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No Plagiarism!5jhbtESH9WzPUZ5IqfXhposted on PENANA 我習慣在虛擬的世界尋求活下去的動力,而不是現實,因為就是現實生活讓我心灰意冷,才想離開的。8964 copyright protection232PENANAxErXa3SvW8 維尼
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我不善交際,討厭那些聽不懂的暗示,討厭那些勾心鬥角的複雜,形象...真的那麼重要嗎?8964 copyright protection232PENANAaaluuv0Dfe 維尼
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從小就是內向怕生的性子,可因為媽媽說我開朗、外向,便硬生生逼著自己和別人交流,但我真的不喜歡這樣。8964 copyright protection232PENANAM88kS3y0FZ 維尼
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努力將自己從書中脫離,和同學交流,不斷嘗試、不斷失敗,永遠學不會怎麼做不會惹同學生氣。8964 copyright protection232PENANAcaBKi2WDVQ 維尼
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笨拙的試圖溝通,卻仍是眼神空洞的將目光落向遠方。8964 copyright protection232PENANAkm4sXDVCV6 維尼
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終於,小學畢業了,我也花了六年學會社交、學會說話技巧、學會......偽裝自己。8964 copyright protection232PENANANnxt7QeN43 維尼
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我自願接下了股長一職,只為了將自己擺在班級中心,不再那麼邊緣,可情況沒變。8964 copyright protection232PENANAcGcVegB7j7 維尼
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我仍然不知道如何找話題、不知道如何接近別人、不知道怎麼表達好感。8964 copyright protection232PENANACX59L88qNi 維尼
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終是任由自己在人群中載浮載沉。8964 copyright protection232PENANA8Ur8vxXLHC 維尼
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與此同時,憂鬱症越來越嚴重,從一週一次,成了一天三次起跳,我又回到從前那個安靜不語的「資優生」。8964 copyright protection232PENANARLUsTPpbNm 維尼
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...不,我回不去了,長久的偽裝和自己給自己戴上的面具,即時難過到幾近崩潰,也仍要強迫自己笑著,笑著面對一切。8964 copyright protection232PENANAujK7RWxTrV 維尼
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我尋不到世間的溫暖,被無數惡意掩埋。8964 copyright protection232PENANALpOC4VncRS 維尼
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是啊,我怎麼會以為自己很受歡迎呢?8964 copyright protection232PENANA4Ut4qA0VeN 維尼
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幼兒園因為太過安靜懂事,被孤立、欺負。8964 copyright protection232PENANAwsTXrHNX9v 維尼
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上課總在走神、看書的我,成績卻總能維持在班上前幾名,國小被忽視、霸凌了六年。8964 copyright protection232PENANA8ACP27AvuM 維尼
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上了國中,總是笑對同學和師長,穩坐班上第一,卻活的渾渾噩噩,沒法專注,被同學在背後罵婊子,也無力反抗。8964 copyright protection232PENANAqkmE6Bi4KW 維尼
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打開手機,和網友聊得開心,現實中,任由母親罵的狗血淋頭,卻只是覺得厭煩了,不想反抗、也不想反駁。8964 copyright protection232PENANA1Ry64EGMcg 維尼
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煩了,真的煩了,我拿了幾次第一回來,得到的也只有一百元,這不是我想要的。8964 copyright protection232PENANAZ49RelUnX9 維尼
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沒人教過我如何溝通,才用看書來逃避,仍是得到了一句驕傲自大。8964 copyright protection232PENANA44E4oUZPSr 維尼
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沒人教過我如何喊疼,便決定忽視痛苦,可被當作不會疼一般踐踏。8964 copyright protection232PENANA6FJLVyiL5h 維尼
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沒人教過我如何哭鬧,始終笑著忍受著,只被當天生樂觀不會受傷。8964 copyright protection232PENANA2IrzEUAYsV 維尼
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沒人教過我如何尋求安慰,默默忍耐著,最終,患上了重度憂鬱症。8964 copyright protection232PENANAp3SrHYHqT9 維尼
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沒有人知道,微笑不過是塊面具,是偽裝我一切無助、難受和陰暗的遮羞布。8964 copyright protection232PENANABPL8RHwE2Z 維尼
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笑容,很簡單,只需牽起嘴角,只要幅度夠大,旁人就不會多加懷疑。8964 copyright protection232PENANAHdaGMioEhH 維尼
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笑,卻很困難,無論怎麼掩飾,藏在眼神裡的落寞騙不了人。8964 copyright protection232PENANA9Z3DU90T11 維尼
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誰說笑著便是開心,誰說愛唱歌的孩子不會得憂鬱症,又是誰說...我是最不可能得憂鬱症的?8964 copyright protection232PENANA4JXkj6kIwL 維尼
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給我些稱讚,一句也好。8964 copyright protection232PENANAdaMWh5hk2h 維尼
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給我些安慰,一句也好。8964 copyright protection232PENANABI5Orxio8A 維尼
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給我些溫柔,哪怕一句也好。8964 copyright protection232PENANAj4CHH0I2Fj 維尼
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我是不可能正常了,崩壞的心早已隨風飄散,再也找不回來了。8964 copyright protection232PENANAAYLFdEv1p7 維尼
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也許家人從來沒變過,變的是我,只有我,開始隨身攜帶美工刀和創可貼,無動於衷的看著血珠從手腕冒出,等著止血,再熟練的用手錶遮住傷,裝作無事發生。8964 copyright protection232PENANAuuu011M7Ha 維尼
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活著如此痛苦,我也不想那麼痛苦的離開,可,由不得我了。8964 copyright protection232PENANAVbxT8GpLq3 維尼
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能不能給我點爽快,用力點,一把將我推進深淵吧,被吊在懸崖邊太無力,想自己割斷繩子不再受煎熬,又深怕就此錯過被救下的機會。8964 copyright protection232PENANADztcyiGKSG 維尼
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我不在乎了,不想在乎了,誰來都好,踐踏我、辱罵我、毀了我、殺了我...或撕開我的面具吧。8964 copyright protection232PENANAhCytSy25U5 維尼
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誰來都好......拜託了!236Please respect copyright.PENANAoecCXhAKcA
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第一次在Penana發文,不甚習慣,有什麼問題再和我說吧(汗8964 copyright protection232PENANAMl984SekMD 維尼
這篇是想描寫出無助的氛圍,最後仍是努力撐著,沒讓周圍人發現異樣,但內心深處卻無比渴望有人能做點什麼,發現異樣也好,推下深淵也好,至少能讓她好好的崩潰一次,而不是不斷自殘,卻也不敢再做什麼。8964 copyright protection232PENANAXWHvhihKVi 維尼
不過我的文筆寫不寫得出來是另一回事了(笑8964 copyright protection232PENANAxdL7lSCRQL 維尼
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