北方華興地區戰事仍頻,我們這支部伍便被奉派支援前線物資,但越過祁連山時卻是風雪淒厲,大大拖慢了我們的行軍速度,只能勉強駐紮在原地,等待風雪變小再加緊腳步前進。403Please respect copyright.PENANA5oKm56msw9
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「你們知道嗎,聽說不久前陳臨駝將軍率領的軍隊大敗,就是因為陳臨駝見情勢不對,丟下兵士們臨陣脫逃,導致軍心大亂啊。」403Please respect copyright.PENANASkdjfroDlW
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趙豐雙頰泛紅,喝多的他趁著酒意正興,開始滔滔不絕起來,平時他就最愛四處打聽這些小道消息。403Please respect copyright.PENANA1UL5FHaYLW
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「陳臨駝那老傢伙本就沒什麼用處,會變成這樣也不意外,如今黃朝沒有可作為棟樑的將才了。」張瑜鏗鏘有力的聲音挾帶齊揚縣略為尖細的獨特口音,寡言的他一旦開口就是一針見血的犀利。403Please respect copyright.PENANAK60hDUJGYC
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「可不是嗎,在陳臨駝那傢伙麾下,怎麼死的都不知道。」403Please respect copyright.PENANApzIAa25E8f
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趙豐嘆了口氣,接著說道:「聽說那軍隊裡還有幾名士兵,和我們一樣從江南地區來的,好像是什麼連方鎮的人吧,堅持不想殺人還當了逃兵,事情鬧得可大了,結果最後被陳臨駝給抓了回來,還是上了戰場死了,他們也真傻啊。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAJNXVrkHhLd
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「你說的是真的嗎?」403Please respect copyright.PENANAupy0F8zjGm
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我不禁驚呼道,使得趙豐和張瑜向我投來疑惑的目光。403Please respect copyright.PENANAyHMkg8v0d4
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「清漣小哥,怎麼這麼激動啊,難不成連方鎮有你的親朋好友之類的?」403Please respect copyright.PENANAVHxuKuzJy5
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面對趙豐的疑問,我低下頭細細沉思,現在跟他們坦白,應該並無大礙了吧。「其實我並非瑀南鎮人,我是從連方鎮來的。」403Please respect copyright.PENANA7TRNQYFljd
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「什麼?所以你之前是騙我們的啊?」403Please respect copyright.PENANA4qsMdLw8zb
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趙豐一臉驚訝的大聲說道,張瑜則依然面不改色。403Please respect copyright.PENANAxLP5QXWAMR
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「抱歉,因為過去在那發生了些事,所以沒誠實以告……」403Please respect copyright.PENANANcUmhJnA4Z
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「沒關係,人總有些難言之隱嘛,現在你肯向我們坦白,就是真的把我們當兄弟了。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAFH88LWJH7z
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「只是你也不要太過傷心了啊,畢竟在這亂世,你我都無可奈何……」403Please respect copyright.PENANAJAKG4jmDA3
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趙豐撫著鬍鬚點點頭,同時柔聲安慰了我幾句。403Please respect copyright.PENANAhST0rcJShu
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「逝者已矣,徒做傷感也無用。」張瑜則用炯亮的雙眼直視著我,冷淡話語裡又有幾分寬慰之意。403Please respect copyright.PENANAuQbp22ELFh
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「謝謝你們的諒解,我明白的。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAiNDlSdNiYA
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他們倆的溫情勸慰令我心頭一暖,卻難以平復胸中澎湃的心緒,連方鎮裡只有我一人被發派到這支部伍,我完全不知其他人的下落,如今聽聞他們的死訊,心中自是感慨萬千。403Please respect copyright.PENANAeewCFFa41O
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連方鎮的大家本就性情純善,平時便茹素維生,又因崇信法華教,不忍殺生造業,當然不可能在沙場奮勇殺敵。403Please respect copyright.PENANAgBDHyx8cWi
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但如今世道艱辛,他們只會被當成傻子,甚至是戰場上的棄子,我不禁為此感到悲痛。403Please respect copyright.PENANAGO1g60j3sb
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在沙場赴死的人,應該是一無所有的我才對,我心頭浮現了這般想法。403Please respect copyright.PENANADd6YapT3Ca
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「對了,清漣小哥,你家鄉有誰在等著你嗎?」剛飲了幾口酒的趙豐面頰更紅了,他一手指著我,酒興大發地問道。403Please respect copyright.PENANAIgeDAgVjlb
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驀然間,心底有一道漣漪悄悄擴散,其中浮現了清漣的臉龐。403Please respect copyright.PENANAYgxBdNLxIe
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苦悶的軍旅生涯沒有磨去我對清漣的相思,他的一顰一笑,明燦如水的眼眸,在我心裡依舊鮮明清晰。403Please respect copyright.PENANAx5p8y35qD9
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終究是無法消去的魔障啊。403Please respect copyright.PENANAl4DZvYEBy5
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「我也不知道,那個人會不會等著我……」403Please respect copyright.PENANA6zJtpnvQFZ
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方才幾口黃湯下肚,湧起的醺醉感還沒消退,腦袋還有些昏沉,我只想將鬱積於胸口的愁苦酸楚一吐為快。403Please respect copyright.PENANA68BkijkgcC
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「老實說,我就是偷拿了他的徵兵令,代替他前來從軍的。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAMyzoxV7jPW
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話才剛落,趙豐和張瑜不約而同地瞪大雙眼,臉上盡是驚愕。403Please respect copyright.PENANAyK9ogBSdEE
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「你,你真的?你知不知道你這樣做……」趙豐驚訝地喊出聲來,張瑜趕緊摀住了他的嘴巴,並朝營帳外望了望,沒有看見其他人經過的蹤跡。403Please respect copyright.PENANA1Fja1gbVEO
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「你說的是真的嗎?這麼說你不是清漣本人?」張瑜壓低聲音向我提問,神情格外凝重。403Please respect copyright.PENANAEDTzzLV8Zu
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他們兩人的反應,才讓我意識到自己酒後失言,但已經覆水難收。403Please respect copyright.PENANACiu5htou3l
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「是,請你們千萬不要向他人提及此事。」403Please respect copyright.PENANACIMOgsrN02
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我低下頭懇求他們,我不擔心自己會受軍法審判處死,但要是因此連累到清漣的話,那我真不知該如何是好。403Please respect copyright.PENANAc8kaX9N4bM
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「當然,都一起苦過這麼多日子了,我絕對不會說出去害了你。」趙豐撥開張瑜掩住自己口鼻的手,連忙點頭說道。403Please respect copyright.PENANARb5bSHUPUB
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「我也不會說,但希望你能告知此事緣由。」張瑜也答應我的請求,他們倆的承諾,我自然是信得過。403Please respect copyright.PENANACa2kIg8UY8
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「多謝,那我就說出來吧,其實我不是清漣,我的本名是漪洀。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAVlek8qjyy1
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五年了,我才說出被我埋葬已久的真名,清漣給我取的名字,心中隱然生出一絲懷愁。403Please respect copyright.PENANAzzGaH2HraY
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「我和清漣同住在連方鎮,我們是從小一起長大的朋友,情如兄弟……」403Please respect copyright.PENANALDVCZVCdP3
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在這朔雪漫天的苦寒之地,我的心神卻回到了那風和水暖的江南小鎮,我曾經無比熟悉的一切,對如今的我來說,卻已是遙遠而不可及的夢幻泡影。403Please respect copyright.PENANAnivhMOFJyY
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「後來清漣成了親,有了家室,卻在妻子待產之際收到了徵兵令,而他捨不得即將臨盆的妻子。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAY3wsGjHVPr
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「於是沒有家累的我就替他來了,為了不讓他來到戰場,能繼續待在連方鎮裡……」403Please respect copyright.PENANAo9HkQZ8UIn
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然而從軍之後我才明白,我替清漣來到這烽火連天的戰亂之地,最根本的原因不是為了逃避清漣,也不是為了涓兒。403Please respect copyright.PENANAZoZRR7mSlf
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而是為了不讓清漣來到充滿殺戮血氣的殘忍戰場,不忍心他受苦受難甚至丟了性命,清漣在我心中是那麼純淨無瑕,我不想讓塵世的苦難汙染了他。403Please respect copyright.PENANAwIT8XKdu4k
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對清漣的情根深重,使我內心蒙上一層更深沉的陰影,我此生註定無法逃離這般驚世駭俗的奇情孽障。403Please respect copyright.PENANAJsYjKwwFlt
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「漪洀,沒想到你是如此重情重義的人啊,對朋友竟能做到如此地步。」趙豐發出感慨之語,我回他道:「是啊,因為清漣是我最好的兄弟……」403Please respect copyright.PENANAoC7mo85SYk
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「很好!我欣賞你,那今日我們以酒立誓,漪洀代友從軍一事,若有人洩漏半句,立刻遭天打雷劈,不得超生。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAHmgnSs3wUo
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趙豐豪氣干雲地執起酒囊,對張瑜問道:「老張,你也願意起誓吧?」403Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3c1ltpItI
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「當然,漪洀,你要活著回去,見你的兄弟。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAs21mrUwZ38
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張瑜同樣拿起酒囊,信誓旦旦地對我說道。403Please respect copyright.PENANA6ziwbkcuuL
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「好,一言為定。」403Please respect copyright.PENANACzGYP0Lx2A
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趙豐和張瑜的情義相挺令我大為動容,我當下與他們共飲烈酒,以此為誓。403Please respect copyright.PENANAMd531nCT7O
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強烈有勁的辛辣感一口氣衝上腦門,讓我大呼痛快,但再濃烈的酒,也無法讓我忘卻清漣;再怎麼志同道合的同袍摯友,也無法讓我傾訴這份對清漣的深摯情意。403Please respect copyright.PENANARzG8P63Ayr
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任憑外頭風雪淒寒,也無法澆熄的這股情熱。403Please respect copyright.PENANApJ2yyr9mnC
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終其一生,我都無法對任何人訴說。403Please respect copyright.PENANAdQwlccdnqB